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[toul3t]

I have entered my realization I am a villain arc and it somewhat feels rewarding.

[toul3t]

I’m so tired of being everyone’s support system. And then not really feeling supported back…and then feeling bad for defending myself.

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Weight loss is a real struggle for me. It’s a struggle for a lot of people. I just haven’t met someone who struggles with weight loss the same way I do.

I want to change the way I eat, I want to eat healthier foods and foods that can help with weight loss. My problem is my food allergies. Can’t have nuts, “raw” eggs, soy, and celery for some reason,????, and even more than that. If i ingest these things my body WILL react…I struggle with even thinking about what to eat because I can’t eat half the meals that are involved in weight loss. I can’t have it.. sure I could substitute but it’s hard to do that too, BECAUSE HALF THE SUBSTITUTIONS ARE ALSO ALLERGENS FOR ME.

I fucking hate this, I have yet to meet someone who struggled with weight loss because they can’t eat.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

[toul3t]

You’re trying to quit your habits…I’m here for you through it…but when I ask for a little bit of love…why can’t you give it?

[toul3t]

Man I deserve to disappear

[toul3t]

THIS IS A VENT BLOG

I do not condone or support SH in any way shape or form, this is my outlet. I don’t recommend you follow me if the following subjects trigger you:

Self harm

Self destruction

Eating disorders

R*pe mentioning

Probably more I can’t think right now.

[toul3t]

I hat3 3v3ryon3 right now. I hat3 my partn3r, I hat3 my room mat3, I’ll 3v3n go as far to say I hat3 my fucking cat. FUCK 3V3RYON3!

[toul3t]

You were a fucking monster. You literally abused me you r***ed me YOU DRUGGED ME AND YOU R***ED ME.

[toul3t]

happy new year bitches here’s to less dark days…or more..depends on who u r

[toul3t]

Vent posting when I’m depressed 💦

[toul3t]

Wish I wasn’t a fucking p*ssy,

Just shove my fingers down my throat already.

[toul3t]

I wanna throw up every time I eat smthg

🤮🤮🤮

[toul3t]

Can there ever be a fuckin day where i don’t wanna gut myself?

[toul3t]

The only thing I wanted to give myself was comfort… can’t even do that without a razor blade

[toul3t]

now do I cut before or after my shower?

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Gonna punch thru my walls

[toul3t]

Hey you.

You fucking disgust me.

Have a shit day.