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i moved again dw i h8 myself too @tragaire

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i moved again dw i h8 myself too @tragaire

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xoxo gossip girl

@tragaire  I DECIDED TO SNOOP YOUR BLOG CAUSE I HAVNE”T SEEN YOU IN AGES AND I FUCKING SAW A READMORE THING AND I CLICKED IT AND IM HURTING OVER EVERYTHING IN IT. EXCUSE U. CALEM CAN LOVE SERENA. FROM A DISTANCE. A LONG DISTANCE. I’M NOT CRYING. YOU’RE CRYING.

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MY SIM HAD 8 FUCKING KIDS SO IM TAKING A BREAK FROM THAT BULLSH I T

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i wanna remake AGAIN and talk about SHIPS so i may actually remake but if ur interested in shipping hit me up

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BABYS BREATH :: PILOT , tiny one .

INSPO CREDIT .

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me , every time i fucking log on to check things out : gets fucked up by misha

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hey guys!! i’m having a rough time at work so i really need to make some more money – but i’m not here to beg without doing some work in return, right? so that’s why i’m opening up commissions!! what i’ll mainly be focusing on are the contained posts codes, though i know how to make normal themes as well!

** please note that if you want me to create a background for you, i need you to provide proof of the artist’s permission, proof that you commissioned it yourself, or use art that you’ve made yourself. you can also commission me if you’d like!

(the art for my banner is by harriet on twitter & i commissioned her for it!)

you can view examples of my codes here & here, though a few are a little outdated!

i will be accepting payment through paypal only!

please spread this around if you can’t commission me right now! i’m really looking to leave my job so i can start pursuing what i’m really passionate about, and this is a very good place to start! i really appreciate it guys!

.○ * ☾。 options & prices.

theme. ( dependent )

minimalist theme: $15

$5 for anything extra such as music, pop up boxes, sidebar, etc.

$10 for a bundle of pop ups, ask, navigation, rules, etc.

theme + background.

$20, plus whatever you add on as extras.

icons.

$2 for every 10 icons, you can provide a psd and just let me do the work if you want!

writing / editing.

i can proofread & help you edit your work, anything that you need checked (even homework essays!!), for .50 cents every 100 words.

i can write a drabble for you, any subject, for $1 for every 100 words.

art.

$10 for a black / white sketch

$15 for full color 

$20 for including a background (but please no super complicated ones!)

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        the CHOSEN ONE & the LADYKILLER . !  ★

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ANYWAY ADD ME ON DISCORD FOR MORE ‘ FIZZY GETS SUPER FUCKING EMOTIONAL TIME ‘

pythiadris#0953

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warning : long n rambling n lots of death talk as per usual

@friendshauna

okay but first ... lets talk about the parallels between serena elizabeth carlisle and first treasury secretary alexander hamilton : they were both immigrants , coming from a rough household and forcing their way into the world , having to scream and shout to prove themselves to a world that was trying to push them out of it . ‘ alex, you gotta fend for yourself ’ serena has always done that as well , not just fending for herself , but for her little sibling as well . serena came from the bottom , and when she got her shot , took it and ran with it !! like serena was a wonder - kid , she had brains , beauty , strength !!! she had a good heart !

but there are also strong differences in that serena is incredibly soft - spoken , but when it matters , she won’t back down with her beliefs . SERENA WOULD NEVER CHEAT ON ELIZABETH SCHUYLER GET FUCKED A DOT HAM

shauna’s got a ton of similarities with eliza ; loving serena not because she was creating a fantastic life for herself , not because she was going to be famous , not because serena was the future champion in the making no doubt about it ! if it was for that , shauna would’ve easily fallen for calem first . but shauna’s affections are for the protag aka serena in this case !! serena , at her core , is a very scared , but determined , friendly , yet brutal woman . shauna basically took serena under her wing when serena didn’t know anything .

shauna loves serena for who she is at her core . not what the world created , not what serena created . 

the bad thing about that is that shauna would probably follow serena anywhere ????? when serena is also fundamentally very gray - morally . this can also be good though because shauna can remind serena of who she is ... the fact that serena actively chooses to be a good person and shauna is a good reminder of the reason why she does it , even when things get hard ...

shauna also understands who serena is ! she understands serena is justice driven , believes that the ends justify the means , etc , and can forgive serena for her mistakes . shauna knows serena is self - sacrificing as FUCK . serena proves it by dying for her and calem . and you can’t tell me shauna doesn’t know . that shauna didn’t immediately put two and two together but had no option other than to go .

literally all shauna wants is to be a part of serena’s life , no matter where that leads them . shauna’s love for serena is the purest love in her entire love imo !!

whereas calem’s love for serena is very ego driven , in a way , but getting serena to fall in love with him , it’s a win . calem’s is also very superficial ; serena is unattainable . she’s an angel , a goddess . she stole EVERYTHING from him ; not on purpose , but regardless . she also is someone calem can’t beat . and he when she leaves , calem is both upset , and thrilled . but he didn’t beat her .

the reason that calem is the one who ‘ lives ’ , is because in the end , he still isn’t the one who gets the glory , the fame .... even when he becomes champion , kalos still loves serena . serena is their heroine . he will always inevitably be seen as serena’s ‘ replacement ’ . calem gets to grow old , but he doesn’t preserve serena’s story -- he tries to forget . he later , begins to think the worst of serena and it’s only after he fully understands her that he’ll understand that the world was ‘ wide enough ’ for himself and serena . 

calem will ONLY understand and appreciate serena when she’s long gone , he will never be able to love her properly . 

shauna does . shauna is the one who would protect serena’s legacy . she’s the one who would give serena’s things to museums , tell her children about serena’s light , even when serena is long gone and no longer visits shauna anymore , shauna still remembers ; she tells her grandchildren . shauna is the one who lives the longest , the one who carries on what serena started ; making the world a better place .

‘ i ask myself what would you do if you had more time ? the lord in his kindness , he gives me what you always wanted , he gives me more time . ‘

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT SERENA WANTS FOR HER . serena dreams of shauna growing old and being happy and loving life and having a bunch of kids and just ... god !! serena almost could’ve had that !! i bet the last time serena sees shauna before she dies she fucking tells her this too , tells her to live , tells her all this .

and shauna only ever wanted to bring serena peace . in a moment of panic , when serena was dying , when serena was recovering ; it was shauna who brought calm . shauna , who was the eye of the hurricane of her mental breakdown . 

serena just wants to die at the time of her death . serena is suicidal and has always wanted to die in such a fashion . it’s the perfect way for her to go . but you know who she thinks of ? shauna . she realizes her time is completely up , sees her friends and family when she dies , but when she thinks of shauna , she doesn’t want that . there’s a split second where she thinks , no !

‘ and when my time is up , have i done enough ? will they tell our story ? i can’t wait to see you again ... it’s only a matter of time ... ‘

shauna knows damn well she will see serena again , no matter how much time passes between it . 

shauna tells serena’s story . and serena is at shauna’s side when she dies . 

like i can imagine shauna dying with all her friends and her family around her , but they start to clear out , and eventually , there’s one person left .

and it’s serena . 

still looking the same way she did the day she died herself , and serena can help shauna and just !!! this is where i’m geTTING EMOTIONAL SERENA BEING THERE WHEN SHAUNA DIES AND HELPING HER STAY CALM AND TELLING HER ALL THE GOOD THINGS SHE DID FOR HER .........

‘ when i needed her most , she was right on time . ‘

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im offended i started the dash talking abt hamilton and not one person spoke 2 me

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im having sere/shauna feels

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YOU HAVE NO CONTROL ......

‘ who lives ‘ CALEM

‘ who dies ‘ SERENA

‘ who tells your story ‘ SHAUNA

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╰ ❀.`  unknown .

                  ray could feel himself slowly succumb to his other half. he hated fighting to stay in control of his body and he hated how alone he was. mint eye was crumbling and now that he was the only one left and all he needed to do were follow his savior’s final orders. ray didn’t hesitate for a second. once his goodbye’s were said, his thumb pressed down, and everything hurt for a single second before everything around him disappeared and he could feel himself fall unconscious.

                  as time passed and he could feel himself falling in and out of consciousness, ray only assumed it was whatever process happened during death. but.. there was a girl carrying him? was she the person that others would call death? where could she be taking him? surely it was somewhere peaceful where he wouldn’t feel pain any longer, considering how beautiful she looked. maybe he’ll finally be genuinely happy. as soon as his fatigued eyes caught a glimpse of her, he knew she was surely his new savior. little did he know, ray was still alive and covered in third degree burns and his right arm had been completely blown from his body. he could easily be dead within some time, but as of now he was merely asleep.

                 he wasn’t sure how much longer he’d been blacked out for, but eventually he felt himself slowly blinking his eyes. he felt dizzy and it became difficult to breathe. tired eyes remained fixated on the girl above him. ray wanted to speak, but it was like he had forgotten how. it was only until that the pain of his missing limb began to send the signals to his brain that he’s in pain, causing him to scream and roll to his side while holding onto the injury with his other hand, following coughing up blood. the thought of his entire arm being gone hadn’t registered in his head as he wasn’t sure what was going on, where he was, or who that girl is. whoever she may be, he hoped she would help him. she was supposed to be his savior, wasn’t she?

of course , he was in pain .  it was agonizing , hearing him cry out , and knowing that there was very little she could do for him -- he had no i.d. , nothing ... there was no shred of proof of his existence , so her makeshift hospital in the woods would have to do . as an instinct , one hand reaches out to catch the blood the befalls him , the other running through his hair , attempting to soothe him . she could feel his pain like it was her own , and hearing him cry was like a dagger in her chest .

                                 ❛   shh ... it’s okay ... /  ❜

she coos , as gently as possible . after wiping the blood from her hand , she leans over to bring water and pain relief medicine to him .

              ❛   here ... it’s not the most powerful medicine , but it’ll do for now . everything you need is to your right , but getting used to ... um , this , is going to be difficult , so i’m here to help you with absolutely anything you need .   ❜

slowly , serena slides down on the floor , pulling the man closer to her . while she could recall her textbooks saying that this wasn’t the right bedside manner -- who else was going to take care of him ? he surely needed her .

               ❛   it’s okay , i’m helping you . i bandaged you up ... i won’t hurt you , alright ?   ❜

her imagination is still running wild . wondering what had happened back there , with the explosion . it was a cross that was too close to her heart ; and while she had died during her own excursion , it seems as though he was the one who’d ended up with the worse injuries ...

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