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“And you’re really sure about this?” Obi-Wan asked for what felt like the hundredth time. Cody inhaled, then exhaled deeply.

“I am. But I’m starting to think you are not. And that’s okay.” Cody was getting exasperated.

“I’m just afraid that you feel obliged.” Obi-Wan stood, unable to look Cody in the eyes. He spoke quietly, as if knowing that his words were ridiculous. But Cody couldn’t hear any more of it. Hadn’t they settled this already?

“Alright,” he breathed, aware that his tone was harsh. “If you’re so worried that you can just order me around, try it. I’m going to play the mindless puppet you seem to think I am.” Cody eased into his best posture, standing at attention with his gaze straight past Obi-Wan.

“Awaiting your orders, Sir!” he barked. Obi-Wan’s face hardened, and Cody was sure he could sense something that wasn’t quite anger yet.

“Oh, stop this,” Obi-Wan said, audibly restraining himself. Cody huffed.

“No,” he simply said, but allowed himself to look at Obi-Wan. That frown on his face was usually reserved for Anakin. “You want to play, let’s play.” Obi-Wan shook his head but stepped in.

“Fine, soldier,” Obi-Wan whispered, a sharpness to it. “Stand fast.” Cody did as he was told, suppressing a grin.

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“There are probably some people we should tell eventually, to make our own lives easier,” Obi-Wan suggested one late evening over files on files of mission reports they were assigned to read through. Cody looked up in surprise, his brows furrowing.

“You want people to know?” Of course Cody knew he was right; it would make their secret easier to keep if they had people on their side to help keep it. But he´d expected that he would have to be the one to bring it up one day.

“Only those closest to us.” Obi-Wan huffed. “Well, certainly not anyone on the Council. But I have thought about telling Anakin. I’m not sure if you’ve noticed, but he and Senator Amidala…” He threw Cody an expectant look, a small smile tugging on the corner of his mouth. “He hasn’t told me about it, but entrusting him with us, I would hope he manages to open up to me, too. To take the burden off of him. And you could tell Rex, if you wanted to.” Cody hummed.

“I can’t say that I’m surprised about them,” he chuckled. No one paid attention to the presence of Clones, so used to the faceless soldiers on every corner. He doubted he was the only one to have noticed something between them, though most wouldn’t be able to place it. “It would be nice to not have to pretend around a few people. I don’t think Rex would even be surprised. He knew I was interested in you before I knew.” Cody chuckled. “Who else would you want to tell?” Obi-Wan thought for a moment.

“One of my oldest friends, Dex. He owns a diner in CoCo Town.” Cody’s confusion must have been palpable, because without looking at him, Obi-Wan continued. “I know that doesn’t sound like the most reputable person, but I would trust him with my life. I think having him know about us could be really helpful in the long run. Even if we just had to get off-world without anyone else knowing.” In case we are found out Cody added in thought. “We don’t have to do this immediately, either. It’s just a though for the future.”

Cody smiled. “That’s a good idea.”

They went back to work for a while, quietly sitting opposite each other. Though Cody couldn’t focus, feeling Obi-Wan glance at him from time to time. He’d tried to suppress a grin, pretend to not notice, but when the tug on the corner of his lips finally took over, he gave up.

“What?” he asked through his growing smile, catching Obi-Wan’s eyes as he was watching him once again.

“Nothing,” Obi-Wan replied, not taking his eyes off him. “I just like looking at you.”

Chapter 6 is now posted!

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*quietly* what the hell

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With his mouth just slightly ajar, Obi-Wan was staring into the distance, his eyes moving to follow the lights of distant traffic, much like Cody had done seconds before. He must have noticed Cody watching him, his eyes darting towards him before looking back out, but not focused anymore. Obi-Wan sighed, letting his head fall onto Cody’s shoulder.

“What’s on your mind?” Cody asked, quietly. Obi-Wan closed his eyes, smiling.

“Coruscant rarely seems so serene,” he whispered. “It almost feels homely like this. With you.”

Cody smiled, resting his cheek against Obi-Wan’s head. “Is it not usually ‘home’?” he asked. He felt more than heard Obi-Wan chuckle.

“The temple is home. But Coruscant… I suppose it’s home too, in a way. But it’s neither comfortable nor… I’m not sure how to say it, but it’s home and not home.” Cody’s brows furrowed, trying to follow. And he understood, he thought. He realized he felt much the same, both about Kamino and Coruscant.

“Do you know your home world?” he asked carefully. Obi-Wan hesitated for a moment.

“I know where I’m from, but I’ve never been there. Well, not after I joined the Order. I’m not actually sure I would want to.” There was something sad in his voice.

“But aren’t you curious? To know your family, to know the community, the people you came from?” Cody couldn’t imagine what it would be like to wonder about that all his life.

“To be quite honest? I’m afraid it would make me miss something I never had.”

Chapter 5 is posted!

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Six thousand (and four hundred forty-three) Sunrises: a playlist

those are all from the chapter titles. Some of those don't fit them in their entirety, and there were just single lines and lyrics I picked out because they fit. And for others the entire song fit them perfectly. Which is which, that's for you to figure out

Mitski - I want you

The The - This is the Day

Madonna - Like a prayer

Of Monsters and Men - King and Lionheart

Taylor Swift - The Great war 

dodie - sorry

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

Kansas - Dust in the wind

Mika - Stardust

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It’s been a week since Obi-Wan had said goodbye to Cody and left Coruscant. Three days ago, he and Anakin arrived on Tareon, along with another three pairs of two, each pair getting assigned to another village. It had turned out to be a peacekeeping mission, and in a way, Obi-Wan was relieved. It almost felt like the old times, before the war, before they were made soldiers. Just him and Anakin; Master and Padawan. Doing what the Jedi were supposed to do. At times he almost forgot that this wasn’t their reality anymore. Compared to what they were dealing with nowadays, this should’ve been easy. Especially for him, the Jedi’s supposedly best negotiator. He was good at resolving conflicts. But somehow, the past few days have left him exhausted. Unsatisfied with the results of his efforts, frustrated even.

Obi-Wan let himself fall into bed, too tired to even remove his garbs. He groaned, a primal noise expressing everything he felt, setting it free. How much longer would this go on? How much longer would he have to feel like he was talking against a wall? If only Cody was here. He wasn’t as good of a negotiator as Obi-Wan, but paired with his strategic thinking, Obi-Wan was sure they could have reunited the entire goddamn planet by now.

Plus, he would feel less lonely right now.

The admission surprised him. Did he really feel lonely? Obi-Wan was good at solitude, he liked it even. The peacefulness of it. But now he realized that he did feel lonely a lot. And he liked Cody’s company, more than that of most other people. Talking to him felt so easy, so natural. He never had to hold anything back, never had to be afraid of what Cody might think. It was refreshing, talking to Cody. And over the past couple of months, listening to him talk has come to be more successful at clearing his mind than any form of meditation. It didn’t matter whether it was the rare personal story or a serious discussion of plans. Listening to Cody soothed something deep inside him and melted his worries. And if one of those rare smiles, or an even rarer laugh passed his lips, even more so. 

Obi-Wan stilled when his thoughts got stuck on Cody’s lips. About the way they might feel under his fingertip. Under his own lips. He shook his head in disbelief. He knew what he felt for Cody was strong, knew where to place the emotions that had become linked to Cody. But feeling them was one thing; accepting them as what they were, leaning into them and allowing them, was another, much scarier thing.

Chapter 4 is now posted!

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what is one to do after finishing a project that took three years

(except that i'll be posting it over the next like. 10 weeks because it's so long)

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“Am I even allowed to be here?” Cody asked. The war room, other parts that were now used for military purposes, sure. But the depths of the temple, the Jedi’s home?

“You are here on my invite,” Obi-Wan chuckled. “Besides, you’re always welcome in the temple. You all are.”

When they finally reached the door to Obi-Wan’s quarters and quick fingers flew over the datapad by the door, it opened with a quiet hiss. Cody waited until Obi-Wan had fully stepped into the room before he carefully leaned forward, taking a look around what he could see of the room. He was waiting for Obi-Wan’s OK to step in, but instead was pulled inside by his arm. Now seeing the full extent of the quarters, his eyes grew wide.

“This is nice,” he said. The room was bigger than any single person’s room he’d ever seen, with a big window spanning almost an entire wall. Which Obi-Wan now walked towards, shutting the blinds partly.

“Well, I suppose it is more room than I really need,” Obi-Wan said, something in his tone of voice almost apologetic. But it was probably true. There wasn’t much in the room. A simple table to work and to eat at. Two cushions in the middle of the room, likely for meditation. A wardrobe. Cody couldn’t help but to wonder how many identical robes it housed, and the thought almost made him chuckle. The other side of the room held a small counter, though the only thing on it was a kettle and a handful of mismatched mugs. A narrow bed was standing against the wall, surrounded by wooden boards that served as shelves, overfilled with… Stuff. Most of it seemed so random. He looked at it all for a moment, unable to decide what to really look at first, fascinated.

“What is all this?” he finally asked. Obi-Wan smiled, passing Cody to take a little wooden cube off one shelf.

“Little trinkets from places, planets I’ve visited. Some I didn’t visit. A lot of them used to belong to my Master.” His small smile remained the same, but his eyes betrayed him. “This particular one was a gift from a little girl I met on a mission. Her name was Da’laa,” he said before placing the cube back in its place, already moving on to the next.

Chapter 3 is now posted!

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Life was bustling below and above the large window, the city’s lights like fireworks, and Cody felt like they were in the middle of it all. Part of it. Glancing at Obi-Wan, Cody wondered if he felt the same.

With his mouth just slightly ajar, Obi-Wan was staring into the distance, his eyes moving to follow the lights of distant traffic, much like Cody had done seconds before. He must have noticed Cody watching him, his eyes darting towards him before looking back out, but not focused anymore. Obi-Wan sighed, letting his head fall onto Cody’s shoulder.

“What’s on your mind?” Cody asked, quietly. Obi-Wan closed his eyes, smiling.

“Coruscant rarely seems so serene,” he whispered. “It almost feels homely like this. With you.”

Cody smiled, resting his cheek against Obi-Wan’s head. “Is it not usually ‘home’?” he asked. He felt more than heard Obi-Wan chuckle.

“The temple is home. But Coruscant… I suppose it’s home too, in a way. But it’s neither comfortable nor… I’m not sure how to say it, but it’s home and not home.” Cody’s brows furrowed, trying to follow. And he understood, he thought. He realized he felt much the same, both about Kamino and Coruscant.

“Do you know your home world?” he asked carefully. Obi-Wan hesitated for a moment.

“I know where I’m from, but I’ve never been there. Well, not after I joined the Order. I’m not actually sure I would want to.” There was something sad in his voice.

“But aren’t you curious? To know your family, to know the community, the people you came from?” Cody couldn’t imagine what it would be like to wonder about that all his life.

“To be quite honest? I’m afraid it would make me miss something I never had.” Obi-Wan chuckled, moving his temple against Cody’s shoulder. “That it could make me resent the Order for taking me. Or my birth family, even. I’m certain they wouldn’t have given me away if they hadn’t known that my place was here, but I wouldn’t want an answer to the question why, either.” Obi-Wan seemed to drift off in thought for a moment, his eyes becoming distant before he snapped back. He smiled. “Anyway. The temple is my home, and the Order is my family. It’s all I’ve ever known.”

Cody wasn’t convinced.

“And now I’ve got you, too,” he continued, glancing up at him. “This awful war has one good thing, and it’s that it gave me this.” He interlaced their fingers between them.

“You know… for me, my brothers and the community of us was all I ever had growing up, too. It’s the only family any of us knew. Without a home that feels like home, the people become home. So I understand the importance of community. But I know where I came from. I don’t think I could accept not knowing.” Obi-Wan hummed in acknowledgement, starting to watch the happenings in the world outside their window again.

A little snippet of chapter 5 of On Begged and Borrowed Time. Read it here :) new chapters on wednesdays and saturdays

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The first two chapters of On Begged and Borrowed time, the pre- Order 66 part of my story, are now posted!

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The first two chapters of On Begged and Borrowed time, the pre- Order 66 part of my story, are now posted!

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The people have spoken and I will obey! First two chapters will be posted later tonight :)

sooo two options for you.

1. I start posting the pre order 66 part of my story in the coming days (still wednesdays and saturdays) even thought it's not COMPLETELY finished (the first 20 chapters are complete so there's more than enough time to work on it while I already post it)

OR

2. I wait until it's completely 100% finished but I don't know how long it takes because there will be no pressure

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Here's what we got so far! (scribbled out my short descriptions I use to keep track because spoilers!)

sooo two options for you.

1. I start posting the pre order 66 part of my story in the coming days (still wednesdays and saturdays) even thought it's not COMPLETELY finished (the first 20 chapters are complete so there's more than enough time to work on it while I already post it)

OR

2. I wait until it's completely 100% finished but I don't know how long it takes because there will be no pressure

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sooo two options for you.

1. I start posting the pre order 66 part of my story in the coming days (still wednesdays and saturdays) even thought it's not COMPLETELY finished (the first 20 chapters are complete so there's more than enough time to work on it while I already post it)

OR

2. I wait until it's completely 100% finished but I don't know how long it takes because there will be no pressure

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One day, late in the year they sat, watching the sunrise like they’d done so often. Though this was the first time in a while. Cody had gotten too tired, too exhausted, and though he was still trying to push himself to it, Obi-Wan found himself having to stop him more and more often, knowing Cody needed the rest.

But this morning, Cody’s frail body was leaning into his, his hair tickling his skin. Obi-Wan buried his face in it, breathing in deeply, inhaling his scent. His arm was wrapped around his shoulder, pulling Cody in close, the other holding the thick blanket that was wrapped around them. He was glad he listened to Cody; This must have been the most beautiful sunrise he’d seen in years. The suns painted the clouds an incredible color, one lighting them from above, and one from below, illuminating them whole, making them look like they were fires raging in the sky. They were glowing so bright, they seemed to tint the very air.

It was Cody who broke the silence. “This is gorgeous,” he whispered, his voice tired. “I’m glad we get to see it.”

Obi-Wan was watching him, not diverting his eyes to look at the sky. “Yes, it is,” he whispered back, pressing a kiss onto his temple.

Cody smiled, his eyes closing. He hummed gently, leaning into Obi-Wan’s touch, pressing close. “I love you,” he said, more firmly.

Obi-Wan smiled against his skin, “And I love you.” He suppressed a sob, swallowing it back down as it fought its way up his throat. “I love you so much.”

Cody hummed again, content. They sat in silence for a while, unmoving, basking in each other’s warmth.

The full thing is now posted :)

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One day, late in the year they sat, watching the sunrise like they’d done so often. Though this was the first time in a while. Cody had gotten too tired, too exhausted, and though he was still trying to push himself to it, Obi-Wan found himself having to stop him more and more often, knowing Cody needed the rest.

But this morning, Cody’s frail body was leaning into his, his hair tickling his skin. Obi-Wan buried his face in it, breathing in deeply, inhaling his scent. His arm was wrapped around his shoulder, pulling Cody in close, the other holding the thick blanket that was wrapped around them. He was glad he listened to Cody; This must have been the most beautiful sunrise he’d seen in years. The suns painted the clouds an incredible color, one lighting them from above, and one from below, illuminating them whole, making them look like they were fires raging in the sky. They were glowing so bright, they seemed to tint the very air.

It was Cody who broke the silence. “This is gorgeous,” he whispered, his voice tired. “I’m glad we get to see it.”

Obi-Wan was watching him, not diverting his eyes to look at the sky. “Yes, it is,” he whispered back, pressing a kiss onto his temple.

Cody smiled, his eyes closing. He hummed gently, leaning into Obi-Wan’s touch, pressing close. “I love you,” he said, more firmly.

Obi-Wan smiled against his skin, “And I love you.” He suppressed a sob, swallowing it back down as it fought its way up his throat. “I love you so much.”

Cody hummed again, content. They sat in silence for a while, unmoving, basking in each other’s warmth.

The full thing is now posted :)

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The last chapter and epilogue are now posted!

I apologize in advance 😀