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Got labs back. Sadly I produce over twice the amount of testone I reasonably should even though I'm such a tiny fragile femme thing. Honestly worried I'ma be getting an orchiectomy for my own good soon.

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Yesterday at therapy I took a PTSD screening test. When I was finished my therapist said "Wow! That was a lot of yes answers" .

I think I won therapy

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I might have gotten a job yesterday. The interview went really well. I might be getting an allowance from a corporate daddy. All I gotta do is dress up like a boy for a few hours while helping men make their life size hot wheels go zoom zoom better.

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I may have shared this on other accounts but heck it's trans girl tummy Tuesday and it deserves a post

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I feel like the prettiest boy sometimes

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When I'm by myself i think about my traumatic background story often. Maybe I'm batman?

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Sometimes I wish I knew how to adult.

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My Valentine song

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Sometimes I really just want to become non verbal. I hate how bad I often feel after speaking my mind. It reminds me of the thing my parents used to tell me growing up, " you're better seen, not heard ".

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I hate how now that I'm finding stability, I am also faced with the fact of just how much I'm masking all the time.

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Just figured out what Abro is! I love it

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Why did getting a phone call when I didn't expect it , distress me Soo much. I feel like such a bundle of nerves now.

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My dream is to never feel burnt out

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I shapeshifted. Mainly because I could. Here's my about me because I can .

I'm a genderqueer mut of a breed that no one wanted so I left to do my own things. I found a home where I feel safe, now I want to heal.

I'm very much the black sheep of whichever pack of abusers raised me. Which is probably for the best

My interest include dominant woman in every shape and form, humiliating situations, cute art, massive amounts of food, eating air, and being whiny and depressed about my traumatic past while also trying my hardest to stay hopeful about the future.