tryingtofindhome

[tryingtofindhome]

im sorry god.

i want to,

i really want to understand

your wisdom,

i do.

i feel like (i can’t)

maybe i can

find the answers.

sometimes i wish i could,

but i’ve made my peace

(have i not).

everything sounds strange.

please dont fill my heart with

hate.

i want to be filled with

love and kindness

and honesty.

i dont wish to disappoint

should i not

be happy?

im sorry,

please. dont paint me as

a hypocrite.

give my life a purpose

i dont wish to be

some puzzle piece in the

background of a jigsaw.

make me humble,

please dont make me

a lesson,

for the world.

i wish i had a connection with you

god.

but i dont wish

to be

oppressed,

and i dont wish

to

oppress.

i only wish to be

peaceful.

and liberated.

[tryingtofindhome]

im gonna cry and weep and suffer but i chose that

[tryingtofindhome]

finding caterpillars like this every few years 🫴🏻🫴🏻🌱