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kind of Michael and Lexxi… to be honest

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also I forgot to post this but look at my late Christmas present/early birthday present to myself!!!

i WILL be posting clear scans of it soon i promise my awkward bedsheet photoshoot is not the best youll see of this cd :DD!!! (Especially because there’s like zero high quality rips of it online)

posting the thanks section right now bc it’s soooo stinking cute that ralph brings his wife up in every single cd 🥹 i need what him n Jocelyn have 🫶

best $150 ive ever spent— im gonna try to get the metal shop variant eventually to really fill out the collection 😝 might also end up burning my own personal copy because im lowkey scared to play this one and risk scratching it 🎀🎀 also look how cute it is that they thank their side projects like the thornbirds & atomic punks 🥹🥹 i could ramble about this cd forever

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this entire album is soooo Lexxi Foxx to me like he IS a Midwest princess

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ultimate “no, it’s for the better” vs. “know it’s for the better.” doomed middle aged man yuri

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led me to the floor EVEN THOUGH you KNOW im not a dancer…. okay

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it's the time of year where I actually use tumblr who cheered

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TIS THE SEASON!!!!!! HAPPY SEXY SANTA SZN🥳🎉🎊🙌🎊🎉🎉🎊🎊🎄🎄🎄🎄

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what if I exploded him with my mind

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these are just scraped from the top of what I have on my phone... I know they were kissing on him sloppy style

and lil jon. because of course

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this one was sooo fire I was cooking so hard here

By The Time I Knew I Truly Loved You

Pairing: Steven Adler/Reader Word Count: 800~

Info: No Smut, Fluff, Happy Ending, Emotional, Mentioned Drug Use, Post-Stroke, /reader in a way that you can imagine just about anyone as the narrator its VERY vague

Summary: The month I knew I truly loved you was cold. It was 1996, sometime around October, but after the stroke, every day seemed to blend together. I begged with God, pleaded that you'd wake up and remember how to live; to function.

Authors Note: another old one from ao3 because i have a bunch of shit i never reposted!! this was the first gnr fic i posted so yay for that, hope it isnt TOO corny

The month I knew I truly loved you was cold. It was 1996, sometime around October, but after the stroke, every day seemed to blend together. I begged with God, pleaded that you'd wake up and remember how to live; to function. I prayed that you'd remember to speak overnight. Everything was so hard now. We- you, communicated grunts and grumbles of vague words to which I would sob over in the middle of the night. We slept in different beds. Other people were always in our home because you needed caretakers, and yet I convinced myself to hold on. 

The week I knew I truly loved you was hectic. You were frantic for God knows what reason, clawing at floorboards and yourself. I watched your mop of hair get more and more matted day by day as you adamantly opposed brushing it. You smelled of musk, a smell I once relished and showered myself in by wearing your clothes while you 'recovered' in the hospital. We had five different caretakers quit that week, so I had to resort to begging in the newspaper. Eventually, I found someone new, but what would have happened if I hadn't? One day, I realized you wanted your stash. You still had something, left forgotten in the floorboards, and you were determined to find it even though you had no memory of where it may be. We had to rip our home apart, piece by piece, to make sure you didn't find that stash- if it even existed, and yet, I convinced myself to hold on. 

The day I knew I truly loved you, we had let the sunlight waste as we spent the whole day 'fighting', if you could even call it that. It was like arguing with a stubborn child, even though I knew you didn't mean to be childish. We sat at the dinner table; you at one end with a stack of blank notecards and a pen, me at the other with only my voice and frustrations. You had taken to writing so much better than you had to speaking. So far, this was the only way we had somewhat fluent conversations since the stroke. It was horrible. I missed the silly way you poorly serenaded me with love songs. I missed the joking debates we held together, arguing on why one superhero was wholeheartedly superior or something along those lines. I missed when I didn't have to monitor everything on the TV because your therapist told me anything could set you off into another relapse.  I missed when it was just us in the house with no needed caretakers, and yet, I convinced myself to hold on. 

The night I knew I truly loved you, I stormed away and sulked in what used to be our bed. You had knocked on the door at two in the morning. I groggily opened it to ogle at your disheveled form. You stood there; pajama pants barely hanging onto your skinny hips, a broken hairbrush outstretched in your hands, hair tangled to your ears with another restless night, and a quivering lip paired with the glossiest eyes I had ever seen. My eyes had pricked with tears when I saw you, really saw how scared, lost, and small you were. I spoke not a word, simply let you crawl into our bed. I needed no more convincing, I chose to hold on and never let go for as long as I could. 

The moment I knew I truly loved you, I had just finished brushing out every knot and tangle from your mane as you sat between my legs. You turned toward me and stared for a couple of minutes before beginning to climb out of bed, but I stopped you. I needed you. You needed me. So, I simply held you. I held you for hours. Then, with as much force as you could muster you muttered three words that changed me. 

"I love you." 

The moment after I knew I truly loved you, I shrieked and sobbed so loud I swore the neighborhood shook. I tried to steady myself with the burst of pure joy that overwhelmed me, but I was over the moon. I wept and wept as I held your head to my chest and repeated how much I loved you, too. Those were the first words you spoke to me for months. Finally, you pulled away and I was met with your beautiful smile. It was so different, though. It was no longer a smile that showed for when you got your high, it was a show of love and gratitude. God, I was so lucky to have held on.

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send me requests or something idk I be writing anything man😭

Do you take requests dude?

yes!!! I've been really innactive lately bc life's been kicking my butt and I haven't had time + inspo but still send me an ask and I might get around to it! lowkey itll get mentally rush-ordered if it pertains to like.. steel panther/slash/ptv/ect ect just because those are some of my biggest interests rn :P always check my main blog @veilofmegiddo to see whatever im posting abt bc my interests cycle chronically!!!

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also let's talk about how many jackass/viva la bam guys have been on stage with steel panther its CRAAAZZYYY

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this made me so happy im actually gonna cry the world is healing

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am I allowed to reblog from my fic tumblr on here be honest guys... will u bully me

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the way there's no oklahoma date for the upcoming Christmas tour... SEDATE ME

they skipped out on us last year too☹️

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him and this damn vape😭!!!!

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idk how we feel about taylor swift but she was cooking idgaf I hope she re-records this one