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whoever keeps breaking into my DEAD brother’s house I hope you know you’re a horrible person for putting my family through this

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hang in there. here’s some good news.

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This is the money Marge. Reblog for good fortune

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if you haven’t spoken to your siblings or parents lately and they aren’t shitty / abusive people to you, go call them. call them while you still can. tell them you love them. hug them tight this Christmas.

I lost my oldest brother earlier this year and I am experiencing my first Christmas without him. I can’t hear his voice unless I listen to the very few old videos I have of him. I can’t see his face without looking at a picture. My mom isn’t the same. She wishes she was dead every day and it feels like I lost part of her to her grief. The worst part is there’s nothing I can do about it.

You don’t want to wait until something happens to tell your siblings you love them. You might not ever get that chance again. I didn’t. I’ve never regretted something more in my life.

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This is the money Marge. Reblog for good fortune

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they always say the grass is greener on the other side, but what if I think my grass is green enough?

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and I’ll keep coming back no matter how many times you spit garbage at my face because I love you no matter how much your words wound me.

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yall are pro mental illness until they hallucinate

yall are pro mental illness until they dissociate

yall are pro mental illness until they self-isolate

yall are pro mental illness until they're paranoid

yall are pro mental illness until they split

yall are pro mental illness until it's too Scary for your comparatively neurotypical brain to handle

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"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

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my big brother died in April

my cats died in may and june

my uncle died in july

I fear for what august brings.

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he thinks I’m being a baby when I tell him his screaming stresses me out. my therapist calls it a trauma response, the way my stomach twists and contorts as my hands start to shake and my mind reels with anticipatory fear. the way I throw out angry words to protect myself as I shut down.

I’m not a baby, I’m just traumatized.

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scream. throw things. it won’t make things better. You’re just making me more afraid of you.

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I love you, it’s ruining my life.

Taylor Swift (Fortnight)

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You get mad at me for flinching, forgetting the bruises you left all over me just a year ago. I forgave you, but I can’t forget the mental scarring I suffered.

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I don’t know what to do anymore. I love my partner and we have been together for years but his constant temper tantrums and refusal to seek treatment are pushing me away.

We presume he has ADHD and other issues but he won’t get help. Instead he talks over me all of the time and blows up on me and everything else around him over small or stupid things. I don’t know what to do anymore. Do I leave? I don’t feel ready for that. He’s my FP and he knows it. But communicating gets me nowhere because he assumes I’m attacking him no matter how I approach it.

I’m so exhausted.