vicdeux

[vicdeux]

[vicdeux]

And highlights of April

[vicdeux]

Mats Van Snippenberg by Jasper Rens van Es - Elle Men Thailand Sep 2015

[vicdeux]

[vicdeux]

Chapter 1: A New Beginning, A New Me

I have decided to tell my story. It is a story that begins in light place, that quickly becomes, what to me felt like an endless darkness, yet to this day has only strived to see gloomy skies; still awaiting a bright ray of warm sun. 

Up late at night in total silence with only my mind filtering in a loud commotion of exploding thoughts, racing in and out of my deep repressed memories and subconscious. Thoughts I have learned to keep back and prevent from even the slightest remorse. My name unsaid and unwritten for I want this to resonate with whoever is going through a time like mine.  I am Peter, Richard, John, Billy, Tyler, Alex, Tim, Rachel, Matthew, or whoever you want me to be, I am gay, I am a male, I am a human. 

My past has had quite a bit of influence on me, rather I should say it has been my greatest feat and disgrace. I grew up in a conservative household, with a religious doctrine that dictated my life and choices. Being a Jehovah’s Witness not only shaped my existence and self view, but also skewed my vision for what was to come. 

Now the main premise of this text: a look into my life as a gay who grew up Jehovah Witness and how I have dealt with this life. As I tell my story remember that this is my experience and my individual view on things as they are. I will write it as I did in my journal and make it public in hopes to be a voice for all those others who have been dealing with the same situation, I know it is not easy, I will write from day to day or week to week with a continuation of my story share with those you think might benefit of it. 

Until my next entry--

[vicdeux]

Self Reflect

Me: Is who I am really who I am? Or is it a life I was taught to live? Subsume and conditioned to think a certain way, the way of a false community and belief...

Sub-Me: You are who you believe you are, yet your past, present, and future actions have and will shape you. The self you think you are is really only a piece of who you are because your self identity continues to grow every moment that you learn to accept yourself and feelings. Let go of what little or big stresses you have and delve into the greater questions of who you want to be and how you'll get there...

[vicdeux]

Euphoric Silence

Thoughts festive street

Believe tops cashmere

Speake of manicure

Hand-crafted lovers

Elegant time of that

Delight will set from

When year that aside

Can’t wait the common present

That season we well-groomed

The again low to give endeavoured

Ok the soft perfect

Globetrotter sneaker suitcase

There’s receive gifts

Just this Grinchy stance

Czech & sweater year

In gent pair and every provide

Of a for white from

There’s turn impossibly

All Piana baby

Jermyn the we’ve Loro

And to we or eight-piece

That to for the

So for us beautiful

[vicdeux]

5 RISING DESIGNERS ON THE CHALLENGES OF BREAKING INTO MENSWEAR. 

PHOTOS BY ALEX WELSH.

[vicdeux]

when i was in primary school the head teacher stood up in assembly and said ”who can tell me the hardest word to say” so i put my hand up and said “antidisestablishmentarianism” and the principal said ”no the correct answer is the word sorry“ and it was in that moment that i lost my trust in the entire education system

[vicdeux]

Ralph & Russo Couture Fall 2015 ~ details

[vicdeux]

[vicdeux]

[vicdeux]

[vicdeux]

[vicdeux]

little things that help ease symptoms of depression:

turn the lights on and open a window

eat something healthy and drink ice cold water

find a comforting album to listen to whenever things get bad

take a long, relaxing bath

do yourself up in full make up and hair

be around people, even if you don’t think it will help

watch something funny on netflix

wear your favorite/most comfortable outfit

immerse yourself in a hobby like drawing

lose yourself in a really good book or movie

[vicdeux]

Coming out to my sister was not an easy task. Was quite the emotional uproar, but a huge weight has been taken off. The harder part has just begun; my parents...

[vicdeux]

Summer is ending