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#1 The Boy and the Stones

There was once a boy who carried stones.

No one knew why.

He walked through the village with them in his pockets, in his hands, tucked beneath his arms. Some were small, smooth, and light. Others were jagged and heavy, making his steps slow, his shoulders low.

People would ask, "Why do you carry so many?"

He would shrug.

"They’ve always been mine."

He never put them down. Not when he played. Not when he slept. Not even when they hurt.

One day, by the river, a girl watched him struggle up the hill.

"Doesn’t it get tiring?" she asked.

The boy stared at her, then at his hands, gripping the weight as if letting go would mean losing something important.

"I don’t know," he said.

The girl bent down, picked up a stone, and tossed it into the water. It sank without a sound.

"Not everything has to be carried forever," she said.

The boy looked at his stones.

At the marks they left on his skin.

At the deep, familiar weight in his hands.

And he wondered—

If he set one down,

Would he still be the same boy?

Or would he be someone else?

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Fck, di ka mn lang ba magsosorry??!

Wth is this relationship!!

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I am happy on my own.

I enjoy sleeping soundly on a rainy day. I enjoy going out and eating in restaurants alone. I enjoy taking long showers, doing self-care, and owning my time.

But, sometimes, late at night, I wish I could have someone to tell about my day. I wish I could hold a soothing hand and fit it into mine. I wish I could receive a warm hug, a sweet message, or a quick kiss after a long tiring week.

Don't get me wrong, I am happy with everything I have. I just think it's also nice to share a laugh with someone for silly reasons. To go on a night date and walk home late while sharing the beautiful view of the moon. To call someone just to hear their chaotic stories and their sleepy voice.

Really, I am happy to go on with life alone. But sometimes, I just wonder what it's like to have someone to call my own.

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Today's quote 11/09/23

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DAILY REMINDER 11/09/23

Even if you know it's impossible, trying to please everyone will never end well. Never attempt more than you ought to. Making too many promises could come back to haunt you and leave you feeling depressed for days. Do your best to complete each task one at a time, in the order of request and significance. The most crucial thing to keep in mind is to always have fun with everyone you interact with and everything you do. You'll always come out on top if you do it that way.

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IDK anymore

I don't know if I should continue this relationship. Like wtf, my feelings were not so sure. Ugh, why did I enter this in the first place, now I am the one who is struggling right now. I don't know what to do. There are times that I questioned myself if I really love him. I always point to myself that I am the one who's wrong, but sometimes I hate him because he doesn't know how to value my feelings. I always get my feelings invalidated–which is what I hated the most. I didn't expect that my first relationship would be like this. Ugh, fck this.

Maybe, I am not really ready to enter into a relationship. The reason why I committed to this was because of the overwhelming of having someone by my side. But I guess it was wrong, THIS WAS SO WRONG. I don't know anymore

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Fck this LIFE

Why does everyone expect that everything was easy for me? They always keep saying "kaya lagi na, ikaw pa" Like WTF, I'm not a robot that can handle everything. And that everything was easy for me. Fck this life.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/31/23

If you intend to accomplish a lot of things. That's a start in the right direction toward reaching some of your most important objectives. But before you start, you must make sure that you are patient with yourself at every stage and refrain from setting too many specific expectations. Your efforts could take longer than your ambitious plans anticipated, but if you enjoy the process rather than concentrating just on the time limit, you will benefit from your experience far more.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/30/23

Love is fleeting. Although it isn't a physical something we can touch, it is unquestionably something we can feel. If you didn't experience love from someone you care about deeply and there is no concrete means to demonstrate that they love and care for you, you might be questioning their motivations. But keep in mind that a crucial component of love is faith, which you must develop. You'll experience the love as your faith grows.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/29/23

Even if you know it's impossible, trying to please everyone will never end well. Never attempt more than you ought to. Making too many promises could come back to haunt you and leave you feeling depressed for days. Do your best to complete each task one at a time, in the order of request and significance. The most crucial thing to keep in mind is to always have fun with everyone you interact with and everything you do. You'll always come out on top if you do it that way.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/28/23

If you want to retreat because you have a lot on your mind. You need to discreetly reflect on a recent development that made you feel puzzled and confused. Additionally, if you feel the need to be by yourself, that is perfectly acceptable, and you are not required to give anyone a reason. In addition, your goals will be clear when you emerge from the experience feeling lighter and nicer, and everything will fall into place.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/27/23

If you are near-sighted, you can put on the right prescription glasses or contact lenses and suddenly everything becomes clearer. When something serious in life isn't clear though, there isn't always such an easy solution. If you are facing a problem, but you aren't seeing it clearly because you don't have all the information you need, you can't evaluate your situation correctly, right? But if you have a clear perspective and you calmly gather the information, which would be the equivalent of putting on your glasses or contact lenses, then it would be easy to clarify and resolve.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/26/23

If you want to be happy, whatever that means to you, there may be a yellow brick path that you can follow. Wouldn't it be nice to just open the door, put on your walking shoes, and know where you're going? There is a path for you to follow if you look, even though there isn't a yellow brick road outside your door. Everyone is more than capable if you decide what you want, seek for the clues, and explore. It might not be quite as obvious, and you might have to use some creative thinking to find it out. Happiness isn't as elusive as you think.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/25/23

A gesture of thanks doesn't have to be big and loud and impressive. If you want to thank someone for something they did for you but you are intimated because you want to get it right or you want to impress that person, put in mind that being thankful isn't about being impressive. It's about speaking from the heart. It's about showing that you noticed and that you care. Finding a very personal way to say thank you, will truly mean the most.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/24/23

Have you ever wished for a place you have never been, perhaps a place that you think would make the perfect home? Have you ever wished for a connection with a soul mate or another person you have never met? If so, locate what you're seeking. You must give yourself enough time to look for it if you're looking to satisfy a deep need. Simply state your desires to the world and then be open to receiving them. You don't need to look for anything in particular or go anywhere in particular.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/23/23

Faith is an upbeat, hopeful belief. Being religious is more difficult for certain people than for others. Sometimes it's difficult for you to have faith in the universe's ability to act in your best interests. Even if it's something you've been hoping for, planning for, and working toward, don't you occasionally worry that the right thing won't materialize in your life? As a human, it can be difficult to have faith at times, even after using self-hypnosis, positive affirmations, and other techniques. However, you must keep in mind that if you don't truly believe that your dream will come true, it will undoubtedly not come true. Consequently, you need faith. If you have that level of faith, you cannot possibly fail. And undoubtedly, in the end, confidence will be rewarded.

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DAILY REMINDER 08/22/23

You get a sensation of panic when something you want very much and has placed a lot of faith in appears to be moving away from you. What steps can you take to fulfill your desire? Most likely not much. But you can just have faith, and that is the one thing you can do. Keep believing that if this is something that will benefit you, it will eventually appear in your life. And if it's something you shouldn't have, another thing will ultimately appear in its place.