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The guilt of what they've done will forever be on their hands. My blood coating their throats as I strangle them into the grave with me. The rage that boils down deeply in my bones scolding their scales that little their flesh.

My rage isn't sinking to their level it's pushing them under it. I shove them down as I crack their skulls with a candle stick formed by memories and guilt of their own making.

I won't be the reason you become a better person. I do. It forgive I do not forget. Not for this. Not for you. My rage will brand you for life like the selfish evil cows you are. I refuse to be the person to give you closer.

I will be better than them even if it kills me. For a dead martyr can't forgive the wicked and proved them a hand as the guilt crushes them alive

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carrie from 'carrie' (1976) dir. brian de palma featured on the cover of film comment magazine, january-february 1977.

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Seeing videos of me at my lowest weight is making this even worse. Fucking hate it here

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me returning to edblr after trying to recover 💀

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Male Blue Thinspo

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Winter Thinspo

Winter work makes summers bodies,

Summer Strength maintains that body.

Gain Control, maintain Control and this is could all be yours.

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Cassie from Skins aesthetic

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seeing pictures of myself at my lw and realising I no longer look like that:

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it will pay off.

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It's like docters want me to relapse completely

Ik my weight is causing problems. But I can't eat anything healthy cause I'm terrified there are bugs, mould, textures, ect. I can work out cause I'm in crippling pain. The only way to stop is to stop eating completely.

I hate it here so much

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