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down to the beat, vocals, and instrumental pencey prep is exactly how i feel. like fucking shit

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yeah ur allergic to spending time with me n every1 else but u can spend fucking days on call with them if u wanted 2, im not even mad i js feel left out i feel fucking stupid i dont need 2 be included in EVERYTHING but it feels like im purposely being avoided

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i wanna fucking text you so bad but u dont reply so whats the point?

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"this jealous actress has a habit of making things sound way to tragic" haha.. i like that you guys get along i genuinely do but i feel so fucking excluded 24/7, i feel like im on the outside of everything. im just tagging along or some fucking shit love my friends to death but i feel so fucking stupid for having them meet eachother; i get why people dont like me and i am NOT the first option all the time but as if ive done a thing or two wrong.. i know they dont hate me atleast i have that, i talked to one of them last night and he apologized for not giving me a headsup to anything atleast thats good i dont THINK that they hate me its just a little voice in the back of my mind.

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last night i dreamt that we got a bunch of new photos from LLTBP rehearsals, including photos of ray and gerard--but the ray photo was just him in the background of a shot of some equipment:

and the gerard photo was some blurry cryptid shot:

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i dont believe anybody is born as anything, more that theyre born with something.. its ur choice what u do with that is it not? i wasnt born angry, i was born in a shitty place, area, situation. ever wonder why someone you know is so upset all the time? u stay curious bc u never fucking ask. its all stupid, why do people bother to tell people how they feel and then complain when they dont care? ur not ur friends or buddies problem at the end of the day theyre just trying to get by; arent they? i was born angry, i was born aggressive because i was born with it IN me. "tragic with a capital T" my ass, im proud of who i am most days. i get by, thats good enough for me. i wasnt born obsessive, i was made like this and everybody supported it until it was to late. i talk to people and tell them im obsessive and they act like i just shot someone when i act obsessive. i remember when i met my friend i talked about him for days, everyone was like "are u sure you dont have a crush on him?".. well what do u think. i told you i was like this and now ur all surprised, u dont understand me u just wanna be invited to the party... and thats ok. i wanna be invited to but some invites are just lost, arent they? shoot for the floor, theres no hope and thats ok. u live with it and get on by shoulder-bumping someone in the street