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I wish I could just simply exist like other people and go out for a fun time without needing time to calm down and getting overwhelmed or overstimulated

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Friends

Friends and your relationships with them are weird.

I have this one friend who I've known since kindergarten (so 8 years ig) and still am barely comfortable with them touching me or anything. And don't like hanging out with them for long periods of time

Then I have this other friend that I've known 3 or 4 months and we spent 9 hours together the other night, several of which were spent cuddling while watching TV and playing video games.

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so embarrassing

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this makes me happy idk why

10 days in April that are palindrome days. You can read it forward and backwards. They are the same.

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March..haha sure. It's about to be May and ashton is acting like he never said anything and luke is only now just releasing it in a few days. Fucking liars.

I AM GOICNT THEWOU SO MANU DIFFERTRNE STATGED OF EMOTIIONS RN OHMYGOD!!! LIKE IM LITERALLY SHAKIGN I CANT.M ICANNOT FUCKIGKSUWHFIS 😭😭

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Just saving this to watch later

Making 5SOS Interviews Even More Chaotic: Part 4

The interviews during the Youngblood era were always so Chaotic™ and for WHAT

Hope you all like this!

If you wanna watch more, click these:

Making 5SOS Interviews Even More Chaotic: Part 1

Making 5SOS Interviews Even More Chaotic: Part 2

Making 5SOS Interviews Even More Chaotic: Part 3

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honestly. I mean not only is their music really good, the more I listen to it the more I sort of understand my brain. Idk why just some of their songs make me realize things about myself I didn't know.

time to admit i listen to 5sos because i need a translator between my own brain and itself and their songs do just that

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Reblog to give prev a magical amulet that protects them from headache

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Common example

people use the chicken vs egg thing often but it doesn't make sense to me. The first pure chicken game from an egg. The egg that held the first real chicken would've came from a chicken like creature that wasn't a pure chicken.

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She didn't like many

My friend: "I want to hear some of your music, I don't know what you like"

Me: *plays her some of my playlist*

Friend: "oh I vibe with this, wait my ex friend liked this I don't like it. This is too slow, oh that's better. Oh my God why's your music so emo. YOUNGBLOOD SAY YOU WANT ME. Why the fuck are you so angsty?"

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As an aroace person, my favorite thing to do is sending my friends who have sexual attraction "hot" pictures of celebrities or movie/show characters they like and watching them freak out

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I want to go home

But I am home

So I don't know what I mean

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Existence

Loving how I'm 14 and just got completely banned from cooking or baking for the next month. Even if I'm home alone I can't cook myself food I have to make stuff that doesn't need it.

The reason? I baked something without first doing the dishes and now there's too many dishes to clean.

My mom's especially mad because my defense was I hadn't noticed the overflowing sink. I didn't notice because why would I notice the sink when baking? I needed stuff from the pantry, fridge, and the place dishes are stored. Not the sink or dishwasher.

It's really not my fault that my brain works in a straight "this is what I need, how to get it, so I only do this" not a "here's what I'm doing, I remember all the steps, I will first do all these things before I do it" way.

I tried so hard to clean to make her happy. I picked up my mess, wiped the counters, rinsed the dishes I could even though I forgot tonight was a night where i have to do dishes as a chore. But I accidentally left the sink overflowing. It was kinda clogged and I didn't know what to do with the dishes so I left them in the other half the sink.

I thought she's be proud and happy for once.

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I actually don't know what Emotions is about, but I just assumed that because it's kinda Michaels song and I know he was having problems with that before and I needed to put it as something quickly before my thoughts left. It being about being overwhelmed makes more sense though

Emotions but my relation

I know emotions is about depression (probably idk what it's actually about but I assume it is) but a lot of the lyrics make me think of how I feel but I don't think im depressed.It mainly reminds me of how I feel around my mom.

Me and my mom have always had problems that I'm sick of fighting about (Fight about it, I don't wanna fight about it. I'm already screaming inside)

It got worse when I tried unmasking a bit and now I don't know how to get back to masking fully (I'm doing my best and I guess that's the best I can do, Where did I go wrong?)

I feel like I'm always making mistakes just by being myself when she's around (I always got six, seven, eight, nine, ten more brand new mistakes I know I'll make) and im tired of always worrying about it when I know I'll make them regardless.

And every time I think shes hurt me enough that I don't care anymore, a new thing hurts me (I always got one, two, three, four, five more ways to break)

And I'm sick of crying about it because I should be used to it. (Cry about it, I don't wanna cry about it. But I still can't help it sometimes)

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I know some people might not have a choice and have to do something that day, but do your best.

REMINDER THAT APRIL 15TH IS A GLOBAL STRIKE DAY FOR GAZA

Don't stimulate the economy and participate on local action, the site below contains more info about the strike.

The strike is mostly in the US, but you can help regardless of country, you can also share info, boost posts in social media and put posters in your city about Gaza.

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this didn't happen recently but I randomly remembered it

Teachers should be required to take classes to help them understand disabled or neurodivergent students because otherwise shit like this happens.

I have this one though that refused to let me have the accommodations the school set up for me (none are even that hard to do, I should be allowed to have one or two nondisruptive fidget toys, wear headphones, stand up/get up to walk for a moment, or go to another quiet class [usually the special ed teachers room bc she doesn't permanent students just helps every now and then with some students so her room is usually emtpy, or the counselors room]).

She also refused to let me go speak to the school counselor (I had to get out of that room and only place I could think to go was the counselor). I went to her after class (the counselor) to tell her what happened and when the teacher found out she was pissed.

I had lunch detention because of that and "being disrespectful" (I have autism and was too upset to mask so I spoke to her very flatly and directly). For detention she made me clean the gym floor, didn't let me use my headphones (this is while a gym class was actively happening) and because of me also trying to deal with the sensory stuff I was unable to finish and she called my mom who didn't answer.

I reminded her I needed to go to class and she said no then took me to the counselor. Where she yelled at me in front of her, apologized to the counselor for me "bothering her", yelled at me some more, then told the counselor what I did (very exaggerated and partly untrue) in class to deserve detention, yelled at me some more.

Obviously because of all this I ended up crying while she yelled at me and then she walked me to class, let me go in the bathroom to calm down but only gave me about 3 minutes before yelling that I need to come out because I'm wasting her prep time.

Maybe I was a little rude, but that morning my anxiety was really bad, I couldn't focus and just wanted to go to the other room to work, everyone was talking and she'd bought these fancy lights that hurt my eyes. I got out the infinity cube thing I had in my pocket and she game over and started yelling at me. I think that's reason enough to be slightly rude (most of my rudeness was unintentional though) and definitely not an excuse for her to do what she did.

To anyone who's read this far and experienced something like this or discrimination and refusal to accept that some people need more stuff than others, reblog with what you have to say.

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so i guess he doesnt want us to anything because he NEVER FUCKING ENUNCIATES