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I get it, however I want my friends to watch the same shit I do. That way they understand me when I'm infodumping about it. If I had to suffer, you have to suffer with me. That's how great of a friend I am 💅

I never know if I should recommend this series or mind my own business because, you know, ✨trauma✨

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I feel like this is a bit of a hot take, but I really like Jeremiah. Now, do I think he and Belly should be getting married right now. Absolutely not. Do I think they could last even, also no. But I really like Jeremiah as a character.

Fair warning: I've only seen the show. I haven't read the books (yet)

To me, Jeremiah is so very insecure and feels inferior to his brother(this is literally stated in the show by Belly). And if you look at how he grew up, that isn't strange. With his dad brushing him off and praising Conrad.

During Conrads conversation with Susannah we saw this season, we learned that Jere has always been charming and has used that to get his way. It's not that big of a stretch to say that's how he gets validation for himself.

Now for the Belly of it all. Do I think he was only interested in her because Conrad was. No, definitely not. I think it's very clear he loves Belly. I do think a small part of the reason he loves her is she picked him. I think it was, for him, an added bonus that he would be "beating" Conrad if he was together with Belly.

Sadly, I think his relationship with Belly reinforces his inferiority complex because The Summer I Turned Pretty has always been Belly and Conrads love story. And I think that on some level Jeremiah has always known that.

Now, of course, I don't know that for sure, but the way this season has been highlighting all of Jeremiah's worst traits and highlighting all the ways in which Conrad is a good partner to Belly, is a pretty strong indicator.(book people, please don't spoil me) Metatextually, if this story was about Belly and Jeremiah I don't think we would've gotten a third season.

I think Jeremiah ultimately doesn't trust himself enough to make the right choices. Which manifests in a lack of spine. He'll push back a little, but in the end, he tends to cave pretty quickly. Especially with his dad.

This is also why him hooking up with Lacie Barone after he thought he and Belly were broken up makes total sense to me. Because that's how he's always looked for validation. Even him keeping it a secret from Belly, while absolutely the wrong thing to do, is very understandable. If you think other people are better than you, you're gonna try to hide your mistakes.

It's also why he fails to shut down his friends when they say or do dumb shit.

Now, let me be clear. I'm saying that Jeremiah's actions are very understandable. It's not an excuse. I think getting married right now is a horrible idea and he's definitely been lacking as a partner. I just think some people go way too far in their critique.

Blowing shit out of proportion. Like him handing Belly a box and then grabbing one himself. Instead of carrying them both himself.

I've seen people call him immature and a manchild. He's like 22 years old(I don't know his exact age). He isn't supposed to have it all figured out. It's not strange that he has insecurities he needs to deal with to become a more fully realized version of himself.

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Me while ao3 is down:

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Ao3 is down rn, and I'm kicking myself for not saving a few fics. I so should've seen this coming when maintenance started. I have a free evening and I was gonna spend it reading. Lesson learned I guess.

Anyways, all the love to the archive team, who are doing everything they can.

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Linkin Park live is so fucking good. And their show was two whole fucking hours. My feet hurt, my throat hurts, my hair is a mess. The bartender strongly overpoured my last drink. There was so much rum in there. It was fucking awesome. I'm so tired.

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Just saw The Materialists, went on tumblr, everyone seems to have a different opinion, so I figured why not shout my own into the void. Be warned, there will be spoilers ahead.

I think whether or not the ending satisfies you is very personal to how you view love and relationships. I think that while love is an important part of a relationship, in and of itself, it's not enough. I actually think that relationships that only have love and not a whole lot more going for them can be one of the most painful things you'll ever experience.

Ultimately, I don't think Lucy should've ended up with either one of them. I think that while on paper, they were a good match, Lucy and Harry just never really connected emotionally. Though I also think they didn't try very hard. With Lucy and John, I just don't believe they've changed enough. They feel like your friend getting back together with their ex, even though the reason they didn't work out hasn't been fixed.

Side note: I don't think the reason John and Lucy didn't work was poverty. I think they used that as a cover. I won't get into that here. Maybe I will in a later post if anyone's interested.

I think that ultimately, the hurdle this movie never cleared for me is the characters. It isn't necessarily that they lacked depth. We just didn't see enough of it. I believe it's there, and I believe it informed their choices and their actions. I couldn't tell you how, though. They felt like real people. Just not ones I knew well enough to root for them or care for them past a surface level.

I've seen people criticize it, but I think the acting is actually pretty strong. Standout moment for me goes to Chris Evans in the scene right after John and Lucy kiss. I think his performance was so beautiful, and I genuinely felt his emotions. I believe he's been in love with her all this time.

All in all, I'd give it a 3/5. I think the starting 40 minutes were some of the best and most interesting cinema I've seen in a while. But it was also really cynical and critical of love and relationships. Which in isolation isn't good or bad. However, I don't think the journey from that to the Love Conquers All ending was executed well enough. At least not to believe they'll actually make it this time.

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Just watched Mission Impossible: The Final Reckoning for the first time. Also my first time watching any Mission Impossible film. I watched one youtube recap of approximately 14 minutes. Anyways, here are my unfiltered thoughts. Beware, there will be spoilers.

First off Haley Atwell as Grace is so fucking gorgeous. I don't think this is news to anyone, but since she is most of the reason I watched this movie I felt like it needed to be said. I don't quite have a grasp on her characterization yet.

I don't know exactly what Ethan and Benji have going on, but I know it's not straight(It's also possible I'm missing a gazillion movies of them building their close friendship. Those are details I've elected to ignore).

Ethan Hunt was not what I expected in a protagonist. He's way less machoman and way more sad, wet puppy, who just wants his friends to be safe than I expected but I actually prefer this way more.

I will admit, it took me a while to fully get invested in the movie. There was a lot of very clear exposition in the beginning that felt clu ky and interrupted the flow. Which I do recognize is entirely for the benefit of people like me who haven't seen the previous movies(or for people who saw them long ago).

The submarine scene, especially in the torpedo room, was one of the most intense things I've seen in a while. I know from a metatextual perspective that this man has a ridiculous amount of plot armor, but it felt very claustrophobic, I could quite literally feel the sounds from the submarine rolling and things kept going wrong.

Overall, I really liked it. I do feel like there were some plotholes. I'd have to watch closer on a second watch. I'd give it like a 7 out of 10. I really wanna go back and watch earlier MI movies. Especially Dead Reckoning, because I definitely felt dropped into the middle of a story.

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I'm on the train and this girl next to me is reading Twisted Lies. She just subtly tilted the book away from me, so I can't see what she's reading. Girlie I get it, but I'm just as depraved. I already know what you're reading.