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"Rainy days are not your thing"

Title: Rainy days are not your thing

Word Count: 3.738

Pairing: Sokka x fem!Reader

Warning: Nothing, just tooth rotting fluff, a bit of angst, reader cry, a bit of insecurity, Sokka being the sweetest human being in the world ehehe

Request: Nop

Author's note: Nothing special, I just hope you'll enjoy this story as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Also it's the first time I write something directly in english, without translating it from italian so I'm a little nervous, I hope there aren't too many mistakes eheheh I checked and rechecked but something can always slip ehehe

Don't be shy and leave me a comment, I don't always respond to them (sorry sometimes I'm just to shy) but I really love reading them 😚

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Sleeping at night had always been difficult. Despite the tiredness of the day, her mind was always moving, spinning around like a mad hamster, always full of thoughts, memories, things she regretted, things she dreamed of, and things she had to do. So, in the end staying up all night, or almost, was easier then keeping rolling over her blanket trying to sleep. Usually it was only after a bunch of hour that Y/N finally started to feel her eyes getting heavier, and sleeping during the day, between chores, was way easier to her. She couldn't explain exactly why, she assumed it was the busyness of the daylight hours, the chorus of voices that filled the air, maybe seeing pepple go on with their lifes was enough of a distraction to ease her mind and make her fall asleep, or, to put it in a simpler way, the night was simply too calm, and quiet for her mind. Ok, ok, it wasn't exactly healty, she knew it, but she didn't really mind this routine, mostly because she loved staying awake through the night; the moon, the stars, the darkness of the sky, were a beautiful sight, plus, she liked a little alone time.

Now that she was part of team avatar, though, her usual sleeping routine was everything but nice, not being able to sleep at night with a schedule so chaotich and confused was a real nightmere. That night, obviously, was the same, and while all her friends had been sound asleep for hours, near the fire at camp, Y/N was awake, sitting by the beach, and in a very horrible mood. Well it wasn't that horrible, she wasn't even angry to be honest, she was simply exhausted and in a desperate need of silence and solitude.

The day had been hard, too chaotic for her like. It had started lazily, strangely calm, for once they had had breakfast normally, not on the run or on Appa's saddle, with the wind ringing madly in their ears, then, after that, everything had changed and it almost seemed as if a bomb had exploded on camp.

Zuko had been too strict and aggressive during Aang's firebending lesson, (probabily due the proximity of Sozin's comet) leaving poor Aang sulking for the rest of the day, Katara and Toph had bickered all morning and afternoon (and why the hell Toph refused to wash at least her hair was a really mistery to Y/N). She herself had failed every attempt at her own bending, mostly because she was too distracted by Katara and Toph bickering in the background. She, the stupid she was, had even tried to settle peace between them, but it had ended up with Toph angrily shaking the ground beneath her feet till she had fell face first into the mud. It was horrible, stiky and stinky, and Katara had to waterbend all that mess away from her. It had hurt a bit, mostly her feelings, and when she realized she was giving it too much importance, like Toph didn't behave like this with everyone, she settled to ignore her, let what happened sink and re-try with her bending, and when it didn't work she retired in her tent for a quick nap. Then there was Sokka.... well he hadn't do anything, to be honest. He had been alone in the woods all morning hunting for food, and focused on his sword training in the afternoon, and Y/N had envied him all day for being able to get himself away from all that nervousness.

"Let's at least hope tomorrow will be better..." Y/N sighed, hugging her legs to her chest so she could rest her head on her knees.

The night breeze was gentle, comforting and warm, and little by little, without even realizing it, Y/N started to doze off until she fell asleep.

When she woke up the sky was still more than far from sunrise, and since everything seemed identical to before, Y/N had quite the hard time understanding how much she had actually slept, whether it had only been a handful of minutes or a couple of hours.

What she could say for sure was that while she slept, someone had been kind enough to cover her up. The blanket was a little rough, it carried with it Appa's smell mixed with a vague hint of wet earth and burnt meat, but strange as it could seem, Y/N found it somehow comforting. Sighing lightly she snuggled in the blanket, glancing sleepily at the sky, the stars were bright and beautiful, ethereal like always, but there was something sad in their soft light, something desperate, like being so distant from one another made them feel terribly lonely and sad. Y/N couldn't help but feel similiar to them because sometimes she felt alone too. Yeah she had the GAang, she loved them so much she couldn't even imagine her life without them anymore, but there were times in wich she felt lost, like she didn't know the answer to anything and suddenly being so distant from her hometown, from all the familiar faces and buildings, became unberable, and it didn't help that on Sokka's map her village seemed so close it could be reached in a matter of minutes. There were times, while watching the map, when she even had the impression of being able to see the houses, the people who animated the streets or feeling the comforting smell of their typical dishes, then the enchantment ended and she realized that there were kilometers and kilometers separating her from her home, so many that she wondered if, one day, she would ever really be able to return.

She didn't had a family waiting for her, at least not since the cruelty of the war had torn it apart, emotionlessly killing her parents and her older brother, but she missed her fellow villagers dearly. They could be a bit too much to handle sometimes, but they were nice and kind and had took good care of her.

"I miss them so much..." she thought to herself while forcing back tears, letting a small sigh escaping her mouth. It was not the time to think about it, she needed to be focused on doing her part during Sozin's comet, any other thought, even if it was her own family, her burning desire to avenge them, was a distraction. And to not be a burden during that last mission she needed to be rested too, but before she could even think about resuming her sleep from where she had left it, a raspy yet gentle voice called her name, startling her. Her eyes snapped open while her heart skipped a beat in surprise. She knew that voice, she knew it by heart, still, it took her a solid minute to realize that the one with whom she had locked eyes when she turned, was Sokka.

"Sorry, didn't mean to scare you" he whispered giving her a sleeapy smile.

Y/N shook her head slightly "No..." she managed to say with her voice reduced to an almost imperceptible whisper, still shaken from having finding herself so close to him "You didn't - you didn't scare me, I was just surprised?" she added frowing a bit, averting her eyes from him, too flustered to even think to be able to look inside those bright blue eyes without getting a heart attack, her heart was already beating too fast, another look at his eyes, she was sure of it, would have killed her.

"Surprised...?" he repeated, raising an eyebrow

"Yes" Y/N confirmed while trying to hold back a yawn "I was alone when I dozed off, thought you were all sleeping" she explained shrugging her shoulders. Sokka gave her a slightly teasing smile nudging her lightly on the arm

"It's ok if you got scared" he said

"I know it's ok, but i wasn't" Y/N replied looking at him sideways "You know you gotta need more than that to scare me" she added puffing her chest proudly

At that Sokka burst out laughing, and suddenly Y/N felt her stomach somersault before filling up with a thousand butterflies, ticklish, as a warm warmth rose to her cheeks, chasing away any trace of the day's bad mood.

To her, Sokka's laugh was beautiful, a rough melody she cluld have listened to for eternity without getting bored.

Sokka kept laughing for a good handful of minutes before turning to look at her, a teasing smile gracing his lips

"What?" she asked "It's true, I wasn't scared!" she insisted gasping theatrically, putting her hand on her chest in feigned indignation. Normally she didn't like teasing that much, it made her feel small, insignificant like an ant, ridiculous like a polar bear dog trying to fly with the wings of a bee, but with Sokka and the other members of the GAang it was different, she knew that they never really laughed of her, or rather, that when they did it it was never with malice.

"Then i shall forget how you just looked like a scared fox antelope" he teased again smirking at her. Y/N felt her cheeks on fire

"Ehi, quit making fun of me!" she gruntled lightly punching him in the arm

"Ok, ok..." Sokka giggled rubbing his sore arm "It's just... well if you are so brave then I'm no longer in charge of killing spiders and all those bugs, right?" at that Y/N stayied silent for a moment, looking deadly scared in his eyes, causing Sokka to burst in a new fitt of laughter. Y/N looked at him slightly panicked

"Relax, I'll still kill the spiders" he reassured her giving her a gentle smile and a pat pat on the hand

"Thanks..." Y/N blurted averting her eyes a bit embarassed.

For a brief moment they both stayied silent with their eyes fixed on the sky, Sokka's hand still on hers, drawing soothing circles on her knuckles, sending little sparks to her heart.

The one they fell into wasn't a heavy silence. It was pleasant and comforting, plus the presence of Sokka, calmly breathing next to her, gave her security. With him she felt calm, serene and with her mind free from all worries, almost as if in reality the war was nothing more than a nightmare from which she had finally woken up.

Y/N inhaled slowly, closing her eyes to make the most of that little moment of peace, giggling slightly when the summer breeze tickled her neck ruffling her hair. How she would have liked for time to stop there, in that moment, how she would have liked for the war to really be nothing more than a bad dream....

"But it's all true, and in a few days we will have to seriously face Ozai..." the mere thought made her shiver.

"Ehi, you all right?" Sokka asked, looking at her a little worried

"Yep" Y/N replied, forcing a small smile in the hope of appearing convincing. Sokka didn't say anything, he just looked at her with a raised eyebrow as if to say "I know you, I know you're lying"

Y/N sighed a little annoyed "I was thinking" she conceded then

"At what?" Sokka asked, turning onto his side so he could listen to her better. Y/N sighed again and for a moment seemed undecided whether to speak or not, almost as if she was afraid to do so. Then, perhaps convinced by Sokka's encouraging look, she started to speak "That these may be the last peaceful days for us, you know in the case we fail and...."

"We will succeed" Sokka stopped her with a frown, suddenly serious "We won't lose"

"You can't know" she retorted letting out a small sigh, seeming almost exasperated, as if Sokka's optimism unnerved her

"But I do, I know we will win" he said, his voice full of determination. But when Y/N scoffed in return, not even bothering to look at him, like his words meant nothing more then a joke to her, Sokka felt something twisting in his heart, something dark and heavie that was making him feel sick to his stomach. Something was wrong. Y/N had never been the negative type, why was she like this all of a sudden? What had happened? had he missed something during the day?

"Y/N" he called, raising himself on his elbows so to look at her face and maybe finally meeting her gaze. Y/N didn't move, she remained motionless where she was, with her gaze fixed on the ground, as if she were a statue "Y/N..." he called again, a gentle plead "We will win" he repeted, and the certainty with which he pronounced those words made her smile, a bitter and uncertain smile. "Wish I could be that sure too..." Y/N said in a feeble whisper, sitting up slowly and hugging her legs to her chest. Sokka followed suit, sitting next to her "Instead I'm scared... so much that sometimes I feel suffocated, as if there isn't a single glimmer of light around me anymore" she confessed, voice trembling and eyes shimmering with tears.

Sokka gave her a sorry look but didn't said anything. He had plenty of things to say to her, obviously, but he didn't want to force his hand by comfortin her while she still needed to vent. Y/N was a reserved girl, she preferred to keep everything buttled inside her rather than burden someone else with her problems, for this reason, now that she had finally decided to open up to someone, to him, Sokka wanted to give her space.

"Don't get me wrong" she resumed with a heavy sigh, one that seemed to carry the weight of the world "I trust Aang, he is brave and strong, it's just - it's just sometimes it all feel so much bigger than us..." she sighed again while wiping away a couple of tears that escaped her control "We are just a bunch of kids, we shouldn't be fighting a war, we are the ones that should be protected, we are the next generation! It just feels so wrong, and it makes me so angry!" sniffling loudly she angrily wiped away another few tears "Why adults can never make anything right? Why can't they simply talk things off? What's the meaning to this war? It's so unfair. I didn't want it, all I ever wanted was a peaceful life with my family, in my small village... I..." but she didn't have the strength to continue. Now there was no point in holding back her tears, she didn't have the strength to, so Y/N let herself explode, hiding her face between her knees. Sokka didn't waste any more time, he hugged Y/N, holding her tightly to himself in the hope of giving her, if not courage, then at least a sense of safeness. Overwhelmed, Y/N curled up against him, hiding her face in the crook of his neck while her hands tugged shakily to his shirt. She cried for what seemed an eternity, and Sokka let her be.

But it was strange, it felt almost unnatural seeing Y/N so desperate and sad. Hearing her choking sobs made Sokka's heart shrink in a grip of pain that made him feel strangely restless, as if he couldn't bear the sight. And in fact, he couldn't. Y/N was made to smile, not for crying.

"I feel so stupid..." Sokka heard her say through sobs

"No, no" he gently shushed her, stroking her hair the same way Katara used to when he was little and needed a bit of comfort. "It's ok to be scared, it's not stupid, we all are. No one wanted this war" he whispered softly in her ear. Y/N shivered slightly through sobs, but Sokka had no doubt she was listening. So he continued.

"And you have all the rights in the world to be angry. This war is stupid, Fire Lord Ozai is stupid, adults are stupid, but we are strong, Y/N" he said with enough passion to fill her heart "You are right, we shouldn't be the one battling this war, but sometimes I think this is exactly why we were born. We want to build a better life for everyone, a life of freedom and equality. I think the difference is that we want to do it in a more peaceful way, you've heard Aang, he doesn't even want to kill Ozai." he said, and Y/N knew that he didn't completely agree with Aang, that in his opinion, for all the harm he had caused, Ozai deserved death. Nonetheless it was nice of him remembering her Aang's opinion on the matter "I think that's the point, that's why I am so sure we will win: 'cause we have a different kind of strength" Y/N sniffled another couple of times choking a sob. Sokka smiled softly placing a kiss on her head "You are not alone in this, you have us, we have eachother. He placed another, small kiss on her head before breaking their embrace to look at her. Her eyes were swollen and red. Sokka smiled sweetly as he slowly brushed her hair away from her face, wiping away the remnants of her tears with his thumb.

"I know it's hard, and I know you are missing your family and your old life, and you'll get back to it, to them, I'am sure of it. You are brave and strong, Y/N, a powerfull bender" he said, voice firmly. Y/N almost scoffed at that, remembering how bad she did during her training that morning, but Sokka's words forced her shut

"You are a powerfull bender" he repeted looking intensely in her eyes "You can do it" Y/N felt her eyes sting, ready to start crying again, and this time it was not for fear or uncertainty, no, this time they were good tears. To her, Sokka's voice came as warm and nice as a lulluby, softly singing the words her heart had longed to hear. It felt almost as if his words were lulling her, bringing calmness to her mind, dissipating all her worries. Bringing her hope. It was nice, Sokka was nice.

"You know" Sokka smirked "If you think about it the only thing Ozai truly have is a bunch of angry earth benders ready to dig him in mud" he said with a little laugh, one that Y/N could not resist but follow, even if trembling.

Sokka smiled, taking in the beautiful sight that was Y/N's smiling face. It was a small smile, but it was sincere and warm, and it was him who had brought it back.

"Thanks Sokka" she smiled softly before hugging him. Sokka reciprocated engulfing her in his arms, rocketing slightly from side to side, like one do with little children. Y/N giggled and Sokka felt his heart throbbing. Laughing softly like an idiot, he tightened his grip around her shoulders, breathing in her scent. It wasn't anything flowery, Y/N smelled of mud, burnt ashes and grass, but to him it was incredibly good, something he could have sniffed to for eternity. Creapy, he thought to himself.

"I really needed it" she smiled, leaving him a kiss on the cheek. Sokka felt his face lighting on fire as Y/N's lips lingered on his skin, softer and warmer than what he had thought. It was brief, just a simple and gentle brush, but it was enough to make his heart stop beating for what seemed an eternity. Y/N broke the hug, smiling shyily at him, her cheeks slightly pink.

"My pleasure" Sokka managed to say almost choking on his words, his throat dry, arid like the desert as his eyes fell on her lips for a brief moment, wondering what it would be like to feel them pressing sweetily against his own.

"Think you could stay with me for a bit more?" she suddenly asked, her gaze uncertain as if she was afraid of a rejection. Taken by surprise sokka's gaze darted from her lips to her eyes, embarrassment burning his face as he realized he had been staring at her lips for too long.

"She must have think i'm a creepy" he though to himself, shame overflowing his heart making him want to slap himself hard on the face. How could he be so stupid?! What if he had scared her? What if she didn't want him near her anymore? but than, Y/N's words reached his ears, and as his mind went finally silent he allowed himself to listen carefully at what she was asking him, and spirits, he felt even more stupid, 'cause he had been silent so long, frowing to himself, that Y/N had clearly started panicking thinking he disliked the idea of spending time with her

"I- you don't have to, if you don't want, it's just that I - I don't think I'll be able to go back to sleep anytime soon, so maybe I was thinking we could chat a little more" she stuttered scratching the back of her neck. Her heart was beating like crazy, so furious she even feared it would pop out of her rib cage at any moment. But there was nothing Sokka whished more than to stay with her trourough the night.

"Of course" he smiled, his gaze soft on her. Y/N's smile wydened, than she motioned for Sokka to come closer, and when they were shoulder to shoulder she slid the blanket around them both, snuggling up against him. Sokka cuddled her, slipping his arm around her waist. Y/N sighed quietly resting her head on his shoulder and for a moment everything seemed perfect and in harmony.

Sokka watched as she turned her gaze to the sky, engulfing in it the silver light of the stars. Y/N smiled again as the wind gently played with her hair making her seem almost ethereal, like she was a spirit, a gentle and caring one. Sokka smiled looking lovingly at her, the only thing he could think about was how much he wanted to kiss her, holding her face gently in his hands, as if she was made of crystal, but he couldn't, not now, it was not the right time. Maybe, he thought to himself, after defeating the Fire Lord. For now it would have to be enough for him to just stay by her side as a friend and helping her going through difficult moments.

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