winterwitheredbutterfly

[winterwitheredbutterfly]

she/her/they/them/it/idc

Safe foods; freezer pops

rice cakes

kind thin bars

cereal (sometines)

reblog? if you're and active member of edblr?? with your favorite safe food(s) and pronouns??? maybe???

i'll start :)

he/they, and i love rise cakes and smoothies

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my dms are always open and i'd love to talk to so many of you, but since the termination of my old blog i feel like y'all are far and few between. remember you're not alone, and no matter where you are in your journey i'm proud of you <3

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disclaimer: • NOT PRO ANA/MIA • NOT AN ANA/MIA COACH • I DO NOT SEXUALIZE OR FETISHIZE ANA/MIA • I AM A MINOR AND THIS BLOG IS PURELY TO HELP ME COPE • *and most importantly* RECOVERY IS ALWAYS AN OPTION AND YOU'RE NOT WEAK OR A FAILURE FOR CHOOSING TO RECOVER

stay hydrated loves :3

[winterwitheredbutterfly]

Okay getting better is hard but this is so me rn joking through the pain 😛

[winterwitheredbutterfly]

the story of i

i am not of legal age to start off with but nothing further will be explicit. i am a teenage girl and want to pass on. before you say "oh it is just the cursed teenage blues, it will pass", i know. my self hatred and overall hatred and despair for the world very well be just a phase, but as i live in it, it sucks. i was a cute little chubby girl growing up and never thought of myself to be different and i love to play and dance and drink from the cup of life. that did not last long as now i write this hunched over a screen with a blanket wrapped around me in 95° weather. my life started to go downhill in about 6th or 7th grade. i started watching out of age recommendation media and thrived to look like the girls on the screen. i started small by decreasing my caloric intake to about 1000 which decreased to about 300 over the course of a three months. the more i subtracted from my diet, the more control i felt. i rarely ever binged but my control did not compesate for my extreme longing for something more than restricting my eating and filling the void by binge watching tv. i began to feel more and more depressed and started self harming. i used it for anything from punishment to success. the scars i saw gave my life purpose. it got worse and worse until my forearms were more red that skin color. i was quickly caught and promised i would never do it again and i have not out of fear. back to my eating though, after a few month i had a day where i lost my will to keep restricting and had a major binge. my body was so deprived of food that it took anything and everything in sight. this resulted in a nearly 10 pound weight gain with in 24 hours. the following week i only ate about 100 calories daily. i no longer had my motivation and completely stopped counting. i just filled those days eating and eating which made me loose a ton of weight. i thought i was recovered even though i hated my body. i started to go back to my disordered ways after about a month of freedom. i tried fad diet after fad diet for a few months and tried every possible way to get back to where i was without counting. now that brings me to today. i have a massive urge to restrict which i know will successfully consume me at some point. i know i do not consume what i should as i have not gotten my period back and fingers crossed i will not. anyway to conclude, if you read that long text i hope you have come to an understanding of me and see i am not conceited as well as take my untreated mental illness as a warning to get help before food consumes you instead of you consuming it.

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The only thing i'd get on my knees for :