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Just in case someone still follows me and knows about the poetry and quotes I used to write in the past, I've changed platforms. Now I post them on threads and Instagram. So if you feel like it go check them out.

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Rebuilding Me —Adel Rizvi

In the gallery of my life, a puzzle incomplete,

Each piece a shard of self, a tale discreet.

A mosaic shattered, a narrative untold,

A story scripted in sorrow, in secrets, in cold.

Beneath the weight of expectations, I bent,

Lost fragments discarded, approval to invent.

Living on borrowed pieces, a mirage of me,

A puzzle bound by others, not truly free.

Your departure, a storm of anger and despair,

A hurricane of anguish, tearing through the air.

Betrayed, broken, in disbelief I stood,

In the ruins of love, misunderstood.

Yet in the aftermath, a silence emerged,

A nothingness engulfing, where pain submerged.

From the void, a whisper, a truth untold,

The puzzle of my life, a new story to unfold.

Amidst the fragments, I discovered a key,

To rebuild myself, not as they wanted me to be.

A journey through darkness, to find my own light,

An odyssey of healing, of reclaiming my right.

Piece by piece, I gathered strength anew,

From the rubble of despair, a stronger self grew.

No longer confined by others' expectations,

I embraced the power of my own revelations.

Acceptance dawned, a realization clear,

Your leaving, a blessing, dispelling fear.

For in the wreckage, I found the start,

To build a puzzle of resilience, a work of art.

Now I stand, a puzzle evolving and free,

In choosing my pieces, in authenticity.

Incomplete, perhaps, and that's perfectly fine,

For the puzzle is mine, a unique design.

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Maybe some day

I poured my soul into you, a love that eclipsed this world,

More profound than life itself, my heart's unfurled.

Yet, what did you do? You cast it all astray,

Inflicting wounds so deep, in your own unique way.

I handed you the ammunition, willingly, my dear,

Unaware it'd be the cause of all my pain and fear.

Now I bear these scars, hesitant to trust anew,

But I cling to hope that someday, I'll find a love that's true.

I cannot say if it will resemble what we once knew,

But I'm certain it'll be different, a love born anew.

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Unshackled Liberation

In cold, unfeeling hands, my fate you'd steer,

Yet I've broken free from your puppeteer.

You tried to mold me, shape me as you pleased,

But I've reclaimed my soul, my essence released.

In someone else, you'll find your heart's delight,

The puppet you crafted, once held so tight.

Hope that brings you happiness at last,

As I move on from a chapter in the past.

What's true is this—I'm happier, it's clear,

Far more than you ever expected, my dear.

No longer tangled in your strings of control,

I've found liberation, a spirit that's whole.

Your grasp, once suffocating, I now elude,

No more shadows of your darkness intrude.

With courage, I've embraced the truth I see,

I stand tall and proud—I am finally me.

The journey ahead, uncertain but free,

With newfound strength, I'll shape my destiny.

No longer confined by your twisted design,

I emerge from this struggle, stronger, redefined.

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Choosing Me

When choices danced before my eyes,

You or me, the echoing cries.

I always picked you, never me,

Lost in love's sweet reverie.

Even when no choice was near,

My heart proclaimed, "It's you, my dear."

When barriers blocked my way,

Still, you mattered every day.

Yet, one morn, a whisper grew,

What if I chose me? Could it be true?

To better me, to thrive, to soar,

For us, I'd unlock a hidden door.

I embraced myself, with newfound grace,

Longing to see my dreams embrace.

To give to me, what I deserved,

My courage rose, my spirit swerved.

I noticed then, a truth untold,

You chose yourself, your heart of gold.

With a gluttonous wish, I sought some more,

Unveiling you, as you closed the door.

A face unknown, a stranger's gaze,

A bitter rift, a love's malaise.

"You chose yourself, not once chose me,

I've had enough, let me be free."

Regrets now linger, lessons found,

In putting you first, love unbound.

Now I see, the truth so clear,

I should have chosen me, my dear.

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Echoes of Deception

In your presence, I withered, reduced to less,

Made to believe I was perpetually worthless.

Never good enough, always in the wrong,

You shattered my spirit with a relentless song.

Now that you're gone, I see the truth unfold,

The depths of the torment that within me you controlled.

I was rendered inadequate, a puppet in your hand,

To keep me subdued, you held the upper hand.

As your grip loosened, you fled in retreat,

Knowing if I discovered your game, we'd meet defeat.

You couldn't bear me realizing your deceit,

For I would have severed our ties, finding retreat.

You took what you wanted, demanding and unkind,

And as the submissive, I obeyed, confined.

But when I glimpsed your true face, a stranger in disguise,

I knew it was too late, lost in your web of lies.

The pain remains, haunting my weary soul,

A constant reminder of the toll it took, this ghastly toll.

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Farewell to Yesterday, Embracing Tomorrow

In vows we spoke, for better or worse, A promise made, a sacred verse. Through troubled times, I stood beside, In unity, our love to abide. As storms arose and darkness fell, I clung to you, our souls to quell. Through hardships faced, I did remain, With steadfast heart, I shared your pain. When tides turned, and fortune smiled, You thrived in joy, our love beguiled. I rejoiced in your triumphant days, Supporting you in myriad ways. Yet when my world grew dim and gray, In need of solace, there you strayed. A void was left, your absence stark, The bond we shared now torn apart. Though I yearned for your guiding light, Your departure cast a chilling night. In times of need, you chose to flee, Leaving me adrift, alone and free. But still, I rise, resilient and strong, For my worth does not depend on wrongs. I'll mend the wounds and find my way, Embracing brighter skies each day. So farewell now, my former love, To soar on wings of peace above. I'll cherish memories that once were, And find a love that's steadfast, pure.

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You and Only You: The Unraveling of 'Us'

Before our union, I asked for your hand,

A vow to cherish, to truly understand.

You pledged that if a day arrived, I see,

Where "us" transformed to just "you" and "me,"

A single word from you would seal our fate,

And "us" would shift, a new path we'd create.

But when that moment came, you chose a path,

Involving others, causing our love to clash.

You brought them in, disrupting what we knew,

Insisting it must be only "you" and "you."

Though I agreed to make the sacrifice,

To forsake my needs, to pay any price,

You used them as a weapon to hurt and scar,

Shattering our past, present, and tomorrow.

Now I lie here, pondering the why,

If "us" was your desire, why make me cry?

Why invite them in, tearing me apart,

Leaving behind fragments of my wounded heart?

In this shattered state, I search for solace,

Seeking answers within, to reclaim my promise.

I'll rebuild the fragments, rediscover "I,"

Rekindling my spirit, embracing a new sky.

So rest, dear one, with your chosen path,

May it bring you peace, in the aftermath.

As I heal and grow, I'll find my own way,

Where "I" stands strong, and "you" has no sway.

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Shattered Reminiscence

In days gone by, I'd dread the past's embrace,

Recalling moments we once shared, a bitter taste.

But now, oh now, you've fueled the flames within,

Adding fuel to my hatred, deepening the chagrin.

I used to shy away from memories once sweet,

Their tender touch now laced with pain complete.

Yet you, with cruel intent, bestowed upon my heart,

A reason to despise the past, to tear it apart.

Each thought, each reflection, now a piercing sting,

As sorrow takes hold, its melody starts to sing.

The once cherished moments now cloaked in disdain,

And bitterness blooms, an unrelenting strain.

Oh, how you've managed to darken the skies above,

Thrusting my soul into this abyss of lost love.

Reminiscing now, a punishment so severe,

As the weight of regret becomes crystal clear.

So I'll dwell no more on what once was so dear,

For it brings nothing but anguish, drawing me near.

To a state of resentment, where hatred resides,

And the past remains a painful ghost that hides.

Farewell to the memories that once held delight,

Now tainted and shattered, a mournful sight.

For you, my love, have gifted me this bitter chore,

To hate the past even more than ever before.

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Whispers of Hope in the Divorce's Embrace

In this somber divorce, my heart laments,

Not for the absence of their love, my dear,

But for the void of security once present,

And the safety that now eludes, I fear.

Their constant presence, a beacon in my strife,

A shelter amidst life's chaotic storm,

Now gone, leaving behind a fragmented life,

Yearning for a glimpse of that warmth reborn.

Yet, my health condition haunts with uncertainty,

Casting a shadow upon tomorrow's light,

Questioning mortality with each passing day,

Leaving me adrift in a sea of fright.

For when my time comes, whether alone or embraced,

I long to leave behind joy, a lasting trace,

To carry away the burdens and pain I faced,

Seeking solace, in hope's gentle embrace.

In this search for hope, where sadness resides,

I navigate the depths of a wounded soul,

Through tears and anguish, I strive to find,

A flicker of light to make my spirit whole.

For even in the darkest hour, a glimmer may gleam,

A reminder that hope can mend and heal,

And as I tread this path, a shattered dream,

I hold onto the belief that happiness is real.

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Echoes of Love

Memories of our love so true,

Echo through the empty house, reminding me of you.

All the moments that we shared,

Now like thorns on barbwire, constricting me with despair.

Once I cherished every memory,

Of a love that felt so heavenly.

But now there is no one for me,

And I face the truth with a sense of fear.

All the memories of our love,

Now like ghosts that haunt my every move.

I long to relive those moments so sweet,

But they only serve to remind me of my defeat.

Fading away like a distant dream,

I hold onto the hope of what once seemed.

But as I walk through this empty house alone,

I realize that echoes of our love are all that's known.

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Beating Heartache

My heart beats hard and fast,

Feeling the pain that you left to last,

I know I shouldn't, but I wish it to cease,

The agony that won't let me find peace.

With every thump, a memory appears,

Of moments gone by, now drowned in tears,

The love that was once so pure and real,

Is now a wound that refuses to heal.

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Alone in longing

You are the one I long to see,

The one I ache to speak to deeply,

The one I yearn to touch and feel,

But here I lie alone in our bed, unhealed.

Tears stream down my face for you,

As I recall the moments we once knew,

The memories we shared, so sweet and true,

Now faded away like a morning dew.

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Things that are flaws according to you are things that make you beautiful in my eyes😊😊

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There is nothing more beautiful in this world than your smile.

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🌟 Arousal does not equal consent 🌟

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