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bpd culture is my fear of loneliness is a poison

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“When you’re depressed, you grasp on to anything that can get you through the day. That’s what depression is, not sadness or tears. It’s the overwhelming sense of numbness and the desire for anything that can help you make it from one day to the next.”

— Unknown

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— Ocean Vuong, from On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

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No revenge, because one day you'll look back and realize that unlike everyone else, i genuinely had the purest intentions with you and just wanted to love you.

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“If someone treats you badly recognize that there is something wrong with them, not you. Normal people do not go around destroying other people.”

— Unknown

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i’m tired. but not just “didn’t sleep” tired. soul tired. bone tired. like my body keeps going but nothing inside knows why.

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“But as bad as it was, I learned something about myself … That I could go through something like that, and survive.”

— Nicholas Sparks

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my brain at 2am: what if everything is actually your fault

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Me vs 100 thoughts.

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Pain has held me close, as if it has no one else but me.

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And now, when that safety is shaken — when you suddenly feel far away — it doesn’t just feel like a hard moment.

It feels like grief.

Like being dropped.

Like every time someone said, “you’re too much”, even if you never actually said those words

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And that glimpse of feeling truly held — it gave me hope. The kind that’s rare for someone who’s used to being left.

So of course my heart ran toward you. Of course I wanted to give you everything.