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Cas and Dean body swap, but they only felt comfortable in the clothes they usually wear.

Is it just me or does this pic give Cas and Dean in different outfits vibes ?

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This is barely an incorrect quote. I mean, Tommy was B-lining for Eddie and ended up kissing Buck 😂

Basically this is only an incorrect quote in that it wasn’t actually said. But it was heavily implied 😂

Tommy: Why are you following me? Buck: Because we’re dating now. Tommy: Okay… what about Eddie? Eddie: We’re a package deal. Buck: Buy one idiot, get one free.

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This is Charles. He wants to go on a journey around tumblr. could you show him around?

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Fine, Mom. I’ll share the garlic bread. 🙄

garlic bread to share to your aspec friends :)

rb to share

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Had to share some of my favorite tags from the reboots because they had me giggling and kicking my feet. This was the goal, guys. Thanks!

@samdeancrimespree @kdaught @cashmerepoot @malewifesam @ice-flipstw @plaidparadise77 (I don’t know why it won’t let me tag you)

Seriously thanks for the love guys.

Don’t think about malnourished baby Sammy. Don’t think about little four year old Dean begging his Dad to buy formula instead of ammunition, of four year old Dean burning himself trying to warm up Sammy’s milk. Don’t think about Dean waking up every couple hours after crawling into Sammy’s crib to make sure he was still breathing. Don’t think of little four year old Dean who used to beg to feed his little brother his bottle, now not having another option. Don’t think about baby Sammy getting sick and Dean begging John to make him a doctors appointment to make sure he’s okay. Don’t think of baby Sammy learning to walk with his older brother holding his hands, of baby Sammy crying when he sees John because he doesn’t recognize his own dad. Don’t think of baby Sammy calling Dean dad, or the fact that Sam’s first steps were towards Dean. Don’t think about the fact that the doctors were worried about Sam’s weight at that doctors appointment, and ever since, Dean has made sure that Sammy always had enough to eat, even at the cost to his own health.

Don’t think about twelve year old Dean collapsing on the first night of a hunt because he hadn’t eaten in four or five days, because Sammy needed the food. Don’t think about John yelling at Dean asking what the hell is wrong with him etc. and Dean just shrugs it off. Because he’s fine. And he ignores it. He shoves the aching for food way down and ignores it. So, when they go back into town because they hit a dead end, and get food at a diner, Dean gorges on the food, and eats half of John’s too. Don’t think about John seeing this, having a flash of worry but ignoring it because “it’s Dean he’s always fine.” Don’t think about Dean worrying the first time Sammy called him Dad because “no, no, no, Sammy, I’m your big brother Dean.” Because he’s worried that his Dad is going to freak out if he hears Sammy calling Dean dad.

Don’t think about the fact that Sam probably didn’t learn the word Mom until he was at school because it wasn’t something his dad and Dean said. Don’t think about Sam driving alone for the first time and hitting a dear and calling Dean because he didn’t trust that his dad would answer. Don’t think about Dean, sitting in some motel at 23 years old after a fight with his dad who stormed off debating calling Sam because he’s the only one who would get it.

Don’t think about the Winchester brothers as little kids left alone in motel rooms for too long, underfed, and unsure of when their Dad was going to be back.

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I’m sorry to make this about supernatural (it has me in a chokehold what can I say.) but Oliver saying “men who are struggling/confused about their feelings towards other men probably run in the opposite direction and have some sort of womanizing past” is so pro bi Dean Winchester. Like. I can’t explain it more than that. But y’all know.

Oliver Stark about the negativity concerning Buck's bisexuality

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Words often said by someone who is actually okay, and definitely not repressing feelings, specifically towards their dead father because he told them that they might have to kill their baby brother who they raised if they can’t save them.

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Inspiration: @icaruspendragon ‘s XXI poem in Lazarus Rises (amongst other things)

“Absence and fond hearts and other bullshit.”

These words are not mine,

Though they could be.

The heart grows fonder,

The years go by.

You’re gone but not forgotten

You’re here but only in spirit.

You’ve been gone for years, you just left yesterday.

The hole in my heart,

The place you now live has always been there.

I felt your loss before you were gone,

We had my entire life,

We never had a chance.

It’s bullshit, bullshit, bullshit.

But I love you,

And your always with me,

Something that I would have told you happened today,

Nothing has happened since you left.

Life goes on,

But you’re not here.

If absence makes the heart grow fonder,

My love for you is deeper than the Mariana Trench.

If absence makes the heart grow fonder,

You are more loved now than you ever were before, and it’s terrible that you’ll never get to see that love.

It’s bullshit, bullshit, bullshit.

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It’s okay tho. The actors don’t know how to move on either.

spn is for those of us who never learnt how to move on from anything ever 🫶

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Season 1 Dean would let Early season Cas top him and brag about it if they got together right away. Late seasons Dean puts up a fight because he feels like he has too much to prove. (Does let Cas top him, but doesn’t talk about it. And lies when asked.)

listen...

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Supernatural finale headcanon

Blurry WifeTM is actually Castiel in a different vessel, and they adopted a baby and named him after Dean and they raised him together, as a way to honor Dean because Cas was avoiding the conversation he would need to have with Dean about the confession. (This also explains why Cas wasn’t in the Winchesters. He was on earth with Sam.)

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No, because I honestly have so many feelings about Sam and his relationship with Dean and his self-worth. Like man’s was always ready to sacrifice himself for the greater good. To put Lucifer in the cage, to close the gates of hell forever, etc.

And Dean, Dean doesn’t see life as worth living without his brother, his baby. Original script for season 5 finale was Dean jumping in after Sam because he couldn’t live without him. But Sam doesn’t understand how his wonderful big brother could possibly feel that way about him with all the dumb shit he did, and the bad choices he made. He doesn’t get it because to him Dean is on this pedestal. He’s everything John wanted, and everything Sam wanted (in different ways. John wanted a soldier so Dean became one, Sam needed a parent so Dean became one.) and to Dean, Sam is perfect, Sam’s the one John loved etc. etc. etc. John was never Dean’s everything g like Sam assumes. Sam is Dean’s everything.

thinking about that one interview where they said “sam’s heart was the sweetest, and therefore the most ripe for picking, the most desirable for corrupting” and how sam felt guilty for being who he is since childhood and saw himself as biblically unclean and irredeemable, how he believed he wasn’t worthy of good things, and how he just wanted someone (dean) to tell him he’s good…he had the sweetest heart but he believed he’s inherently bad and that he didn’t deserve dean’s love !! i’m so unwell

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Funniest thing to me about myself is when I see a post I have thoughts about that I can’t quite put into words yet, I’ll type something random into the text so I can save it to my drafts, and usually it’s just random letters/keyboard smashed, but umm, other times it just straight up says “ass” because that’s what happened. It makes me laugh. Especially funny because those aren’t my thoughts at all about the post. 😂

Other times I’ll just write “thoughts” or “thoughts among thoughts among thoughts.” And move on ready to come back to it later, but the one that sticks with me is the one that literally just says “ass” because I got overwhelmed with feelings so I couldn’t arrange thoughts. Anyway. I think I’m funny.

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No because somethings been nagging at me about this scene and like it wasn’t necessarily something I’ve been focusing on lately, but just. The way Dean is hugging Miracle. I’ve hugged my dog like that, sure, but it’s not like a super duper common thing, or very frequent. And like that’s not really my point, the point is when I do, it’s because I’m struggling with whatever anxiety depression I’m dealing with at the moment, or just life is getting difficult again. He’s hugging Miracle like a parent might hold their kid a little closer after something bad happens. Like maybe if I hold them a little closer, everything will be alright again. Also, like he’s just happy Miracle is still alive, like after everything and I get it. It’s just. I have thoughts. And like there’s so much more to this hug than just Miracle being alive. He’s using him as a vessel for all the hugs he wants to give to Cas all the people who aren’t. He’s allowing himself to be vulnerable and grieve.

Not for nothing, but this scene makes me cry every single time I see it. That is Dean, widowed a-fucking-gain, finding someplace to put his bootless love. Like, why did they make me watch this? Why did they break my fucking heart like this?

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No cuz he’s like “what do you mean that’s what that was? I’ve been doing this dance with Eddie for years??”

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No because I’ve read some of the other replies and I’m in an ever so slightly better headspace, and actually have something to say about it right now.

Someone mentioned the fact that Sam can’t even look Dean in the eye when he says it, but there’s so much more in that look. Sam is so deeply saddened by it. He wants to save her. He cares about her too, not to mention that he was with her when she got bit, and probably feels responsible on some level.m, but he knows what it’s like to have your autonomy taken away (Meg, Lucifer, Gadreel, Becky) and he doesn’t want that for anyone else, especially not the next generation of hunter, and he’s fighting every instinct inside him saying that they should go against her wishes because it has a better chance at keeping her alive.

And Dean can only think about losing Claire, having to call Jody, and the effect it’s going to have on him. (I love Dean and I’m not saying he’s selfish, or maybe I am, but it’s rooted in the way he grew up and every kid he see he sees little Sammy and wants to protect them. And to do that they need to be alive.)

Obviously both Sam and Dean are complicated people, and there’s more layers to it, but Dean tries to find solutions to save everyone, or at least to keep the people he cares about alive, Sam looks at situations and tries to find the one with the least amount of deaths, (again not saying Dean is a bad guy. He’s not he’s doing his best.) and if he has to take a hit so that more people live, or so someone else doesn’t have to. He’ll take that hit. He’d take on everyone’s pain just so they didn’t have to because he grew up watching Dean not getting ti be a kid, and wishing he could let him be a kid for a while, that Dean didn’t have to worry about keeping Sam safe, or monsters, or whether John was coming home or not and Sam wanted to take that away. To protect his brother for once. So he spent his adult life doing just that.

Further more, after Stanford, Sam did what he could to help Dean get some of his childhood back, he just smiled and shook his head when Dean did something idiotic, even when Dean was in his forties, with Mrs. Butters, Sam just let Dean enjoy it, to heal his inner child because Sam knew he needed it. That he deserved it.

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