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All followers to Please Note!!!

Xena has been working very hard on her very own blog page, which is now complete... So Please be sure from here on out to check out...

https://jamihaynes.wixsite.com/thewoundwarriorblog

Thank you for all your support!

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Lord of the Rings Extraction

“How do you pick up the threads of a old life. How do you go on in your heart when you begin to understand that there is no going back. There is something that time can not mend, Sometimes hurt that goes too deep... takes hold”

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Re-posting the good stuff to remember

This evening I was reading through some of my older posts and I realized there was some important stuff to refresh the memory with that reminded me of the whole reason I started this blog... So yeah the blog blow up with some awesome flash backs, so take a look it may be the refreshment you need to...

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🎶"For if you hide under the covers, you might never see the day, but if a spark can start inside your heart then you can always find the way.“

"So when life is getting dreary,

*Just pretend you’re a Leerie*

As you trip a little light fantastic with me”

“Oh when life is getting scary, be your own illuminary who can shine the light for all the world to see”

“And if your deep inside a tunnel where there is no end in sight well just carry on till dawn, it’s darkest right before the light!” 🎶

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“Life is War - Time in a Mercenary”

The following Inspirational Video - Ticking Clocks - is definitely worth the listen (more so then just to read some of the lines…)

With that said…The words said in this video are so relevant and the picture the speaker paints for you in your head is breath-taking’ly true while creating a story of a journey in your head…

“I hear time’s impatient song - An Orchestra of chirping birds and crashing waves.”

“I hear people Comparing and Contrasting - As they make their way into the world.”

“… Making my thoughts tangible and taking them to galaxies undiscovered…I HEAR Ticking Clocks.”

“…Converting stories into Weapons tucked away for a future battle… I FEEL Ticking Clocks.”

“… 2 approaches to any predicament - ADD your Solution OR SUBTRACT your Problem…”

“When you have immersed yourself in that which you love - Time is your HEARTBEAT! - And when you have not, it is a subtle warning sign Whispering of roads untraveled and gifts unopened, Singing reminders that you must realign!”

“…When you find yourself fighting to remember how precious the moment or beautiful the day, It’s NOT a lack of Time… But A lack of Direction…”

“…Because Beauty, Beauty is SEEING Ticking Clocks - Not as a dwindling resource, but as a flowing river…”

“…And Happiness is HEARING Ticking Clocks - Not as a finite melody But As the Breeze at your back as you Float Downstream…”

“…And Perfection, Perfection is HEARING Ticking Clocks - Not as an Obligation OR Imposition, But as a ONCE in a Lifetime Journey…”

“A Metronome for you to compose your Masterpiece; Give a Pulse to that which Hides Away in your Soul… Waiting to Emerge. It is Anything AND Everything Seeking your Direction; ONE SECOND ONE THOUGHT ONE BREATHE AT A TIME.”

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Lucidious | Save Me [MUSIC VIDEO]

An Add on to previous post - DO NOT… I REPEAT… DO NOT LET ANYONE MAKE YOUR FEEL YOU ARE NOT STRONG, WORTHY OR SPECIAL ENOUGH!

“Life is a beautiful journey Every mistake that is make you are learning If you disagree, planting a seed You give up now you will never succeed

Believe in yourself, handle the pressure We’ll find a way to get through stormy weather You’re not alone we can do this together just always remember I’m with you forever (forever) “

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Bring Me The Horizon - Don’t Look Down

DO NOT… I REPEAT… DO NOT LET ANYONE MAKE YOUR FEEL YOU ARE NOT STRONG, WORTHY OR SPECIAL ENOUGH!

Yes, there are enemies out there that will try to beat you down. They will try to break your spirit to the point were they control your mind. Making you feel like you are not worthy of better, you are not strong enough to stand up against them and you are certainly not anything special therefore you must accept their cruelty as if your a chained up dog, only there to be used…

THIS IS A LIE! 

A LIE THAT OFTEN WORKS, BUT NONE THE LESS, STILL A LIE… The truth is that these enemies have to use these tactics hoping we will cave and forget our strength. Because if we remember our inner strength, hold on to that promise that you are worthy and you are special then we become…

UNTOUCHABLE, UNBREAKABLE AND STRONGER THEN THEY CAN EVER HANDLE…

Never give up, Never Give in, Keep Fighting… BECAUSE… 

YOU ARE WORTH IT!

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Even when your are weak, seek to continue to find that strength to hold on to…

One thing this world does promise us, is to keep moving. It’s a harsh concept however, useful in it’s own way to. No matter what happens, this world continues to turn, time continues it’s endless ticking and life remains it’s forever changing self reminding us, that nothing, bad… and good… is permanent…

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Paloma Faith ft SIA Warrior ‘Black & Blue’ Lyrics Video

EXTREMELY IMPORTANT VIDEO TO THIS PAGE AND THE AUTHOR…

I am just so stoked to have found this version of this song…Please take the time to read my words and watch the video as this video, perfectly depicts this Wounded Warrior’s inspiration

FACT YOU DID NOT KNOW: My original inspiration for Zena and the “Wounded Warriors”, was originally this exact song. This song inspired me to be a Warrior and showed me that even the deeply wounded can still fight, can still be warriors! AND THE FACT that the video involves the awesome Kick Ass Dragon Warrior from the inspirational Game of Thrones, just makes it that much better and that much closer to showing the original emotion and intentions of THIS WOUNDED WARRIOR!!!…

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The Chainsmokers, Drew Love - Somebody (Official Video)

The story of temptation through time - Plan Your Attacks, See Your Enemies, Prepare for your battles!!!

The artistry in this video is so descriptive. It depicts how masked the world around us really is, and how nothing is ever just quite like it seems. So many of us are blinded from seeing our true surroundings that our fight is almost over before we even began. We never noticed the demons, thieves and spies that were hiding in plain sight setting up camp around us and just patiently waiting for the perfect time to hit you, when you most vulnerable, when your sword in relaxing in its sheath and your guards are down aimed to cut you as deep as possible… 

My advance to you…remove those dark shades from your face, looking and noticing your surrounds, take note of those there to break you, there to make you stumble, there to set you up for the next attack… However, “DO NOT ATTEMPT A SUPERHERO LANDING”, nothing done in hast will achieve the win you desire. Learn their tactics, learn the blueprint of their plan, observe their attacks… the Chinese say: 

“If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle.” ― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

“Appear weak when you are strong, and strong when you are weak.” ― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

“Let your plans be dark and impenetrable as night, and when you move, fall like a thunderbolt.” ― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

“All warfare is based on deception. Hence, when we are able to attack, we must seem unable; when using our forces, we must appear inactive; when we are near, we must make the enemy believe we are far away; when far away, we must make him believe we are near.” ― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

“Thus we may know that there are five essentials for victory: 1 He will win who knows when to fight and when not to fight. 2 He will win who knows how to handle both superior and inferior forces. 3 He will win whose army is animated by the same spirit throughout all its ranks. 4 He will win who, prepared himself, waits to take the enemy unprepared. 5 He will win who has military capacity and is not interfered with by the sovereign.” ― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

“Move swift as the Wind and closely-formed as the Wood. Attack like the Fire and be still as the Mountain.” ― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

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To Care OR Not to care…???

One of the biggest things i have noticed effects our lives on a daily basis, is how numb society has gotten to those around us and the lack of care people truly show one another, even those that love us dearly, seem to have forgotten how to care for more then just themselves. 

Over time society has fooled its self to believe that if one does not simply care ones life is easier, HOWEVER THIS IS A COMPLETE LIE! 

“The problem with love these days is that society has taught the human race to stare at people with their eyes rather than their souls”

and with the death of care all around us, it makes things even harder for those that still try to care, well actually it makes everything just that much more difficult… 

BUT THIS IS WHAT I SAY TO YOU!!!!….

You are a WARRIOR, you are Strong and you are Able, therefore never give up your empathy, understanding and care. This life will continue to try beat it out of you, convince you that life will be better without it, however when was life ever easier with out a helping hand to hold on to? If we all began to have compassion once more for one another, the wounded, the broken, the abandoned would be able to heal better then ever before, we even would have so much less bitter hurt and angry people walking around… Just choosing to continue to care no matter what can change our futures more than you realise. 

“A Kind gesture can reach a wound that only compassion can heal” - Steve ?Maraboli

Where The Flowers Have Been Walked Over

“They sit in their beautiful growth. They are observed from afar. They mark these areas, firmly staked into the ground. All it takes is one selfish, careless person to rip them out. After that, their seeds dont shake and blossom anymore. They decay and wilt. Become nothing more than a dead, pretty thing that use to be.” -  Autmn T

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The Rant of A Warrior...

There is this box, that people like to place you in. It labels you as broken, over sensitive, over thinker and weak. WHAT GIVE THEM THIS RIGHT?

I am not weak, I am a STRONG!

I care for this world, you don’t. However, I refuse to let you break my caring heart, because if i did, there would be one less caring person in this world of self minded humans. 

Yes I over think, and sometimes it is a my downfall. However, I am no fool and this world has taught me to see the different sides to every situation. 

I am NOT BROKEN! I have scares, I have wounds, I have ghosts that haunt me, and demons that refuse to drown. However, I am a FIGHTER, I am a WARRIOR, I may get knocked down but I will RISE and dust myself off every time!

WHO ARE YOU TO PLACE ME IN THIS BROKEN BOX OF SHAME, When you are the one that is judging a Warriors Soul… and WHAT GIVES YOU THAT RIGHT??? - NOTHING!!! 

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So many forget to just care….

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Some Days are more difficult to fight...

Us humans were not designed to handle the stresses and difficulties we face in this big mean busy world today. It is not your fault that some days you loose your strength, sometime we need to admit to ourselves that today our demons fought to hard and managed to reopen some of those still healing wounds. It is at this time that your wounded warrior soul needs to rest, it can not continue to fight at this very moment, and… THAT’S OK! Take the rest, Take time to lick those wounds and restore your passion to conquer. Then when the peace comes, stand once more to face those demons, you are now rested, your strength is restored and your inner warrior is ready to fight once more. 

Never try to continue the fight when you are more damaged then your strength. Don’t allow yourself loose the whole battle! YOU ARE WORTH THE WIN, YOU DESERVE THE PEACE AND YOUR WARRIOR SOUL IS STRONG ENOUGH TO CONQUER ANYTHING!!!

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The Rant of A Warrior...

There is this box, that people like to place you in. It labels you as broken, over sensitive, over thinker and weak. WHAT GIVE THEM THIS RIGHT?

I am not weak, I am a STRONG!

I care for this world, you don’t. However, I refuse to let you break my caring heart, because if i did, there would be one less caring person in this world of self minded humans. 

Yes I over think, and sometimes it is a my downfall. However, I am no fool and this world has taught me to see the different sides to every situation. 

I am NOT BROKEN! I have scares, I have wounds, I have ghosts that haunt me, and demons that refuse to drown. However, I am a FIGHTER, I am a WARRIOR, I may get knocked down but I will RISE and dust myself off every time!

WHO ARE YOU TO PLACE ME IN THIS BROKEN BOX OF SHAME, When you are the one that is judging a Warriors Soul… and WHAT GIVES YOU THAT RIGHT??? - NOTHING!!! 

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Lost to the world from the inside

This Warrior stands before a mirror, that reflects back... The scars, broken bones and wounds, both new and old, The battles faced where I was both victorious and at times defeated There has always been a path forward that she could see between all the branches Something she could believe in, passion she could trust and thrive on and motivation to face more battles just to win the war! And this is exactly why the inner realization she has stumbled upon now... stops her dead in her tracks with no understanding.

What is that realization you may wonder? Its the one where she suddenly realized everything about herself she had to rely on though all this, is gone. At this moment, The warrior fell to her knees, her wings snapped and blood seeped from her wounds. She looked inward for the strength to stand but found that it had did a disappearing act to.

She needed to change something, do something... BE SOMETHING! But the longer she has struggled to stand, the more lost and consumed by those inner demons she has become. Where ever she looked for hope, it wouldn’t even grace her with a glimmer. When she searched her dreams, they came out black and dark. Even when she looked to her head before her heart, it turned out that neither had an answer for her either. It seems as if everything she touches turns to piles of ash waiting for the wind to carry it away.

She cant continue this way but nothing seems to give either and these demons seem to continue to pull her down, deeper and deeper...

How do you change something to grow when everything refuses to give.

Credits:

Artwork and writing done by Xena-TheWoundedWarriorJBH

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The Point Where Breaking Happens

You came into my life like a beautiful dessert storm, finding me in a open plain that left me vulnerable and exposed. You hit me like the summers rain, Unexpected and Vigorous. Dripping from my fingers like diamonds from rocks - My body tingles for you but my heart is cold and course.

When you first showed up – I begged you to leave. My shelter was still in ruins and my eyes still searched for the needed resources to begin the repair. However, you insisted on staying... Promising your rain would bring the needed nourishment.

But like acid, your drops stung my skin, your words like arrows sunk right in. You promised to save me and spun me a dream, a cloak of golden sunshine I tried so hard to believe.

Just as I opened the doors to my secret places within. Removed the curtain that hid the army of demons I was facing. Gave you the bleeding pieces of my heart I had left. Left behind all I knew and loved behind to start a new with you. Shared and surrendered all I had just to help you succeed.

My greatest fear came alive like a powerful beast. Your gentle rain became a tornado that sucked me in and I lost my footing on crumbling ground. So there I was left on my bleeding knees and you stood over me and asked - Why I couldn’t see only what you could see.

The truth was – you were the one blind towards me... Creating a illusion of a three headed monster when in fact, my soul was like a waste land in Autumn - baron, bare and susceptible. Stripped of everything familiar and dependable, everything I ever knew, loved or cared for lay like dead dried up leaf’s all around me.

This is how I begun the journey through one of the most coldest winters I have ever experienced - lost, alone, broken, defeated and unsure.

I begged you to save me, I pleaded for you have empathy... But you turned away from me, forcing my survival instincts to surface, which was to cut all my emotions, and this time too a new level even I wasn’t aware possible. Then I entered a new, grander battle zone without any even a sword so defend myself from the demons that lay ahead.

During this frosty season, were I attempted to hide along the thin shadows of the baron trees, trying to avoid the many foot soldiers sent by *Abaddon* (see footnote). Their eyes of fire, setting the world around me to flame, their senses heightened... hunting for my blood again.

Although this time, you picked at me while I was running from battle after battle - Like a tooth pick picking at the unwanted pieces. When all I longed for at night, shivering in a fetal position, was your warm strong arms I once felt so safe in. But now safe is just a word...

I felt like a soul without a host. Disconnected from reality due to how you severed my last tie with the humanity, the one that felt unconditional love. You showed me a promise is no more than a means to an end. In a game where the world only spins on the axis of selfish pain.

Footnotes:

Abaddon – Herbrew – Destroyer, adivisor, said to be chief of demons. Sometimes regarded as the destroying angel

Artwork  - Designed by: TheWoundedWarriorJBH

Written work - Combined effort between myself and a dear friend - My Person

Piece written from a real challenging chapter of my life