xlittle-ghostx

[xlittle-ghostx]

your story deserves to be told, even if it’s currently told like a raccoon on energy drinks.

[xlittle-ghostx]

Little Ghost isn't anon, but Little Ghost is putting this work in a jar and keeping it on the Limbo's infinite wall of shelves with all loved works.

🦴

🦴- Break a bone; or maybe a few. (which ones? If you have a preference!)

YAYYYYY

noodle time

(a fun fact is that i always narrate on third person but the way third person is narrated and worded depends on the POV character so its a mix between first and third person. so slightly unreliable narrator always☝️)

word count: 864 content: SCP setting, mentioned failed escape attempts of background characters, briefly referenced past shooting, falling from a high height, The Prompt itself, overwhelm(?, hurt/comfort, technically a workplace accident, very slight and brief despersonalization (if thats even the name), (caused by) Numbing painkillers, very brief false suicide attempt suspicions (you know me <3) cue panic, and thats it!

Noodle walked from the white hallways towards the automatic doors, and towards the multiple stairs that were part of the direct path she was taking.

she wanted to check the cells before going inside and taking a test subject, it felt a little silly, as there was always a quintillion guards, well, guarding the cells to make sure no pranksters thought it would be funny to try to escape. it didn't stop them from trying of course, but it did make sure they wouldn't succeed.

That wasn't what worried her, what worried her was that she was almost shot once due to mere distraction of her part, she just walked in, went straight foward, and a gunshot passed right above her head, before she was ushered out immediatly, as one D-class had gone rougue.

the memory made her wary, wary enough to first check from up (and safe), and then make her way down to make some experiments, but not wary enough to abandon the experiments. they're fun! a simple accident would not take away all of this from her- the cold air of the facility, the subtle noises of tumult from other researchers, the anomalies! the phenomenon, the sheer honor of being even aware of it and welcomed and-

Noodle was now in the viewing plataform, Holding onto the metal railing, looking down. There were a couple of people behind the glass windows—or rather, walls—also viewing the cells, as one does in the viewing room. it was a little reckless then, to decide to use the little grey balcony made out of orderly seamed patterns of metal, but there was something about it that felt nice.

everything was peaceful!

…..

she saw something. there were no guns, guards were in their place, there was no blood, everything was in order… but she saw something, right at the start of the lab rat's recreational area. from where she was, she couldn't discern what it was, and it had gone inside! now she couldn't see it :(

she leaned a little more on the railing, attempting to get another glimpse. she did, but barely. she leaned a bit more, standing in her tip-toes, attempting to get a little further, going foward, foward, foward-

And then, her body did a flip foward, falling out the rail, down. she didn't even manage to grab the railing, It was just in the air for a few, dreadful seconds, twenty feet up in the air she had been, and then it was ten, and then,

there was a crack. thud at the same time. and a scream. then multiple.

god, it was the most pain she had felt ever, her leg felt- it was, holy shit, it was definitely broken, twisted, and it felt like it, after the scream followed cries and whines that she couldn't help, everything felt so horrifying unatural and overwhelming, it made everything else blur, she writhed, and it only made it worst, the lab rats surrounded her, like true scavangers, but then a gunshot was heard, and she was now surrounded by the guards, everything was just a bunch of sounds and chaos, there was someone speaking to her but it just wasn't clear enough.

she was carried somewhere surprisinly not jostled, and the whole facility, once so familar, seemed like a diferent place through her blurry eyes, that then closed, right after feeling a barely-distinguishable-over-it-all pinch.

𓃬𓃠𓃬𓃠

noodle woke up, slowly, peacefully so, oddly so. woken up by blinding white lights, soft sheets, and a beeping. she looked around, she recognized this place! it was the infirmary, it's just that she was used to see it with a diferent view…view…haha … she felt oddly numb, through her entire body, wondered if she still had it for a second. she looked down and yup, it was there. to be noted. she felt sleepy…. a nurse came inside and was promptly startled by noodle blinking at her. she asked her for how long she'd been awake, how was she feeling, noodle answered truthfully, albeit with struggle. her whole body felt heavy and weak, and she felt a little funny too, but not too much. noodle asked how long she would have to stay in the infirmary and-

"-Two broken ribs, a disjointed wrist, and there's aslo your leg that i hope you've noticed is casted, because it's split in half. sweetheart. why did you jump-"

"I didn't!"— she couldn't raise her voice too much, it hurt, her body was coming back to her, but her hushed voice was still clearly an exclamation, "i fell! i promise! i just leaned a little too much in the railings-"

the nurse interrupted her —"Listen, we would normally not let this slide without some counselling, but i'll trust you this time, simply because we have witnesses that aslo say you fell- but we'll keep an eye on you okay?"

the nurse didn't mention it- but noodle was pretty sure that it was aslo because she was the only one that didn't seem at least a little miserable in the site. noodle nodded and the nurse did some other checking before leaving her to rest. noodle fell asleep again shortly.

𓃠 𓃬𓃠 𓃬𓃠 𓃬𓃠 𓃬𓃠 𓃬𓃠 𓃬𓃠 𓃬𓃠

A/N LMAOO imagine being a guard and d-classes are calm and the anomalies are too and the birds r singing and you're like "ah so slow day" and suddenly you just see an important researcher just drop right infront of you from fucking nowhere it was funnier in my head anyways look its noodle!!! yayy!!! ten minutes on-screen and she alredy broke a leg- out of the giggling, im actually so happy of this one-shot! i wrote this in two days! it's not much but its honest and i'm proud! thank you everyone who left a prompt from that ask game <3

[xlittle-ghostx]

Sending hugs to all those who are going through a lot rn🫂🫶

[xlittle-ghostx]

Affirmations for trauma/difficult past

I have been through hell and back

I am alive and that's a damn good start

My past affects me heavily, but it does not define me

I am compassionate

I am patient

I am kind to myself, even when I don't meet my own expectations

I would never judge somebody for asking for help, because I know what it's like to be helpless

I would never judge myself for asking for help

Support from others helps me to grow and heal

I am strong for seeking support instead of suffering in silence

I am honest and I am smart

I know my own limitations and I can set boundaries for myself

I can tell people "no" when things are getting to be too much for me

I don't owe people my time or my compliance

I follow the road to recovery, even when it's difficult

I follow the road to recovery even when it's uncomfortable

I keep my head up when I walk, because I am strong

I am safe

I love who I am becoming

I love myself in this present moment

[xlittle-ghostx]

Even if you were a difficult child, you didn't deserve to be hurt.

[xlittle-ghostx]

It's okay to 'grieve' things that aren't just death. I've allowed myself to grieve a friendship ending, a situationship, losing something important to me, etc. It's okay to give yourself time to process the loss of something. Grief looks different for everyone, try to find a way that works for you to help make it easier for you.

[xlittle-ghostx]

emotional processing is so funny because sometimes you’ll be violently sobbing on your bedroom floor over something that happened 4 years ago and then you’ll just. get up and make coffee. and go to the grocery store. and take all this fundamental sadness for a walk. and ponder the cosmic experiences of humanity while eating a sandwich. and that’s healing.

[xlittle-ghostx]

One of the most dangerous things in the world is not being able to say no to people because you don't want to upset them or dissapoint them. This will completely ruin your life in every way possible, at work, in your private life, your sex life and your friendships. It's a way of removing your own consent in your own decisions and go against your wishes, it is always a crime against yourself. Let yourself have a say. Upsetting people is better than traumatizing yourself.

[xlittle-ghostx]

Who are you when you're not performing?

[xlittle-ghostx]

in case you didn't know i'm proud of you. every single crumb of effort counts. i could never know the full picture of your suffering but i know the depths that psychological pain can reach, i'm pleading with you, hold onto yourself & live for as long as you can. whatever it takes

[xlittle-ghostx]

You will meet many disabled and mentally ill people who won’t fit into your idea of how a mentally ill or disabled person is supposed to look and act - and the solution to that is to let them expand your knowledge of what mental illness and disability can look like, not insisting that they aren’t actually disabled or mentally ill because they don’t fulfill certain stereotypes.

[xlittle-ghostx]

This post genuinely altered the trajectory of my life and how i make a lot of my decisions and i think about it so much

[xlittle-ghostx]

relapse is not a moral failure. substance use and addiction are not a moral failure. mental illness is not a moral failure. disability is not a moral failure. you have a health condition. you are struggling. recovery is not mean to be perfect, and if you're not in recovery, surviving is good too. i'm glad you're here, and i hope life treats you better soon. please know this is not your fault. you do not need to feel guilty over your own health.

[xlittle-ghostx]

little ghost sends you a warm virtual hug ♡

People cherish you, people care about you, people love you, and you're an incredible person.

why am i crashing out

[xlittle-ghostx]

[xlittle-ghostx]

If you’re an American federal employee and got an email saying “it’s ok to quit your job.” Do not, for the love of everything, quit your job. This is purely a scare tactic to get rid of as many people as possible without legal consequences.

[xlittle-ghostx]

Something bad happened and you don't know what to do to feel better? Or how to do so without hurting yourself? How about trying to feel, understand, distract and appease?

To Feel

Allow yourself to feel your emotions without restricting them for as long as they need to be felt.

All emotions must be felt so that the body and mind can digest them and so that the suffering is not kept locked inside, or else it will come out in an explosion after a while. Allow your feelings to come and show where it hurts, where it is necessary to take care of yourself.

• Write a letter to a deceased loved one.

• Write a scene based on your feelings.

• Write a poem or music based on your feelings.

• Draw your feelings.

• Scribble in a paper until you filled it top to bottom.

• Dance.

• Listen to sad or emotional songs while digesting your own emotions.

• Do a heavy workout.

• Cry.

• Watch/read a fiction that lets you cry or feel angry.

• Scream into the pillow.

• Punch the pillow.

• Pratice martial art.

To Understand

Give yourself the resources and time to understand what is happening around you, and why you're feeling the way you are.

All emotional reactions have a reason to happen, so let yourself understand what triggered you, what exactly made you sad, what the pattern is, why did you do what you did? All questions that might help you understand yourself, and understand that everything you did had a reason, even if you don't understand it yet, and therefore it's not drama or pointless. Learn about yourself.

• Write down important dates that cause distress.

• Research emotional methods/activities.

• Research about mourning or pain.

• Watch physcology videos.

• Search other people's experiences similar to yours.

• Use a feeling chart, or two, or three.

• Talk about your feelings with yourself, out loud.

• Write down about your soft triggers.

• Keep a feeling diary, or a daily diary.

To Distract

Allow yourself to take your focus away from the bad things. Not always you're ready to deal with them, and that's okay.

Bad things happen often, small of big things, and not always we're prepared for them. Sometimes we think about them for too long, and we need a break. Let your brain relax from trying to cope with what is going on directly.

• Write calm/happy scenes.

• Play a game, maybe while listening to a video.

• Watch series or movies.

• Lie down and eat while doing a hobby.

• Read books, maybe while listening to music.

• Work on projects.

• Cook a new recipe.

• Do an easy and fun workout.

• Re-decorate or re-arrange your room.

• Make yourself a pillow/blanket fortress.

• Go out to shop, or eat, or spend time with friends.

To Appease

Give yourself the comfort, soothing, and sympathy you deserve. And you deserve 100% of all three.

Sometimes, you don't have someone else to comfort you and appease your emotions, and sometimes you need to do it to yourself, even when there is someone available. If you don't convince yourself that you deserve love and comfort, you'll build a wall that doesn't let other's comfort reach you.

• Meditate.

• Wrap yourself in blankets if it's cold.

• Practice self-massage.

• Eat your comfort food.

• Watch a candle burning while you rest.

• Do yoga exercises.

• Do a breathwork of your preference.

• Take a calming bath/shower.

• Do your skincare.

• Color a coloring book.

• Hug a stuffed animal.

• Hug yourself or ask for a hug.

• Open the window or go outside for fresh air.

• Confort yourself out loud as if you're two people.

• Practice the self-soothing exercise you prefer.

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There is no right or wrong here. Use just one, use all four of them, use them back and forth, hop from one to another if the first one didn't work. All I said are options, you can create your own way to feel, understand, distract and appease.

The important thing is for you to stay safe and know you're deserving of all the comfort and help in the world.

Little Ghost gives you a hug.