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I feel so empty, holy shit

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You're worth it to me. Why am I not worth it for you?

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Are you ok with things ending like this? Are you really ok with this? Are you even thinking of me right now?

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Why am I not worth it to you?

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I want to know what's it like to be loved. I want to feel loved.

But I think, I'm not made for love.

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I don't think I'll ever love someone. And I don't think anyone will ever love me.

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All I ever wanted was just one person. One person on my side.

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My parents are role models for me. They represent everything I don't want to be. They are the role models I work to be nothing like them.

...But I still love them.

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I hate when professors makes me feel stupid for asking a question :/

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I'm so broken. I want to be fixed. Will I ever be fixed? I just want to be normal. I don't want to be broken. I don't want to feel like this or think like this anymore.

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It sucks eating alone. It's so lonely. I hate it.

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Today I just realized that my dad don't change. Maybe that's why I don't want to build a relationship with him because he is still the same mother fucker from back then.

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Sometimes I wonder do I actually love my mother and want affection from her or is this me subconsciously knowing that her affection means I am safe. That her feelings towards me dictates how I am treated in the household.

Which I guess sucks. That I still feel insecure and scared. Today she loves me but tomorrow, what will happen to me if she hates me tomorrow. Will everything go back to the way it was like Cinderella when the clock strikes midnight. Will I be mistreated again. If my mother doesn't love me, everyone else will start treating me differently. What she says goes. That's how it has always been.

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I wish I could live without the trauma. But it's a part of me at this point. It won't go away. It won't leave. It won't stop reminding me. It's just there. Constantly.

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I think I need to keep myself busy in order not to feel so.....down.

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Bahahahhaha same

am i actually aromantic or is it just my disorganized attachment style find out tonight at 8

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Wholesome gif delivery!

This is nice :) thanks for the wholesome GIF. I really appreciate it ^^