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click for a surprise

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I strive to be like Mafuyu: sit on stairs and cry until someone comes and teach me how to play a guitar and end up falling for me.

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Breaking: Princess Mononoke was uploaded on Netflix and Jiaen is taking all the advantage of it to binge watch it 20 times a day.

I mean she’s gorgeous how would you not adore her.

(Took reference from a fan art I found online, added a bit of personal touch into it)

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Modern AU edits for these two babies 💕

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Waiting 

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Mafuyu sick scene 👉🏻 Wei Wuxian baby sick scene

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the Given AU I didn’t know I needed

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ever thought what would happen if WWX started a comedy show? Well, here’s what would totally happen:

https://youtu.be/G-813SFToaU

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couldn’t help sketching my imaginary boyfriend / the guy who is totally heads over heels for another guy

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Bungou Stray Dogs AU!

Wei Wuxian and Jiang Cheng 🙈

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My attempt on Kizuato, included my own depiction of the Japanese lyrics as well :D 

Hope you enjoy! And please do reblog if you liked it :) 

If you want to hear an english cover on a song, don’t hesitate to msg me and request a song! XD 

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She would cry, sometimes, but only when she thought she was alone. 

Tears would pour out from her eyes, her heart, her soul. 

“It’s nothing, it was just him.” she would always say if someone asks about her puffy eyes or sullen cheeks. “He does silly things, he’s… oblivious to many things.” 

“He’s hurting you.” A kind soul may take pity on her aching heart, but only sometimes. “You should leave him.” 

“Maybe,” she would play with the hem of her dress or the strands of her hair when someone confronts her about him. “I… I will think about it.” 

“Still,” she smiles, but it was a smile of sadness, of suffering. “I love him.”

Oh, that beautiful, yet so devastatingly torturous word. 

Exasperated sighs and shaking heads would follow. And she would be left alone to her thoughts once again, unaware of the ones who truly loved her.

“Why are you so oblivious?” She was hugging herself now, her nails etching into her soft, pale skin. “Why… How long do I have to wait until you’ll finally see that I have been waiting for you?” 

How long indeed, will she finally realise, that it is only herself who is oblivious. Oblivious to the pain he has caused her, the fear that he has implanted within her generous heart, the suffering she has gone through because of him. 

She laughed in broken gasps, as she closed the creaking door behind her. She couldn’t bear staying in the apartment any longer. It contained too many memories of them together. 

A shadow looks at her longingly from afar, too scared to approach her in her disheartened state, yet bursting with desperation to reach out for her. To do anything at all, as long as it was for her. 

Oblivious to the shadow, she walked away, a tear rolling down her cheek. 

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  Her eyes gazed at the crescent wane of the hanging moon, a shaking breath escaping from the walls of her throat. She tilted the drink in her hand absent-mindedly, unaware of the empty cans littered at her side, her lips red from the liquor. 

She let her hair down, breaking the hair tie in the rushed movement. The soft locks rolled down elegantly on her shoulders. She let her fingers run through the dark strands, a sad chuckle rumbling through her chest as she did so. 

Pathetic.

Her legs dangled from the side of the roof, the buildings below her were flickering, the lights blurred from the tears in her eyes. She doesn’t know what she’s seeing right now. Heck, she barely knew where she was. How did she get up here again? 

She didn’t care. 

A steam of anger seemed to boil from her chest all of a sudden. She threw the can to the concrete floor frustratedly, letting out a scream of unleashed pain when the aluminium can hit the ground. Why was she feeling like this? Who did this to her? Why was her chest throbbing in such pain when she didn’t even know why she was here in the first place? 

The voices in her head were getting annoying. She wanted to tear them out from her mind. Can she do that? 

She adjusted her position on the side of the railing she was sitting on. Her body was wobbling dangerously, as she admired the bustle of the city below her feet. The only thing between her and her downfall was a slight push from her arms. 

She felt tall. Taller than the world. In control of herself. 

“You shouldn’t have said that,” she muttered to herself. “Why did you say that.” 

Another opening of a can, another swig from the drink. She’s losing sense of reality. She should head back, to an artificial safety behind closed doors and white walls. She should continue to suffocate in the world she lives in. It is better to stay there, people say. 

Yet, there’s nothing stopping her from regaining her freedom by simply releasing her grasp on the railing. 

So easy, but yet, so difficult.

Maybe you would finally care when I’m dead, she thought in a surge of desperation. Maybe then, you would finally notice me. 

Oh, what toxic obsession I have for you. She laughed aloud. A strained, forced laughter. I’m an addict. Addicted to an unhealthy obsession for you. 

And I’m doing it so willingly.

She let out a strained cry that disappeared into the illuminated highways below her feet. 

Nobody can save her.

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My attempt on “fuyunohanashi”, hands down my most favourite anime song of the year ♡♡♡

Editing the video was a pain because I had to go through the Yuki memory scene again and again and it was purely heartbreaking </3 

Hope you enjoy this cover! If you didn’t... well, just enjoy my attempt on translating the song into a more (personally) ‘accurate’ version.

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My attempt on Unravel (I mean, it’s not good because everything is so rushed and clumsily put together but it’s my favourite song ever and I had to post it ahahah pls don’t mind the bad singing)