bad boy!han (jisung) [negative utopia!au]
thank you to the anon who requested this! [totally inspired by nosedive from black mirror]
warning: min. profanity! (no proofreading) [2.9k words]
also,, it’s a bad boy who is not really a “BAD” boy au
jisung has always been viewed as a “bad” boy, it was never his intention but in a world that is based on “stupid” star ratings and fake interactions,, he had no choice but to be viewed as an outcast.
after dropping below a 3.0 rating from protesting these views he held
he was disowned by his own family, but luckily was picked up by a few guys around his own age and have been with them ever since.
and now it’s been three years since chan and changbin offered a place in their run down cabin to jisung,, all of them not accepted by the world of fake smiles and friendships.
throughout the years, the three of them went along in their lives to discover the true meaning of life that was hidden by the government,, finding that there was more to the world than a swipe of 5 stars
jisung had the lowest score out of them,, still running around with that 1.4 rating above his head that created on-lookers who were complete strangers to continue to drop his level down
and this is where you come around
you were from a family of high 4.0s,, you being a 4.7 who had never gone below a 4.5 in years
you had always been used to the artificial interactions you come across in your everyday life,, whether it was given something on the house for an easy 5 star rating or someone who complimented you with their full pearly whites, smiling so hard and wide that their botox was seeping out of their pores,, you became numb to it and would respond back with the same disingenuous smile before swiping your thumb to the five star option
it was your everyday,, and almost everyone else’s in the small bubble you associated with so you never felt odd or out of place with your routine
it was something that you could expect a mlle away,, probably even in your sleep
“good morning, y/n.” jennifer says with a giant smile, “would you like a croissant? they gave me an extra one by accident.”
you smile back, although on the inside you were frowning in disgust, “no thank you.”
‘a little try-hard aren’t you? just for a five star, yuck.’ you mentally groaned as you slid through her timeline, full of pictures of her dogs
you couldn’t lie, you had a soft spot for cute puppers which raised her score to a mediocre 3 star rating
funny how she was acting all nice then immediately curses you out once you left the elevator as she saw her level ding down a few decimals
you walked out of the apartment complex, mindlessly scrolling through the timeline that was projected on your phone not paying attention to the world around you
that was when you bumped into him,, your eyes widened as you laid eyes on the blond boy who had a flashing 1.4 at the side of his face
“s-sorry.” he mumbles, “i should’ve paid attention to where i was going.”
you furrow your brows, pondering how someone like him was able to get such a low score
“the 1.4? yes, it’s low. no, i’m not on double-damage. yes, i’m perfectly fine at where it is.” it was as if he had read your mind
you smile, almost genuinely the feeling quite odd to you, “i hadn’t even said anything yet.”
his smile was radiating, sending a pang into your chest, even if it was just a small half smile it was one of the brightest smiles you have seen in a long time
his hand was on the back of his neck as he laughs off your statement, “i just know that look. i’ve gotten them almost every day for the past three years.”
he was intriguing, everything about him sparked your curiosity, from the way he felt so genuine to the story he held behind that flashing score
“what’s.. your name?” you ask, putting your phone aside, your heart wanting to interact with him face-to-face rather than letting you find out his every detail by yourself from your phone
“do you not want to look yourself?” he asks, that same half smile on his face, “a 4.7 actually wanting to have a conversation with me?”
you shrug, cocking your head sideways, “there’s just something about you.” ‘that makes me want to learn more and more.’
“the name is jisung.” now your chest was twisting when he smiled widely, it had looked the same as every smile you’ve seen but how did his make you feel so differently?
the way his eyes curled into crescent moons and his nose crinkled. the way his smile felt so warm and at home unlike all the other ones you’ve seen that were cold and distant.
“jisung.” the way the name rolled around your mouth made you giddy and warm, “i like it.”
his laugh was hearty, bouncing off of his chest and the way he threw his head back as he laughed made you want to laugh but you didn’t know how to sound as genuine as he did
you subconsciously heard that awful sound of his level dinging down every minute he spent standing outside with you as yours was ringing up causing you to scrunch your face in uneasiness
“it’s okay, i’m used to it.” jisung mumbles, nothing about his tone was sad or disappointed
you looked around at the people around you, how they were looking at you and jisung differently although you both were doing the exact same thing
the only difference was his low score and your high one
“i should probably get going, i wouldn’t want you to ding down.” his smile was still radiating, how was he able to be so positive in a world that treated him so poorly?
“i’d love to see you again one day!” it was one of your automated goodbyes, but this time saying it felt so authentic to you
“you can always find me with that phone of yours.” he says before waving goodbye
‘phone of yours? what could be possible mean by that?’
it had been a few days since your encounter with jisung
he was wrapped around your everyday thoughts, something always leading you back to your short conversation that you held with him
you were sitting at the breakfast bar in your family home, mindlessly scrolling through jisung’s feed for the tenth time in hopes that he would give an update
you were hesitant to send him a message, scared that he would ignore you
your father places a hand on your shoulder, giving you a startle
you instantly shut off your phone and turn to look at him, that fake smile wrapped itself onto your lips once again
“i talked to your reputelligent therapist.” he started, taking a seat beside you on the empty stool, “he showed me your conversation with that 1.4 kid.”
you gulped down, now feeling extremely nervous which was also a new feeling
“i don’t like that kid.” he says outright not hesitating anything he says, “you know what means, I shouldn’t have to hear about him again the next time i talk to your therapist.”
“therapist.” you scoff, “a fucking therapist? you call him a therapist? dad, he looks at how i swipe my finger i’m pretty sure that’s not a therapist!”
you anger was boiling, you’ve never been so upset at anyone like this before
“do not speak to me in that tone.” ironic as his was just as harsh and cold as yours was, but what was the point when everyone spoke that way towards each other in this house.
“then don’t judge a book by it’s cover, or in this case a person by their number.” you snap, before hopping down from the stool and heading to your room
as you were almost at the end of the hallway you heard that disgusting down-voting sound that you heard when you were with jisung
you look down to see that your father had given you a single star rating which caused you to,, loosen all of your held up aggression
“you would do that to your own child?” you were screaming at this point, your face was red and your knuckles became white as you gripped your phone tightly, “all of this is just a game to you isn’t it?”
he huffed, furrowing his brows and crossed his arms across his chest to close himself away from your attacks, “you deserved it.”
“even the conversations you have with your own children have to be rated? do you even know a life where you don’t rate every interaction?” your tone was bitter, but you were speaking from your mind
something you hadn’t done in years
“stop it now, y/n.” he insisted.
“all this life is to you is holding that stupid 4.8.” you pointed at the flashing number beside his face, “i guess genuine isn’t in your vocabulary anymore.”
and with that, you walked past him towards the front door, another down-vote sound ring from your phone,, you don’t even bother to turn around since you felt his eyes boring through the back of your head,, all you did was raise your arm to flip the bird at him.
the outside world felt different to you,, trying to distract yourself from the flashing numbers beside everyone’s face
you had that urge to rip out your eye-implant that allowed you to see it
the bubble in your throat was threatening to become into a sob, the overwhelming feeling rushing through your body after releasing all your pent up anger
you felt a ring coming from your phone, it wasn’t a rating this time but a text
‘two one star ratings? ouch.’ you read the message summary from your notification screen, the name sending your mind into a whirl
jisung
‘you’ve been watching my score? you don’t seem the type.’
‘and you’ve been watching my feed so you don’t seem like that type either.’
‘touché. we should talk.’
‘i can meet you by the old library?’
jisung had ran the library after you agreed,, his heart was racing and some of his strand of hair stuck to his sweaty forehead
you were sitting at the front of the building, looking at the scenery around you instead of putting your nose into your phone
“what was it,, being rude to a cashier or being too loud in the back of a taxi or was it both?” he was already smiling, not bothering to greet you with the usual hi, hello, how are yous
you chuckle, “you won’t believe me if i told you.”
“try me, i’ve gotten a one star for almost everything you could possibly think of.” he sat beside you, leaving inches between the two of you
“defending you.” your voice was soft, but you turn to look at him.
his eyes widened and the confusion was written all over his face
“defending me? you’re kidding right?” his tone had changed, his smile faded into a thin straight line.
“i was right. i knew you wouldn’t believe me.” you laughed again, it was more of a in-your-face-i-told-you-so laugh
the feeling between the two of you changed,, it was tense and the air was so thick you could cut it with a knife
“why would you ever defend me? you don’t even know me.” he sounded rather upset and it struck you in the wrong way,, why would he be upset for you helping him?
“jisung,, just because i don’t know you well doesn’t mean i shouldn’t stand up for you from people who judge you just for your number.” your eyebrows furrow in frustration,, you didn’t have the words to express your emotions
“who was it?”
“my,, dad.” you hesitated to answer, you were still trying to process the argument you had with him earlier
“are you a fucking idiot?” his tone was harsh, just like the one you had heard come from your father. his body language went through the same process, closing himself away from you.
“excuse me?” you asked,, taken aback by his reponse
“are you stupid? why would anyone in their right mind defend a 1.4 especially you,, a person with a 4.5.” you could tell his stance was getting more serious, he had turned into someone you’ve never seen before
granted,, you’ve only seen him once and stalked his feed but more so you’ve never expected such a happy-go-lucky guy be so serious and upset
“so what you’re saying is that i should have let him bad-mouth you?”
he shrugged, “what’s new? it’s not like i don’t go through it everyday anyways. one more person doing it wouldn’t hurt me.”
“jisung,, just because people do it all the time does not mean it’s okay!”
“i don’t want you the end up like me!” he finally screams, “as happy as i am with where i am in life,, i don’t want you to end up being mistreated like i have. you’ve been so sheltered with your score… there’s so many things people do to you just because of the number of your score.”
it took him a minute to calm down,, and he leaned against the wall of the building before looking at you again
“i was disowned by my family after protesting against the reforms..i see them in town and they won’t even blink an eye in my direction. everywhere i walk in town i get cursed at or tossed around,, i’m seen as a bad guy and i really don’t want that to happen to you.”
“but you’re happy.” you acknowledged, “you’re happier now than i would ever be if i stayed in my home and i want that happiness in my life jisung. i’m so tired of all of the artificial interactions.. of all the fake smiles and the fake friendships.”
your eyes began to water, “even if means that i have to give up my family and my privileges of having a high score to be happy,, i would do it.”
jisung looked at you, watching the tears stream down your face. his heart twisted in his chest,, looking at you reminded him of himself three years ago
“you’re not a bad guy.” you whisper, still choking on the sob you were trying to keep in, “everyone in this town doesn’t even know what a real interaction is anymore and it’s sad.”
“you really want to leave everything behind.. for me?”
that’s what made you laugh,, you knew he was teasing you as well from his emphasis on ‘for me’
“shut up.” you laugh, his teasing helping you feel better, “i’d give everything up if that meant i could be happy and if you happen to make me happy in the long run then yeah for you as well idiot.”
so,, you never ended up reconciling with your father. you avoided him when you had gone home that day after meeting with jisung.
jisung had told you to give a thought for a bit before jumping into a big decision over fresh anger
but you,, knew it was the best decision you could make as once you got home,, your brother and mother were both ignoring you already as if they all made a silent agreement to not see you as family anymore
that night you packed a bag and jumped out of your window,, not even bothering to leave a letter goodbye
you messaged jisung about your actions as you were walking back to the empty library with a duffle on your side,, he was already there when you arrived
jisung had convinced chan and changbin to make room for you,, as you really didn’t have anywhere else to go. they decided to use your score to their advantage until it went down in return for housing.
you didn’t object to it,, jisung and you were assigned to go around running errands and that’s when your score started to spiral down to match jisung’s
word had spread quick that you left your family
after a year of being free,, you couldn’t ask for anything different. you were happy.
now whenever you looked back to your first encounter with jisung,, it all made sense of how and why he was so happy.
“so you did do it for me.” he teases, holding your hand as you both walked downtown to the grocery store
“not really for you when we weren’t even dating when i left everything.” you joke back, wrapping your arm around his still holding into his hand
“that’s only because you wouldn’t admit you liked me until six months ago!”
“as if! you’re the one who couldn’t ask me out until changbin told me you were trying to so I asked you!”
“but you wouldn’t change it for the world right?”
“hey that’s my line.”
and he was right, you definitely wouldn’t change it for the world.
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