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So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby (via thegreatgatsbydaily)

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Can i make it better? Can i make it right? All the things that have gone wrong. Can i make it right?

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Make it right!

Sitting with a large group of friends, laughing hard on silly things, making fun of each other, celebrating and after eating our fav food seeing each other off waving goodbye with a smile knowing that you have a life. Oh i am just imagining right now laying on my bed but that’s alright it was happy to imagine.Then opening your eyes and scrolling down the status updates of a fellow & looking at them suddenly tears come out. Why? I cut them out of my life one by one. Why? I isolated myself. Why? I was afraid and immature. Why? Couldn’t i be brave enough to say hi to a person who loved me. Why? Do i hate them. They are ones happy without me. There they are sitting together happy and smiling in real life & here i am imagining i would go out and have fun. Why? Inspite of being center of attention for 3 years called as most confident person admired by every individual to be a girl with all achievements…. Why i lost my self-confidence? When they said they liked same person i liked why wasn’t i brave enough to tell aloud i am in love. Why i believed i could stay alone? I am in agony, pain, sadness, emptiness and I can’t even cry out loud because i pretended all this tine that i can stay alone. I can’t cry because i pretended to be happy in front of my family. I can’t cry because i pretended to be busy. Want to cry hard want to weep out loud want to tell out aloud i am alone and sad. Want to let go of these emotions. But i can’t cuz i pretended i was happy alone and now i am stuck in a conflict of my mind and heart and my life is going by. Please oh please tell me how to make it right! I want to make it right! Please!!! #HeartBroken #Sad #Empty #Nolife #fear