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I’m on a journey to being a functional alcoholic until 11pm hits! Sigma! loving the life! i love drinking so fucking much i love it man

yeah

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i love giving myself burn wounds from my heating pad on my stomach because of period pains xoxoxo. i fucking hate this stupid ass organ i want to rip it out with my bare hands and then place it into a jar of pure acid until it dissolves i fuckinf hate periods and i hate HOW THEY HURT SO MUCH I CANT WALK! AND THEN THE FOCTOR SAYS THWYRE NORMAL AND FINE TO HAVE THE CRAMPS YAYAYAY!!!!! COXOXO KISS MY ASS FUCK YOU WORLD

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tell me if this shit is aesthetic 2017 instagram. I fucking love this bar.

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did i lose or gain aura today during my grad when after convocation i went to my english teacher and started fumbling over my words basically holding back tears as i voice crack spewing out how i was so happy he was my english teacher (i could tell he was uncomfortable) LMAO!!! and how i am severely grateful that he managed to mix teaching and still express his identity too. and also how fuck, nice it was to talk to him especially with how lonely i was during school like shit

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i just drank so much alcohol today and i feel so fucking amazing god i know why people get addicted fuck

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Bring back kissing scars. god, it’s a lost practice in this world fuck

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Literally found the most cutest ashley bra at the thrift today. the pink bows are EVERYYYTHING to me!!!! Ugh i love it

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need need neeeeed a pair of thrifted mary janes, some black ones just in time for autumn. that’s the next shoe i desire!!!

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My june voyage of starving. haven’t done this in a while, but man it feels good to be back home. i just want my horrendous face fat to be gone

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Why does everything have to involve another party. i hate lying alone in bed with my smouldering thoughts overtaking my every move leaving me fuckin paralyzed. i’m so alone, so very alone. i merely want someone to caress my skin with tender touches and to tell me that i am still a salvageable human that is not doomed. man. i truly hate being human. it is a curse, never a blessing

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i just got this true 1950s dress from the mail and it smells like cigarettes and GENUINE ashes but its CUTE I SWEAAAAR IT JUST NEEDS TLC 😢😢😢

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i only had about 500 calories today and my body is being so fawkinnn dramatic, getting hunger pangs chronically for 8 hours straight like cmon bud… and to top it off im so irritated and tired but the grind doesn’t stop 🤷‍♀️😙 i need to jack off or something

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actively starving yourself after a while feels so fucking normal, like is starving really thaaat bad when all the healthy foods you eat actually taste decent now? fruit with dark chocolate tastes like pure sugar and sex to me, and don’t get me started on popcorn and my egg white pizza. ive had eating issues for years and course i know it’s ‘bad’ but i swear i’ve never felt better!!! it’s addicting and the results are so, so rewarding!

(i’m having too much fun with colouring in the words i never knew this omg)

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july is coming so soon… another month for restriction. i hope i have less unplanned binges 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 i swear the stomach is always last to go i hate how it looks when i’m sitting

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i literally feel like death after a binge this a reminder to myself; my stomach is bloated and i feel sloppy and disgusting and like i’m gonna yack at any moment, so stop fucking binging!!! not even worth it in the end, ever. i feel like pure shit but at least tomorrow is a new day to fast 😞 I swear i will not binge until my planned day, i SWEAR!!!!!

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i need to STOP eating holy fuck. tomorrow is gonna be an attempt at fasting all day. wish me luck

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mio peach mango syrup + diet coke = pure sex