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always the same

when i think its over he always come up with some privileges to her, suggesting that shes the best

WHAT THE FUCK SHE HAS THAT I HAVEN'T??? what makes them think shes better than me??? and what do i DO to prove them im better???

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its unbelievable my heart hurts so bad i can stand her living my dream right in front of me being chose for all the roles getting the attention supposed to be mine im so tired of being second always i just want the attention she got the reputation she got im so jealous its depressing me to death

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why am i so jealous of her its burning me out

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there was i weighing myself feeling so skinny legend queen of starvation and for my surprise i have GAINED 2kg how tf did that happen

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im stopping taking carbolithium this crap just expanded my waist and now im full big and unable to go back to normal

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after mouths along, i got dizzy today 🤹‍♀️yaay

im doing something right 💪

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i gotta stop surfing between 41 and 44 always losing and gaining the same 3kg i just wanna be 38kg again

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ok so i have five days to lose 3kg is that possible

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finally all this partying thing is over and i can get back to my starvation schedule

my goal this year is 2015s lily rose depp body

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i keep wondering why is not my girlfriend as obsessed with me as im with her

no med is gonna keep me stable in this scenario im about to make A MESS

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just updating i dont wanna jump in front of a car anymore my girlfriend loves me again

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thinking about jump in front of a car tomorrow

maybe this way i can get my gf's attention cause i think shes waiting for things to get worse

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right after i wish a clear sign of illness my hair started to fall and now it's falling and falling

that was NOT what i meant

now im bald and still BIG could i get uglier

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just saw a post about the fear of reach the wg and still be a so so

im just 3kg away from the ideal weight for my high and.. i look.. im not.. yk..?

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i got static in my 41kg 😭😭😭😭

just lose 4kg please im begging just 4kg and im there ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

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WORST WEEK EVER!

ive been eating like a normal person since last week and i feel SO SO BIG

why tf did i do that, why i gotta be too weak for starve all the way????

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i need to stop being so self rewarding

every time i do a good job and got my pounds down i go off the rails like "oh just one meal not gonna kill me im already progressing" just to realize ive been eating like a normal person for 3 days in a row and it fucking feels like a binge