#& that i was strong & wouldnt get it. & then i got it not too long ago. she won. she won & she knows it & shell make sure i do too

[red-dyed-sarumane]

the selfie post in question

type of vibe we have going on most days.

bonus: omg its them

[gamblersdoll]

hmmmm thinking about singledad! sakamoto who moves in next to a younger neighbor, shes so much younger— you had to at least be in your late twenties and technically just came out of college not too long ago.

but it becomes a pretty friendly relationship, both of you occasionally going out for dinner or lunch every other friday— he set that up, wanting to at least see you a bit.

“how have you been?” he deeply asks, glasses hiding his eyes and he takes a bite out of the medium rare steak. he doesn’t necessarily look at you, because he knows how you look.

beautiful.

“well, work is okay, people are just… people.” you sigh, hairs raising on your neck and arms from the cool chill in the restaurant. “i got some new tumblers yesterday, oh! and i got a new dress, i havent tried it on yet— then i got a bit of commission from work..” you rambled on, and on, and on, and on… luckily he had enough patience to listen to you for so long— because not many would pay attention.

he nods when you speak, however. keeping to himself was easy, socializing was another chore for him.. but he didnt mind it with you.

that was way before you both had a little too much to drink when you met back at your cute little condo, his hands gripping tight when he grazed your thighs. “ ‘m not too heavy, am i?” he sloppily asks, open mouth kissing on your stomach.

“mm mm.” you grunt, hands on his shoulders when he suckles on a sensitive nipple. “easy— easy.. their kinda sensitive today.. “ you mumble, feeling the suction of his mouth soften.

“that better?” he asks, a large hand on your belly and it makes you slowly dumber. “easy, girl..” he chuckles, hands gravitating to your hips. “want to do something for me, sweetheart?” he asks, seeing how eager you nod.

blindfolds werent always your thing— but, some men and women earned the privilege of it. especially when they take you to dinner and you know theyd kiss the ground you walked on. everything had went dark, but you felt his breath on your skin.

“mr.. sakamoto?” you mumble, somewhat nervous but trusting of the man. “yer still here.. right?”

“of course; wouldnt leave you like this..” he replied back, you feel a strong dip in the bed, and then something warm on your stomach. “stay still, or youll be even messier.” you now questioned what this man was doing, because you couldnt tell— nor smell what it was. “there you go.” he chuckles, tossing whatever it was to the side and everything gets quiet again.. “be very still, okay?”

you nod, feeling his hot breath back on your soft tummy and his even hotter muscle. you jump a little bit, getting a reassuring ‘mm—mm..’ from him. “what is that?” you giggle with a whine. “its warm and it feels thick—“

“youll find out.” he holds you, still and eager for you as much as you were for him. “makes you taste even sweeter than i bet you are.” he growls with a guttural throat, licking all the way up to your breasts.

“what was that even supposed to be?” you lie in the bed, blankets covering you up until he slowly takes them off, a warm rag dipping against your stomach. “was it like an edible lube or massage oil?”

his face somewhat turns red, a crack in his glasses with a quick shaking of his head. “then what?”

“.. would you be disgusted if i said chocolate?”

[tangledinlove]

I'm begging for those killerverse thoughts!!!

Hi some territorial killer and luke crumbs were requested by @10473051329 which is honestly real asf so here are some thoughts 💭

ok so i think obviously luke and killer are a bit possessive of each other when they start dating (thats being generous tbh) like of course theyre weird and possessive as a couple they were weird and possessive as friends too 😭😭

so as loser teenagers ofc they have moments of super petty jealousy (and u see it when rhey first kiss too) BUT i feel like as a couple they might just maybe tone it down a little bit. they feel so secure with the other and now that theyve finally admitted their feelings i feel like they wouldnt worry nearly as much about some random stealing the other away. bc well. theyre in love and they know it!!

however their relationship is also a SECRET lol. so theyre trying to keep everything on the low but that means theres moments where one of them just isnt strong enough lol… I imagine killer watching luke have a conversation and thinking Why are you laughing so loud at his jokes. My Boyfriend’s jokes. Jokes made by my boyfriend who is Mine. but obviously she cant say that so killer just like appears out of the blue whenever luke is spending a little toooo much time talking to someone else lol

anyways since i think their possessiveness during their relationship is a lot more quiet and subtle i think the PEAK of their “territorial”ness goes super hand in hand with the peak of their protectiveness. and Boy oh boy the most protective luke ever is is right after they get to camp.

Just picture it…theyve spent all these years living on their own with no one to rely on but each other (+ annabeth and thalia who just DIED right in front of them… rip girl) so the second they get to chb they’re still kind of settling into what its like to be somewhere safe because they just spent the last years needing to watch the other person’s back at all times

i think its really funny to compare luke to a feral dog because he kind of is in my mind. and lets just say he totally resource guards killer LOLLL. i posted an excerpt from demigod diaries a while ago and iirc luke basically was like “i have to take on the role of a dad rn” when hes with thalia and annabeth. so i imagine when they first get to camp his brain is still wired into like full blown defense.

they definitely cling to each other (as expected. its like when u go somewhere new and only know one person there lol) but i think luke definitely clings in a defensive way. doesnt let killer go anywhere without him, constantly is trying to keep her in his eyesight, the whole nine yards lol.

and like she loves him duh but it makes it kind of weird whenever shes trying to make friends in whats basically their new home because hes a LURKER. and a starer. 💔 dont get me wrong luke is still as charming and as sweet as ever but whenever killer talks to someone new the other person can just Feel him nearby. like his presence just feels so heavy lmfaoo (probably cos hes lowkey evil) but anyway hes staring the stranger DOWN. which is crazy because at camp everyones so young so hes literally analyzing these thirteen year olds and u can literally see him get antsy when they stand too close to his friend

the dating rumors start not long after they get to camp. as expected.

when they start to settle in and get used to their new life the territorial act definitely chills out a little bit! but sometimes when they reminisce killers like “lol dude remember when we first got here and clayton tried helping me out of a kayak” and luke just groans bc he knows whats coming. and she just laughs and is like “i cant believe you accidentally pushed him into the water trying to help me first” and hes like “😐😐😐 that didnt happen.”

(it totally did btw)

[teh-inggris]

New pvp civ spoiler!!!! (basically just my commentary as im watching the new episode

I WOKE UP LIKE SOME MINUTES AGO AND SAW THE NOTIF??? DUDE I WAS CALMLY EATCHING THEN SEEING SEAWATTS SKIN ACTUALLY SHOCKED THE TIREDNESS OUT OF ME I HAD SUCH A VISCERAL REACTION OH MY GOD BOWWATT IS REALLLL

AND THE ANIMATIONNN QDANDY COOKED ONCE MORE

The trident disappeared aw naw. But evbos line in this tho😭 "fortunately missed, skill issue"

Omg wait?? So natural born swords actually CANT harm him?? Like hit as much as they want he wouldnt even take damage??

HI PARROT

"its not like theres everyone to fight him-" STOP JINXING SHIT

Also as im watching this im just thinking like. Seawatt gave him 1 min to explain himself but its been approx 14 min now. Wonder what theyre doing right now in bow civ like is seawatt just voluntarily listening to all of this😭

"if a player is defeated by a secondary weapon instead of an actual weapon, the defeated player's weapon can be picked up and put in your inventory" ok so the nat born swords were basically burnt alive or killed by potion effects (bc im assuming the only secondary weapons are flint n steel and potions) by the other civs and farmed for their swords before evbo even existed thats. cool

EVBO KILLED HIS OWN KIN 😭😭 the emotion in his line when realized that tho😭😭😭

So green is bow. thats cool

SO IM CORRECT. IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT THE WEAPON IS, as long as the player is still holding a weapon theyll still live!! Thats why tabi was allowed to switch between the eternal sword and her axe!!

HOLY SHIT CLOWNPIERCE

and it ends like that......

Anyway i checked the comments. and . bro what is this

its true ig seavbo is still real in another universe. doomed yaoi too strong it transcends realm or whatever. i hope seawatt gets to live till the end of the story and doesnt die bc he got betrayed by someone he thought he could trust tho 😃 ahahhaha <- trying not to jinx myself

Anywayss!!!!! im getting ideas for new art. Rubs my hand together

WAIT WAIT WSIT I JUST REALIZED. OH MY GOD. WHAT HAPPENED TO BOW CIV IS LIKE A REPEAT OF WHAT HAPPENED TO THE FIGHTER LEVEL OH MY. G G.G... HEAD IN MY HANDSSSS HES THE ONLY SURVIVOR LEFT IN HIS CIV AND HE SWORE VENGEANCE AGAINST EVERY SWORD WHO ENTERED TO AVENGE EVERYONE WHO DIED. HEAD IN MY HANDSS IVE SEEN THIS FILM BEFORE. AND I DIDNT LIKE THE ENDINGG

[onlyjaeyun]

i’ve been following ur writing for some time now and i do have to agree with that anon who said you did CH dirty. you are a very talented writer so it’s just hard to watch.

you started off CH so strong with the lore and little chapters here and there but as it progressed you kind of just got lazy and it shows. when important events happened in the story, they weren’t conveyed through writing but through the texts (ie the riki and yn fight, that was definitely worth a written chapter) and it was honestly disappointing.

the ending isn’t much to say about either. yn and hoon barely go through development after the letter incident and all of a sudden they’re dating and married with a kid like two chapters later?

idk, if it was a mental health issue then i get that but even then you should’ve just gave it a break and thought everything out more. you could do so much better.

thank you for the feedback!

i wanna put you through the progess of a piece of writing from the POV of a writer okay? now keep in mind: i work two jobs, am a fulltime uni student and the daughter of an immigrant household with two parents who still work most of the day just so you know what else i have to deal with, besides my mental health okay?

now, i started off CH strong right? yes. i uploaded on the daily, fine i chose that. a chapter usually takes me around one hour if i actually sit down and focus on nothing but the chapter itself, which includes IG stories, editing, formatting etc. alright

on top of the daily chapters, i constantly replied to 40+ asks a day, a blessing in disguise because no matter how much i enjoy talking to you guys, the pressure does get worse the bigger that number of my inbox becomes, i hope this makes sense

now, i started CH back in october, right when my semester started, thats why i started off strong but as time went on, my assignments and private life got too busy and i guess i felt entitled enough as a writer to skip a few certain chaps and make life a little easier for me by making them regular chapters instead of written ones.

and this is gonna be my main point: i'm not a machine. i wrote a minimum of 5 THOUSAND words per written chapter, MINIMUM. we're talking about a 5-9 THOUSANDED worded chapter EACH WEEK. which usually took me about 6-7 hours, even allnighters.

yes, i chose to do that and maybe my time management wasn't the best but i had to create a compromise where i wouldnt have let you guys wait for over two months which would have resulted in me losing my motivation completely, and yet still focusing on EXAMS. because you know, i'm a fulltime uni student with TWO jobs 😮‍💨

if YOU think i did CH dirty go write an alternative ending yourself but it should be a minimum of 15 chapters including 5 written ones, with at LEAST 9k words each yeah? i wanna see you manage it all, pls prove me wrong snd show me you're better than me i'm genuinely begging bc it might inspire me to do "better" next time.

as a writer/artist/creator, and i can tell you probably arent one yourself or havent been one for long, the longer smth takes to come to an end the worse the pressure becomes which results in a blockage i dont wish upon my worst enemy i'm being deadass. i dealt with some of the worst writer's block ive had since i started writing literally 12 years ago and you're telling me i should have just "taken a break" and do "better"

i never, ever expected anything from anyone but some of you are so entitled to a writer's time and skill it's giving me a headache. maybe you didn't like the timing and writing of the last few chapters of CH and i guess that's unfortunate but this was so unnecessary because you completely dismissed everything else that could have been going on in my life and even belittled my mental health issues like im some fucking AI writing machine

do better, be nicer, write it yourself if you don't like it i'm so fucking over this

if i had gotten out of my own comfort and wellbeing and have actually written another set of written chapters i would have burned myself completely out. ive been in this fandom for not even a year and have already finished FOUR smaus with 50 chapters each, you do NOT get to tell me what i should or could have done better because you dont even give a fuck about me as a person this is just about receiving what YOU think YOURE entitled to but this is MY art and I will do what I see fit even if it's not what was expected of it because i'm a fucking human being with a life before i'm a writer on tumblr

oh, also: i do this for free ㅤ:) just a reminder :) this is my HOBBY :)

and don't you EVER call me lazy again when it comes to writing because i'm not gonna pour my heart and soul into a fic just for you to call me lazy when i literally wrote 50 THOUSAND words for this fucking fic just for the written chapters

goodbye

[fictionfixations]

MAKING PROGRESS

its not all doomed for me

my problem is that by the time i get here my main team (the only 6 identities who are decently leveled and uptied) who ive been using to beat the story until now are dead or halfway dead (sometimes they survive to the first stagger and a little more but then poof)

so im thinking of grinding to level them up more and then if that still doesnt work then guess im in it for the long haul and grinding to get the other half of the sinners up too which might take awhile (..i really wanna be able to interact with limbus company stuff without worrying about spoilers so im tempted to just watch someone play through the story so i can just relax a bit more without worrying about getting hit with major spoilers and having to speed through as fast as i can to catch up)

im sure this is a lot easier for like the type of players whove been playing the game for awhile and like grinding over time while theyre all caught up to get other identities up too so they probably wouldnt have had my problem (except for like near the start where youre just kinda running with the the first few three stars you get and its only over time that you gather more identities and so on)

but i also started like two weeks ago so like i mean im giving myself some slack here 💀

anyway the other thing is that i recently got a rodya ego that heals so thatll probably be helpful i just dont have her leveled at all outside of exp gained from battles so ill have to work on that and threadspin her ego too

if i can, at least 3 stars to be at uptie 3 or more, and 2 stars maybe around uptie 2 (or less idk im still gonna be fighting her as many times as i can outside of this to see how much progress im making and what else im lacking in) cause thats still like a LOT of thread and i have 2 stars as the last backup so they'll only arrive at the end so if all goes well they dont need to be that strong

ive been kinda wanting to also try out the getting a bunch of shards and just getting the identity from the dispenser so ive been saving a bunch of rodya's shards and the crates where you can choose, i havent used them yet because as if i havent done this before im a little worried of taking too long and half of it being turned into thread (again im new so i dont really know how long things last, im sure seasons last awhile but let me be cautious) so ill either be around 1/4 or 3/4 depending on how many shards i get from those crates

i have 90 crates and 66 of her shards so its progress

im not sure which id ill go for after i have enough shards so ill have to see

ive been using the princess of la manchaland as a support id (besides manager of la manchaland, ive been switching to see which does better imo) so that wouldve been cool but twas last season so unfortunately not

heres what i have right now i guess?

i have one other identity for the two stars and i havent touched them sicne starting the game so im switching to the other for now since im thinking they might work better then the other identity i had except for ishmael because her third skill can heal 100% of damage dealt at less than 25% hp which idk could serve as a last resort if it needs to be

anyway thats my gameplan

since i know i can make progress now on the actual fight the problem is my survivability

[brella-boi]

Building Dango: Part 2

I actually finished this step a couple weeks ago but was too busy to post with con prep, so here it is now!

In this edition were getting the EVA foam together. I got a big ole cutting board before starting for about 7 quid so its easier to cut out the large shapes.

But first! Tracing.

We got ourselves the paper pattern to trace and slightly edit. Drop that sucker on the foam. And start cutting.

For the eyes I am planning to have them domed. Which means I got these googly eyes im going to deface to steal the plastic dome from.

Cutting the circle was honestly the most nerve-wracking part of this, and I did it in 4 segments just to be as careful as possible.

I wouldng exactly call cutting the EVA foam easy tbh. I was using mainly 10mm super high density foam as the base structure. That is to make sure that the base head is strong and isnt going to warp during movement. My exacto knife wasnt entirely... long enough to cut through it in one go, and I wouldnt say I was strong enough to do that even if it could lol. My arm and hand hurt afterwards, and theres some parts that came out a little crooked.

A lot of EVA sculptors cut their edges at an angle, and honestly, i was too scared to do that and mess up the angle with how *rough* cutting this already was. So I opted for just simple straight edges. I probably shouldve added some extra space here or there and thought about the fact this foam is 10mm thick. But oh well.

Whats important is its cut and we can move onto gluing.

Now we could use hot glue, or super glue. But the recommendation from Pros is Contact Cement. So thats what were gonna use.

Honestly this was pretty easy. You mark one side and swipe it down evenly with a scrap piece, you leave it to dry for like a minute or two, do the second piece where the first is gonna connect. Let that dry. Then put the two pieces together. Revolutionary shit im telling you. The bond is so damn strong too im shook.

Theres several parts I wasnt too happy about though. The top and longest piece wasnt long enough and ill need to compensate for it later. And some cuttings werent identical like I wanted. The biggest issue was the fact I didnt take into account the thickness of the foam overlapping at the jaw. So its. Well it doesnt exactly fit right now. But that will be fixed with sanding. A lot of sanding.

Youre probably looking and pointing at the black pieces of foam too. Thats 4mm low density foam. I wanted it for building details.

For the horn I ran into the problem of it possibly being heavy. And with its placement, it needs to be *light*. Initially I was going to use three pieces of 10mm high density foam. But that sucker weighed about 70 grams together. Thats. A lot. To be put on the tip of the mask.

You may be quick to suggest to carve out two pieces of low density foam as the horn, bend it, and make it hollow. And to that I say: im not experienced enough with eva foam to do that and also i dont want it to get crushed inside a luggage into a deflated Thing.

So i tried to weigh up the difference between the low and high density. And it turns out i can just use 2 pieces of low density foam that equal the size of the high density one, but it weights *half as much*. So instead i used high density as the core of the horn, surrounded by 4 pieces of low density. Which reduced the horn to about 40 grams! Yippe!!

And with it all put together... it is super blocky. And i am dreading figuring out how to sand it, and actually make it wearable.

[oceanlandworld]

drugs cw, long rambling

we got my fave ketamine-esque drug a few days ago and i did some for the eclipse and it was extremely fun... i felt a little bad about not being outside For the eclipse but it was so cloudy here that my mom even said it was disappointing. and my trip had this magical feeling of cosmic alignment + i was getting eclipse-themed visuals so i still got to have an eclipse experience... if it had been sunny out i wouldnt have tripped but the plans we had got cancelled and i got Excited partly cuz i havent had a dissociative drug in over a year and theyre my favorites...

i really hope that 2F-2'-Oxo-PCE (aka canket, fka fxe) is eventually studied for therapeutic effect because imo it has more potential than ketamine for actual processing; ketamine therapy often is approached as "take your meds and your brain will work better" rather than involving talk therapy which is a MASSIVE shame imo because one of the greatest benefits of disso drugs (as with psychedelics) is working through difficult personal issues in an altered headspace

but ketamine is much more disorienting than cket and cket lasts longer. something that has struck me repeatedly with cket is that i get a strong sense of disparate parts of myself colliding and overlapping in ways that they typically dont - i dont get time loss but my dissociative multiplicity very much comes through as a weird and uncomfortable sort of internal compartmentalization where i can never tolerate being my entire self at once

one of my first cket trips had mountain goats goths as a soundtrack and listening to unicorn tolerance during the peak was really profound and helped us with accepting a particular alter of ours in ways that have lasted since (this happened ~2 years ago)

and hecate also commented that she felt that sense of convergence and overlapping selves... ive noticed a loss of sense of time on high cket doses too where i have thought i was in past places ive lived or feeling like i was tripping on a different drug i did in this past, its so interesting...

anyways im really glad i can still get it because i was worried it would disappear, there was a whole thing with it being misidentified as fxe (3F-2'-Oxo-PCE) and confusion from there being different "fxe" batches with different effects. but i think a lot of other people like cket a lot too haha

[mojaves]

💭 + 🚫 + 🍎 + 💔 + 🍛 + 🧐 [one of each category for seb!! 🤭]

💭 THOUGHT BALLOON — what is your oc's MBTI, enneagram, and/or other personality aspects (if known/interested in)?

i did this once for him a loooonnng time ago and it was. estj i think??? and i did it again just now and he got infp,,, very. very big difference WHJSDHGSHJEDG infp definitely feels more right for him at the current point in the story,,,, he is much more reserved than he used to be, but also much more Himself. whereas earlier on he tried soooo hard to force himself to be extraverted,,, to appear much more cocky and confident than he really is. also just a fun result to show how much he has developed as a character since i first made him [:

🚫 PROHIBITED — does your oc drink/smoke? do they do it regularly, or is it more on occasion or for special events?

oh of course. he's never been like. Bad with smoking. doesnt do it all too often. he has made a pack last for well over a month a few times. as for drinking!!! well. he's getting better. he has slipped into old habits when things have gotten particularly stressful [especially before he left arasaka]. the important thing here is that he is a huge guy who has been pumped full of different medications and steroids and fun new cyberware for many years. it is VERY difficult for him to get drunk. so if you ever see him flat out wasted. well!!!!! it's safe to assume he's not having a very good time!!!!

🍎 RED APPLE — where was your oc born? do they still live in/around their place of birth or do they live somewhere else? how do they feel about their birthplace?

he was born in night city, and will live AND die there given the opportunity. grew up in heywood, and still passes through there from time to time for jobs. he loved it there growing up, and used to miss it a LOT after he got kicked out and had to move elsewhere, but as he got older and the nostalgia faded, he realised he really wouldnt want to live there ever again. the connection it has with his family is Too strong and difficult to ignore for him. so it would just make him Insane if he had to stay there for too long now

💔 BROKEN HEART — what are three of your oc's negative traits?

entirely too stubborn for his own good which has almost lead to his death on Multiple occasions. he has FINALLY!!!!! started accepting help from others, but that took well over 30 years and one hell of a lot of convincing. he doesnt like feeling like he's a burden on others [he isnt!!! he's allowed to ask for help!!!!] and he's finally realising that is Not the case

that goes hand in hand with his hostility and tendency to be VERY quick to judge people on some occasions. he will get a hint of a rancid vibe from someone and thats IT!!!! he doesnt want to talk to you anymore. he will spend the rest of the conversation trying to stop himself from throwing you off of a cliff. while that Is a side effect of the damage the arasaka chip did to his brain, it's also something that he has to learn to keep under control. it is VERY difficult sometimes, but he'd rather exhaust himself with trying to keep that at bay than end up killing a guy who stared at him for a second longer than necessary.

🍛 CURRY AND RICE — what does your oc's typical dinner look like? do they usually eat dinner?

he used to looooove cooking. so much. but bc of all his time at arasaka and the work he does now, he kind of. lost interest in it, so he usually makes something very very simple. it's generally chicken with a bunch of veggies, and either noodles or rice, depending on the day. he Does start being more adventurous again with cooking, and generally just better with eating, as he gets closer to a guy who he is definitely not hopelessly in love with for many years. its fine. hes fine. dont even worry about it [theyre married now]

🧐 FACE WITH MONOCLE — is your oc more logical or emotional?

it entirely depends on how he is that day, but generally he tends to be much more logical about stuff, because thats the best way to get through problems. but sometimes, if he's having a particularly bad day, or week, the negative emotions WILL cloud his judgement about literally everything and make him completely shut down. basically dont let him make very important decisions on a bad day. someone will end up dead probably.

[sillyandquiteawkward]

Haiii I wrote a big essay on the Bayley family a while ago but I'm still insane about them so I'm assigning them pigeons I think they'd be based purely on vibes

Artemus – Strasser pigeon

The very reason I wanted to start this was because I was reading up on the smartest pigeons in the world, and lo and behold, it fits VERY WELL with our good (?) Doctor Bayley. Strasser pigeons are one of the most intelligent birds out there, being able to easily observe patterns and formulate extensive escape plans even under stress, with one of the websites I was reading about them in saying "From the moment they hatch, these [birds] are likely thinking about how to escape from their nest", which is just the Artemus mood ever. I like to think this bird is a side project for Dr. Bayley to relax from the Other, Bigger projects, but then he ends up attached much like every other project he does <3

Octavia – King pigeon

For Octavia I wanted to go with a primarily 'utilitarian' bird, given her workaholic tendencies and need to show off how good at working she is, and Kings perfectly fit that description because they are the show offs of the pigeon world. They can be used for racing, messaging AND for therapy, which I think would be right up Octavia's alley in terms of . Everything. She could use a fluffy feathery friend in my head and these guys are great for anything you need them to be, and also very clever if you're willing to spend some time teaching them stuff. Octavia is the kinda gal who would probably go to beauty competitions with her bird in my head (because 1 her bird is the prettiest one and 2 she would like to win thank you very much) <3

Ignatius – Lahore pigeon

I chose Lahore for Ignatius because I remember seeing you talk about once how he's the most 'successful' one out of the Bayleys despite not being as practical so to speak, and that immediately made me think about this breed of pigeons. Not only is their contrast really nice and fitting for a sleek personality like Ignatius, but they are also one of the most popular pigeon species in the world, praised for their beauty, sociability, and high adaptability rates compared to other such birds– much like Iggy is 2 me <3

Sorry for no pics im. Shy but you can look em up and tell me if I got it teehoo

omg hiiiiiii ilu. speaking of the bayleys and pigeons. they are pigeons in my wing au. ouhg this art feels so old (four years ago)

my thoughts about this is i wanted art to be a common pigeon, bc hes got that little bit of iridescence that is akin to him thinking hes hot shit. i cant remember what breed oct was, but she was just a light brown pigeon type, maybe shes not as flashy but gets stuff done. and i wanted iggy to be very very plain, but pretty in his own right as a white dove (peace love etc)

but i really like the species you picked out too!! i really like the idea that the bayleys keep pigeons, i think that pairs well with their trading company background.

i think art could get really into breeding pigeons and he would tend to the smarter breeds i think, although hes not terribly fond of cleaning up after animals. the delight of genetics could just outweigh the animal care. hed have fun drawing them too. old man sits on his clinic rooftop next to his birds when the insomnia hits but his brain wont let him Work on his science. also would pair well with the thought hed breed animal test subjects :(

i think oct would like the utility of the king pigeons, but she wouldnt bother to raise the birds herself at all. thats not in her wheelhouse to care about, but shed still call all the company birds HER birds, even if she didnt raise and care for them. she knows all their names (as a good leader should) and probably has a strong affection for just one in particular. definitely a fan of the prettiest/most useful bird of the bunch.

ooo and i really like the lahore for iggy, they kind of also just Look like him with its long feet feathers and different shape. [ignatius voice] i just think their neat (hiding how much he relates to them)! iggy would be the one to be arms deep in the flock at all times (oh to escape paperwork and management by hiding in the barn with the animals (not to mention sending off the carrier pigeons and watching them leave with a bit of yearning)

[aamethyst000]

i didn't realize exacctly how slow my progress will be (july 9,24 - 10:56pm)

holy fuck i did not realize how slow my progress in life will be! it feels so weird to be 26. like, not only the progress of my name and gender change, im talking about my progress in life! the changes im gonna have, the hardships ill probably cry to. i thought teenage life was hard, no siree. the adult life is difficult. once the adults before you leave you alone to be independent and strong and whatnot, they all end up telling you how wrong you are and how you're living life wrong. one side is trying to control how you live, the other wants you to be dependant and independent and some how balance that out on your own. anyway, getting off track here. today i woke up feeling lazy but also feeling pretty good about myself! i actually wanted to clean the house and do the dishes without complaint! which is a rare thing for me since teenage hood. it can get pretty bad on most days. my little brother and i did the dishes today and a little bit of sweeping. i am planning on doing the rest of the house chores tomorrow and start on the towels that were supposed to be done last week. which kind of sucks that it is only me doing the laundry, but what the hell can i do when we got my mothers' brother staying and only doing his own laundry, a 17 who is overly cranky, yknow, normal teenager bs, hes gotta do his own laundry whether he likes it or not. and a mother whose arthiritis hurts her enire body and really bad insomnia. 10 year old me would be very surprised of where i am at right now and 14 year old me would be very confused.

july 11,24 - 11:16pm - just got through washing the dishes and cleaned up a bit in the living room. finally and now i have time to clean up my room and start washing the towels, we desparately need clean towels considering how hot the weather will be this week. you know the funny thing about this? i have stopped taking my anti depressants for nearly a month now! i think i only need to take them during the winter. they seem to work better by then, which is weird to me. anyway, now that i have more trans tapes, im going to wash the towels tomorrow and have a bath by the next day. my poor room has been a mess for too long now and it has been bugging me for a couple of days. doing this will help me feel better about buying myself a new 3ds and cases for it, being more prepared about taking care of it than i did the first time around. i ended up buying another black 3ds, kinda thought i wanted a white one but i ended up changing my mind part way through the search of the new 3ds. i found one for somewhat cheap that came up to 195 plus 10 shipping which was fckn awesome! i so cant wait till they arrive now. though they wont be here till the first week of next month. i know ill be impatient about it but that is not new at all lmao im impatient with every perchase i make, i just gotta keep myself distracted till the items get here.

july 18,24 3:43am - i am planning on rearranging my room to open up the air vent in my room. since i bought the 3ds, i feel like i need to ''earn''' when it finally arrives here, but i am hoping to god that it works for me or id cry. well, not really, i'd be sad about it but wouldnt do nothing about it until i have enough money to save again to buy another 3ds. hopefully it wont come to that at any point for me. anyway, as im typing this out, i am wathcing chuggaconnroy's lets play of kirby 3ds. i heard about his recent..situation, not happy to hear it and not sure how to feel, not entirely anyway. not gonna lie, it kind of sucks and nearly ruined my day. im better now, i heard about this a week ago, so im fine. i think. i havent been able to go to sleep at a reasonable time lately and it sucks. some nights i dont go to sleep until it is literally gets really bright outside (5am or 7am), i did not think id be slowly devolping insomnia at the age of 26. though, i shouldnt be too surprised considering the fact that my whole ass family has it and possibly autism or adhd. not gonna lie, my whole family is a mess. but they are my mess, i guess. you ever feel that way? they are not the best, toxic in their own way (the older ones, not my cousins), when it some down to it, they are there for you (until they sabotage that closeness during any death) they seem to have continued the generational trauma. i hope my cousins are doing alright, some if them have a kid or two, others are single or childless, but they all have a decent job that helps them keep their apartment. so, i hope they are doing well.

by this point, i have one more journal entry to edit and double check on, and a set of papers to look for in my room. i was supposed to mail it back to the place i was getting my legal (now dead)name to my current one, it is coming up to a year so that it is my own fault on that one, considering that all i needed to do was give them the signed papers that i have right now. well, i can do that now and be a bloody adult about it instead of putting it off for tomorrow, every single day. is it weird to still feel like a teenager (16-7) at the age of 26? should i go to therapy for this? is this normal or should i be worried? does every other adult feel like this? and not just me and my friends possibly being delusional or just dramatic about it. either way, i am not entirely sure if ill find the answer or if itll be given to me. i am going to have a puff and then head to bed, it is already very late so im gonna have a puff and enjoy whatever sleep i can get. good night/day, readers!

[e17omm]

Long rant post about Natlan. It gets kinda negative. I dont think that Hoyo does a good job writing long, open world adventure stories.

WOOOOW so we CAN use mutliple elements at the same time!

BOY DID THEY FORGET ABOUT THAT FOR THREE YEARS

2. The regions have gotten so busy... There's stuff everywhere and it feels less like a region and more like a place to do stuff. You know, like a video game.

I miss Mondstadt...

3. This sure is a chill and relaxing vibe for a country at constant war with the Abyss.

4. .... look the whole tournament thing sounds great but I just do not care about it. At all. I just met these people, I just got to Natlan, I have no idea what the war against the Abyss is like, I have no reason to care because again - I do not know these people.

5. It feels like theyre doing a big character moment for Kachina but again, again, I just met her and she gave me this sob story of how she's too weak and now she's in the tournament winning because she believes in herself or something. This happened in like an hour? Why should I care? Good for you I suppose?

6. yaaaay woho good for you Kachina you won. Yup. Super cute and strong character moment that is completely undeserved from a writing perspective because I met her an hour ago. Hoyo, you're not getting me to like a character by taking shortcuts like this.

7........................................ Wasnt our reasoning for coming to the tournament that we could meet the Archon because she would be there? Well we didnt talk to her because of the tournament, and now the tournament is over, and we still ahvent talked to her..... So why are we leaving?

8. Boy I sure do love Statue of the Seven right at the border of the revealed map. Who wants exploration in an open world game?

9. We are really just going to hotsprings to relax. Does the Abyss and the Archon not matter to you at all, Traveller? You know, the Archon you said you wanted to meet as soon as you could and the Abyss YOUR FUCKING SIBLING IS INVOLVED WITH???

10. It wouldve been really funny if Honkai was a part of the Honkaiverse. I miss regular Honkai beasts.

11. Wait, werent only the victors of the tournament the ones to go fight the Abyss? If it can appear anywhere and regular guards fight them off...

12. hahahahha oh it just took them FOUR YEARS to remember that the Traveller can purify stuff.

Im not mad that they set it up, Im mad that it hasnt played a part in the story for four fucking years. Like if they actually did a long overarching story instead of nearly completely isolated stories for each region, us purifying the Abyss should have played a part often in the story and been the thing that makes us famous instead of... being that person that travels around the regions. I still cant tell what makes us so famous.

13. Yeah Hoyo has not given me a reason to care about Natlan so far. Its all "look at all these nice people and pretty places! Wouldnt it be sad if they got attacked?" and like people are dying and not even being afraid because they've died tons of times and been resurrected before and oh did I forget? Ive only known them for an hour and a half, two hours at most?

Act 1 completed. Complete failure. Another character got that "Yes! Thank you for the praise! Ill believe in myself now!" thing and, Hoyo, that worked super great when there was hardships and fighting and clashing and about 10 to 15 chapters behind it. It doesnt work well when you've given it 2 hours.

I dont think that Hoyo is good at writing long, open world stories. Theyre good at writing smaller, more focused stories. Not this. Every region is basically completely self contained. The biggest overarching plotline is Scara taking the Electro Gnosis and using it in Sumeru. That's it. One moment of overarching story over 6 regions.

It lacks character arcs. It lacks a connected plotline. The Abyss and the Unknown God and our Sibling has mattered so little for 4 freaking years. The Traveller has barely changed at all. Everyone we meet is basically already at the end of their character arc. Our journey makes no sense we keep backtracking constantly to revisit old regions and our order of exploring the regions is nonsensical and decided entirely on "Well, I think you should head here" by whoever we talk to at the end of an Archon Quest.

This isnt just GI, its HSR too. Why are we going back to the Luofu? Weren't our- wait. WERENT THE ASTRAL EXPRESS LOW ON FUEL??? Wasnt that the problem at the end of Penacony????? Wasnt that why we were going to the Black Swan planet?? WAIT WHY THE FUCK ARE WE BACK AT THE LUOFU???!??!

[sadshitonmain]

DICEY I S DRUNK

Needdd to write my note before i ctb in a week ish so

Fuck u mom how dare you fucking give up on me. Picking new family and popping out kids like a goddamn pez dispenzer instead of like faking interest in shit i actully enjoy for five mins.

Same goes for dad but extra FUCK you for never visiting when you had the chance and extra extra fuck you for getting sick and losing what little ego you had left so you dont even recognize me anymore. Asshole move.

FUCK YOU EMILY GOD FUCK I LOVED YOU AND I ONLY FUCKING LEFT BC I KNEW I COULDNT STAY AWAY IF YOU EVER CALLED BACK AND IM STILL WAITING FOR IT 6 GODDAMN YEARS LATER. Im sorry too. I wish I'd had the help i needed before we tried to run away. I wish my wife coulda seen me at my best instead of my worst and ill never stop dreaming of a world where at least you're happy -even if itsone without me, Bc as far as i know you're probably dead and its all my fault. It never got better for me but at least im in control and hot now.

I'm sorry Sebastian. JP and FL and Kitsu. For my own good i shoulda stayed out of it. But at least i tried unlike you idiots. At least you had only one dead kid that year, if not for me there'd be two so fuck you. I just wanted to do some good for all my fuckups and i couldnt stand the idwa of another dead qu*er child. I miss you all, I hope missing me eats you alive.

To my new friends.

Skye, plz dont beat urself up over this one,.its my choice. Im not the same as her and you couldnt chamge anything, you just got caught in the crossfire.

Maddy, be smart be safe be yourself. Fuck someone and chase that femboy.

Thylia.. fuck you're the first real person ive met in a decade. I wish id met you sooner. Be strong.

Pip. Make a goddamn choice girl. Either be yourself or play it safe and be miserable. This life is hell and i wouldnt wish it on anyone. You still have a future, just be smart about it. Finish college, chase your passions. Transition quietly, practice looking how you want and move far the fuck away when its safe. Everyone goes through an ugly phase and thats fine. And seriously SERIOUSLY, just chill the fuck out and go with the flow.

No one else is worth mentioning. You all betrayed me. You all said id be nothing but a burnt out worthless fag and then you made that reality not me. I hate you all for it. Hopefully these bottles do me in.

Emi.. Alex.. whatever you go by now, howdy stranger. I'm sorry I'm like this. I'm sorry my ideas abt love and passion and loyalty were so fucked up.. it really was how i was raised and it still really was my fault. There isnt a day that goes by i dont wonder what would have happened had i stuck around for a few more days and let us both cool off. I was completely obsessed and jealous and who could really blame me, I clung to that stupid dream for dear fucking life for years and when i finally had the chance the world literally came crashing down around us. If not for covid, if not for SPDs fucking power trip, if not for how i was raised if not for how broken i was if I had just listened to you and respected you fuck our dream could have come true. I love you. I'll never love anyone else, I've always loved you since the day you were quietly introduced and sat in Mr. Baker's class across the room all those years ago. I knew then and I know now 14 years later that you were always my better half.

I hope eternity is real, I hope I suffer for it. This shitty trailer has been my exile for 4 years and in a week it will be my tomb.

In truth if id had any courage at all id have ended it a long time ago, but im a total goddamn coward even piss drunk on a work night. Im still praying you'll save me but i know it wont happen, it cant happen. I'll never change, I'll always be the crazy ex, always be another person that abused your trust and chased you across the city we were supposed to grow old in. I hate everything i was, and everything i had to be to survive and everything i am now. I don't blame you, i don't even hate you.

You were always right.

I still love you.

Dicey,

(Formerly Lusy, formerly Lyrah)

Fuck you all, i give up

[bluntz420x]

Are you hungry? i could eat.

What color is the chair you’re sitting on? grey and black, mostly grey.

What did you buy last time you went to the store? hmm, i think kyle called it a snack run but we actually got a lot of groceries too!

Do you like salsa that has fruit in it? ive had mango salsa before, its good! isnt tomato technically a fruit tho? XP

Have you ever opened up your computer to clean the fan on the inside? many times.

Can you count in binary? nope.

Do you think stained glass windows are pretty? very!

Are you a chocoholic? i fucking love chocolate. i require it. a few days without it and i feel weird.

Are you scared of snakes? i think im more afraid of being bitten than the snake itself. if someone told me the snake didnt bite, id hold it and not be afraid.

Have you had your wisdom teeth removed? yes, 4.

Do you like hard or soft pretzels better? soft! yum.

What was the last magazine or catalog you looked through? beats me lol, its 2024, i read shit online.

When was the last time you wore a raincoat? i dont know. i dont own one. maybe i should lol.

Have you ever been carded when buying something? yes.

Do you eat meat? yes.

Corn and mashed potatoes, or beans and rice? corn and mash.

Can you sleep with the light on? i can fall asleep if im tired enough period, but at night all night, no lights.

What’s your operating system of choice? windows.

Have you ever broken a bone? nope. fingers crossed lol.

Do you have a favorite highlighter color? pink.

Do you have a flashlight? my cell phone lol. i think i have an actual flashlight in the house in case of emergencies tho.

Do you like watermelon? its aight.

…Honeydew? also aight.

Can you shoot a gun? idk, ive never tried before.

Do you like salad? sure.

When was the last time you smashed your finger? pft lol probably not that long ago.

What color is your computer? black. the work laptop im using rn is silver tho.

Have you ever made ice cream in chemistry class? nope, not that i can recall. chemistry was junior year in high school, which was almost 20 years ago lol.

Has anyone ever walked in on you while you were on the toilet? yep.

What color hair do you have? brown with some natty white.

Do you use the microwave often? often enough. it gets used probably at least once a day by someone in the house.

Are you good at spelling? i try to be, but i am human.

Have you ever petted a donkey? probably.

When was the last time you went to the doctor’s for a physical? pft lol, i have no idea.

Do you like a lot of ice in your drinks? um, i wouldnt say a lot… but i do like ice.

Have you ever painted a room? yes.

Are you strong enough for this survey? sure lol.

Whose bed were you on last? my own.

When was the last time you laughed so hard you couldn’t breathe? a day or two ago im sure. i laugh daily. :)

Have you ever taken a picture of yourself kissing someone? of course.

Are you someone who’s an asshole because you’re so honest? honesty doesnt make someone an asshole, being an asshole makes someone an asshole.

Have you ever cleaned up someone else’s vomit? yes.

Do you drink more apple or orange juice? apple.

When was the last time you cried? Why? im not sure. i think i was angry probably?

Who’s the last person you talked to in person? technically some coworkers in passing, im at the office.

Are you in a good mood? im okay. i could be way better.

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your gf/bf? no way.

Would you ever donate blood? i would if i could.

Would you rather drink coffee or tea? coffee.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot? right now.

Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night? nope.

Do you think someone is thinking about you? maybe.

Do you think it’s disgusting for a girl to drink alcohol and get drunk? no LOL.

What’s on your mind? thinking about going home and getting away from people.

What are you doing tomorrow? idk, its wednesday so nothing special. my landlord is supposed to come by and fix our garage but we'll see lol.

What are you doing tonight? taking the kid to his winter workouts then hanging out with the hubs.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? no.

Has someone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you? yes.

Do you get distracted easily? kinda, mostly.

Is there someone you wish you were still close with? i guess, but not actually. like the moments that made me not talk to people i no longer talk to, they are valid reasons to not talk to that person anymore, but the memories before those moments, i miss those.

Do you always care what you look like? no.

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? idk man lol. "worth it" is a weird term.

Do you regret anything you’ve done this year? nope.

Do you get easily embarrassed? no.

Do you know what it’s like to be truly happy? yes.

Have you ever cried your heart out? yes.

Do you believe in love? yeah.

Do you go tanning? nope.

Do you hate the last person you kissed? no.

Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? no way lol been there done that, boring as fuck and theres no chemistry for me.

Is there someone you really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff? yes.

Did you climb trees when you were younger? i loved to climb trees.

Have you ever started a sentence with “no offense, but”? yeah lol, when i was younger. they are one of my least favorite statements now.

You’re single, why? i am married.

It’s 2 in the morning and you get a call, who is it? idk, my phone is on silent lol, probably spam.

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months? yes, i will still be married.

Do you always answer your phone? no.

Do you think you’ll have the same best friends a year from now? idk lol.

Do you think life has been good so far? sure.

How many people have you had STRONG feelings for this year? just kyle.

If you could would you take back your last kiss? nope.

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? nope.

Last time you were really happy? right now.

Is there a specific moment you can replay in your mind perfectly? so many.

Is the last person you kissed, going to be the next person you kiss. yes.

Have you ever regretted letting someone go? no, i dont regret. i lament then it passes and im grateful.

How long was your longest make out? LOL idk.

Do you want to dance? not rn but i do like dancing.

Do you like someone? yes.

Why aren’t you with the last person you kissed? he is my husband.

Is life unfair? duh.

How has the week been? its still early, its been fine.

Are you mad at anyone right now? haha not really.

Are you happy? sure.

When was the last time you talked to the last person you kissed? before being dropped off at work.

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you? i guess.

Who made you laugh last? kyle.

Ever liked someone who treated you like crap? yeah.

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? three hours.

If the person who hurt you most said they’re sorry would you believe them? no. they have said theyre sorry. they all say theyre sorry. theyve all been sorry. sorry theyre assholes and something happened to them that hurt, finally.

When was the last time you hugged someone? earlier today.

Do you think love lasts forever? sure.

If the last person you kissed, was kissing someone else, what would you do? beat both of them up.

What’s something that made you smile today? kyle.

Has a boy/girl put their arm around you the past five days? yes.

Which is harder, walking away from somebody you love or coming back to somebody who has hurt you? walking away.

Have you kissed someone in the past 3 days? yes.

Do you think its cute when someone kisses your forehead? love it.

Where are you? my desk, at work.

Have you ever told anyone you were okay when you really weren’t? sure.

Was your last kiss drunk or sober? sober.

I bet you’re going to kiss someone tomorrow, right? duh.

[herowinbaby]

And its hard bc we both come from addict families like we both got that gene in us and coming from someone who abused alcohol for 2 years i cant imagine her doing smth so strong and highly addictive and being able to just quit. She said the last time she did it was 2 days ago so its not like its been long enough for me to be able to think “ok shes gonna stop fs then” and i cant know. I get worried enough when she doesnt text me for a couple days but knowing that now its gonna be intensified by like 1000%. My stomach hurts so bad and its hard bc im trying so hard to support her rn and give her space when she needs it but im getting that feeling like if im not there 24/7 shes going to be doing it. I genuinely wish she wouldnt have told me that last night bc it just opened up a complete new can of worms for me to think abt. And esp bc shes not in a good mental space and i know shes gonna be fucked up for a while ive just never dealt w it that personally. I feel like im gonna throw up and im sure its bc were a little codependent on each other at times but i cant stop thinking abt it. And i know he just died and im trying to be respectful but i cant help but feel slight resentment towards him bc hes the one who gave it to her. I just think like she wouldnt have done it if he wouldnt have given it to her i get shes a big girl and she can make her decisions but when temptation is already there its hard to ignore when someone puts it right in front of u. Shes already dealt w enough so far i dont want her dojng smth like that too

[cpunkwitch]

answering my questions p2

[pt: answering my questions p2]

ask game 2 (link)

whats the most recent encounter of ableism you've had, online or irl?

my dad calling my condition "just labels" when i told him my mom and i suspect i have arthritis. "you guys and your labels, you liike labels too much"

2. whats the worst encounter of ableism you've had, online or irl?

unsure what the worst one would be, they all suck imo. i guess any ableism coming from my dad, because hes my dad so it tends to hurt the most coming from him.

3. whats the funniest encounter of ableism you've had, online or irl?

tried to think of a few things but they werent so funny so im not sure. maybe my dad saying he though i was an old lady when he first saw me with my cane picking me up from college last year?

4. whats something an ableist said that stuck with you and for what reason?

i cannot remember anything specific

5. whats something you want ableds to understand?

main point: ask consent before daring to touch anyones belongings especially mobility aids and not every disabled person will have the same limitations and experience with their disabilities. we arent inspiration porn, we are human beings functioning differently from you.

some people will be okay with you moving their cane aside or something AS LONG AS YOU ASK and keep it within reach of them. some people in a wheelchair can walk or use other aids on different days, some people dont use any any aids but still cant do th e same activities you do let alone they way you do them for the same length of time. some only use aids on rare days, some have perfect use of their legs, some have to have assistance with mundane tasks, so on and so forth.

a disabled person in the olympics, competing in a sport, creating things while in a wheelchair or walking with a cane etc are not there for you to go "wow so amazing youre so strong and brave im so proud of you for doing this despite your disability" they do it for them, with their disability and never for your degrading "positivity". you wouldnt say that if they werent disabled, why arent you saying congrats to the others who do the same thing as them too? is it just because youre singling them out for being disabled? fuck off with that.

6. got a story involving ableism that you like to share/feel like sharing/find amusing? can be yours or someone else's story.

likely have tonnes of stories about my parents ableism. if you prompt me i can probably some up with something to talk about but sometimes i need specific prompts like "your parents reaction to your first mobility aid?"

specifically ones that i find amusing though? normally ones that arent mine and they came from either youtube readings of tumblr or reddit posts, story times or someone pissing off my mom.

i do remember when i walked into the dollar store the cashier asked what happened when she saw my cane and i went "oh i was born with a defect in my spine :D" and watched her deflate with a quiet "oh.." what were you expecting?? how is that question ever not awkward?

7. dumbest or funniest question someone asked you about your condition and/or aid?

answered in 6 i guess

8. if you dont have one, do you think you could benefit from a service animal? if so, what animal would you like?

therapy, or emotional support cat or rabbit? i cant do dogs, im terrified of dogs. cats and rabbits i could handle. im actually unsure what else there is but iv looked into getting an esa a while ago and the only reason my mom said no no matter how many times i bargained is because we live in too small of a house thats constantly a mess.

im never allowed to get a rabbit while i live with her, she hates them ever since one horny rabbit years ago bit her leg.

parents were really mean about me wanting a bunny rabbit and im still holding it aganst them.

9. do you have an ideal mobility aid or ideal disability aid in general?

easy to move wheelchair, easy for me anyway. one with a no handles so no one can grab them. maybe a basket or something on it too idk, that way everything not in my lap or in my bag hanging off the side or something? idc if its motorized or not tbh

when im finally out of my crappy parents house, i'll look into gettingone.

10. whats something you wish ableds would stop doing/do less of?

asking dumb questions and touching our stuff without permission

11. whats something you wish ableds would do more of?

hold doors open regardless of ability, regardless if they have a mobility aid or not. treat people the fucking same.

12. whats something in the community you dont see talked about enough?

i know its talked about in other places but i dont actually run into the discussion much, people talking about living with an able-bodied partner or another phys disabled partner while being disabled themselves and what its like/what to expect etc.

i do plan on eventually moving in with someone and id like to hear more stories about home life with roommates or partners.

13. have you ever tried out someone else's mobility aid before?

i once used my brothers crutches when i was maybe 4? dont fully remember why he had them but i remember that day i picked them up. it was an xmas party.

14. whats something thats supposed to be an accessible accommodation but just turns out to be more of a hinderance for you and why?

i used to have an answer for this and i dont remember what it was.

15. whats something you see thats overhyped in regards to disability or cripplepunk?

overhyped/overrated imo? yet another question i no longer remember my answer for jfc who's taking my memories? /cj

i remember there was something that was talked about a lot that was really not worth all the hype to me but i guess since the talk of it died down and i stopped seeing it in the tags/on my dash i completely forgot what it was specifically.

im a very "out of sight out of mind" person..

16. whats something that you see people talk about constantly in the community and are now tired of?

answered in 15 ig?

17. have you ever made characters with disabilities? if yes, tell us about them and their disability?

oh yeah lots, which book or fandom shall i start with?

off the top of my head theres "escape", "the adventurers" and "afterwards", maybe even "the four witches", original books of mine. as for fandom related characters, my oc macey comes to mind first. shes a marvel/avengers oc (in general not just mcu). im happy to talk about any of these, you can even ask if i have a character with a specific condition, i probably have a dnd npc or two from one of my campaigns who have it if none of my book or fandom oc's have it.

i like character creation..

18. what are your favourite disability headcanons?

about everything i post to @/beecanons and @/your-fave-is-crippled that isnt expressly canon, and the stuff i plan on posting.

19. whats a disability you want to see more or better representation of/for?

honestly my first look at anemia in media was vampire knight and diabolik lovers... please give me better rep.. i need to see more anemic characters that arent just "whoa im dizzy" and "oops passed out cuz a vampire drank my blood"

20. free space!

feel free to ask me to elaborate/expand on, clarify or just ask whatever you'd like, my inbox is alway open!

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