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OKAAYY ill make this blog pretty and everything later i am sleepy . BUT!!!!!!!! i DID just pray for real for the first time in a long time and got an immediate response so i got excited and needed to put it somewhere
#cupid.txt#i asked Him to show me purple things if my partner is in fact The One#<- guy with ocd#and i refreshed tumblr and was BOMBARDED with purple#AND I JUST NOTICED THE RANDOMIZED ICON FOR THIS BLOG IS PURPLE AND PINK. HELLOOOOOO#He is telling me to GO TO BEDDD#lord i will i prommy i am just going to play a little identity v first okays?#christianblr
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"you're not trying hard enough" bitch i'm trying as hard as i can for you not to have a dead daughter stfu
#melody vents (╥﹏╥)#hi guys i wanna jump off a roof#jirai vent#vent#tw sui implied#tw sui ideation#jirai danshi#jirai#jiraiblogging#jiraiblr#jirai girl#jirai lifestyle#actually mentally ill#kangelgirl#bpd#ocd#landmineblr#lifestyle jirai#landmine jirai#landmine type#landmineblogging#landmine girl#venting#tw suic1de#tw sui vent#tw sui talk#vent post#vent tw#actuallydiagonsed#real
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Doooodllesssssss again.(ill edit kabru alil lol)
#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#dunmeshi#thistle dungeon meshi#thistle#thistle dunmeshi#kabru of utaya#kabru#kabru dungeon meshi#laios dungeon meshi#laios touden#guys my ocd is rllt fucling bad tonight chat! its ok. i got this teehee#i love art to cope! dont touch me 😨 dont don#art#“doodles” LAIOS TOO 2 FUCKING HOURS. I HATE WHITE PEOPLE.#thistle was like. 10 minutes. girl. i think im physically unable to draw white men.
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A belief in Nominative Determinsim
#mira & isa sitting at the other side of the room: oh that cannot be a healthy rationalisation. someone should deconstruct that QUICKLY...#change's strongest soldiers VERSUS one guy echo chambering themselves about a susperstition-based retributive model of the world. GO!!!#isat spoilers#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#sloops#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#lucabyteart#hey look now. this is softer than usual isnt it? ignore the. ignore the subtle damnation of blame unto the self. its fine. theyre fine#this is in fact a slight adaptation of that headcanon of mine i linked! yep! turns out the way to comic-ise it was to. make it like#90% speech bubble and get kinda weird with the formatting. it's clunky and experimental but hey. im experimenting.#the next ones gonna have even more fucking speech bubbles if it goes how im planning. christ#then its gonna get followed up with something wordless so. all things in perfect balance.#DISCLAIMER: i like to write loop and siffrin displaying the maybe not so great logic-holes their seeming fear of 'retribution for not#sticking to (the script) what the universe intends for them' entails. i do not agree with their weird philosophising.#i in fact think this is . bad for them. and am exploring how fucking unhealthy their mindset seems to be even when 'mundane'#OCD siffrin real as hell whats with the doing arbitrary actions in specific ways lest Something Nebulously Bad Happen little dude?#anyway if you caught the extremely blunt symbolism of kissing a hand with a knife in it you win a prize! it's called self-satisfaction 🎉🎉#hmm. do people realise i kept calling this type of back and forth between siffrin and loop a socratic dialogue bc socrates was also just#arguing with himself? like he was just making up the other guys. complete thought experiment. i also call them that because theyre WORDY!!!
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please???
#from cary fukunaga’s mota highlight on instagram#icb i’ve never seen this before#my ocd little guy in his american accent#callum turner
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#sangihun#squid game#i have to say i view their dynamic as very. repressed i guess#i don't want anything to actually happen between them i suppose. besides when i want to jerk it to yaoi#there's the fujo side that wants to be like kyaa sangihun >w<#but then i'm like but what would sangwoo my beautiful princess with a disorder actually do here#at first i lold.. and then i serioused...#i think my other post about sangwoo explains the way i view their dynamic#it's very.. non sexual. can't even say it's pure emotions because sangwoo hasn't felt an emotion in 30 years and gihun is so deep into his#coping mechanisms so it's like if a relationship was a thought exercise#i view gihun as a guy who “doesn't want to push it”. you know what i mean?#in terms of getting inside sangwoo's head. even if he is genuinely worried#it would take them tons of alcohol (or being on the verge of death in the final battle) to finally feel#fully vulnerable and umm#god take all of my ocd and give it to sangwoo so his ocd doubles#maybe triples.#let me know what you think if you read this lol!!#cho sang woo#seong gi hun#<- forgot about the name tags
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What is nice about the fl community here is that. While I have big anxiety anyway I don't feel too pressured about having to do... moral caveats. I love the bazaar i think judgements are neat, I trust people understand I like. Get that i know killing people and upholding systems of oppression are bad. The bazaar is harvesting stories and drowning people and this is not like, a great thing, from a human morality perspective. But also go grandpa go!!! ♡♡♡ her personal ambition involves the deaths of millions for a cause that may not even get her what she wants ♡ yay
In general fallen london fandom has been very empowering for my anxieties around moral correctness, like. This is a space where people loooove characters who do bad things and have complicated relationships with everything. I've always struggled with that "but what if people think I'm evil for writing or caring for a character who is Too Flawed?!" And it's actually healing to look at ocs and go 'hm. You could be more fucked tbh'
#fallen london#just posting :)#i dont think i have ocd ultimately but moral sculpulosity is what im describing#and ive long had a lot of fears of people reading into stuff i like or write or draw and assigning judgement#you will have no doubt seen me flaking about this before but im much better than i was years ago#if i had to add a caveat every time i talked about suncrab like THESE GUYS ARE BAD BY MAJORITY MORAL STANDARDS#thatd be lame as hell and is so not the point#and i really like this is a space where i feel a lot more empowered and safe abput doing whatever and not fearing#i know you havent seen me post anything that wild and maybe i never will! but i like that i do not feel pressured to force safeness#and love seeing other people explore lots of horror and abuse and kink and just OC/Blorbo Who Is The Worst#without it carrying those moral anxieties i am used to
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They be talkin'
(Audio from Malevolent Part 8 "The Caves")
#malevolent#arthur lester#malevolent fanart#finally setting on one design for Arthur#let's check how it looks from the side#hmm but will I be able to draw him with different expressions?#oh what about his voice#proceed to make animation and draw the guy 30+ times#no I'm not ocd#digital art#animation
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I wanna talk about this scene.
A head kiss is *so* significant as a choice. Obviously he can’t kiss her lips unless he wants to have his face superglued to hers, but to waste time getting upstairs to have kissed her at all is sorta what I get caught on. There’s got to be *something* going through his head to make that decision over damage control.
We know the abuse of these women, tying them up in a medical chair, is because of what he went through in his childhood. The duct tape bindings in his high chair, the experimental surgical procedures from his father, the neglect; it’s all mirrored in the leather straps, the chair itself and the identical one up at the house. But we also know Bo, despite probably killing at least Victor, has undying devotion to his mother and her legacy. Trudy slaps her child no older than three across his face without hesitation. What affection might look like or have once looked like in the Sinclair house is curious.
The forehead kiss, in the context of the abuse, can read of both possessiveness and distance. Something like staking a claim, less intimate and affectionate than, say, one on the cheek. A heavily controlled sort of relationship. But back to actual affection.
With the Sinclairs, it’s very skewed what that might be like. When Vincent and Bo interact on screen for the first time, Bo is critically injured and angry. He snaps at his brother, but his remorse is immediate and he uses words as a form of affection. Promises as apologies. Almost like begging, a kind of worship on its own.
Which itself ties into his relationship with their mother too.
Trudy is kept down at the church, having her perpetual funeral service. Bo is seen on screen for the very first time kneeling at her coffin in a probable prayer. But that kind of devotion I think is the Sinclair way of affection. As in religion, which has a recurring symbolism in House of Wax, and as such in the characters lives. Prayer drawing parallels to love isn’t surprising.
Something interesting is that in numerous religions, head kisses can be the passing on of a blessing. Bo forces Carly into the same bindings he suffered in for years, but he grants her a blessing before he leaves her there. It doesn’t seem affectionate at first, if anything it’s just kind of condescending, but knowing how Bo works is what makes it much more interesting.
The question is why?
Bo consoles Vincent after he hurts his feelings by talking about their mother’s blessing and legacy. All of Ambrose is a gift from a woman who treated them horribly, and they accept it. The killings are literally for her. In that way, I think Bo is apologizing. He’s inflicting on this woman something that destroyed his life, and he isn't some zombified, all magical slasher; he’s still very much a human being who feels pain and emotions. A lot more emotions than either of his brothers seem to show on screen, actually.
His role as the leader -or the preacher of this church they’ve built, hence why he finds Carly hiding under the robes in the church- isn’t without remorse. It’s do what’s got to be done. Which started with his parents. Victor says in the cold open, “I’m doing the best I can,” while wrestling a toddler. They call little Bo the monster while they’re actively hurting him. These excuses are pre-programmed into his complex.
In regard to further biblical imagery and the Sinclair parents, is the theater. Whatever Happened to Baby Jane? plays nonstop, with the specific scene with Carly being hunted in the theater taking place during Jane’s song. The first two lines of that say, “I’ve written a letter to daddy, His address is Heaven above.” There’s this idea of communicating with a dead parent again, just like Bo speaking out loud to Trudy’s corpse, but now it’s outwardly tying it in with religious beliefs. If Bo is the preacher, he’s simply passing along the holy message instilled in him by his parents above. Bo *is* Baby Jane in that way, but not for the most obvious reason. While yes, he is harsh to his brother, as Baby Jane treated her sister Blanche badly, there’s also the fact that he’s a washed up, desperate, abused child who craves love and validation and normalcy again. Using his communication with the divine up in Heaven above to spread a blessing is a way of getting approval. With a detached kiss to Carly, his crimes are the gospel.
A consistent theme here is not only his relationship with being abused, but also with Vincent. Biblically, conjoined twins are considered a mistake of nature. God creates two human souls, but it is the fault of nature that their bodies combine. However, because of the risks, it is also considered mostly immoral in the church to separate them if one or both will have their lives risked. For the Sinclair twins, their father did this surgery himself, at home, which is obviously wildly illegal and dangerous. That makes him a sinner and an obstacle to a perfect Ambrose, on top of being an abusive asshole. So he’s killed, implied to be shot by Bo directly. That bullet was his punishment as much as the highchair was Bo’s punishment. Vincent may not have gotten the highchair, but he does have the marks on his face to show for what Victor chose. The surgery, the sin of going against the new plan, left Vincent scarred and missing not just tissue but parts of the bones in his face. Having to wear the masks and being disallowed from leaving Ambrose is his punishment for Victor’s moral crime. God took from them both unfairly and I think, despite his devotion, Bo doesn’t quite believe in the faith fully because of that.
Again, he’s human. He has his doubts and fears. His reassurance to Vincent in the form of “Ma would be proud” goes for himself too. And his subsequent “She always said that your talent would make up for what God took away from you.” Vincent doesn’t need convincing though, he needs an apology. That’s what Bo’s speech about Trudy is, is an apology, but that doubles for both him and Vincent. And the head kiss too. Because again, he’s operating on what he’s supposed to do. It’s a routine.
At that point, I think Bo doesn’t get satisfaction from fulfilling God’s (ahem, Trudy’s) plan anymore. Carly, and by extension every other girl who was down in that cellar at one point or another, is a sacrifice to it. She’s duct taped in that chair because someone has to be suffering in order for the Sinclairs to thrive. That’s the way it’s been before. Someone has to be hurting to need God’s grace so badly as to keep up what they’re doing, rather than just forgetting Ambrose. But what makes me think Bo specifically has stopped deriving anything positive from that order, is that he also tells Vincent “We almost finished what Mama started.” Based on the number of empty seats in the theater alone, they could theoretically kill a lot more than just the six kids that night. Why stop there? Because of the sacrificial lamb down in his cellar. I think Bo thinks that his actions will trigger be some fateful event that’ll free them all of Ambrose. Some great flood or some such. And when it doesn’t come for an entire decade after Trudy’s death, I think his desperation is growing more and more over those ten years to where his faith is now slipping. Back around to the head kiss, the silent promises he makes to Carly is to reassure himself that she’ll be special and it’ll end with her.
Choosing Carly specifically, could come from a biblical Madonna-Whore complex. Bo saw the whole group the night before, only two of which were girls obviously. Between them, Paige is pregnant. The Bible states directly that she should be burned for that (as she is out of wedlock.) Ambrose is, to him, a Holy place, but bringing Paige in and keeping her alive, no matter for how short a time, would technically be making the entire land impure. So Carly it was. I do think he has an attraction to her, since whoever has the video camera that night takes special care to record her lips, and then he makes a comment about them after supergluing them. It’s just the fact he could’ve kissed her at any point before the glue came out, and chose not to. Just that little head kiss. Because as much as he’s preached, he has to resist temptation himself or it’s all for naught. Does that mean I think he doesn’t assault any of the women? No, absolutely not. There’s a sex swing in that cellar. It’s just a matter of repenting. The first time we ever see Bo’s face, he’s on his knees in the church. Out of all the empty buildings in Ambrose he chose to go pray at church before the group showed up. He knows what he’s gonna do and knows he shouldn’t. Hence the other meaning of the kiss again, the apologetic side combined with the resistance.
Bo is such a deeply, deeply complex character. He went through so much only to turn around and inflict so much. Going back to their father’s choice to do the surgery on his own, the impacts of having a whole person removed from the back of Bo’s head is so unknown.



From the way they were conjoined, their skulls may have very well been attached. Seeing as Vincent has impacts to the development of his brow bone, cheek bone, lower jaw, and nasal bridge, those bones would have to go somewhere, and the realistic answer is that they would’ve been fused to Bo, or at least the parts of those would’ve been there. All in the back of Bo’s head, directly against his skull. To me, it’s incredibly, incredibly unlikely that no impacts would’ve been made on Bo’s brain development. How much of his violent impulses are even his own, and how much comes from a traumatic brain injury, inflicted by their father himself. Certainly blaming that baby for being a monster, when it’s a consequence of his own behavior, seems about fitting with the rest of the manipulation processes that go on in that family. Which Bo had to learn from somewhere. Trudy was likely his biggest abuser, but I think Bo modeled a lot of himself, unconsciously, after their father. Killing him was just taking on that role, and the religious filtering of it all, is Bo’s way of processing that. The father, the son, and mama’s Holy Spirit.
#house of wax 2005#how 2005#house of wax#bo sinclair#vincent sinclair#trudy sinclair#carly jones#analysis#this is a lot of rambling but like. there’s so much in this movie and it gets written off as like ‘crazy hillbilly creeps’ way too often#like yes but also no. guys the curtains aren’t just blue there’s details and nuance please please please#on a very related note#i do view Bo as having religious ocd as well
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ah yes, my kinlist.

#guys with anxiety who have problems with a desire for control over their lives and a poor relationships with their mothers/parents#also they all have autism and OCD according to me and i am right. and they all skin-pick i reckon hajime is a skin picker.#i am a certified lee defender btw. sorry not sorry he was so based for that murder.#danganronpa#hello charlotte#clinical trial#hajime hinata#charles eyler#lee smith
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Socially unacceptable disabled and mentally ill people: I love you. You're being really brave. You in fact have a right to be like this, and you deserve to have people who understand you the way you are. I'm sorry you have to perform social acceptability rituals in order to not have the people around you ostracize and punish you. You deserve better. No matter how socially unacceptable, rude, "taking up space" or an "inconvenience" you are. I'm sorry everyone always sees you and your symptoms as obstacles to overcome or bothers that you need to take care of for them.
You deserve better
#Sorry this isn't maybe well worded I hope it helps people nonetheless#Ableism#actually autistic#actually disabled#Sanism#npd safe#bpd safe#<not about me but I see you guys and I'm sorry for everything you need to go through#Ocd#schizophrenia
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speaking of channie who wants to subscribe to my newly formed ocd channah agenda. smiles
#icarus speaks#the more i come to terms with having it the more i want to slap it on my faves#and u guys KNOW my first thought is always cpurp#but i don’t think she has ocd. she has like. npd if anything#in the genuine sense. not the tiktok sense.#but ohhhhh moral ocd channah……. especially after the banquet……..#she’s just like me fr……….
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if you have severe and specific anxiety but think to yourself "I can't possibly have OCD, I don't have any urge to do specific things to calm myself down" I have potentially "Oh Shit!" Worthy information for you.
sometimes an OCD ritual is the LACK of doing something. e.g. if you're scared of hurting your pets, your compulsions could be to NOT touch them. if your anxiety revolves around accidentally sending something bad to someone, your compulsions could just be to NOT send any messages. NOT doing something? can be a compulsion!!! especially when it gets to the point where it defies reason.
#DISCLAIMER. people with non-ocd anxiety will also avoid things if it scares them. it's if it gets to a certain point of repetition#or unreasonable fear/conviction that it WILL cause something bad that it's worth looking into OCD#ALSO. I AM NOT WELL INFORMED ON OCD. I AM JUST SOME GUY WITH OCD TENDENCIES WHO IS TRYING TO LEARN MORE#ocd tw#ocd mention#animal abuse mention#<- I know that seeing/reading about compulsions can make it worse for a lot of people so
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It is soo fucked up that managing OCD means ignoring your compulsions… what do you MEAN to make the gross feeling go away I have to STOP washing my hands?
#Trust me guys. if I wash my hands just one more time they’ll finally be clean#[by talos this can’t be happening]#actually ocd#ocd#cw compulsions#is that a cw? I feel like it should be#tw compulsions#oh there we go#sap thoughts
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I'm going to eat my cariprazine and pretend that I didn't just made ocd awareness brainrot themed stamps
#family guy#baldi's basics#bbieal#FNAF#five nights at freddy's#sonic the hedgehog#sticks the badger#actually ocd#obsessive compulsive disorder#stamps#glitter#blog decor#freddy fazbear#peter griffin
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COOPER ABBOTT + Being Organized
#HES SOOOOO#he means so much to MEEEE#hes good ocd rep to me#idgaf guys#him and me. were so the same.#mmm coopie.#josh hartnett#j hartnett#jhartnettedit#josh#hartnett#film#filmgifs#filmedit#horrorgifs#thrilleredit#thrillergifs#movie#movieedit#moviegifs#trap 2024#trap#trap movie#cooper abbott#cooper adams#m night shyamalan#my gifs#my gifset#my gifedit#my gif
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