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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi the suckening#arthur bennett#HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT#this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT#ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH#WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME#DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER#HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW#AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE#I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game#but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping#DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds#I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors#what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE#while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs#THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN#WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS#the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band#EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION
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CHARLIE MAGNE from HAZBIN HOTEL (2019): Pilot - "That's Entertainment" âł "So, I've been thinking: Isn't there a more humane way to hinder overpopulation here in Hell? Perhaps we can create an alternative way to change souls through... redemption?"
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel edit#hazbin charlie#charlie magne#hazbin edit#requested#hazbin hotel pilot#that's entertainment#charlie#my gifs#god ain't she the cutest little thing!#not gonna lie i get a bit emotional seeing her do The Pose during ''wonderful fantastic new hotel''#it's the same pose she does in the S1 poster :')#okay actually im back here to say some things in the tags:#holy almighty LORD these gave me so much grief to color in a way i thought looked nice#specifically the one of her in the news chair. sorry i was NOT gonna let that hideous highlighter green color assault all your eyeballs.#did i lose nearly two hours of sleep getting it right because i still have no idea what i'm doing? yes. worth it? YES. ohh yes.#i liked the seafoam look so i made the cloud sequence match :] or at least tried to#there WAS supposed to be another one of her in the news room but i just hated how it kept turning out so i scrapped it.#coloring the main series was one thing to learn but the PILOT? never has it been so obvious to me just how much more bright and vibrant#the colors got during the progression of the world design. also. if by any chance one of those cool and experienced#gif makers happens to see these tags and wants a good laugh: i've been doing this for how many months now? and just last NIGHT figured out#how to use the fucking eraser in photoshop....... thing is... i also draw. i KNOW what program tools look like. i KNOW ppl draw in PS.#i'm just a really silly fuckin goose!! TEEHEE FUCKING HEE I GUESS!#so for months i've been like ''god i wish i could just erase this part from the layer'' and looking at the eraser tool and just being like#''nah it's probably different and weird i'll just stick to what i know'' -> said boo boo the FOOL#see i could be in the club but i'd rather be aggressively neurodivergent about the silly queer demon cartoon that altered my brain chemical
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indigo c00lk1dd anyone
#i know it looks kinda purple ITS THE GRADIENT. PLEA#first time i uploaded this i realized i misgendered it in the free space#please.. please fw it.. actually thatll scare it..#roblox#roblox forsaken#forsaken#forsaken roblox#forsaken oc#homicidalporkchops#c00lkidd#c00lk1dd forsaken#c00lsona#thats a tag? thats... heh. i guess you could say thats c00l#im still thinking about its lore but its a runaway#for obvious reasons#while making it all i could think of was watamote#despite never watching watamote highk#wait i made its birthday april fools thats so mean#forgot the regular art tags#art#fanart
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Far Cry 3 vs Insanity: Jason stabbing Vaas side-by-side comparison
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Far Cry 3: Jason raises the dagger, swings it a first time diagonally from the upper right corner to the bottom left corner of the screen, a second time almost horizontally from left to right, then vertically. Vaas dodges all the attacks and blocks the final one.
Insanity: Same thing (but mirrored, of course), except that we donât see Jason raise the dagger before he emerges from the smoke.
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Far Cry 3: Their arms are shaking. Jason is trying to overpower Vaas but the latter is strong enough to resist.
Insanity: They donât seem to be struggling. It simply looks like Jason paused when Vaas blocked his attack.
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Far Cry 3: Jason drops the dagger and catches it with his left hand to stab Vaas. He then uses his right hand to push Vaas away from him.
Insanity: Jason drops the dagger and catches it with his left hand to stab Vaas. He doesnât push him away.
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Far Cry 3: Jason uses his right hand again to grab the dagger. He pushes it deeper using his left hand, pulls it out, grabs Vaasâ right shoulder, and stabs him again. Vaas is dying or already dead; he doesnât fight back and his head is hanging down.
Insanity: Jason simply grabs the dagger with his right hand and uses his left to help pull it out. Vaas is still conscious and able to look at Jason.
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Far Cry 3: Vaas gets stabbed two more times, still not looking at Jason because heâs most likely dead.
Insanity: Jason grabs Vaasâ right shoulder and stabs him two more times. Vaas is still conscious and looking at Jason.
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Far Cry 3: Jason pulls the blade out rather slowly and finally lets go of Vaasâ shoulder. Vaas falls, dead.
Insanity: Jason pulls the dagger out violently and lets go of Vaasâ arm as he falls to the ground, still conscious and able to look at him.
Conclusion
While the two scenes may look similar at first glance, they are not identical. In both games, Vaas gets stabbed 4 times, but what Jason does with the knife slightly varies. In the Far Cry 6 DLC, Vaas also stays conscious much longer than in Far Cry 3, in which he apparently dies rather quickly after the first strike.
That said, itâs possible that Vaas remembers what happened a little differently in the DLC (especially since, in reality, he was dying). This could also explain why he then imagines Citra standing next to Jason and congratulating him when, in Far Cry 3, she was obviously not there and what seemingly happened is that Jason fell next to Vaas before losing consciousness as well. But since neither Vaas nor Jasonâs point of view is fully relatable, itâs still a bit unclear what exactly happened between them, where the scene took place, and what Jason did after he killed VaasâŚ
#it fooled me the first time#but the scene is different in the dlc#not sure if itâs intentional to be honest but it could be#far cry 3#vaas montenegro#jason brody#far cry 3 spoilers#far cry 6 season pass#far cry 6 become the villain#far cry 6 insanity#vaas insanity#gifs I made#I already told tumblr the post was violent so I guess I donât need to tell you thereâs blood in the gifs#but let me know if you still want me to tag that
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sorry to vent art guys . i promise that next time ill bottle up my emotions and keep them to myself like a good little boy
#i miss you ; i miss you so much#you meant so much to me â i wish i knew what i did wrong so that you perished#i wish you would've told me before you went away . because i could've prevented this from happening in the first place#all i ever wanted to do was inspire people . but look at me â a fool falling victim to his own grief and guilt and regrets#i can't help anyone get out of their own hells . i can't even get out of my own#how could i ever help people out of a hole if im stuck in one myself ?#i hope i die in my sleep tonight#dhmis#dhmis art#dhmis au#high voltage au#dhmis tony#tony the talking clock#dhmis hv tony#dhmis shrignold#shrignold the butterfly#dhmis hv shrignold#dhmis coffin#dhmis hv chester#vent art#vent post#vent in tags#im so tired#pls ignore#yeah tony is scared of bugs . if i hadn't made that obvious . i guess
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ROUND 4 - Pool 1


Jump Up, Super Star! vs. Break Free (Lead the Way)
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Jump Up, Super Star!
Break Free (Lead the Way)
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Jump Up, Super Star!
Here we go, off the rails Don't you know it's time to raise our sails? It's freedom like you never knew Don't need bags, or a pass Say the word, I'll be there in a flash You could say my hat is off to you Oh, we can zoom All the way to the moon From this great wide wacky world Jump with me, grab coins with me Oh, yeah! It's time to jump up in the air (Jump up in the air) Jump up, don't be scared (Jump up, don't be scared) Jump up and your cares will soar away And if the dark clouds start to swirl, (Dark clouds start to swirl) Don't fear, don't shed a tear, 'cause I'll be your 1UP girl So let's all jump up super high (Jump up super high) High up in the sky (High up in the sky) There's no power-up like dancing You know that you're my superstar (You're my superstar) No one else can take me this far I'm flipping the switch Get ready for this Oh, let's do the odyssey Odyssey, ya see! (Ă7) Odyssey, odyssey! Spin the wheel, take a chance Every journey starts a new romance A new world's calling out to you Take a turn, off the path Find a new addition to the cast You know that any captain needs a crew Take it in stride As you move side-to-side They're just different points of view Jump with me, grab coins with me Oh, yeah! Come on and jump up in the air (Jump up in the air) Jump without a care (Jump without a care) Jump up 'cause you know that I'll be there And if you find you're short on joy, (Find you're short on joy) Don't fret, just don't forget that You're still our 1UP boy So go on, straighten up your cap (Straighten up your cap) Let your toes begin to tap (Toes begin to tap) This rhythm is a power 'shroom Don't forget you're the superstar (You're the superstar) No one else could make it this far Put a comb through that 'stache Now you've got panache Oh, let's do the odyssey It's time to jump up in the air (Jump up in the air) Jump up, don't be scared (Jump up, don't be scared) Jump up and your cares will soar away And if the dark clouds start to swirl, (Dark clouds start to swirl) Don't fear, don't shed a tear, 'cause I'll be your 1UP girl Now listen, all you boys and girls (All you boys and girls) All around the world (All around the world) Don't be afraid to get up and move You know that we're all superstars (We're all superstars) We're the ones who made it this far Put a smile on that face There's no time to waste So, let's do the odyssey
Break Free (Lead the Way)
Smash through the blocks that bar your way No time for fear just let it all fall away (all fall away) Nobody believes in me and you, just look at the way they stare So what if we live in a walled garden, as long as I've got you then I don't care Kick off the wall and take the plunge Tripping through two dimensions Up on the moon we'll twirl and swoon Just lead the way (and I'll follow you) I'll throw my hat in the ring, 'cause you're the one A miracle in three dimensions Follow the brick path straight to my heart And we'll grab the flag together the fireworks are gonna start Shake off the chains, you're running free You'll be amazed at all that there is to see (there is to see) Together we're racing for the goal, and no one can stop us now Maybe we don't know where we're going, but we're gonna get there somehow Climb up the vine and land in the clouds Maybe then we'll swap up for down 'cross the sea we're still you and me I'll follow you (just lead the way) You've got me over the moon, and that's no jest We're miles above the rest Look in your eyes and I know we'll be fine So let's shoot for the stars and make this love really shine Nobody believes in me and you, just look at the way they stare So what if we live in a walled garden, as long as I've got you then I don't care Kick off the wall and take the plunge Tripping through two dimensions Up on the moon we'll twirl and swoon Just lead the way (and I'll follow you) I'll throw my hat in the ring, 'cause you're the one A miracle in three dimensions Follow the brick path straight to my heart And we'll grab the flag together the fireworks are gonna start
#april fools#so uh i didn't want to use only songs from mario odyssey#but vocal tracks in mario are rarer than a blue moon so that'll have to be it xD#and here's a fun fact: break free (lead the way) is sung by tails' voice actor#so i guess this could count as a sonic song depending on your view hehe#super mario#mario odyssey#super mario odyssey#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sonic fandom#sth fandom#(am i allowed to mix tags like that...?)#(eh it's april fools i'm sure its fine)#gaming#video games#video game music#tumblr tournament#tumblr polls#polls#ultimate vocal sonic song tournament
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hiii bones i desperately need to know more about the time seb and cassidy got chased by the NCPD and then hit by a car in front of the hospital i'm sorry i ended up getting obsessed with a small detail
HIII RENA THANK YOU SO MUCH it's honestly one of my favorite encounters of them all đ for context, there's a total of 28 encounters between january 2077 and december 2077; this encounter is the 13th encounter and it happens in the end of june 2077 (which, if you're interested, lines up with the in-game events in my canon with vincent and would happen around the same time of the parade; so while all of that serious business is going on you got these two clowns getting hit by a car SBHGFDJGDFJGD)
basically what happens is that for once, cassidy is not out to kill seb; he's having a moment in a bar and seb happens to show up at the exact same place, then believes that cassidy did in fact show up there to kill him (which usually is indeed the case) and this prompts a fight between the two which ends up escalating rather quickly into a full-blown bar fight. fun!
that is until the ncpd shows up and starts to arrest people left and right but naturally so, since this is night city, the cops end up getting dragged into the bar fight as well. at some point seb and cassidy manage to stumble out of the bar (well. one of them gets flung through the window and the other stumbles out of the bar) and one of the few still standing cops in the midst of the chaos and panic ends up arresting them?? sort of??? but also needs to call for reinforcements and he ends up just. handcuffing them together. oops
and then they need to run the fuck away from the cops because cassidy is wanted dead or alive by maxtac and kang tao and lowkey militech as well and seb is wanted very much dead by arasaka so if either of them were to get captured by the ncpd they'd be in a bit of a pickle. a big one
so! cue to a chase scene through night city (i feel like it's important to mention once more that seb is 1.99m tall with silvery gray hair that stands out in a crowd and cassidy is 2.01m tall with peach pink hair that. you guessed it. stands out in a crowd) in which they're mostly trying to outrun several ncpd vehicles but also around every corner they try to kill each other. while still being handcuffed together. on more than one occasion they would also end up falling into each other's arms and touching hands and all the other gay shit you'd expect from me and andy in our writing but that's not important right now
the chase ends pretty abruptly when they've managed to outrun the ncpd but they're still trying to fuck each other up which results in them running into traffic and then getting hit by a fucking car right at the entrance of the hospital =D obviously the driver is very worried and checks them in at the hospital so they can get looked at. they're still handcuffed together. no one questions it it's night city. they're now stuck in a waiting room for about 45 minutes with crying children, arguing couples, staring elderly people, etc etc, WHILE handcuffed to their arch nemesis. and they can't even kill each other about it
as funny as this whole idea is, the scene ends with them outside the hospital and amanda (seb's best friend and another member of the cobras, his gang) unlocks the handcuffs for them. and cassidy makes eye contact with seb very briefly. and then starts walking backwards and quickly turns around and leaves. and that's where it ends
because despite the fact that yes he does really need to kill this man, at that point it's become much more than just that contract that he signed with his mysterious client. with both seb and cassidy the other is fascinating to them and it's kind of become a game; they're each other's equal in combat which has RARELY happened before, it's kind of like enrichment?? obviously it's also infuriating and they're both going insane but at the same time it would by then have become something that they both rely on. creating intricate rituals to be close to another man etc etc
it's kind of like. violence as a love language honestly. like knowing what the future holds for them and all this is just. slowly but surely transforming into something entirely else than just two guys trying to kill each other because they both know that it's never gonna happen. they know the other isn't gonna kill them and they know they'll never be able to kill the other so really what does that all mean then? what's left? they could easily stop but that would mean they won't ever see each other again because well they're enemies. they can't suddenly become friends. they're both just kind of. waiting i guess?? to see where it goes. because maybe one day things will be different... not that they would ever admit to anyone let alone themselves that they would like for things to be different but like. it's about the subconscious yearning of it all. do you see the vision
anyway this got very long but i could've gone on for longer because. as you could probably guess. andy and i wrote out shit like this for every single encounter SBHGJMKFDGBFDJGKDF and then!!!! we have entire LISTS of jobs and targets for the later eras (this here is what we call killing era on account of the. well. there's a significant lack of killing but it's about the attempts i guess) with again. so much detail. THERE'S JUST SO MUCH WE HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY
#asks#deadrlngers#ask:blorboverse#<- yeah that's a tag now i guess. IT WORKS#ANYWAY THANK YOU SO MUCH ALSO FOR YOUR TAGS ON THE TIMELINE POST it means so much to us ;_; đ#like genuinely there's just so much to this whole story i could honestly talk for hours about it. and it would still not be enough time#to cover EVERYTHING. because it's just SO MUCH#but it's so much fun... and combining this + the whole story with vincent and vitali into the same universe has also just#been one of the best decisions we've ever made because like#the whole lore with the serpent projects tying in with the apex program from king of fools? IT'S JUST SO GOOD#again. i could yell for hours. i won't but like. i could. easily#BUT YEAS THANK YOU AGAIN i am sending you so many hugs right now :]
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im also increasingly sure that im autistic but we'll never ever confirm that </3
#i had this in person entry exam to a new university to a course that involves working with people young and old#and Apparently waiting for your turn to speak means you never get a turn to speak which means you're not the right fit to be working with#children. i was polite sorry i didnt get in your face about it. come on. :-/#but ok i shall remain the world's most distraught humanities student for a year more. and im going to complain the whole time#i Was excited about this but i did misjudge what this course would be like. bummer. at least the teachers at btk are sweet and lovely#but god let me out. i dont want to do this. i dont want to do any of this. someone give me a thesis question that can't be dealt with in#two sentences#every time i think of something it's like oh yeah the answer is right here. this is the answer and im not going to make a fool of anyone in#writing 15 pages about it#which is admittedly not a lot but i am a man of succinctness and i want an actual worthy topic#and currently im only thinking about jeeves and wooster. i guess there could be something about societal commentary and everything but thats#not very interesting is it#so hi if anyone has an idea they want a meddling english student to research and write about in some detail chime in in the replies#my post#look how succinct these tags are. proving my point#as to why ill never get diagnosed: i could get into that as well but ive almost run out of tags
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Second WIP of this one, featuring a closeup. đ
#đ Ashe Anon | Art đ¨#đđšđ#filling the void đ#with another#wip#... I guess I could fool with the tags#(not sure how folks will react to a funky even-more-alien Kuja that you can't really see all that well + oc x canon)#(nice combo meal of funky - you know?)#so uh... here goes nothing!#đ#ffix#ff9#final fantasy ix#final fantasy 9#kuja#oc#oc x canon#đ¨#aaaand back to other projects#đ¨đđ¨
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GIRL.BLOGGING BLOG POSTING ABOUT CALEB L&DS?!?!?!?!?!?!?
#âł the fool speaks#seeing a post about him w girl.blogger and associated tags and going WHAT#???? huh?? i mean i guess possessive guy w issues⢠c. could be up the alley of that kind of person? it just caught me off guard. hi??#honestly ykw I'm happy to meet all caleb fans đ no matter what their other interests or fandoms are if we can bond over our shared love#for our darling pilot and colonel and personal chef then we're good đŤś
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Some practice/test poses! Unfortunately I think I like how the practice came out more than the final.... đĽ˛đ§
#moe tag#if. you saw this no you didn't LMFAOOO i uploaded it in the wrong order so i guess i'm doing it this way now!!!!#i just think it's better to have all three of those comics side by side no interruptions.#anyways og tags:#one note going waaay back to moe's OG og roots.#is that the resemblance to the devil is mimicry. batesian mimicry specifically.#if i were to assign it a tarot card it would be death.#a handful of others could work well too! the hermit. the fool. and how could we forget the tower#i think death suits it to a t though.#my art#moe lore
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I'm being fucking tormented by disconnected scene ideas for my 'portal ford gets worn down bit by bit into rejoining bill in the multiverse' fic idea. imagine Bill keeping a close eye on who Ford builds friendships with and who he trusts the most, and eventually finding someone Ford trusts who he is able to make a deal with. And then he possesses them so he can have a chat with Ford face-to-face, with the bonus effect of shattering Ford's ability to trust anyone he meets in the multiverse, thus making sure he stays just as isolated as he was when Bill first met him
#godsficideas#what the fuck do I even tag this as.#I guess I'll come up with a specific tag for this fic idea so you can block that tag if anything in the pile of fucked up things going on-#-here is not something you wanna see#hm I cant decide on a name for this concept. i want the slowly-being-dragged-back-into-his-clutches thing to be the focus in the name#maybe 'lost sheep au'? is that anything? is it apparent enough that its meant in a sinister way?? or is the religion reference just annoyin#'repossession au' ???#trying to think of a bill quote I could use as a name that is around as short as the phrase 'one of us' is#i could also just say 'portaloneofus' if I dont think of anything#wait. fool me twice au. is that anything. i dont want the name to accidentally be blaming ford for being manipulated though#repossession au
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Uh anyway. Additional name time. 's in my bio thingy.
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damn
#cryptic ramblings#in the tags#crushposting#so i barely understand how IG works and fully assumed tht the 'message' button only showed up on profiles tht u could Actually Message#n id just seen a short clip of an interview of celebcrush sayin hes ready for a relationship so i was like 'nobody move. is this a sign.'#n i ultimately decided: fk it. you only live once. n im sure he gets messages like this all the time! plus i wanna show him the sign i made#so i spend whtever free time i had yday drafting up a lil heartfelt message shooting my shot bc i figure id get ignored or a quick rejection#n either way id get some closure n move of w my life ykwim?? even had a friend read over my lil draft message (which was in my notes app)#come this morning when i decide to send the dang thing when i find out his dms are only open to accts he follows đ¤Ą#to which i said '........âď¸yknow........that does make a lot of sense.......'#but i felt a little silly ig. n idk how to send fanmail either idek if hes really all tht into getting fanmail :V#anyways i guess ill just keep yearning over him til he announces/its revealed tht hes in a new relationship or smthn đĽ˛#srry yallre stuck w me fr đ¤Şďż˝ďż˝ďż˝ď¸#call ME your fool amirite?? haha. ha.#omg *move ON w my life. i aint retyping alladat
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i hate when something small and stupid that doesn't actually matter at all happens and then strikes my soul with physical pain and despair that i cannot shake.
#*new creative post tag here*#sorry for tags haha. ............#aw if i knew that song existed yesterday i could have named a neodpet after it on april fools day :(#<- situation that is making me want to kms actually because my brain doesn't work properly#but i can't like. say that to anyone. because that's an unreasonable thing to be heavily upset about and will just make people uncomfortabl#so now people who read tumblr tags can see it instead. hi i guess. lmao.#i already made a different pet yesterday but it was more of a 'well this will have to do' name#but it needed to be THAT DAY. but this name would be much better. but it's no longer april first.
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I Come To You A Sinner
summary | Aemond's wife has been made aware of his whereabouts by Aegon.
pairing | aemond targaryen x wife!reader
tags | spoilers to s2e3 ahead! miscommunication, angst, infidelity, aemond can't open up, aegon is the worst, thoughts of fratricide
wordcount | 2.3k
note | sorry to rub salt into the already gaping wound that is ep3 aemond đ but that whole scene was unbelievable omfg it is over for aegond i fear
likes, comments, reblogs are much appreciated!
âWhere have you been?â
She was staring into the hearth when he returned. It was evident she had already been asleep, but had awoken by a disturbance of some kind. It was unlike her to be awake so late, though Aemond could guess what brought her out of bed to fasten on her robe, to wait for him.
He could still hear his cackle, Aegonâs, as the curtain that shielded him from prying eyes was swatted away unceremoniously, revealing his whereabouts. He remembered how his little entourage stared at him, how their stunned gazes brought about prickles of humiliation in the back of Aemondâs spine. They threatened to laugh. He saw it in the twinkle of their eyes, in the subtle lift in the corners of their lips.Â
âIt is late, dear wife, why have you not rested?â he said. His steps towards her were small, careful. Perhaps she doesnât know. That would be preferable. He had already been found out once tonight, and if he could save her from the knowledge of his shame, there was naught he would not do.Â
âAegon was here,â she responded, and it was then she finally turned to him. Her eyes were bloodshot, the skin around them was puffed from the tears she had evidently shed. The prickle in Aemondâs spine returned, only now it was coupled by a hammering pang in his chest. He had done this to her.
âAt least he had the decency to tell me where you were, after many nights of being left in the dark by mine own husband. Though his delivery of the message was a bit cruel, Iâll admit.âÂ
The dark chuckle that left her lips held no sort of amusement, but a clear sputter of disbelief and betrayal. Aemond was stuck in his place, unsure of how to speak to her, unknowing of what would happen to them now that his sin was laid out in the open.
âIt is not what it seemedââ
âWhat is it, then? When your brother catches you in a brothel with a whore, what else am I to think, Aemond?â she burst, rising to her feet to look at him. Her chest heaved as she regarded him with a look so different than what he was used to. There used to be such warmth in her gaze, reserved only for him, not the fracturing hurt she bestowed on him now. He couldnât look at her, and so he settled his eye elsewhere. A futile attempt to escape what had already caught up to him.
âYouâve told me of what had happened to you there, what she made you do, and yet youâve crawled back to her? After everything thatâs happened?â she questioned, desperate. He could hear the break in her voice, and he could only imagine the quivering of her lips into a frown. A scoff left her lips, and Aemond could see her desperate attempt to wrap her around this, but her despair had gotten the best of her.Â
âW-why⌠Why would you even want to go back there? What is it in her that you canât find in me?â
Aemond couldnât say it. His mind refused to let him say it. In truth, he couldnât recall how his feet had led him back there, all he knew was it brought a temporary soothing to an ache that had sprouted in the days after Lucerysâ death. He wouldnât dare speak his sin into words, to solidify his betrayal of the love for his wife. How ever could he tell her the truth of it? How ever could he admit that the only way for him to find a sense of order in his life, however misconstrued, was to return to the woman who had been a figure of his torment?Â
âDo you want me to lie to you?â he asked.Â
A foolâs answer. A true coward, he is. Many people would consider him otherwise, but in front of his wife, he was no warrior. Utter shame coupled with his ego prevented him from coming clean. How could he? He had gone too far. He expressed no remorse when he had come home to her, drenched, after Stormâs End, no, he even acted proud. In his heart of hearts, Aemond knew that the one person who could see him as he was was his wife, yet he refused to let it be. He had gone through his whole life a rigid soldier, a scholar, the image of the fearsome dragon of Valyria. He didnât know how to dismantle the shackles that held him upright.
Yet he had seen his fault now in the face of his wife, his love, who visibly crumbled before him.
âWas I not good enough?â she asked, quietly, as a lone tear streaked down her cheek. He couldnât bear to see her like this, to have him so far from his grasp as the ever-growing space between them turned the air cold. Aemond approached her, arms lifted open to take her into his grasp, but she flinched away. A shatter in his chest brought about a thick lump in his throat, one he couldnât swallow.Â
âMy love,â he whispered, a solemn plea for her to see him. She hugged her arms to her chest, looking away as she blinked away the fat, traitorous tears that beaded down her cheeks. Aemond took hold of her elbow, his grip desperate as she fought to wiggle her way out of his grasp. He couldnât let her, he cannot. This hellish war, this irreconcilable damage would all be futile if he lost her, he couldnât let that happen. But she wouldnât even spare a glance at him.Â
âCanât you even look at me?â he beseeched in despair.Â
A sob was her only response. She had slapped a hand to muffle her cries, but it had broken through the barriers that kept him away from her. Aemond descended to his knees, hugging her legs to his chest. His good eye stung with something hot, something wet. He clung to her skirts like a beggar, a sinner praying for retribution.
âPlease⌠pleaseâŚâ he grieved. Her robe was growing spotted with his tears, and her grip on his shoulder was punishing as she pushed and pushed to get him away from her. She slapped him, had pulled on his hair to get him to release his hold, but he never relented. âYou have to understand,â he muttered.Â
âI cannot even try to begin to do so, Aemond! How can I?â she wept. âHow could you even think we could recover from this?â
âMy love⌠my light⌠I beg of you.â It was pathetic to whoever would witness him like this. The Kinslayer, on his knees, pleading for forgiveness to the wife he had wronged. There was much he had done that was far worse, far more cruel, but to have hurt her was his greatest crime of all.
A shrill cry had pierced through the night air. Her head snapped to her babe. Their babe. With a firmer push on his shoulder, his wife freed himself from his grasp to where their son wailed for his mother. She took him into her arms, soothing the child with her gentle caress and shushes. Aemond could only watch. He watched the babe nestled into the crook of her neck, how she wiped his tears away while hers continued to fall. She pressed her nose into his scalp, the milky scent of his flesh a welcome comfort to her otherwise crumbling sanity.Â
Aemond waited in agony, keeping his space lest he aggravated her any further. Every cry of their babe was another sword pierced through his heart, leaving him to bleed out while his family floated away from his grasp.
He had settled after a few minutes, descending back into slumber as his mother returned him to his cradle with a kiss on his forehead. The silence was deafening. The dying hearth was unable to break the cold that sent shivers under Aemondâs skin. He called out to her once more. Another full beat of silence passed through the room before she spoke.
âWhat did I do wrong, Aemond?â she whispered, turning to him. Her eyes were a painful red from how much she had been crying, but she wanted to know. âTell me, you owe me that much.â
âI owe you everything, darling,â he responded, moving closer to her. Aemond closed the distance between them, wrapping his arms around her waist to pull her back into his chest. He pressed kisses onto her shoulder, reverent⌠repentant. âYou have done nothing wrong,â he said into her skin, his voice low. âIt is my fault and my fault alone. You have done nothing wrong.â
He turned her around to face him, and she allowed him to do so. Albeit, unwillingly, but his wife was tired. It was evident in the way her eyes had run out of tears to weep, yet she remained broken all the same.
âI have wronged you. Allow me to pay for my sin. Let me make things right. I promise you, I will make it all right,â he pleaded. Perhaps he could make her see, convince her to forgive him. It was a foolâs wish, but the prince could hardly consider himself a wise man now. A flicker of hope thumped excitingly in his chest when her fingertips caressed his jaw, but the furrowing of her brows dampened whatever fire he thought he had stoked.
âI canât,â she responded, shaking her head. She pulled herself away from his grasp once more, leaving them both cold and alone. Aemond hung his head low in shame. He felt sick to his stomach. The full weight of his doing had dragged him straight into the mud, while the love he could only ever carry for his wife throbbed painfully in his chest. âI canât stay here. I canât live with this.â
âNo,â he said, shaking his head. âNo. You are my wife, you cannot leave me.â
She was starting to step away from his grip, but he couldnât let her. Aemond tried to cage her in his arms, but she fought back with strong pushes against his chest. There was a desperation in the one-eyed prince no one had ever known, until now. His pleas echoed through their apartments, cut off by a resounding slap on his cheek. The sting on his flesh was warm, keeping him awake in this reality. He couldâve prevented this, had cut off the poison from its roots if only he had the will to do so, but he had not. The stubbornness in his dragonblood and his refusal to acknowledge the rot in him had let it happen. He had let it grow and fester, spoiling everything he had until it took away the one most precious to him.
She regarded him with coldness, detached like a stranger. His wife looked away, sniffling.
âYou are no husband of mine.â
Aegon slept like a boar when he was drunk.
The fucker had gotten back before he did, slithering his way back to the Keep with what Aemond was sure was a maniacal look on his face to tattle to his wife what he had found out.
The kingâs chambers almost resembled a pigsty. Cups scattered about, along with some phallic wooden figurines that Aemondâs mind refused to imagine what he even used them for. Their fatherâs model was gone. At least the twat did one thing right.
But the smell. It was almost like Viserysâ rotting stench remained, haunting them all forever. It was enough to have Aemond scrunch his nose in disgust, but it didnât repel him completely. No, he had come for something.
His brother laid out like a starfish on his bed, pasty flesh bright against the shadows of his apartments. His snores echoed through the vast chamber. Aemondâs presence did not alert the king at all, his sense of danger dampened by liquor.Â
The second son watched him, sneering, before turning around in search of something. It glinted like a beacon under the moonlight, beckoning him closer. The Conquerorâs catspaw dagger stood tall, its sharp tip pierced into the wood of Aegonâs side table. Aemond tested its weight in his hand, getting familiar with the feel of its handle. It was heavy, burdened with its importance to them and their legacy. An imbecile like Aegon had no right to wield it. It belonged to someone worthy of power, of glory.Â
Putting his brother on the throne had cost Aemond too much, yet he had been rewarded so little. It cost him his control, his sanity. It cost him his wife. His own brother had played a major hand in his torment, and it was high time the second son was granted his retribution.
It was all too easy to kill him now. One plunge into his slumbering form, and this would all end. It would save everyone much trouble and with a better king on the throne. Save the realm from much horror and bloodshed, that was the power Aemond currently held. No, he wanted him to suffer. He wanted to gaze into the elderâs eyes as he pleaded for mercy. The younger longed to feel his brotherâs flesh under his boot, just before he crushed him to pieces. There was no honor in killing a sleeping man, yet again, there was no honor in killing oneâs own kin either. There was no honor in any of this, and the one-eyed prince found himself uncaring. The gods had already shunned him, right under the thunderous clouds of Stormâs End. Honor will not save him now, nor any of them. That is why they allowed him to lose his wife.Â
Perhaps he was too harsh on the gods, they have to deal with this headache of a war as it is. This was no otherâs fault but his after all.
But he is owed by his brother. For many, many things.
The second son set the dagger back in its place. He will be patient. He will have his chance soon enough. Aegon will pay for his sins; Aemond will make sure of it.Â
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