#...Hm. i could have had it better

[darkdragon768]

Hey man, what does it mean when I say that I'm jealous of Bluey (the dog), that Lois from Malcolm in the Middle sometimes reminds me of my mom, that Tenna's relationship with Kris made me think about my childhood and that chapter 4's ending almost made me tear up. Hey what does that mean.

[storytellering]

"What Sanctus saw was a young man, not in a fighting stance, just eerily staring at him." - Deadly Fortune, Vol. 1

[starheirxero]

PLEASE become evil on main your thoughts are always very interesting !! :3

Anon I need you to know I was debating just only making that one post and then biting my tongue about the rest but this ask was genuinely so relieving to see that I teared up a little bit thank you HDKSHDJD

I did, however, uhm. talk a Lot. and I'm very much being more honest about my feelings on this than I usually am, so it's going under the cut bdjshdjdnf

Ahem ahem. So. From a meta standpoint? I just have a very, very weird feeling about what's going on with tsams now that they've Also changed Lunar's name. The only information we have on what's happening is from Discord, where Kat mentioned it wasn't her choice to change Earth's name and the mods reassuring everyone that the changes are for a good reason. I've been seeing theories that the changes are to make them more sellable for merch? But I,, don't fully know why they'd have to change their own OCs for that? So idk

From a story perspective though? It doesn't make sense and it's just another vein of Lunar having no choice in what happens to them.

Just because Libra asked "do you accept this permanent name change?" doesn't mean that "no" was a valid answer, because then what would have happened? They say "actually, I like my name, Lunar feels fine" and then what? The astrals, of which are famously judgy and pushy, say "okay, we'll continue to call you Lunar then! (Even though we just said that Lunar is an unfitting astral name)" like?!?!!??? And Lunar just immediately goes home to be like "uh. I guess I have a different name now? and I don't wanna deal with two names, so just call me Cosmos too."

They didn't make this choice. And honestly! They couldn't have because Lunar wouldn't have ever changed their name of their own volition!!! You can't tell me that Lunar—the character who is known for trying to cling onto a sense of identity so hard that it causes more problems for them in the long run—would be willing to let go of their own name? That is the one thing about them that actually hasn't changed since the beginning, the one thing that's consistent in the face of everything.

Plus, on a more personal note? I had an experience with my old username where everyone was calling me a nickname derived from my url instead of my actual chosen name, and the realization that only one person was calling me my actual preferred name made me have a messy identity crisis. If Lunar wasn't just, a character who is unfortunately the subject of bad writing lately, this choice would probably hit them at some point. They'd probably have that same awful, dreadful feeling of "oh god. no one even knows me."

It's just. Earth made sense because she at least gave her own reasons. She said "yeah I'm tryna be my own person now, so I'm Terra!" but Lunar's reason was just "uh. Libra gave it to me sooo.... 👍 yup." Like. augghhh. They could have gone by both Lunar and Cosmos too if the writing wasn't being so weird but !!! ugh. deflates. it's whateverrrrr

[thesupernaturalhouse]

@fae-cookie-run-madness your aus have taken over my brain, have some fanfiction of white lily struggling after waking up as a result (I hope it's an okay read)

Ghostly memories (idk, im not good with titles)

currently, White Lily was crouched over her desk, a book laid out, and a list on the side of what she could remember. A candle on her other side so she could read

How she got there? Well...

White Lily was a...mess, to say the least when she woke up after.....she didn't know how long exactly, but that wasn't the point.

The point was that she had been confused and disoriented, from the shift of being asleep and...somewhere else, to awake again

She had tried to hide it from the others- what she couldn't she's sure her friends....

(did she really deserve to still be their friend after all she caused....sure she wasn't dark enchantress- not really, but her actions resulted in her creation even if by pure accident...)

Assumed was out of guilt for what dark enchantress had done- WAS doing, considering how Pure Vanilla kept comforting her

But it...wasnt

Well....not fully

She can't remember...much, but when she was asleep it was like she was re-living a different life, or watching that life be played out unable to stop any of the events despite her trying to do so

She remembers it all being so clear, but now that she was awake? It was all so fuzzy.

She had tried to ignore it at first, dismiss it as a weird dream- the result of wanting to be anyone else but herself

But they had been to vivid- felt to real for that to be the case. Felt to real to just forget or move on.

(It was stupid really. This whole mess they were dealing with now was because she couldn't give up her selfish desire for knowledge....)

(Though, at least she didnt plan to run off to somewhere in search of answers this time...)

They were so vivid that she's certain the only reason she responded to her name was due to the 'lily' she and the women shared in their name

And while yes, it was her dreams that mostly featured these memories, with the occasional break from them, she also got flashes of them when she was awake

Touching a sword gave her the memory of her- well, someone else, struggling to pick up a big purple one giggling when someone else picked it up with ease

And she swore she could feel and hear things that weren't there- namely, the feeling of something cold on her shoulder or waist, occasionally the name 'spider lily' being called out to her

So, no. She was certain they weren't dreams or something her mind conjured up to try and protect her

Which was what made it all the more weird.

Certain ones had gotten a bit clearer after she had gained guardianship of the tree. Which made her theorize that the increase in magical ability helped- while plausible, didn't exactly help her memory problem

Soooo she did what she usually did when something stumped her and turned to her books. Specifically, the medical ones on amnesia, since that's what it was akin to

And tested the 'treatments' on herself- none of the suggested treatments were physical, (not that that would have stopped her.)

But more suggestions to try and write things down, draw pictures, try to focus on memories that were fuzzy, etc

So she tried that- the images she drew were messy, and mostly objects. She was able to lsit a few things down though

A purple sword, purple armor, purple eyes....it was a lot of purple. She remembered cold yet gentle armor holding her, making flower crowns, wrapping up wounds, gentle headbutts, and a few more

They were like little moments in time, clips of the previous life. It made her ache for that feeling again, despite the fact she had never experienced it in her life

They didn't give her the full story though, she didn't know whose eyes she was seeing from, or who was with her, what time period

It frustrated her just as much as it made her more and more nervous. She hated not have an answer, especially when the theories to the answer were...complicated

If she was a reincarnation how? Certainly the witches wouldn't have renarnated a random cookie- especially not after what she'd seen them do....

Had a peice of the cookies soul been used to make hers? If so....how? And why? How much was used and...why were these memories only resurfacing now?

She couldn't recall having any memories like this when she was younger....

Frankly she didn't think she would've been able to handle it if she had gotten them when she was younger

Especially.....that one, she shivered at the thought

....not....snippet of memory was pleasant though. The worst one was of her staring at the sky, trying desperately to catch her breath.

She always woke up immediately after being picked up by cold armor. She typically wasn't able to go back to bed afterwards

Still, despite the gruesome nature of it, she still wrote it down. Every bit she could remember was important, after all. No matter how unpleasant it may be

And strangely enough, it was the most clear out of all of them. She can count the stars in the sky, pinpoint where the wound was on her body. Remembering the feeling of choking on her own jam....

Lily jerked back, eyes wide, heart racing. She groaned, of course she had zoned out and nearly dozed off whilst thinking of that memory....

Maybe that was her mind and body telling her she was to tired, she had been staying up pretty late trying to make sense of...this whole situation

She glanced in between the curtains, it was pitch balck outside, she really should be going to bed....

She bite her lip at the thought, letting her eyes close in thought, she really should go to bed. What good would she be as a guardian if she was delirious?

She jerked, once again, at the feeling of cold armor on her shoulder

Right.

That was definitely her que to get into bed.

With a heavy sigh she forced herself up and away from her desk

(If she focused hard enough she swore by the stars she could feel cold metal around her waist guiding her away gently but firmly)

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~bonus ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

White Lily knew that, eventually, she'd meet her beast counterpart, considering how they were escaping one after another

Still, actually looking at him was...shocking

Not, fearful though- she had expected to be scared, for him to immediately try to take her in a fight

He didn't he just....stared, as if he was in the same shocked state she was in because she recognized them.

It was the same cookie from those 'memories' of hers

Why? Why was he so familiar!?

Well, she knew why but....she had never suspected that cold but gentle touch of armor to be from a beast it was...

Shocking, distressing, confusing, nervewrecking

It gave her more questions then answers-

Speaking of nerves....they wouldn't let her move.

Part of her begged her to go run up to him, cling to them like a life line- the other part told her to back away, not let her defenses down for a second

She did neither

"Why-" she asked, trembling, when had that started? They'd only been looking at eachother for a few minutes, "why you"

They, of course, stayed silent. She didnt know how, but she could almost sense the hurt the words had caused. That he wanted to step forward but was scared of scaring her away

Like he was desperate not to lose her again

"I- I feel like I know you but I don't- I don't I can only remember so much-" she took a shaky breath, "I'm sorry" she said softly

As if she was apologizing to a life ling old friend and not a corrupted virtue. It just felt right

[todayisafridaynight]

'tumblr if you snipe the quality of another post of mine im going to break into your cellar and ruin all of your wine' translation: click for better quality

80's version

[seaofreverie]

Sparkstember Day 18: Balls (Bullet Train)

Sometimes (oftentimes) it's true that all you need are Balls. I personally absolutely love Balls. I'm a big fan! Ekhem. Today I'm using the help of (I mean, copying most of the passages from it) my earlier Balls rant that I have written down after my first listen of it back in January. I really love this album and I don't want to completely skip over saying a couple words on it at least but I really don't think I have the headspace to write anything very good for it today. I'll still try though!

So yeah, Balls. It's a great album, fun and chill (in my sense of what I call and consider chill anyway), consistent, as Sparks albums tend to be, and as I suspected / hoped it does fit this specific vibe of driving around at night somewhere city-like and illuminated. Or being on a train deep at night and looking at the world zooming by (if you'd even see much of it on a train at night anyway.....). And I do think that it's not so dissimilar to Gratsax (I'd say now that it's definitely darker and moodier than its predecessor...). So it's interesting to think about how it's considered to be one of the "weak" ones (by music reviewers at least) while Gratsax is so beloved in comparision.

I will admit, I don't really know what the big problem with this album could be. As I said, it's fun, it has the melodies, it has the energy, it has the theatricality (I like seeing how more and more orchestral instruments such as strings are being incorporated into the music, in a way the jump into Lil' Beethoven two years later doesn't come of as THAT much of a shock because of this. The evolution of sound here is fascinating!) I really like the intense beats, just as much as the more laid-back and moodier pieces. And there's lots of gold to be found in the lyrics department as always.

One more thing I wanna say is that at some point I wondered if this music sounds older than it is. Maybe it does? But then I remembered that this was 2000 and honestly when I think about it, there just IS something about this album that fits so well with the Y2K image and vibe and all. Sparks 2000 and all that.

Favourite songs (and other highlights):

Balls: I mean. It's Balls.

Scheherazade: absolutely LOVE this one and I had the strangest impression of it sounding very familiar when I first heard it. Months later I found out that it was just briefly featured in TSB so I think that explains it (I will talk more about my TSB viewings on TSB day. EVERYTHING has to be explained in excruciating detail, lmao)

The Calm Before The Storm: bugsonas 4ever. Song itself is amazing too

How To Get Your Ass Kicked: how can a song about getting your ass kicked be so pleasant and relaxing, it always keeps cracking me up, how perfect that is actually

Bullet Train: I love it how introducing the topic of the song with a "It's the [topic of the song]" is a reoccurring theme on this album. Thank you Sparks for this ode to technology and art (these lyrics always have me giggling). And also it just goes hard as heck

It's Educational: a perfect fusion of / sequel to I Thought I Told You To Wait In The Car and Progress (it's mostly the vocal delivery that reminds me of the latter)

The Angels: such an odd one here but I still like it a lot, I apparently said that it sounds "surprisingly mainstream for Sparks but somehow in a positive way". It's very sweet and I absolutely love how Russell sings here, it's so different from what we're used to but that only makes it hit you even more in the feels, lol. And I actually prefer the alternative version of this song that's featured as a bonus track, and I do think that's in big part because you can hear Russell better on it (or that was my first impression of it at least and it kind of stuck)

[camgirlkaminari]

i just caught up with the latest chapters and like. those dudes definitely made out right? like that's not even subtext? like horikoshi fully said one and two absolutely went hog wild upon each other like. in the text, right??????? I have other, more cool and normal thoughts, but what is really important to me right now is that. those dudes definitely canonically got nasty. right???????????????????

[sieglinde-freud]

manakete!inigo for the sole reason i think he’d look so cute with pointy ears hit post

[sparrowinthesky]

ever since i was a little child i knew i wanted to live my life again but better this time

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[jebiknights]

Forever crazy to me when people write characters who have canonically (or semi-canonically in Legends) struggled with the Dark side brush Anakin off as a lost cause. Obviously in order to return to the Light you have to want to, I do get that and the characters are likely going to know that, too. But it's just so disingenuous to me when people have these characters be unforgiving and skeptical, ignoring that character's past and experiences. I'm not sure if it's just a lack of knowledge of the characters in question or if they just like using characters as Anti-Anakin/Vader mouthpieces but it really takes me out of a story.

[a-concert-just-for-me]

Arcane s2 spoilers

Powder in episode 7 is so unsettling to me. They neurotypicalized my girl. She’s in regular girl clothes and has a boyfriend and a stable job and is able to think rationally and also work towards her goals and reach her potential…she’s no longer #hashtag relatable. That whole arc had me like “put it back!!!!! I need that girl to be fucking insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

[brionysea]

turns out trying to stick to the season 4 timeline with the sole difference of mike being in hawkins doesn't work because mike notices things MUCH quicker than the rest of these people

[mzannthropy]

I never wanted my blog to be a negative place and I worry I complain too much, but at the same time, well, if you're not happy about something, it's healthier to write it all out than keep it to yourself. I do my best to warn if I'm going on a rant and use Read More under the cut if a post gets too long. And as I discovered this year, this can be a good thing. Bc you never know if someone out there feels the same way!

Last year, Daisy Jones and the Six left me feeling so alone bc I like the Billy x Camila relationship and grew to hate the other, vastly more popular ship. I thought other B/C shippers just dropped it or moved on to other things. Not that I didn't want to move on, I'm not even a shipper, really, I think there's too much focus on shipping here. But it was difficult. If Billy was played by anyone else but Sam Claflin... but then, if Sam Claflin was not cast as Billy, I would not have known about DJATS at all. So I tried recovering from that on my own.

Now I have people coming to my inbox to tell me they also loved Billy x Camila. Which is a proof that it's good to talk (write) about things on your mind.

Thank you to everyone who has ever interacted with me about this ship. Even if it was 'only' a like. I appreciate it.

[ceramicbeetle]

I’ve had the idea for a while to do a werewolf!bill fic, but hesitated bc some part of me felt it was kind of mean to dump the two of them directly into a horror movie setting; then today i remembered that they’re both metalheads so if nothing else they’d definitely appreciate the aesthetic value of the werewolf transformation and well, who am i to deny them that?

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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