#Ed tw

[support]

Everything okay?

If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, you are not alone.  

If you are in the United States, please try:

National Eating Disorders Association (support, resources, treatment options)

If you are outside the United States, visit IASP to find help lines related to eating disorders for your country. 

For self-help courses on body image and general peer support, please try Koko. 

For more resources, please visit our Counseling & Prevention Resources page for a list of services that may be able to help.

[aropride]

when i was 17 and in the eating disorder trenches i saw people online talking abt how the fat liberation movement & unlearning fatphobia helped them recover and i did NOT like hearing that i was SO mad about it i was like well having an eating disorder doesnt mean im fatphobic!!! This is ableist etc etc. And then i learned abt the fat liberation movement and started unlearning fatphobia and guess what . it does help

[gayvampyr]

fat people are allowed to be fat even if they don’t starve themselves or push themselves physically past their limits btw

[dreamdropsystemarchive]

we're getting bad again..

[junglejim4322]

Btw when I was at my worst with anorexia I genuinely think what most people just assumed was going on was that I was on hard drugs although it was ironically the most stone cold sober I’ve ever been in my life. I acted so fucking bizarre I was constantly zoning out in the middle of conversations and I’d say things that just straight up did not make sense and I had absolutely zero memory retention I still don’t remember a lot of that period of time. that shit will literally rot your brain in half no ability to feel happiness absolutely nothing just an empty mind. @ the ed thinspo coquette blogs that I know follow me no you’re not going to feel happy when you meet your goal weight because you’re not going to be capable of feeling emotions anymore in fact you probably won’t even remember hitting it

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

Being fat, actually fat, with an eating disorder is fucking hell.

People assume you have BED, and if you actually do have BED people are so gross about it. If you have a restricting disorder people get concerned when you start eating more. People get concerned if you start to like yourself. People love to see you fucking miserable, and will completely ignore your misery in the same breath. It makes them feel good. They benefit at your expense through weight stigma.

So many physicians prescribe disordered eating to us. ED specialists in many places won’t even consider how EDs affect us. Our own community uses our bodies as inspiration to hurt themselves. Because nothing could be worse than looking like us, right? How are you supposed to love yourself when so many people actively don’t want you to?

To the fat person reading who needs to hear this, I give a shit if you recover. I give a shit that you are hurting. So many people don’t notice, so many don’t give a fuck, but I do. You deserve better. I want you to eat even if it means you gain weight. I want you to be happy in your body as it is. I want you to feel loved, I want you to feel seen.

If you are fat with BED, I see you. There is so much stigma and it is not your fault. Your weight isn’t “your fault”, you are sick. It’s not a moral failing. You deserve compassion, and the extent to which people project their own issues onto you is awful. You deserve to be comfortable in your skin, and your body is wonderful.

If you are fat with purging tendencies, or with restricting ones I see you too. We get praised for hurting ourselves, or no one notices. I see you. I’m sorry.

I wish so badly the world were more compassionate to you, but if no one else gives a shit, I do. Fight for recovery for me, even though I know that journey can be so, so lonely when you aren’t thin.

To those of you who have recovered, to those of you that may. You are worth it. You may be fat for the rest of your life, and that’s okay. It’s wonderful, your body is wonderful, and I see you and I’m proud of you. Sadly I know many of us recover alone, but I hope you know you aren’t. I’m rooting for you.

[she-whodreams]

So basically

[teaboot]

So I've been trying to buy pants and it reminded me that everything is sized so small and I got angry again because

BEHOLD: AN OBESE PERSON

[angelshizuka]

One of the (many) reasons I hate fatphobics' "we're just worried about your health uvu" comments so much is because they literally couldn't be any more transparant. If they really cared about health they'd have the exact same energy to unhealthy thin people (not saying they should, just pointing out their double standards).

As someone who suffered from an ED back in 2012-2013 (and still struggles with relapses from time to time) that made me lose 65 pounds in less than a year and despite my BMI technically being the healthiest it's ever been in my adult life, it was literally the unhealthiest my body has EVER been. Yes, even unhealthier than all the times I've been overweight.

But these people don't give a single fuck. I was thin, so what tf did it matter I didn't get my period for half a year, was constantly cold and dizzy because of low blood pressure and was literally losing my hair by the handfulls (if even a hairdresser says you're losing a lot of hair, you better believe them), because my body had gone into survival mode and literally didn't have the energy to function properly.

And even when I was recovering and trying to get back into eating properly, I ended up fainting and going into shock at a restaurant to the point an ambulance had to be called, because my body literally couldn't process the food (it took years to feel comfortable in restaurants again).

So, please, how about you tell me again how "we're just worried about your health" when you fatphobes don't give a single fuck about my body literally giving up on me from malnutrition, because "hey, at least you're thin uvu".

[genderkoolaid]

Over half of British men show signs of body dysmorphia, a recent report found. Within the community of avid male gym-goers, a study published last year in the US found that all participants who immersed themselves in bodybuilding practices described themselves as having some degree of muscle dysmorphia. Men, however, are less likely to seek treatment than women – despite one in three eating disorders occurring in men, according to the National Eating Disorder Association, only one in 20 people in treatment are male, Vargas says. Meanwhile, in 2016, it was reported that less than one percent of all the body image and eating disorder research was conducted exclusively on males, leading some researchers to state that this is a “silent crisis” in men’s mental health. [...] Swami sees this intertwining of muscularity and masculinity as a relatively recent cultural change, beginning in the early 90s, when fashion and beauty industries realised the market power of targeting men, he says. Men began to be sold the idea that their bodies are non-biological commodities to be invested in, he says. And with the backdrop of evolving gender roles, Swami thinks muscle-building offers immediate agency over one’s virility: “It’s the one form of masculinity that feels like it’s malleable.” But for Oscar*, as a transgender man, this malleability was a lifeline: while on a two-year wait list for hormone therapy, he started weightlifting to connect with his masculinity.“I thought, well, if I build more muscle, I know I can look closer to how I feel in my head,” he says. But living within a culture that valorises the muscular physique can delay recovery, MD sufferers say. “A lot of your physical symptoms to the outward world are great,” says Mycock. As a result, self-destructive behaviours can be hidden in plain sight. “It’s hard to stomach the nuance of it because for so long, we’ve been told it’s good – and no matter what, it’s good,” he says. He adds: “Exercise should be treated more like medicine, in the sense, there’s always a list of side effects.”

[prehistoric-faggot]

fat person: “i really hate how fat ppl are treated in our society, we are literally dying from medical fatphobia and are forced to loose weight before doctors will help you with an issue that has nothing to do with weight. they’d rather let us die than help us. eating disorders are rampant among fat people and we go without support and treatment because either no one believes us or they encourage restrictive eating disorders because they want us to loose weight. we get shamed for using fast fashion when there’s literally no ethical brands with affordable clothing in fat sizes. we are constantly told how unlovable, unattractive and worthless we are because of our weight. if ur not fat or have never been fat u will not understand.”

skinny ppl for no damn reason: “ok but consider this; someone told me to eat once and i find that oppressive.”

[doppelganger-ana]

Ed Films

To The Bone

Girl Interrupted

Dying To Be Thin

THIN (documentary)

When Friendship Kills (A Secret Between Friends)

Perfect Body

Sharing The Secret

Hunger Point

[aropride]

i remember being like 17 and thinking i was going to always have eating disorder thoughts and horrible self esteem and that i'd remember the calorie information in every food forever. and well now im 21 and happy to say i have no clue how many calories are in a pizza and i also don't care

[green-alien-turdz]

Cringy, self-indulgent garbage cuz I'm at the end of my rope

[junglejim4322]

I’ve always been so surprised by how unsympathetic and not understanding all the people I’ve met who work in eating disorder treatment are though like my understanding is that most other addiction treatment has a relatively high number of former addicts working in the field and there’s a level understanding and knowledge that comes from that but I guess it’s not the case with ed therapy someone will literally walk in and say some shit to you like so do you not eat food because you’re stupid? Is it because you’re a dumb idiot piece of shit? Because you’re a pussy could it be because you’re a pussy perhaps? Your homework is to go home and eat 10,000 calories. And then die.

[r4tsr0tten]

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