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“Normal” test results are not the relief people think they are. When you wake up in pain and continue to be in pain for hours every day and your tests come back normal you don’t stop being in pain.
#chronic pain#I guess#cripplepunk#crip punk#<— correct me if that’s overstepping#what do I tag this with#I obviously didn’t get a diagnosis#personal but I’m also really scared of needles#and having to go through the fear and pain and crying and screaming#for nothing#doesn’t feel good#people tell me it’s not “nothing#but I know exactly what I did before the tests#which is nothing!!#and I didn’t have to go through that pain for that!!!#also å few months ago I genuinely thought it was completely normal#later I realised that spending hours each morning warming up my hands to feel usable might be more pain and stiffness than other people#experienced#I genuinely didn’t expect all of my friends to say they didn’t feel ANY pain at all#and now I’m just hyper aware of how not normal this is#and I’m still in pain#and now I’m not gonna get any help other than a “try heat therapy from the doctor#which is what I was already doing#like no im not crying cause I’m not sick#it would be great if I wasn’t sick#but clearly something’s wrong
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#ra speaks#it’s a silly joke/pun dw#we stay silly :3#edit:#woahg. that’s a lot of notes. hi everybody o/#10k. stop clenching your jaw and drink some water.#15k. eat some fresh fruit this week! I’m having kiwis tonight :]#20k. quit sitting like a shrimp it’s bad for your neck! sit up straight and do a little stretch every now and then#25k. I’m up at 2 AM but I’ll get to see the sunrise today :] if you can’t see that I hope you admire the sunset later today#30k. do something fun you haven’t done in a while. I haven’t drawn in months - I think I’ll paint a cat tomorrow :3#40k. I just slept 9 hours straight for the first time in weeks :] remember to ask for help when you need it! no glory in senseless suffering#50k. it’s been over a year since I made this post. I’ve grown and changed so much and I’m so happy I have. but. I stay silly :3#okay random edit bc PSA: don’t tell ppl to kill themselves! even as a joke in response to a silly pun!!! some of us are mentally ill!!!
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Dick, holding Wally’s hand while they lie in bed: God I love this bed. God I love this house. And you. Especially you.
Voice: How domestic.
Wally: God?
Damian in his Robin suit, holding his bleeding side: No. It’s me. May one of you please direct me to the nearest medical kit.
[Frantic scrambling]
#Dick fixing Damian up gently: what happened? will you be okay? sleep here tonight we’ll get a room ready#Damian: tt I do not need your worry#I am perfectly capable of handling this on my own#Dick: that’s too bad baby bird because I’m gonna worry and I’m gonna help you anyway#batman#dc comics#batfam#batfamily#robin#nightwing#damian wayne#dick grayson#wally west#birdflash#incorrect quotes#mine
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Putting @demilypyro in cute outfits to stave off the dread
#art lore#art#demilypyro#yippee#yahoo#my roommate is getting home at like 2-4 am so I don’t know how much sleep I’m getting today#hmmm maybe I should snooze a bit beforehand#I do wanna help her get settled back in once she arrives#so I’ll need to be awake for that
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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me
#It’s just so different#even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol#in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps#if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it#esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends#no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr#u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS#meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life#this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation#like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers#who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them#and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends#it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me#I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc#like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this#so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works#p
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in the best case scenario my asexuality is a ticking time bomb that will have to be dealt with family-wise sooner or later. In today’s society it’s just not a normal accepted thing to simply be by yourself your whole life. Especially as people start breaking off into the family structure and friends who were once your community and support system become a smaller presence in your life because spouses and kids take precedence— I don’t know any ace people who haven’t worried at some point about dying alone. You don’t simply ‘have a housemate friend’ you live with where e.g. there is someone there for you if you have a sudden emergency. What if you can’t move? What if you’re ill and can’t get out of bed? I’m glad our worlds are better connected today, but the chances that you’ll be with someone safe and known if that happens are smaller than if you’ve got your own family, right? Or is the bleak best case scenario that an ace person has an emergency while at work?
Aces are a pretty small % of the population in general. To say you’ll find another ace person and cohabit is a really small chance. As most people start to move in with their partners, single people, ace people kind of find themselves either priced out of housing options unless rich, or being forced to find other strangers in unusual living circumstances.
I don’t know. I just feel like you are left more on your own in a societal structure that prioritises two-parent-and-children households. Or more generally, that sets you up for marital and couples living rather than necessarily community living, at least in the west.
So what I’m saying is that maybe ‘oppression’ isn’t the word to bring to the advocacy table. It is saying that maybe the thing to remember is that ‘oppression’ won’t look the same for everyone. It’s a reminder that comparing the weight of apples and watermelons doesn’t even make sense.
(This isn’t even aimed at the shortsighted people that think pride is all about labels and being ‘in’ the club. This post is aimed at people that remember pride is a political struggle to improve the lives of people left behind by our current norms. It’s why e.g. disability activists also calling their advocacy disability pride is instantly understood by most.)
It’s why ‘[x] queer group is so not oppressed’ is the emptiest and most wasteful statement you could make in the context of queer rights advocacy.
#Please remember#Queer#queer rights#amatonormativity#asexual#asexuality#aromantic#aromantism#aspec#lgbtqia#lgbtq community#queer community#lgbtq#pride#Bit sick today and it just brings idle (but valid) spectres up#Was ill last month to the point I didn’t get out of bed the first day (didn’t zip up my jacket and presumably caught icy winds)#And I live with a housemate who was so fucking sweet to me and helped me so much#One year during lockdown I was by myself in a 1-bed (covid restrictions) and had the worst period I’ve ever had in my life. Saw stars#Dialled mum but I couldn’t even squeak the words out— and she’s 1000s of kilometres away; she can’t do anything and I can’t even#reach for painkillers. I was 21. What happens when I’m 45. What happens when I’m 70.#What happens when I don’t have a partner then and my friends have kids to look after. If they’ve kept in touch beyond casual acquaintance.#So yeah it’s bleak but that stuff kinda keeps me up
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FNAF Movie William judges Vanessa's friends..
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#william afton#steve raglan#fnaf vanessa#vanessa afton#vanessa shelly#fnaf movie#fnaf fanart#five nights at freddy's#William being an awful father again#this is why Vanessa has no friends#her dad keeps offing them#I hope we get more info to Vanessa’s and William’s relationship#cause from what’s hinted in the og movie it’s complicated#I genuinely got the impression Vanessa was helping Will over up things#her being a cop even helps her to do that#So just know their deal is passed even being strained#I’m so sorry Vanessa I hope you get to set him on fire someday 🩵
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As a security guard, what would you do if you saw someone shoplifting baby formula?
Oof.
Truthfully, if a company is willing to hire uniformed security, it’s not LPO, it’s visible presence. If they want visible presence, they already KNOW people are stealing, they already have cameras, and if *I* see them, the cameras saw them too- shit like that goes missing, someone will investigate, someone will get caught. Best thing is to let them know and tell them where they can get it for free, ‘cause it ain’t a crime till they leave the building.
That said, if I’m on mall duty, theft is none of my business and I never really see it happening anyways. A visible uniform scares a lot off, even if I have no real authority. I’m lucky enough that in my area we have a lot of resources for people desperate for baby supplies though, so I WOULD realistically be able to tell them where to get help above the board.
But also, with the recent baby formula shortages, there’s been a HUGE uptick in people stealing massive amounts of formula to sell off outside the country. And I don’t mean donate, I mean SELL, at a HUGE markup. Which is. A whole different disgusting issue. So like… if they’re loading up dozens of boxes with a ride waiting out front? Yeah, fuck those guys.
Does this sound like a narc ass answer? Yes it does. But you gotta remember context here.
If you’re in a position where someone in a uniform can see you, you’ve already fucked up. You picked the wrong location. You’re probably already on camera, the manager probably saw you already, and there’s probably an LPO upstairs writing down your license plate. It was too late for you five minutes ago. Cut your losses, empty your bag, walk away.
#Teablart#Theres a difference between visible presence and loss prevention#some companies do both at once but I’m not one of them#Is it a difficult moral position? Yes. Im always wondering if I’m helping or just being a cop#but I’m not a cop#and if I wasn’t here it would be someone else in the same uniform#and at least I know *I* don’t wanna see people get fucked over#It’s weird#Aaaaaaand cue the pig accusations
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so. it finally happened 🫣
this is the link to my OF!! now—it’s going to stay very casual until i get to a point i’m comfortable making more content. i’ll be posting more nudity to OF—no more nipples here on tumblr if i want my account to stay up—as well as longer videos.
i will also be posting on the drive still, of course!! videos on OF will be shorter clips and more polished videos, as well as more photo sets :))
this is a casual thing!! a good way to support me would be subbing to the OF—a lot of y’all have asked about this so here it is!!
#i do hope one day to get to making more actual content but i’m busy w research and life stuff#and i want to move before i really get into it#so if you want that… sub 👀 help me move back into a city lmfao#ALSO IM SORRY FOR HOW WISHYWASHY THIS WAS#it was difficult to get verified bc of my lack of social media and then the pics wouldn’t post ://#anyways i have one post now and will look into putting up some clips for y’all !! :3#hucow.#housecow
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“Though I never thought that it would come to this…”
#tagamemnon#epic the musical#the odyssey#greek mythology#epic the musical fanart#penelope of ithaca#penelope#odypen#a huge thanks to everyone who helped me decide on her ear type on my poll#i honestly wasn’t sure how webbed ears would turn out#but I’m happy with the result#and i hope y’all like it too#PENELOPE IS WAITING ODYSSEUS#SOMEONE GET THE MAN HOME#also do you guys think i should change her jewelry from gold to silver?? but i didn’t want her to seem too similar in color scheme to athena#i dunno
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One of the funniest parts about the whole “Leo not giving Draxum any grace” idea is that Draxum is one of the ONLY notable older men in the show that Leo isn’t willing to give a proper second chance to OR really hear out in the first place.
No seriously it’s genuinely a Thing.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#rottmnt headcanons#the men I’m thinking of specifically are as follows#marcus moncrief? very quickly just went along with anything he said#then repeating this AGAIN later#(Leo also refers to him as a father figure before ever actually meeting him lol)#piel? Leo happily greets and immediately offers his (and Hueso’s) help to the ex pirate#this is largely due to Leo’s own brother problems but it’s still a part of this trend#hypno? Leo literally stops fighting him to watch his magic act lol plus he helps Warren save him#if we count other older men then the list grows to continue the following#Tim Dunkman? Leo notably does his best to do good in Tim’s eyes#apologizing earnestly to Tim even when it’s not his fault even#and this is another older man Leo refers to as a surrogate father#Leo also quickly falls for the evil hair Yokai Masseur’s lies despite the bad vibes he got#Leo also was the main one who went easy on Bullhop#and let’s not forget Señor Hueso and Leo’s strong attachment to him despite Hueso’s consistent insults and annoyance#like even WARREN gets Leo’s sympathy and assistance when they all helped him get Hypno back#you can even argue that Leo WAS willing to hear Draxum out when they first met#and Leo assumed Draxum was surrendering before the whole ‘BARON DRAXUM DOES NOT SURRENDER’ thing#hell he’s not even antagonistic really to Draxum he just doesn’t really like him#he’ll listen to his advice if necessary#anyway this being a fairly consistent character trait of Leo’s is funny to me#it’s always specifically older men too - Big Mama does NOT get anything but immediate suspicion#not all of them but most of the ones Leo has specific interactions with are like this#I’m just saying!!! Splinter I love you dearly but your boys have Issues™️#anyway each of the boys has something like this going on#Leo’s are just weirdly consistent and happen a lot for a two season show
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Everyone, each Epic fan. All of you. Sit down
Yes, even you, Jerry.
“I see you on the brink of death.”
“I see you draw your final breath.”
“I see a man who gets to make it home alive, but it’s no longer YOU.”
The monster is above human, which makes him now able to summon his own choir, which he does with the chants of “600 MEN!” during the 600 Strike fight scene.
Odysseus is “dead”. The monster lives.
#guys wtf#what do i do with this information#help I’m just what do I do#epic the musical#jorge when i find you jorge#odysseus#monster Odysseus#jorge rivera herrans#get in the water#the prophecy continues to come true#greek mythology
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What do you mean I’m a bit late for Janus’ big day? Of course not, how could you say such a thing! I definitely didn’t forget all about it in my absence and only get reminded in the incorrect quotes video live chat; that’s not like me at all ;]
Anyways I decided to dress our sassy snake in some different outfits I think he’d like. He seems like the type to get all dolled up on his birthday and it goes with Thomas posting pics in outfits inspired by the sides on their appreciation days!
@thatsthat24
#sanders sides#janus sanders#ts janus#thomas sanders#sanders sides fanart#my hoard#I’ve returned!#the newest asides came out and I remembered how much I love it#so I’m hyperfixated again and I’ve not now peace since#it is nice to actually finish something again tho#I’ve been pretty busy working lately and now I’m starting to pack to move into my first apartment!#so not much time to really sit down and draw#and when I do have time I can’t get the motivation to actually draw anything#I want to get better about posting stuff on here#(even though it feels like I’m just dreaming into the void a lot)#even just silly little things or rough sketches I’ll never finish#I hope it’ll help me continue to draw and make things again#I forgot how nice it is#anyways if you’ve read this far thanks#have a cookie :] 🍪
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On the one hand yes making Charles relive his trauma was a dick move and also she was an antagonist for nearly the whole season, but I don’t think we give the Night Nurse enough credit for going “no hard feelings about beating the heck out of me and feeding me to a giant fish”
I mean, she was fine, yes. But a) Charles didn’t mean for her to be, that was fully a murder attempt and more importantly b) her being fine wasn’t a foregone conclusion even from her point of view. As far as I can tell if Kashi hadn’t happened to be there she would have spent the next few hundred years stuck in the belly of a fish, which is fucked up, tbh.
But she gets out and finds them and is basically just like “no worries about the fish thing, let’s get you on to Heaven, spit spot” and then when she realizes things are hinky and not going as planned she does Charles a FAVOR. And not a small one! One that could probably get her in a lot of trouble! One that puts her and her life’s work in danger! Because Charles asked her to and Charles looks very polite! When her only previous interaction with him was him attempting her premeditated murder!
Like. It’s no wonder Charles immediately assigns her a semi-affectionate nickname even though by all rights he should want to murder her again for trying to take Edwin to Hell. She’s possibly the first authority figure that not only wants the best for him, he actively and deliberately harmed her and she STILL wants the best for him.
#I feel like even when NN gets appreciation it’s just for following the better side of her principles instead of the worse#and helping save Edwin#but it’s pretty important context that she does that AFTER Charles t literally tries to kill her#dead boy detectives#the night nurse#the night nurse dbd#charles rowland#mine#I use the word ‘premeditated’ loosely here but he came up with a multi-step plan for her death and executed it#when there wasn’t even a physical altercation going on#like! I’m not saying he was Bad for doing that. it was reasonable tbh in the very extenuating circumstances#but the fact that SHE could tell it didn’t make him Bad is kinda staggering
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i know we love to rag on Siffrin for feeling so miserably guilty and manipulative for the crime of [checks notes] “doing nice things for their friends so that they’ll be happy and care about him even if it’s not perfectly sincere on his end”
but like. in context i don’t think that thought process is anywhere near as nonsensical as it always sounds written out like that
i’m sure i’m just stating the obvious here but it’s not really about the “crime” of making people happy. it’s about what he’s not doing, which is anything that would allow their friends to have any real knowledge or agency over the situation they’re all in.
it’s about never acting according to his real feelings in the moment and letting them see the messier version of him that exists now, never allowing their relationships to evolve or develop meaningfully beyond the “safest” iteration, the thing that is Known and produces the Correct Results, because anything else has the possibility of leading to negative emotions towards Siffrin.
Siffrin knows he’s not really doing all this for their benefit, not entirely, because the “right” thing to do would give them the full context to choose how they feel and what to do about it. they’re happy, but in a way they don’t get to keep. they’re happy, but in a way that keeps Siffrin safe from anything more complex and real. they’re happy, but only because some Siffrin in the past said the right things once, and this new, bitter, lonely, desperate version wouldn’t know how to get the “correct result” without a script to follow. they’re happy, and it was real once, it meant something once, but not anymore.
they cared about that Siffrin, yes, but would they still care about this one, if they knew? if Siffrin ever allowed them to know? (he won’t, he can’t, he refuses.)
and there’s something that could have been said in favor of Siffrin allowing himself this “selfishness” if it made him happy anyway, if it could be a genuine source of comfort in a difficult situation—but it doesn’t! not really! because that guilt is there, because that fear is there, because of how flimsy it all inevitably feels.
so they’re not doing it for their family’s benefit, because that happiness is predicated on lies and ignorance. he’s barely doing it for his own benefit, because they’re torturing themself by revealing things they no longer want to reveal, concealing things they no longer want to conceal, acting out of fear of rejection rather than genuine desire for connection. who benefits from this hollow “kindness,” really?
that’s why the last loop had to be the ugliest one. Siffrin had to see that the worst could happen and there could still be love and connection on the other side. that even when the party sees the worst of him, when they have the agency he’s been knowingly denying them, they will still choose to love him.
#sometimes when i write things i’m like. people Know this already it doesn’t need to be Said#but sometimes you just gotta lay out all your own thoughts and look at em. y’know?#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#isat meta#mypost#all this to say like.#it’s not manipulative to seek comfort from others or to do nice things with the goal of being liked#but also i Get why siffrin is Like That about the repeated friendquests. especially in act 4#coming back 2 hours later to ramble more in the tags lol#‘they love you because you FORCED them to’ sounds like such an extreme thought to have about the situation#when we KNOW they all love and care for siffrin and did long before the loops started#but they’re ‘forcing’ them as in ‘not providing any alternatives.’ not showing their real self. looping back when things get scary.#saying what works instead of what’s true.#siffrin isn’t some evil mastermind manipulator but that doesn’t mean they AREN’T limiting their friends’ capacity for action#though. again. facing down the end of the world is giving him a HUGE helping hand#in terms of ‘the entire party knows Something is wrong but they’re trying to prioritize the literal life-or-death situation at hand’#siffrin hiding shit pretty much ONLY works as well as it does (aka: badly) because of that
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why do they keep styling his hair like this. do they hate me and want me dead or what
#hi i’m alive#just got sent this image. Who is this man. why do they keep doing this to him#the witcher#jaskier#if they dont get rid of that fuck ass middle part so help me god#i didnt even watch the last season ngl but WHATT are they doing 😭
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