#Intrusive thoughts

[syn4k]

[himmurf]

It's worth noting that Lae'zel could have combat related PTSD which can result in only feeling "normal" and "in control" in combat environments but dysfunction in non-combat environments.

CW vilified fantasy disability characterized by violent urges and trauma. SPOILERS for The Dark Urge. If you want to share the above reblog without my addition I have reblogged a CW free version here:

These 2 covered it all really well but I want to acknowledge that the dark urge is also disabled, not only by having survived severe brain damage, but also by being Bhaalspawn, an example of having an extremely vilified disability along with severe trauma.

I will not draw any comparisons to real life disabilities because they don't exist, and to avoid vilifying complex human experiences. I affirm that, in real life, disabled people, even those who experience symptoms relating to violent thoughts, are much more likely to be victims than perpetrators.

That being said, this is a fantasy curse/disability characterized by near uncontrollable violent urges, loss of self control, losing time, and literally being controlled against your will. This is a fantasy disability that I find personally compelling as someone who manages some similar symptoms.

The dark urge has persistent intrusive thoughts that they are capable of recognizing as socially unacceptable and can manage through careful thought and effort. But they are still treated as a monster by some of the party members early on, especially depending on early choices and willingness to talk about their condition. This mirrors stigma that many disabled people experience if they decide to be honest about their symptoms, with or without precedent.

Dark urge's journey with their primary disability is about chosing to overcome their "evil nature" through great effort or embracing that nature to the detriment of everyone around them, including themself. With careful planning and deliberate effort, it is possible to play dark urge in a way that almost completely mitigates the most awful things the urge is capable of during a normal playthrough. Their good ending involves successfully managing their intrusive thoughts, curing themself of their curse, and ending the cycle of generational trauma, thereby earning the respect and even admiration of their skeptical party mates, and then going on to choose their own path.

“gale is disabled with chronic pain” i say into the mic. the crowd boos and jeers.

“no she’s right” a voice calls from the back. i look up. it’s gale dekarios himself.

[disgustedlyscattereddd]

[accessibleaesthetics]

I don’t know who needs to hear this today, but intrusive thoughts are basically your brain’s (sometimes very upsetting) way of saying “If there were two guys on the moon and one of them killed the other with a rock would that be fucked up or what?”

I’ve personally found that adding the “would that be fucked or what?” part in myself really helps put the more disturbing thoughts we sometimes get into perspective. Helps me say “yeah thar sure would be fucked up” and move on with my day.

It’s not a secret desire, it’s not something that only occurs to you because you’re a bad person. It’s just your brain deciding to process the fact that it knows an uncomfortable thing exists in the world by feeding it to you in an absurd “what if” with you as the main character.

[astroxrion]

How to Heal from Heartbreak Trauma ❤️‍🩹🔱❤️‍🩹🔱

Aries Moon

Heartbreak feels like losing momentum. It bruises your pride and leaves you restless. You must stop pretending it did not affect you. Let yourself admit it hurt. But do not stay still. Start something new. Physical action is how you release pain. Movement helps you process and rebuild. You heal when you stop waiting for closure and give it to yourself by living again.

Taurus Moon

Heartbreak hits your sense of safety. It disrupts the life you imagined and the comfort you built around someone. You must stop replaying the past. Start by creating a new routine that does not include them. Nourish your senses. Touch texture. Make a warm meal. Ground your emotions in your physical space. You heal by proving to yourself that you can feel stable again without them.

Gemini Moon

Heartbreak sends your thoughts in a loop. You try to talk your way out of the pain or distract yourself with new ideas. But the feeling sits under the noise. You must slow down and let the emotion speak. Name exactly what hurt. Write the truth of what you lost. You heal when you stop explaining and start accepting what cannot be fixed with logic.

Cancer Moon

Heartbreak for you feels like abandonment. You gave more than you had and now it feels like a piece of you is missing. But you are still here. You must take all the energy you once gave to them and redirect it back into yourself. Cook for yourself. Write your younger self a letter. You heal when you stop waiting to be held and start holding yourself with care.

Leo Moon

Heartbreak wounds your sense of being valued. You start to question if you were ever truly seen. But you cannot tie your worth to someone else’s inability to keep loving you. Take pride in how deeply you cared. Dress for yourself. Create without an audience. You heal when you realize you were never rejected. You were rerouted back to the center of your own light.

Virgo Moon

Heartbreak makes you search for where you went wrong. You look for small mistakes to blame. But love does not fail because of a missed signal. You must stop dissecting the past and start tending to what is real now. Clean your space. Care for your health. You heal when you stop needing a reason and give yourself permission to move forward imperfectly.

Libra Moon

Heartbreak feels like imbalance. You miss the connection even if it was not healthy. You want closure that may never come. You must stop waiting for peace from them. Sit with yourself. Ask what you need now. You do not need someone to complete you. You heal when you stop searching for reflection in others and build wholeness within.

Scorpio Moon

Heartbreak does not just hurt. It shakes your trust in everything. You feel betrayed by how deeply you let yourself feel. But love is not weakness. You must stop holding onto the pain as proof. Let it rise. Let it burn out. You heal when you let go of needing control over how it ended and accept that grief is part of your power not the end of it

Sagittarius Moon

Heartbreak makes you question your optimism. It challenges your belief that things will always work out. You want to move on fast but the lesson stays behind. Do not rush. Let yourself sit in the discomfort. Travel inward. Ask what this pain is teaching you. You heal when you stop trying to escape it and instead choose to grow from it honestly.

Capricorn Moon

Heartbreak makes you feel like you failed. You take the end personally and carry the weight alone. But love is not something you earn through effort. It either flows or it doesn’t. You must stop measuring your value by how long it lasted. Focus on what you are building now. You heal when you stop performing strength and allow yourself to feel without judgment.

Aquarius Moon

Heartbreak makes you emotionally distant. You analyze it from above instead of feeling it. But pushing it aside creates isolation. You must stop pretending it was not that deep. Let yourself feel strange and human. Cry without needing a reason. Talk to someone who sees you. You heal when you let the emotion be as real as the thought.

Pisces Moon

Heartbreak makes you want to dissolve. You idealize what you had and escape into memory. But fantasy cannot bring closure. You must stop romanticizing what was not fully real. Ground yourself through art music or water. Let your heart ache without needing to explain. You heal when you choose to stay here and love yourself through the process.

[nocreativename-1]

Has anyone ever had the distinct urge to eat a pizza whole? No, not all the entire pizza as seperate slices, but the entire circular pizza as a whole.

Just me?

(via Instagram)

[existennialmemes]

Sorry if I'm on edge, my brain keeps inventing Scenarios designed specifically to upset me.

[beenovel]

Ok I’m having a slight mental breakdown about the sun the last couple days (idk what’s happening but every time the sun touches me I get these horrible intrusive thoughts like “I’m not wearing sunscreen, my skin is going to peel off my body, I’m going to get melanoma and die of sun cancer”) so to reassure myself and spread awareness here are the signs of melanoma and when to get it checked by a doctor:

[housegoblin]

let's get burgers 48 "air conditioner"

[sunderingstars]

ocd is literally just having a guy in your head that torments you with false prophecies & visions

[vexwerewolf]

I think the most fucked up thing about intrusive thoughts is it's really difficult to discuss them without discussing their content, because without a discussion of their content it's impossible to get across just how distressing and debilitating they are. "Oh, you have unpleasant thoughts sometimes? Yeah we all have that, I guess."

But if you discuss their content there's this huge risk of people just pulling away in disgust. "Oh god, you have THOSE sorts of thoughts? They should lock freaks like you the fuck up!" As if they think people act on every single thought they have.

[helpforintrusivethoughts]

I’m having a particularly bad episode of OCD today and wanted to remind everyone as well as myself.

Your intrusive thoughts and urges do not reflect who you are as a person.

Your intrusive thoughts and urges do not make you sick or evil.

Your intrusive thoughts and urges do not mean you are a despicable human being.

They do not mean any of the above, or any of the other lies your brain might conjure. (You’re twisted. You’re perverted. You deserve death. You deserve to never be happy. To always be alone. To always feel guilty. And the list goes on).

What your intrusive thoughts and urges do mean is that you’re struggling, and it’s hard, and sometimes you want to give up and disappear forever.

But your intrusive thoughts and urges do not define you. They do not have control over you, they do not have charge of your brain. They are not going to drag you under for the rest of your life, even if it feels like that right now. You will overcome this, and you will pound those stupid thoughts into the earth, no matter how long it takes.

You are not your intrusive thoughts.

Your intrusive thoughts are not you.

[the-jesus-pill]

You cannot pretend you give a shit about people who suffer from OCD or other compulsory disorders, and then turn around and declare people have to feel guilt about their thoughts to be a good person.

No one has to punish themselves physically, verbally or mentally for having intrusive thoughts, no matter what those thoughts are about.

And expecting people to do grand gestures to prove they really are sorry for having intrusive thoughts is vile and abusive. No one has to perform remorse for your entertainment.

[lolapath]

Ahhh my favourite drink 🍷 the og post (Ig?)

[underwhelmingalchemist]

*mom voice* You can get these words back when you know what they mean