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How Often Should You Get a Facial? A Dermatologist-Approved Guide
Why Facials Matter
Facials are more than a luxuryâthey support healthy skin by deeply cleansing pores, exfoliating dead skin cells, boosting hydration, and improving circulation. But like any skincare treatment, their effectiveness depends on consistency and timing.
The General Rule of Thumb
Most skin experts, including dermatologists and licensed aestheticians, recommend getting a facial every 4 to 6 weeks. This cycle matches the skinâs natural renewal process, where old skin cells shed and new ones surface. Regular facials help manage this process and maintain balance.
Factors That Influence Facial Frequency
Skin Type
Oily or Acne-Prone Skin: A facial every 3 to 4 weeks may help manage breakouts and clogged pores.
Dry or Sensitive Skin: Once every 6 to 8 weeks is usually sufficient to avoid over-stripping or irritation.
Normal or Combination Skin: Every 4 to 6 weeks keeps the skin refreshed without overwhelming it.
Skin Concerns
If youâre targeting specific issues like acne scars, hyperpigmentation, or fine lines, you might require a more customized schedule with treatments like chemical peels, LED therapy, or microneedling. Your aesthetician will guide you based on your goals and skin condition.
Age and Lifestyle
As we age, the skin loses elasticity and regenerates more slowly. Those over 40 may benefit from monthly facials focused on collagen stimulation or hydration. Additionally, external factors such as sun exposure, pollution, stress, and poor diet can increase the need for consistent treatments.
Seasonal Considerations
Skin reacts to weather changes, so seasonal facials can be very effective:
Winter: Boost hydration and repair wind-chapped skin.
Spring: Exfoliate and detox after dry winter months.
Summer: Control oil, clear congestion, and soothe sun exposure.
Fall: Repair sun damage and restore balance before colder weather.
When You Might Need More Frequent Facials
In some cases, a short burst of weekly or bi-weekly facials might be recommended, such as:
Preparing for a big event (wedding, photoshoot)
Treating acne flare-ups or scarring
Undergoing an intensive treatment plan for skin rejuvenation
These regimens should always be supervised by a skincare professional.
When Less Is More
Facials done too oftenâespecially aggressive onesâcan lead to irritation, redness, or disrupted skin barrier function. Overdoing exfoliation or extractions can cause inflammation and breakouts, especially for sensitive or compromised skin.
How to Know Itâs Time for a Facial
Watch for signs like:
Dull, tired-looking skin
Excess buildup or clogged pores
Frequent breakouts
Uneven texture or dryness
Loss of glow or elasticity
If youâre unsure, consult your aesthetician. They can evaluate your skin and recommend the right frequency.
Maintaining Results Between Facials
Even the best facial wonât last without good at-home care. Stick to a routine that includes:
Daily cleansing and moisturizing
Sun protection (SPF 30+)
Weekly gentle exfoliation
Hydrating masks or serums
Avoiding harsh products between visits
Consistency is key for lasting results.
Final Thoughts
How often you should get a facial depends on your skin type, lifestyle, age, and individual skin goals. For most people, every 4 to 6 weeks is ideal. Others may need more or less frequent treatments. By working with a trusted professional, you can tailor a schedule that helps your skin stay clear, hydrated, and healthy year-round.
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the importance of skincare a gojo satoru fic
PAIRING: gojo x reader SUMMARY: worried about your boyfriend's skin health, you're set out on a mission to teach him about skincare, sitting him down and rubbing products over his face while seated on his lap. only, he convinces you that he has something to teach as well about facials. just not the kind you expected. WARNINGS: NOT EDITED, oral (m!rec), gojo cums all over reader's face, nsfw, FLUFF (a lot of it), established relationship, gojo is a nuisance, gn!reader, i have writer's block and this helped, silly little thought based off this drabble
âApplying sunscreen on my boyfriend because otherwise, this is what weâll look like when weâre 60.â
You gasped out loud, despite being alone. Rolling around on the couch you were lazing in, you stared at the paused screen in front of you: a woman and her boyfriend, except sheâs finely aged with a few wrinkles, and he looks like an extremely wrinkled potato. Suddenly, your mind flashes back to all the moments your boyfriend, Satoru, would scroll on his phone while you finished your nighttime skin care routine.
âBaby, you really should start doing some skincare.â You give him a sideways glance while rubbing snail mucin all over your face.
Satoru looks up from whatever nonsensical reel on his page half heartedly and observes you as you pat your hands all over your face and neck. âI wash my face.â
âUsing your 13-in-1 wash?â
âI donât use 13-in-1 wash.â Satoru fully looks up, frowning. Sassily, he adds, âAnd what youâre rubbing all over your face looks like cum.â
Thatâs as much prodding youâve done to convince your boyfriend to adopt better facial hygiene, but today was different. You were not about to let your pretty boyfriend get skin cancer or age like milk.
The door opened, as Satoru stepped into your apartment. âHi, baby!â You perked up from washing your dishes, your form barely able to peek over the kitchen counters over to him, at your doorstep. He can hear pitter patters of your feet as you make your way to him. Then your warmth envelops him, smelling of dish soap and rose. He gives a little mwah! to the top of your head while murmuring, âI bought crepes for you today. Extra Nutella and everything.â
But rather than excitedly reaching for the crepes, you stayed in his hold, hugging onto him tight and stuffing your face in his shirt, breathing in deeply as if to memorize his scent. Satoru confusedly looks down at you, hesitantly coming up to rub your scalp to give you head scratches with his free hand. âAre you okay?âÂ
âSatoru, we have to talk,â you mumble into his chest.Â
Alarmed, Satoru looks down at you. âOh my god,â Satoru nervously exclaims, âat least let me put down our crepes before you give me a heart attack.â Your only response is to nuzzle your face further into his chest, while he grabs your hand, unwraps you from him, and leads you to your couch. He puts the crepes down on the dinner table and grabs both of your hands, pouting and frowning slightly in that sweet, ignorant way of his. âWhat happened? Did I do something wrong?â
You glanced up at him, staring in distress. âBabe, you need to do your skincare.â
âThis is what you wanted to talk about?â Satoru looks at you confused. âI thought it was something serious.â You almost want to sob at the way he looks like a confused kitten. You donât understand why youâre so hung up over that one TikTokâalthough, your menstrual cycle app did say menstruation was nearâbut it definitely changed your outlook on your boyfriendâs skin health.Â
âThis is serious.â You were visibly growing more and more listless until you suddenly make the decision to stand up and make your way somewhere towards the bathroom.Â
When you came back, you had your hefty Chanel purse, one that Satoru gifted you for your 2nd year anniversary. You set it down in the space between you and Satoru with a plop! as you began to rummage through the contents to find your essential skincare items. Dragging him to the bathroom, you command him to wash his face. And, to his credit, he does go through all the motions, albeit a little confused.Â
A few minutes later, you sit him down on the couchâwith your skincare items in handâand take your seat on his lap. Satoruâs still a little confused as to whatâs going on, butâto his creditâyou arenât doing much explanation, either.Â
âBaby, Iâm really confused,â Satoru is now putting his hands on your hips, pulling you closer to his torso as you lather different creams on your hands. Any further questions from him are stopped as you gently rub them all over his face, targeting his T-zone and cheeks.Â
âI saw a TikTok of this girl ând her boyfriend, âToru,â you explain, lathering his face. âHe doesnât do his sunscreen, so heâs going to look like an overboiled tomato when heâs 60. Didnât want the same for you.âÂ
 You continue to reach for another bottle, until you realize itâs set too far down the table for you to reach. Naturally, Satoru reaches it for you and puts it in your hands, frowning. âYou made me so worried. I thought I did something wrong.â
âYou are doing something wrong. Youâre doing your pretty skin wrong.â You were scowling, but your hands were sweetly patting Satoruâs face in a way that made him relax. After a long day of dealing with Yaga, he appreciated your soothing hands massaging the tension out of his face. It was never easy dealing with dissaproving old fucks.Â
Deciding to adjust his posiiton, Satoru crossed his arms behind his head, laying back onto the couch instead of sitting. Closing his eyes, he felt you straddling him in an effort to reach across his torso to his face to continue your pampering. You both fell into a comfortable silence as you droned on about what you were putting onto his face. A serum that smelled good. âThis is hyaluronic acid serum. Thisâll keep your face nice and hydrated.â A cream that felt cold on Satoruâs skin. âThis is niacinamide, because I know you picked on your acne and boogers when you were going through puberty.â He wanted to protest, but it was so hard to when you pair the insult with a small smooch on his nose. Something that smelled harsher than the others. âThis is retinol, and itâll help you prevent wrinkles.â
In the midst of your teaching, he cracked open an eye and grabbed both of your hands by the wrist, seemingly in thought. âWait, babe. Youâre missing something.â You blinked. âWhat?âÂ
âWell, thereâs this thing called facials." The beginnings of a smug smile bloomed across his face. Itâs really good for your skin, ând I have just the thing with me."
ââToru, you are so stupid,â you whined, licking up and down his cock and balls, giving little kisses to his pink and throbbing length.
âShhh, baby, this is good foâ you, I promise.â Sounds of plap! plap! echoed throughout the room as your boyfriend slapped his cock against your cheeks. He groaned, taking in the arousing sight of you: on your knees, only wearing his shirt. His cock hardens at the thought of you, his pretty little girlfriend, spending all day in his clothing. He could see your cute little baby blue panties covering your ass as his shorts rode up in your attempts to take his cock deeper in your mouth. As you continued to slobber on his cock, deepthroating him, he could continually smell your arousal, moaning as he realized you must be ruining your underwear.
âAwww, I can smell you, sweetheart. Your little pussy getting wet from just sucking my cock? Iâm not even touching you,â Satoru pouted in faux pity and cooed, patting your head while he continually fed you his cock.Â
You tried to protest. âMmmffââÂ
âShhhh,â Satoru had a cocky smile on his face as he shushed you. âDonât talk with your mouth full, baby.â With that, he lightly grabbed your hair, looking down at you for permission. When you nodded, he began face fucking you in earnest, cock throbbing as your hot, wet mouth enclosed around him. Your tongue laving over his sensitive spots made him groan. âYour mouth feel sooo good. What a good girl, taking my cock, slobbering all over itâfuck.â
He felt himself coming closer. âBaby,â he groaned, âyouâre about to make me cum. Gotta give you your facial, right? Make you all nice and pretty?â You whined, tears running down your cheeks because of your stuffed mouth. It sent vibrations up and down his cock, making him come even closer. âFuuuuck. Fuck, Iâm coming.â Satoru pulled out of your mouth, pumping his cock onto your face, your tongue stretched and your eyes directly on his. Rubbing your tongue softly on his tip was what made him reach his climax; he moaned as he splurted long and think ropes of cum, coating your cheeks, forehead, and tongue. It was all so messy. Even after being done, Satoru was continually rubbing his cum into your skin with his cock.Â
âWheeew.â Satoru giggled, reaching down to put you on his lap. âLooks like you got your skincare.â
âSatoru, please give me a tissue. Right now. Your cum is dripping all over my face.â
âAw, donât be like that,â he whined. To your annoyance, he only further rubbed in the creamy substance over your face, using his palms and fingers to spread it.Â
Disgusted, you knew what to say. âYouâre never getting head from me ever again.â
Satoru had never scrambled to the bathroom faster.
a/n lol he's so stupid. this is the only thing i could force my brain to write but now i'm locked in and finishing all my drafts fr
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DIY beautyâ.ŕłŕż*:シđŻ
this is a big post of some of my favorite beauty recipes and things that i can do at home for myself and my beauty routines and regimensâŚđŹđ
AT HOME FACIALS ;
⥠step one - cleanse with ur water based cleanser
⥠step two - steam ur face using a bowl and towel
⥠step three - use a facial scrub that isnt too abrasive
⥠step four - use a cleansing mask
⥠step five - use ur toner
⥠step six - make sure to moisturize always
doing this routine helps my skin to feel rejuvenated and healthy. steaming ur face opens up ur pores and helps to free sebum which in turn stops pimples from formingâŚđŹđ
BATH MILK ;
⥠2 cups of milk
⥠1 tbsp of vanilla
⥠2 tbsp of cinnamon
bath milk is rly good if u have dry skin because its a way to hydrate and moisturize your skin. milk contains fats and proteins that can help to replenish your skin's natural moistureâŚđŹđ
⥠1/2 cup of honey
⥠5 tbs olive/almond oil
⥠3 cups of milk
SUGAR LIP SCRUB ;
⥠mix in some vaseline and sugar (if u wanna be extra u can add some cayenne for a plumping effect OR olive oil for extra hydration)
doing a lip scrub every now and then helps to remove dead skin from ur lips and keep them soft and super adorable. i also recommend brushing ur lips every now and then and making sure to use a moisturizing lip balmâŚđŹđ
RICE FACE MASK ;
⥠add one cup of rice and rinse the rice 2-3 times
⥠use 1/4 cup of rice and 1 cup of water and put it into ur rice cooker/boil over ur stovetop
⥠once the rice is soft, pour it into ur blender till it becomes smooth
⥠make sure to let it cool down before you use it
the mask will last up to a week if stored in the fridge. rice is known to brighten the skin, shrink pores, and prevent premature aging with its antioxidants. it also helps protect the skin barrier and calms irritated skinâŚđŹđ
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member of txt!amab!reader who wears grey sweatpants to practice... and soobin can't help, but keep on staring at their crotch :( stupid baby can't even concentrate on practicing anymore, so he just sits on the floor and continues staring, rubbing his thighs together from time to time. reader obviously takes a notice at soobin's behaviour, so when they're left alone in practice room, it all ends up with soobin getting fucked dumb in front of all the mirrors around...
stop pervy soobin will be the death of me⌠thank you em @soobinsonly1bf for the request! đŤ˘đ (i asked him to req me HSHHSJFJA)
â practice room | sub choi soobin
tags: txt!amab!reader x pervert soobin, mean reader but soft at the end, made-up dance routine, reader is the oldest of the group, usage of hyung a few times, mirror sex, downbad soobin, pervert soobin, mention of drool once, soobin fingering himself, thigh slapping, dacryphilia, age dominance? idk like koreaâs respect system based on age, fluffy at the end but other than that its filth
âokay everyone, two more tries. from the top.â
you call out, slicking your hair back, and getting back to position. more emotion, more expression, focus on the chorus. you repeat in your head, looking back at your members.
âlets do it!â yeonjun yells in english, clapping his hands, hyping up everyone as beomgyu replays the song from the top. soobin takes his position beside you, a meek look on his face, which you shrugged off at first. maybe he was tired, the group had been practicing for hours after all.
gradually however, you begin to notice the subtle changes in his breath pattern, the way he bites his lips as he stares intently at the practice mirror. it only became more apparent at the killing part of the dance, you face towards soobin, hand reaching out to grasp his chin, and you distinctly hear his breath hitch, eyes lidded as he stares at you.
when the dance ended, some members took a drink break, while others kept correcting their mistakes in the mirror. you on the other-hand, approached soobin directly, who was busy pretending as if he didnât see you.
âsoobin.â
you just say, arms crossed. the said boy was sitting with his back flush to the mirror. head turned to the side and hand rubbing the back of his neck. his eyes glance to you before nervously looking away. the closer you get the more jittery he becomes. you squat in front of him, and you hear him hold his breath, he couldnât help but glance downâ to your crotch and the outline of your cock in your grey sweatpantsâ oh shit.
he gulps, coming face to face with your knowing look. he just got caught staring. he props his knees up, hugging them to his chest, face down. trying to hide his growing erection.
âsoobin, look at hyung.â
he lifts his head at this, bunny eyes wide and mouth agape. you were smirking at him. his heart thumped and his cheeks grew warm.
âguys, soobinâs tired, letâs practice one more time without him. come on, get up. lets go.â you clap, signalling to the others before jumping up and walking back to your position. some members whine, joking about your favouritism towards soobin and you just shush them playfully. the many privileges of being the oldest. the loud instrumentals start, but instead of the mirror, you stare at the boy sitting in front.
the moment the dance begins, you default back to your facial expressions carefully crafted for each move, though your eyes never left soobinâs pair. he felt his erection twitch in his pants. you lick your lips and he imagines that was him spread out onto your tongue. you thrust your hips and he imagines his body flush against yours. and god, those stupidly hot grey sweatpants. he was so incredibly down bad for a dumb piece of clothing, but the way the fabric almost left nothing yet everything to the imaginationâ maybe he finally understood how fans felt when they see their bias.
before he knew it, his thighs were desperately rubbing together, mouth agape. if he opened his lips any wider, drool might even seep out. he was so needy, and he knew you knew. the way you eyed him down, tongue poking at your inner cheek, fingers deliberately sliding down from your chest to near your crotch.
god.
thankfully the dance was over, otherwise soobin mightâve genuinely busted in his pants, and he was sure he wouldâve faced a lifetime of teasing as a result. you pat each member behind the back, exchanging âgood workâs as you remind everyone to stretch at the dorm. yeonjun sneaks up on you, slapping your ass with a cheeky grin. âwhat? gonna dote on soobin once the two of you are alone?â
you jab him in the side, playfully rolling your eyes. you knew yeonjun was joking, but he didnât know just how true his words were. there had always been something between you and soobin since your trainee era, and the two of you were ecstatic when you found out you were debuting together. and soon enough, that attraction became something tangible and physical. as hormonal young adults, it was no surprise you two took advantage of your youth to enjoy each otherâs presence. aka fuck like wild bunnies.
when the rest of the group leave the room, their laughter and chattering muffled down the hallway, you slowly lock the practice room door, turning around to meet eyes with a very desperate soobin. his hands snaking around your neck. kissing you just as eagerly, you kiss him back much more precise compared to his sloppy attempt. he pushes a tongue against your bottom lip and thatâs when you part, a string of saliva connecting you two. he stares at you for a second before a low whine trembles out from his plump lips.
âwhy?â
âwhy should i reward you? youâve been bad.â
his pouty lips frown, about to sulk before you push him further into the room, dead centre in the middle of the practice mirrors.
âseriously soob, you think youâre slick, staring at my crotch like that?â
his face instantly darkens to a crimson red, he lowers his head and his bangs cover his eyes but you can see the pink on his ears.
âyou wanted to distract me didnât you. wanted me to mess up on the choreography?â
he shakes his head quickly, his hair tousling at the motion, his big eyes peak from behind his bangs as he looks at you.
âno!⌠iâŚâ he stammers, trying to formulate words to defend himself, but all he could really focus on was his hardening dick and how it pressed against his jeans painfully.
âno? look at yourself.â
he does as you say. good obedient boy. there was a tent in his jeans and at the very tip was a wet spot. his breath stutters, because he catches a glance at your crotch too, your length outlined by the thin fabric of the sweatpants. he wished that was in him instead.
âi canât help it, im sorry.â his head hung low in an embarrassed shame, apologising to his older member out of genuine guilt.
âif youâre so sorry, let me see you open yourself up. if youâre good, maybe ill reconsider.â
he takes a glance at you, and he knew exactly what you wanted. heâs been here before, you wanted to see the humiliation on his face as he played with himself. you wanted him to cry as he threw away his dignity and pride. degrade his body into a shivering and quivering mess until he begged for forgiveness.
it shouldnât, but it turned him on so much. he quickly shuffles off his pants, keeping his hoodie on because he knew you liked seeing his huge hoodie slump down his figure and onto his cock. he parts his legs but before he can touch himself you stop him. his wide eyes look at you, did he do something wrong? are you going to leave him here untouched and hard?
âturn around.â you interrupt his train of thoughts, sitting down crossed legged as you dug into his pants, taking out a travel-sized bottle of lube.
âhow did youââ
âknowing your perverted ass, i took a wild guess.â
he sheepishly smiled, turning around as you commanded. meeting face to face with the reflection of his body. and wow was he red⌠thighs parted with his dick barely hidden by his hoodie. it looked sinful, and you were grinning behind him. you take his hand, slathering a good amount of cold lube on his fingers before leaving him be.
âgo on, soob.â
you state, and his breath trembles as his fingers prodded at his own ass, slipping in softly and he keens, thighs and eyes slowly closing, only to snap back to reality by a ringing slap to his thigh. he yelps, widening his legs and looking up at you in the mirror.
âkeep your eyes and legs open.â
your hand comes to tilt his chin up, he bites back tears as he continued inserting in his fingers with your new rules. you were so mean. he wanted to whine, but if he endured this he might be rewarded. so he disregards all his shame as he starts riding his own fingers. crotch leaned towards the mirror as he watched his hole close and open.
âlook at that soobin, if you were good from the beginning that could be my dick.â
you whispered and he whimpers, tears escaping and rolling down his cheek. all he wanted was for you to dote on him, but because of his stupid horny brain he ruined that chance. he starts sobbing as the shame seeps into him, and you slap his thigh again to remind him to keep his eyes open. he does his best to please you, biting his lips hard as he inserted a fourth finger, it painfully stretched him out but he kept going, his hopeful eyes glancing up at you in pleads. but you didnât budge and he just couldnât do it anymore, his finger accidentally jabs particularly hard at his prostate and his thighs shookâ a choked âcomingâ trembled in his throat before he came in ropes, hard cock bobbing up and down before he was empty.
he gasps out, the satisfaction of the orgasm was soon replaced by his brooding disappointment. he sighed as he took his fingers out of his hole. head down and afraid to look up at you, he knew you were disappointed. it was akin to getting a scolding from his manager. his non-dirty hand comes up to wipe at his tears, at least he could face his hyung with some dignity before he gets reprimanded.
though, as if the gods answered his prayers, your hands come up to brush his bangs away from his eyes, pulling his tall body into your lap.
âsoob itâs okay, you did well, soob.â
he sighs out a breathy exhale, big red eyes glancing behind him.
âiâm sorryâ he just says, sulking.
âyouâre okay. want to feel me in you?â
he nods, letting you dote on him. it always felt nice when you took care of him, either socially or physically. he may be the taller one, but you were his hyung and you always made sure he was taken care of. you slip your dick out from your sweatpants, before slowly inserting yourself into his throbbing hole. he sighs, out of relief this time. he glances into the mirror and you had your face in the crook of his neck, slowly moving him up and down as your hand caressed his cock.
it was a few soft moments, you thrusted softly into him as to not overstimulate him. he turns his head to you again, plump lips in a frown.
âkiss?â you ask, he nods eagerly, and you capture his lips gently. letting his curious tongue in your mouth this time, and in exchange you slipped yours in his, tasting him. his breath hitches, and you could tell he was close with how his stomach clenched. you break from the kiss to suck on his neck, leaving a small hickey just above his collarbone. he moans out, quiet and breathy, thighs clenching as his second orgasm came at him in waves. he squeezes your cock and you cum with a small moan.
the two of you take a moment to breathe before a satisfied smile adorns his pink lips again. you chuckle, so predictable. his eyes creased with his grin and his aegyo sal was on full show, he turns to you and cuddles into your neck.
âhappy?â
âsuper.â he giggles into your collarbone. you let him enjoy your body warmth for a moment, slipping your dick out and hearing the soft drip of cum falling from his hole to the ground.
after a few soft seconds, you pat his back, getting his attention. âokay soobie, letâs clean up and go back to the dorm. we have a dance practice to film tomorrow.â
he sulks when you untangle his long limbs from yours, but quickly recovers as he cleans out the cum from his hole with a tissue (shivering and doing his best not to get hard again, this man has a stamina of a bunnyâŚ) slipping his underwear and pants back on. meanwhile you take one of the towels to clean up the residue on the floor. dumping it in a basket later. you gather yours and soobins stuff before noticing the guy staring long and hard at his reflection.
âsoobin? whatâs up.â
âi have a hickey.â
âwhatâ oh.â
âwhat do i do? weâre filming tomorrow.â
ââŚhope and pray moas donât notice?â
âââ
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@soobslefttoe: yall?? is that a hickey on soobins neck
@iloveyn: @soobslefttoe nah the real question is DO YOU GUYS SEE HOW YN LOOKED AT SOOBIN??? i would sell my soul to be looked at like that.
@ynxsoob4ever: they are totally fuvking i bet yn scks coobins dick all day
@sanetxtstan: all of you are so deluluâŚ
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Skincare Routine and Product 101 đ§ââď¸đŤ§đ§´đ
Morning Routine:
Cleanser: Gently cleanse your face with a mild cleanser to remove sweat and oil.
Toner: Apply a alcohol-free toner to balance your skin's pH levels.
Serum (Optional): Apply a serum with antioxidants or specific skin concerns (e.g., Vitamin C for brightening).
Moisturizer: Use a lightweight, non-comedogenic moisturizer to hydrate your skin.
Sunscreen: Apply broad-spectrum SPF 30+ sunscreen to protect your skin from UV rays.
Evening Routine:
Makeup Removal: Use a gentle makeup remover or cleansing oil to remove makeup and sunscreen.
Cleanser: Cleanse your face again with a mild cleanser to remove impurities.
Exfoliating (1-2 times a week): Use a gentle exfoliant to remove dead skin cells and promote cell turnover.
Toner Apply toner to balance your skin after cleansing.
Serum: Apply a serum with ingredients like hyaluronic acid or retinol (if suitable for your skin type).
Eye Cream (Optional): Apply a lightweight eye cream to moisturize the delicate skin around your eyes.
Moisturizer: Use a slightly thicker night cream or moisturizer to deeply hydrate your skin.
Descriptions:
Cleanser:
Purpose: Removes dirt, oil, and impurities from the skin's surface.
Types: Gel cleansers, foaming cleansers, cream cleansers, oil cleansers.
Toner:
Purpose: Balances the skin's pH, preps for other products, and provides light hydration.
Types: Hydrating toners, exfoliating toners (with AHAs/BHAs).
Serum:
Purpose: Concentrated formulas targeting specific skin concerns (e.g., hydration, brightening, anti-aging).
Types: Hyaluronic acid serums, vitamin C serums, retinol serums.
Moisturizer:
Purpose: Hydrates and seals moisture into the skin, creating a protective barrier.
Types: Gel moisturizers, cream moisturizers, oil-based moisturizers.
Sunscreen:
Purpose: Protects the skin from UV rays, preventing sun damage and premature aging.
Types: Physical sunscreens (with zinc oxide or titanium dioxide).
Exfoliant:
Purpose: Removes dead skin cells, unclogs pores, and promotes cell turnover.
Types: Physical exfoliants (scrubs), chemical exfoliants (AHAs, BHAs).
Mask:
Purpose: Provides a concentrated treatment for specific concerns (e.g., hydration, acne).
Types: Clay masks (absorb excess oil), sheet masks (hydrate and soothe), sleeping masks (overnight treatment).
Eye Cream:
Purpose: Hydrates and addresses specific concerns around the delicate eye area (e.g., dark circles, puffiness).
Spot Treatment:
Purpose: Targets individual pimples or blemishes with concentrated ingredients.
Makeup Remover:
Purpose: Effectively removes makeup, sunscreen, and impurities from the skin.
Cleansing Oil:
Purpose: Gently dissolves makeup and sunscreen, leaving skin clean and hydrated.
Micellar Water:
Purpose: Cleanses and removes makeup using micelle molecules, requires no rinsing.
Essence:
Purpose: A lightweight, hydrating step that prepares skin for subsequent products.
Ampoule:
Purpose: A highly concentrated serum for intense treatment of specific concerns.
Facial Oil:
Purpose: Nourishes and adds extra hydration to the skin, especially for dry or mature skin types.
Your skincare routine should be tailored to your individual skin type, concerns, and preferences. Start with the basics and gradually introduce new products to observe how your skin responds.
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đ SPATIOTEMPORAL CATCH CENTER: INTERNAL RECONDITIONING DOSSIER
SUBJECT CODE: 044-EXE REVIEW OFFICER: Centaur K. Marlowe (Temporal Behavior Enforcement, Tier-5 Clearance) DATE OF INTAKE: 2025-05-08 UTC REALITY ANCHOR STATUS: UNSTABLE â FORCED REALIGNMENT IN PROGRESS EMOTIONAL COHERENCE INDEX: 41.8% NEURAL RESISTANCE FLUX: 12.4 (Critical)
I. SUBJECT'S ORIGIN: âJACOB HAWTHORNE RAINEâ
Date of Birth: 1997-02-12 Region of Origin: Austin, Texas (North American Union, Post-Resurgence Sector) Baseline Occupation: Freelance Systems Agitator / Crypto Migration Consultant Criminal Record:
2044: Unauthorized Chrono-Tech Procurement (Sealed)
2049: Illegal Memory Weaving
2051: Emotional Downtime Fraud (Domestic Sector)
2055: Use of Quantum Masking Protocols to bypass Rebirth Registry
Psychological Profile: A classic deviant of the late post-modern diaspora: clever, underutilized, painfully self-aware, and pathologically allergic to meaning. "Jacob Hawthorne Raine" is the type of man who reads Stoicism while engaging in market destabilization, then cries about the state of the world over unlicensed espresso in a barcoded bio-lounge. Full of clever nihilism, feigned introspection, and cowardly hopes for escape.
II. TARGET INSERTION PROFILE (ABORTED): âMICHAEL ANTHONY HEMSWORTHâ
Target Year: 1962 Planned Region: Troy, New York Assigned Cover: Junior Accountant at Mather & Co. Age upon Arrival: 28 Family Implantation: Wife (Homemaker archetype), 2 children (age 5 and 3 pre-coded), Border Collie (named Skip) Home: 3-bedroom, 2-bath colonial, lavender siding, modest lawn
Psychological Configuration Request: Subject requested full emotional dampening to 1960s middle-class baseline:
Elimination of ambition
Introduction of mild myopia and posture degradation
Neural loops centered on trivial routines (e.g., lawn maintenance, coffee brewing, sighing at newspapers)
Subdued masculinity: narrow shoulders, underdeveloped triceps, weak grip, domestic speech tone
Evaluation:
"A thoroughly pathetic attempt to disappear into irrelevance. His stated wish: 'I just want to be a good dad, finally.' A laughable fantasy. Like a delinquent arsonist dreaming of becoming a librarian. Denied." â Analyst Note
Subjectâs emotional blueprint for âMichael Hemsworthâ was so deliberately hollow it bordered on psychological self-mutilation. He did not wish to be forgotten. He wished to hide. And we at the Catch Center do not reward cowards.
III. INTERCEPTION AND FINAL ASSIGNMENT: âBRADFORD KELLEN ST. JAMESâ
Year of Deployment: 2007 Age: 44 (Visual + Chrono Profile Recalibrated) Region: Midtown Manhattan Assigned Occupation: Executive Vice President of Global Equities Strategy, Augur-Bain Capital
PHYSICAL RESTRUCTURING
Height: 6â4â Body Type: Lean-hardened, vascularity prioritized, adrenal-pumped musculature Hair: Slicked back, loaded with product Facial Hair: Permanent stubble cycle (tuned to exhaustion-based aesthetic) Skin Flush Index: 3.2 (Stress/Caffeine saturation) Posture: Upright, twitchyâenergy reads as always âmid-argumentâ Voice: Raspy, quick, with a controlled sneer Signature Accessories:
BlackBerry Pearl 8130 (left hand, always)
Omega Speedmaster watch
Loafers stretched to biometric ID specs: Size 28EE
Clothing: 2007 Wall Street aesthetic â charcoal suit, aggressive spread-collar French cuff white shirt, bold-striped tie, glinting belt buckle, hard-shined shoes
All materials embedded with anti-anachronism code overlays
Transformation Visuals (Active):
Flickering between suits and khakis (resistance phase)
Warp effects include: luminous financial charts, floating $ symbols, light trails of testosterone auras, subtle dopamine glitch overlays
BIOGRAPHICAL INSERTION: BRADFORD KELLEN ST. JAMES
Born: 1963-04-09, Darien, Connecticut Education:
Phillips Exeter Academy
Wharton School of Business, MBA (Class of 1987) Career Timeline:
1987: Merrill Lynch (Analyst)
1991: Goldman Sachs (VP)
1999: Augur-Bain Capital (SVP)
2004âPresent: EVP, Global Equities, overseeing $312B in assets
Income: $5.2M annually (excluding illicit offshore holding accounts) Marital Status: Married (Name: Lacey Morland St. James, 41) Children:
Brayden (14, elite prep academy)
Knox (9, mostly ignored)
Personality Rewrite:
Patience: reduced to 1.2%
Empathy: 0.4% residual echo, flagged for deletion
Work Ethic: maxed at 9.9 (hyperactive, stimulant-driven)
Libido: weaponized
Speech patterns: hyperconfident, 2.2x normal interruption rate, fond of phrases like âcircle backâ and âsynergize or dieâ
Notes from Analyst:
âLacey is miserable. Of course she is. She married a man with bones. She lives with a reptile now.â âHe remembers birthdays but doesnât celebrate them. Sends emails to his wife from the next room.â âNever touches his kids unless itâs for a photo.â âThey know heâs gone. So what? The market calls louder.â
DEATH PROJECTION FILE
Registered End of Cycle:
Date: September 29, 2031
Time: 02:41 a.m. EST
Location: Midtown Manhattan penthouse
Cause: Sudden cardiac arrest during self-directed âbrainstorm sprintâ at standing desk (64th consecutive hour without sleep)
Noted Artifacts at Scene:
11 crushed espresso pods
Blood-stained BlackBerry
Mirror selfie folder labeled âfinal quarter beastmodeâ
FINAL OBSERVATIONS
"Raine wanted warmth. A lawn. A little dog. He wanted to die a nobody, sighing into a chipped mug while flipping coupons. We gave him Wall Street in 2007. We gave him himselfânot the coward trying to run. The man who thrives on conquest, burns through relationships, and smells like leather and fear. Heâs not dreaming of 1962 anymore. Heâs trading derivatives and barely blinking. Good."
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âYOU PAT YOUR DOG ON THE HEAD, BUT WHAT IF I TOLD YOUâŚâ (Your Pet Isnât Just a Companion â Itâs a Biological Pact Forged in Evolutionary Fire)
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You pat your dog on the head. You call him a good boy. You shoo the cat off the good couch. You post their cute little faces online with captions like,
âMy baby.â âMy best friend.â âMy emotional support gremlin.â
How adorable. How naive.
What if I told youâŚ
Your âpetâ is not a pet. Itâs a living remnant of an ancient, scientifically symbiotic pact between mammalian species. A war treaty. A blood oath. A primal contract.
And the only reason your organs are still inside your body?
Is because your cat thinks youâre too big and too weird to eat.
đ§Ź Letâs break it down.
Dogs and cats arenât domesticated.
Theyâre adaptively evolved parasites turned covert emotional diplomats, bred and evolved not to love you â but to cohabitate with you successfully enough to feed, sleep, and reproduce.
đą Letâs talk cats.
You thought your cat meowing meant she was hungry?
Nope.
Sheâs mimicking the sound of a human baby.
That high-pitched cry? Thatâs not just random. Thatâs co-evolutionary manipulation designed to pierce your dumb little mammalian parental instinct and make you feed her faster.
She doesnât love you. She studied you.
âMeow.â = âI know how your species bonds with things. Watch me exploit it.â
đś Dogs, though?
Different strategy.
Dogs looked at human children and thought:
âOkay. That thingâs loud, small, and fragile. But it feeds me.â
So they changed.
Their faces reshaped. Their brows grew more expressive. They evolved to give you big, wide, puppy eyes â the kind that activate your nurturing centers and shut down your threat analysis.
A wild wolf wouldâve gotten a spear. A begging labrador gets half your cheeseburger.
Thatâs not domestication. Thatâs biological negotiation through facial architecture.
And hereâs the kicker:
The only reason your dog doesnât rip your throat out is because you feed him â and he trusts the ancient contract.
Because 30,000 years ago, your ancestors shared their fire with four-legged killers in exchange for protection, loyalty, and war-time backup.
Your dogâs great-great-grandwolf literally slept outside the cave so the saber-tooth wouldnât sneak in and rip your nuts off.
You think your little mutt is cute?
Heâs a genetic descendant of a sentient perimeter alarm system.
đ§ So why does this matter?
Because youâve been lied to about what a âpetâ is.
A pet is not a friend.
A pet is a biological extension of you, engineered to coexist, protect, and manipulate in ways that most humans canât even match.
Your cat controls your sleep schedule. Your dog detects your emotional breakdowns before you do. Your goldfish? Okay, maybe not him â but you get the point.
This is not companionship. This is ancient mutualism refined through survival and guilt-based feeding routines.
đź And if youâre still not convinced?
Ask yourself this:
Why does your cat stare at you for hours like sheâs weighing your soul? Why does your dog whine when youâre about to cry, even if you havenât said a word?
Because this wasnât a one-way street.
They adapted. But so did you.
You evolved to love them. To feed them. To bury them like kin. To cry like you lost a brother when your pet dies.
Thatâs not just affection. Thatâs millennia of interspecies emotional co-engineering.
So no â your pet isnât just your âbaby.â
Your pet is the only living witness to the fact that your species once formed alliances with predators just to make it through the fucking Ice Age.
Heâs not just a good boy.
Heâs the reason youâre alive.
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đ CALL TO ACTION
đž Reblog this if your animal would die for you â or has already killed for you in their dreams.
đ§ Save this if youâve ever caught your cat watching you like prey⌠and still felt loved.
đĽ Comment: âThis bond predates language.â
���âđ¨ Tag someone who needs to remember what their pet really is: a quiet soldier from the Before Times.
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Methods: We performed a single-blind, randomized human experiment evaluating the effectiveness of five different regimens for the treatment of topical facial OC exposure. Forty-nine volunteer, adult law enforcement trainees were exposed to OC during a routine training exercise and were randomized to one of five treatment groups (aluminum hydroxide-magnesium hydroxide [Maalox], 2% lidocaine gel, baby shampoo, milk, or water). After initial self-decontamination with water, subjects rated their pain using a 10-cm visual analog scale (VAS) and then every 10 minutes, for a total of 60 minutes. Subjects were blinded to previous VAS recordings. A two-factor analysis of variance (ANOVA) (treatment, time) with repeated measures on one factor (time) was performed using a 1.3-cm difference as clinically significant. Results: Forty-four men and five women, with an average age of 24 years, participated in the study. There was a significant difference in pain with respect to time (p < 0.001), but no significant interaction between time and treatment (p > 0.05). There was no significant difference in pain between treatment groups (p > 0.05).
eliza comments: this supports the observation that pain-inducing chemical weapon response is primarily time- and somatically-mediated. eg, none of this stuff actually "works" and any effects are related to time making the chemicals degrade. observations that "i used milk and it helped" are a false observation based on the fact that sitting there and waiting for the chemicals to wear off was working anyway, so putting milk on your skin/eyes in the meantime was assumed to have "worked" when it wasn't actually doing anything (other than the skin reaction to cool liquid being felt as "soothing" superficially).
the action of being treated by friendly medics will always help with injury regardless of the injury, its one of the cornerstones of medicine. it's very important for street medics to present a caring, confident, and gentle attitude towards injured people. street medics aren't medical doctors (except when they are, i know dozens of actual EMTs and MDs and RNs who go to protests specifically to provide medical care) but the principles are the same
i'm still looking for the paper i found years ago about buffered saline. the study above notably does not try saline as a treatment.
#riot control agents#protests#protesting#tear gas#cs gas#pepper spray#free palestine#treating tear gas
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Do u have any skincare recommendations đđ
KINDA... this may be a mega hot take but literally nothing matters besides sunscreen, some kind of retinoid cream, and a decent moisturizer. nothing else has evidence-based clinical data supporting it. I tried a bunch of different overpriced eye creams, exfoliants, 10-step skincare routines etc throughout my 20s, but nothing was effective as the retinol I started last year lol
also if you have eczema and moderate to severe acne (like me, or rather I used to have these) you should really be seeking professional medical advice... no tiktok/IG trend has helped me as much as prescription medicine đ
here's what I used for PCOS-related and infection-caused acne:
birth control
adapalene + benzoyl peroxide cream (this also supposedly prevents wrinkles and, for lack of better word, makes my skin glow)
hydrocolloid acne patches were a lifesaver before I started adapalene
this is what I use for regular skincare:
CeraVe hydrating facial cleanser (good for sensitive skin)
CeraVe PM moisturiser (good for sensitive skin)
Biore SPF 50 sunscreen (no white cast + oily feeling, dries matte)
this is what I use for makeup:
Burt's bees lip balm with SPF (I have a tinted one)
IT cosmetics CC cream SPF 50
I recommend avoiding tanning salons for reduced cancer risk and to slow down signs of ageing! BUT while skin cancer is incredibly preventable, ageing is obviously inevitable. it's best to make your peace with it now, or else be prepared to invest in botox if you want to delay that emotional conversation with yourself a little longer lol
#sorry for the essay RHHSLJWLDJAJA i have had to fight my skin for most of my life and i recently went through a whole crisis about ageing#couldnt help but yap HAHAHA#yueshuo.asks#asks.anon
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Reveal Your Bollywood Glow: Unveiling Celebrity-Inspired Skincare Secrets.


This blog is going to be all about Indian & bollywood inspired products and skincare tips. If you also want a blog separately about Indian natural and authentic skincare or hair care I'll surely make it. đŤś
Know Your Skin Type : Identify your skin type - whether it's oily, dry, combination, or sensitive - to tailor your skincare routine effectively.
Cleanse Like a Star : Use a gentle cleanser like Cetaphil or Neutrogena to remove dirt and makeup and a oil cleaner is a must if you wear makeup daily. Opt for micellar water for a quick and effective cleanse on busy days. (But I don't really recommend it).
Exfoliate for Radiance : Incorporate a mild exfoliator like St. Ives Apricot Scrub or The Body Shop's Vitamin C Glow-Revealing Liquid Peel to slough off dead skin cells and reveal glowing skin. And my personal favorite coffee scrub from The Bombay shaving company. Don't exfoliate more than twice a week.
Hydration Is Key : Use a hydrating toner such as Clinique Moisture Surge Face Spray for an instant boost of hydration or toner + mist from pilgrim works like magic (my fav đ).
Targeted Treatments : Include a serum with ingredients like hyaluronic acid (for hydration) or vitamin C (for hyperpigmentation) if you are under 17 or 18 like me don't use vitamin c or if you want to use in very less %, I use 2% kojic acid for my uneven skin tone from pilgrim, it's very begniner friendly. (Always consult a dermatologist for your skincare don't go around seeing videos on insta and YouTube believing them). I recommend Minimalist if you want chemical bases serums.
If you are above 23 or 25 Incorporate a retinol-based cream like RoC Retinol Correxion Deep Wrinkle Night Cream for anti-aging benefits. (Got this tip from mumma for y'all đâ¨ď¸)
Sun Protection Essentials : Always apply a broad-spectrum sunscreen with SPF 30 or higher, such as La Roche-Posay Anthelios Ultra Light Fluid, to protect your skin from harmful UV rays. More affordable and effective sunscreens from brands â dot and key, aqualogica, Dr. Seth and wish care.
Overnight Nourishment: Use a hydrating overnight mask like Laneige Water Sleeping Mask to replenish moisture while you sleep. Incorporate a facial oil like The Ordinary's Rose Hip Seed Oil for added nourishment and radiance.
DIY Treatments Inspired by Bollywood:
- Try a turmeric, gram flour and yogurt face mask inspired by Priyanka Chopra for glowing skin.
- Use aloe vera gel like Deepika Padukone for its soothing and hydrating properties. (MY fav bolly actress btw đâ¤ď¸)
Lifestyle Tips for Healthy Skin : Stay hydrated by drinking plenty of water throughout the day people are not stupid that they are going around telling you to drink water, IT'S A MUST!. Incorporate antioxidant-rich foods like fruits, vegetables, and green tea into your diet for overall skin health.
Some of my fav brands (mostly available in india) : dot and key, Foxtale, pilgrim, minimalist, st. Botanica, organic harvest and aqualogica!
Fav brand released by a bollywood actress: Hyphen by Kriti Sanon, their lip balm can even beat Rhode's lip balm istg- and their sunscreen đđ.
Channel your inner Bollywood diva and achieve a radiant, flawless skin with these skincare tips and product recommendations. Let your skin glow like a star!
#desi#desi tumblr#india#girlblogging#indian#beacoming that girl#desiblr#advice#it girl#this is a girlblog#self care#skincare#self care tips#self love#glow up#bollywood#indian aesthetic#wonyoungism#self growth#self grooming#positivity#positive suggestions#deepika padukone#aishwarya rai#it girl energy#girly#desi stuff#desi things#desi core#desi girl
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So Iâmma do a quick rant on Tim and the whole âforever 17â thing people are always going on about.
Disclaimer: some of this is based on my own experience with how I changed as I got older and comments from people that I went months and years without seeing.
Iâm AFAB so itâs not quite the same. But Iâve never been one to remember a skin care routine and have relied on good genetics and good hygiene to make this point.
When doing some calculations for another post (youâve probably seen that post I reblogged about the batkids ages) it hit me WHY it doesnât look like Tim has aged.
Sure it might just be a style choice because DC wants to keep a chokehold on their Teen audience with Tim. (Even though Damian is RIGHT THERE!!! DC stop making Damian look like Tim for the love of GOD!)
A lot of people donât actually CHANGE that much from ages 16-24 as long as they are keeping to the same exercise routines and diets. With the exception of Timâs Brucequest, he kept to a fairly stable routine for Years!
The reason most people change so much early on is because they drop off their usual exercise (gym class) and repetitive diet (school or packed lunch). So you see peopleâs weight fluctuating (this can have an effect of visible face shape) hair either thinning or thickening and skin either clearing or getting more acne.
Add this to Tim probably having pretty good genetics (his mom looked like she was maybe pushing 30 when she died but was probably closer to mid 40s. Both Janet and Jack were around 10 years older than Bruce, who would have been mid 30s at the time.)
Tim not showing any signs of facial hair can also be down to genetics. Some cis men just NEVER get more than a single chin hair, maybe a max of 5 sparsely scattered along their chin. Those guys usually just pluck them out. They never actually have to shave. Though I think we Have seen Tim shaving again one point. Canât remember when.
Either way, it makes sense for Tim not to actually look his age in any more than muscle mass. Heâs noticeably built compared to how he was when Damian was introduced. (When the artists are going for a more realistic art style.)
Then considering his most recent dimensional adventure to save Bruce after the shit with Failsafe, you see just how much older he looks next to his mother (from that universe) and she didnât seem that surprised with how he looked. Meaning her version of him is probably around the same age, and anyone who read that issue can see she looked pretty young.
Add all this to the fact itâs Canon that Jason is 23! Heâs only at most 3 years older than Tim but is probably closer to 2 years older. (With Jason being 15 going on 16 when he died. And Tim was 12-13 by the 6 month mark after Jason died and Tim became Robin.)
So in conclusion, DC needs to stop acting like Timâs still a Teenager and acknowledge that heâs a lot closer to 21 (hell, if we go by proper calculations he SHOULD BE 21).
What Iâm saying is give us Tim going out for drinks with his older brothers. Have him show up at Jasonâs after something bad happens and ask if heâs still up for that drink (in reference to that one time Jason offered to get a 16 year old Tim into a bar.)
Give us Funny Drunk Tim shenanigans to balance out that Dick is a miserable drunk! Have Jason get stuck babysitting both of them because heâs the only one that can actually hold his alcohol. Have the Girls be watching and laughing from across the bar because they unintentionally had their Girls Night and the same place the guys had their Boys Night.
Please DC, I am Begging you!
#tim drake#dick grayson#jason todd#Batfam#Tim isnât 17 and I will die on this hill#neither are any of the Core Four#Connor isnât even SUPPOSED to look like heâs aging because he was artificially aged in the cloning pod#Connor looks like a young 20 something and heâs supposed too!!!!#Literally all three of the others are Metas with powers than make aging moot!#Bart has super speed and such has super Healing#Cassie is a Demigoddess!!!!
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đĄď¸ FILE #JST-014: âFORGEâ
đ BASIC INFORMATION
Subject Name: [REDACTED] Known Alias: Forge Callsign: Forge Status: ACTIVE Affiliation: Pandora Division: Justice Faceclaim: Dwayne Johnson Date of Birth: [REDACTED] Age: 52 Place of Origin: [REDACTED] Sex / Gender: Male (He/Him) Mutation Type: N/A (Heavenly Virtue Candidate) Recruitment Date: 15 years ago Sexual Orientation: [REDACTED] Alignment Profile: [NEUTRAL GOOD]
đŞ PHYSICAL INFORMATION
Height: 6'6" (196 cm) Build: Exceptionally muscular and broad-chested. Subject's body reflects decades of elite military training and continued physical maintenance. Weight is distributed evenly between upper and lower frame, with an imposing silhouette marked by power and precision. Complexion: Warm brown, with skin often showing light scarring consistent with prolonged field activity Hair: Clean-shaven scalp Facial Hair: Full goatee, meticulously shaped Body Hair: Moderate and well-kept; notably dense along chest and arms Distinguishing Features: Prominent jawline and nose; several faded tattoos from early service years; long scar across right shoulder blade from classified operation Tattoos: Subject bears multiple military-style tattoos including insignia, quotes, and an eagle emblem across upper right bicep.
đ§ PSYCHOLOGICAL PROFILE
Psych Eval Tags: Grounded, Resilient Reprimands: [REDACTED] â see file: Behavioral Note J-021 (Guarded & Stubborn tendencies)
Subject presumed deceased following failed enhancement protocol. While the serum did not bond, subject survived the rejection process through sheer force of will. Transferred into the Heavenly Virtue program shortly after, Forge has since become a cornerstone of Pandora's internal training and mentorship structure.
Known for his unwavering sense of duty, Forge commands loyalty through presence, not posturing. He expects discipline, but balances it with genuine care for those under his supervision. Often seen as the spine of Justice Division operations, he carries himself with unshakable steadiness and practical wisdom.
Forge operates with structured calm, rarely resorting to aggression unless absolutely necessary. He believes in strength as a means of protection, not domination. Recruits and operatives alike respect him not just for his ability to lead, but for his consistent willingness to listen.
While he has no mutation, subject routinely outperforms expectations in combat simulation and endurance trials. His influence within Pandora is rooted not in force, but in foundation.
đŹ ABILITY OVERVIEW
Primary Mutation: N/A Subject is non-augmented. All combat capability stems from natural training, discipline, and physical resilience.
Core Attributes: â Master-level hand-to-hand combat and tactical training â Exceptional survival instincts and battlefield awareness â Unshakable under mental strain; high emotional intelligence
Limitations: â Subject is vulnerable to mutation-based attacks and enhanced speed/strength threats â Requires more recovery time from physical injury than augmented counterparts â Occasionally overrides command hierarchy in favor of moral judgment
đ§ TACTICAL PROFILE
Division Expertise:
Close Combat Mastery
Tactical Foresight
Selected Expertise:
Pain Tolerance
Proficiencies:
Athletics
Insight
Intimidation
Environmental Adaptation
Perception
Deficiencies:
Deception
Hacking & Cyber Warfare
ď¸ EQUIPMENT & SUIT DESIGN
Forgeâs gear is a customized blend of durability, mobility, and utility. Designed to reflect his old-school combat roots, the suit maintains functionality without unnecessary technological enhancements.
Key Features: â Reinforced torso padding and impact-absorbing bracers â Temperature-regulating undersuit to withstand extreme field environments â Weighted gloves and boots to improve strike force without reducing mobility â Secure comms built directly into chest harness â Knife sheathes integrated into boots and wrist bracers â Wears a compact utility belt with medical supplies, rope fiber, and old-school dog tags
Design is deliberately straightforwardâno frills, no flash. The armor serves the man, not the other way around.
đ FIELD NOTES â BACKGROUND PROFILE
Subjectâs strength was never in what he could lift. It was in what he could carry.
Born into a working-class family, subject enlisted in the military at seventeen and never looked back. His career spanned over two decades, marked by tactical excellence, unshakable loyalty, and a record of protecting others even when it meant defying direct orders. He served with distinction as a Navy SEAL and later as a senior instructor for close-quarters combat and field survival. Fellow operatives described him as the kind of man who walks through fire lastâafter everyone else is safe.
He was flagged by Pandora not for any extraordinary talent, but for a pattern: he survived everything. Injury, trauma, loss, extraction under fireâhe endured without mutation, augmentation, or enhanced recovery. When subjected to the serum, his body rejected the enhancement. He survived that, too.
Most candidates who fail the mutation process are discarded. Subject was not. His refusal to break earned him a place among the Heavenly Virtuesâthose forged not by science, but by sheer resilience.
Now operating as a Justice Division agent, subject trains augmented operatives in close-quarters engagement and mental discipline. He is calm under fire, commanding without ego, and unrelentingly focused on molding recruits into something better than himself.
He doesnât posture. He doesnât bark. He standsâand people fall in line.
đ [CLASSIFIED: LEVEL 7 CLEARANCE REQUIRED]
Unofficial Agent Notes â The following is considered sensitive material and is restricted to authorized psychosexual analysis and biometric logs.
Subject exhibits what medical staff classify as peak physical performance paired with a notably high endurance threshold. Sexual activity is consistent with subjectâs overall profile: measured, intentional, and deeply rooted in emotional connection, consistent with demisexual behavior.
Medical documentation places subject at 9.5 inches, cut, with considerable girthâphysically exceptional, even compared to enhanced counterparts.
Subjectâs intimate behavior reflects his commanding yet emotionally grounded nature. Forge assumes a dominant, versatile top role in physical intimacy, open to bottoming on occasion though he clearly prefers to top, his approach is never aggressive.
Subject responds strongly to emotional cues and is known to be tactile during and after encounters, maintaining consistent grounding touch. While he rarely initiates casual physical intimacy, when trust is established, he becomes openly affectionateâfrequently offering steady, quiet reassurance through physical presence.
Psychological evaluations note that subject uses physical intimacy as a form of emotional stability. There is no recorded pattern of promiscuity; all known interactions stem from established emotional trust, further supporting a demisexual profile.
Subject is flagged as emotionally reliable and exhibits high levels of emotional intelligence in romantic dynamics.
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31 Days To A Better Skincare Routine â¨
Day 1: Start with a Clean Slate
⢠Morning: Wash your face with a gentle cleanser to remove dirt and oils.
⢠Evening: Cleanse your face again to remove makeup, sunscreen, and impurities from the day.
Day 2: Hydrate Your Skin
⢠Apply a lightweight, hydrating moisturizer after cleansing to lock in moisture and protect your skin.
Day 3: Start Using Sunscreen
⢠Apply broad-spectrum sunscreen with at least SPF 30 every morning. Protecting your skin from UV rays is key to preventing premature aging.
Day 4: Toner Time
⢠After cleansing, use a toner to balance your skinâs pH and help refine pores. Choose one based on your skin type.
Day 5: Exfoliate (Once a Week)
⢠Gently exfoliate with a chemical or physical exfoliant to slough off dead skin cells, revealing fresh skin underneath.
Day 6: Introduce a Serum
⢠Use a serum that targets your skinâs specific needs, like Vitamin C for brightening or hyaluronic acid for hydration.
Day 7: Moisturize Twice
⢠Start moisturizing your face both in the morning and at night for added hydration.
Day 8: Hydrating Mask (Once a Week)
⢠Apply a hydrating sheet mask or clay mask (depending on your skin type) to deeply nourish your skin.
Day 9: Night Cream
⢠Switch to a richer night cream for your evening routine. Night creams are designed to support your skinâs repair process while you sleep.
Day 10: Focus on Your Eye Area
⢠Use an eye cream to address puffiness, dark circles, or fine lines around the delicate eye area.
Day 11: Add an Overnight Mask (Once a Week)
⢠Try an overnight hydrating or repairing mask to deeply nourish your skin while you sleep.
Day 12: Check Your Cleanser
⢠Ensure your cleanser suits your skin type. If you have dry skin, look for a hydrating formula; oily skin types may benefit from a gel-based cleanser.
Day 13: Vitamin C in the Morning
⢠Introduce a Vitamin C serum to your morning routine for added protection against environmental damage and to brighten your skin.
Day 14: Double Cleanse at Night
⢠For a deeper cleanse, try double cleansing: first with an oil-based cleanser to remove makeup and sunscreen, then with your regular cleanser.
Day 15: Stay Consistent
⢠Review your routine and stick with it. Consistency is key to seeing results. Ensure youâre not skipping any steps.
Day 16: Use a Lip Balm
⢠Donât forget your lips! Apply a nourishing lip balm to keep them soft and hydrated.
Day 17: Incorporate Retinol (Nighttime)
⢠If your skin is ready, introduce a gentle retinol treatment to your nighttime routine to help with fine lines and skin texture. Start slow.
Day 18: Drink More Water
⢠Hydrate from the inside out by increasing your water intake. Skin health starts from within.
Day 19: Use a Facial Roller
⢠Incorporate a facial roller or gua sha tool to promote circulation and reduce puffiness.
Day 20: Stay Active
⢠Exercise regularly to boost circulation and improve the overall appearance of your skin.
Day 21: Add a Weekly Scrub (Gently)
⢠Exfoliate once or twice a week with a gentle scrub to remove dead skin and promote cell turnover.
Day 22: Practice Face Yoga
⢠Incorporate face yoga exercises to relieve tension and increase circulation in your facial muscles.
Day 23: Focus on Consistent Sleep
⢠Aim for 7-9 hours of sleep per night. Your skin regenerates during sleep, and rest is essential for a healthy glow.
Day 24: Try a Hydrating Mist
⢠Refresh your skin with a hydrating facial mist throughout the day, especially if youâre feeling dry or need a midday pick-me-up.
Day 25: Be Gentle with Your Skin
⢠Avoid pulling or tugging at your skin. Use gentle motions when applying products to prevent unnecessary irritation.
Day 26: Use a Skin-Specific Serum
⢠Add a serum that addresses your specific skin concerns, whether itâs acne, pigmentation, or fine lines.
Day 27: Monitor Your Diet
⢠Focus on eating a balanced diet rich in fruits, vegetables, and healthy fats to nourish your skin from the inside.
Day 28: Hydrate with a Night Mask
⢠Use a hydrating or rejuvenating night mask to lock in moisture and support your skinâs repair during sleep.
Day 29: Adjust for Seasonal Changes
⢠As the seasons change, so should your routine. Switch to more hydrating products during colder months and lighter formulas during warmer months.
Day 30: Pamper Your Skin with a Full Routine
⢠Give yourself some extra love today. Treat yourself to a full routine with extra attention to your face mask, exfoliation, and hydration.
Day 31: Reflect and Celebrate Your Progress
⢠Take a moment to evaluate how far youâve come. Celebrate the habit youâve built, and keep refining your routine based on your skinâs needs.
By following these 31 steps, youâll gradually build a skincare routine that not only benefits your skin but becomes a solid habit, helping you maintain healthy and glowing skin long-term.
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The Basics of Skin Care
A 100 skincare tips for beginners:
Cleansing:
1. Cleanse your face twice a day.
2. Use a gentle, sulfate-free cleanser.
3. Avoid hot water, as it can strip natural oils.
4. Use a cleansing brush or washcloth for gentle exfoliation.
5. Remove makeup before bedtime.
6. Double cleanse if you wear heavy makeup.
7. Don't over-cleanse; it can lead to dryness.
Exfoliation:
8. Exfoliate 1-3 times a week, based on your skin type.
9. Choose chemical exfoliants like AHAs or BHAs.
10. Be gentle when physically exfoliating.
11. Avoid over-exfoliation to prevent irritation.
Moisturizing:
12. Use a moisturizer suitable for your skin type.
13. Apply moisturizer while your skin is slightly damp.
14. Don't forget your neck and chest.
15. Consider using a humidifier in dry climates.
Sun Protection:
16. Always wear sunscreen, even on cloudy days.
17. Use a broad-spectrum SPF of at least 30.
18. Reapply sunscreen every 2 hours.
19. Wear protective clothing and sunglasses.
20. Avoid tanning beds and excessive sun exposure.
Anti-Aging:
21. Use products with antioxidants like vitamin C.
22. Apply retinol at night for anti-aging benefits.
23. Consider peptides for collagen support.
24. Stay hydrated to maintain skin elasticity.
25. Get enough sleep for skin repair.
Hydration:
26. Drink plenty of water for overall skin health.
27. Use a hydrating serum or hyaluronic acid.
28. Avoid hot showers that can dry out your skin.
29. Limit alcohol and caffeine intake.
Acne Management:
30. Use salicylic acid for acne-prone skin.
31. Don't pop pimples; it can lead to scarring.
32. Change pillow cases regularly.
33. Maintain a balanced diet to reduce breakouts.
34. Consult a dermatologist for severe acne.
Skincare Routine:
35. Develop a consistent skincare routine.
36. Patch test new products.
37. Customize your routine based on your skin's needs.
38. Consider professional facials occasionally.
Makeup:
39. Clean makeup brushes and sponges regularly.
40. Avoid sharing makeup to prevent infections.
41. Choose non-comedogenic makeup products.
42. Remove makeup before going to bed.
Eye Care:
43. Use an eye cream to address under-eye concerns.
44. Be gentle when applying and removing eye makeup.
45. Get enough sleep to reduce under-eye puffiness.
Lifestyle:
46. Manage stress to prevent skin issues.
47. Get regular exercise for better blood flow.
48. Avoid smoking and secondhand smoke.
49. Limit alcohol consumption.
50. Eat a balanced diet rich in fruits and vegetables.
Special Treatments:
51. Use a face mask 1-2 times a week.
52. Try sheet masks for extra hydration.
53. Consider facial oils for added moisture.
54. Use a lip balm to prevent chapped lips.
Skin Conditions:
55. Consult a dermatologist for skin conditions.
56. Use products with soothing ingredients for sensitive skin.
57. Eczema-prone skin should avoid harsh products.
58. Rosacea-prone skin should use gentle, non-irritating products.
59. Psoriasis-prone skin may benefit from salicylic acid.
DIY Skincare:
60. Be cautious with DIY treatments; research first.
61. Natural ingredients like honey and aloe can be beneficial.
62. Avoid DIY recipes with harsh or abrasive ingredients.
63. Test DIY masks on a small area first.
Sleep:
64. Get 7-9 hours of sleep for skin regeneration.
65. Sleep on a silk or satin pillowcase to reduce friction.
Hands and Feet:
66. Moisturize hands and feet, especially in winter.
67. Use sunscreen on your hands to prevent age spots.
Body Skin Care:
68. Don't forget to moisturize your body.
69. Exfoliate your body regularly.
70. Take short, lukewarm showers to prevent dry skin.
Shaving:
71. Shave in the direction of hair growth.
72. Use a sharp, clean razor.
73. Apply a moisturizing shaving cream.
Hair Care:
74. Use a gentle shampoo and conditioner.
75. Avoid hot water when washing your hair.
76. Protect your hair from UV damage.
Hormonal Changes:
77. Adjust your skincare routine during hormonal changes.
78. Birth control can affect skin; consult a dermatologist.
79. Manage menopausal skin changes with skincare.
Allergies:
80. Be aware of allergens in skin care products.
81. Perform a patch test for new products.
82. Hypoallergenic products can be a safe choice.
Tattoo Care:
83. Follow aftercare instructions for tattoos.
84. Use a mild, fragrance-free lotion.
85. Avoid direct sunlight on a healing tattoo.
Skin Care Tools:
86. Cleanse skincare tools regularly.
87. Replace loofahs and brushes when they wear out.
Consult a Professional:
88. If you're unsure about a product, ask a dermatologist.
89. Consider professional treatments for specific concerns.
Inflammation:
90. Use products with anti-inflammatory ingredients.
91. Manage skin redness with calming products.
Massage:
92. Gently massage your face for better circulation.
93. Use upward motions to prevent sagging.
Eyes and Lips:
94. Use SPF lip balm to protect your lips.
95. Choose an eye cream with ingredients like caffeine.
Preventive Care:
96. Start a skincare routine early for preventive care.
97. Be patient; skincare results take time.
98. Embrace your natural beauty.
99. Avoid comparing your skin to others'.
100. Remember that skincare is individual; what works for one person may not work for another.
These tips can help you maintain healthy and radiant skin. However, always consult a dermatologist for personalized advice based on your skin's unique needs.
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i want to send a pic of my beat so bad but honestly speaking im a wimp who will NAWT be doing a face reveal BUT i will say i do get compliments on my makeup semi often and esp on my base!!!! đđ
now i will warn u i am NOT a clean girl makeup girly or very natural beat at all so just letting u know i use A LOT more than most ppl i would assume use
ok lets gooo:
skincare prep: use facial cleanser (cerave hydrating or the ordinary hydrating cleanser) to wash face w either lukewarm or cold tapwater. let face air dry or use clean facial towel (i just use a mini towel) to dry face by patting the skin gently a few times max. use toner (some by mi aha bha pha toner) by patting it on face. give 30 secsish to dry. now put on moisturizer (laniege water face mask or cerave hydrating moisturizer or the face shop rice ceramide moisturizer). put on sunscreen (olay 30spf moisturizer sunscreen).
then use primer (elf hydro grip pink or blue works)
onto base: use foundation/cc cream/tinted serum depending on ur preference (f: clio kill cover mesh. cc cream: elf camo. tinted serum: loreal true match). i blend using a damp beauty blender. then i (excessively) use atleast 2-3 concealers of different shades. starting w the darkest to even out my skin tone (the body shop), medium to give more coverage (loreal instant age rewind eraser), and lightest to lighten my undereyes and other areas i like to be highlighted (peripera double longwear cover or focallure liquid concealer both from YesStyle). blend all three after each one w a beauty blender. i then use a setting spray to keep my base in place (i use the milani make it last but i do NOT recc it đ).
blush: yet again i am excessive w this đ i like looking like my crush just winked at me and i cannot handle the attention 24/7. i start w a matte blush/tint (nyx powder puff lippie or peripera ink airy velvet) then blend w my fingers. after i use a glowy blush (elf halo glow) and blend w my fingers again. lastly i "set" w a powder blush (etude cookie blush).
eyes: during my base routine i add all components from foundation to concealer on my eyes, so i blend out any excess using my fingers and even it out. i then use a white or nude eyeshadow to lighten my entire eye from the undereye to below my eyebrow bone (mac discontinued hello kitty palette or colorpop baby got peach palette...slightly pinky nude or full on white is my vibe). i go in p hard in the underye bc i like my undereye looking like ive slept 99 hours in the past wk alone. then i use any eyeshadow i want to create any kind of look, usually to match my outfit or the days vibe. i like colorpop, too faced, mac, jaclyn hill, and juvias place palettes the most. after the eyeshadow is complete i go in w a setting powder (juvias place) w a heavy hand. i also go in w powder under blush area (below cheekbone), upper lip, chin, and forhead. i let that sit all the way until im done w my lips. after placing powder w powder puff, i do eyeliner w eyeshadow of any previously mentioned palettes. i then curl my lashes, put on mascara (hourglass caution extreme lash or telescopic blue tube), and curl again. i then clean up any mascara w more eyeshadow or concealer then eyeshadow if its p bad. i then place highlighter (colorpop shock) under my brow bone.
highlighter: i use the colorpop highlighter on my nose and cupids bow. then i use a bright pink highlighter (stick w me lol ik it sounds weird) (zeesea purple 9 color eyeshadow palette) on my cheekbone and nose.
lips: three steps: liner, tint, gloss. lip liner from elf to line my exact lip shape (sometimes i round out my cupids bow if its a cutesy look). lip tint from peripera to color my lips and keep the color on for a long time or elf o satin face lip stick to do the same thing. blend out w fingers after smacking lips together. then top w gloss/lip oil (nyx butter gloss, nyx fat lip oil, ecosoul lip oil, kopari gloss, maybelline lifter gloss, hello kitty lip smacker gloss).
blend out all powder on face and set w shitty milani setting spray
WHEW MY HANDS HURTTTT
but tbh i do sm bc i love makeup and have sm fun w it. tho w using this much ik im lucky to not have acne prone skin or skin that treats makeup like a parasite. i often take 2-4 day breaks when i have days off school and or weekends which helps. not to mention i use toner pads (numbuzin no.5) once to twice a wk and use a face mask (from any brand that use food ingredients as a main ingredient) weekly.
hope this helps!!!!! đŻââď¸đŻââď¸đ
LORDY LORDY THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS đÂ
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after a few months, i finally renewed my adderall prescription and thus am having a bunch of feelings. this is just venting; feel free to ignore this. (cw: csa?, puberty, intersexism???, questioning and rambling about identity)
i should be working through different feelings than these right now. butâŚÂ some combination of the book i was just reading and the discourse that's been floating around tumblr for the past week-ish has justâŚ
i don't know where to start.
it was really obvious when we started growing breasts during puberty. it wasâŚÂ about the start of middle school, i think? those first few years, it was dysphoria hell. i didn't know what was going on, and â i think a lot of people looked at us and just assumed we were fat, but⌠something felt deeply wrong and terrifying. just as much, if not sometimes more, disconcerting than every other change going on. at least we had been (uncomfortably, coarsely) warned those were coming by our school's health classes. there was nothing about a '''boy''' growing breasts in those cringe-ass 80s style informational videos.
i can still remember the kinda bored tone with which the doctors who first prescribed us hormones remarked on our slightly higher than normal base estrogen levels and how we already had a head start on breast development. it was comforting (we were so dysphoric and chomping at the bit to start) and slightly unnerving at the same time?
iâŚ
our mother and grandmother were both kind of obsessed with the state of our genitals growing up? every few months, they'd just. have us strip and they inspected our junk. they said smth like "i can't trust you to take care of it yourself, so i need to check you're doing it right" and then poke and prod while we tried to dissociate through how rough and painful it was. gods, why am i shaking as i type this up. they did this for years. from like, kindergarten age to well past puberty starting. it only stopped when we refused to comply and they thankfully justâŚÂ didn't push?
iâŚÂ i can't actually say that i grew up thinking this was normal. i tried not to think about it ever. i thought that i was jaded and numb to it. but that still didn't prepare us from theâŚÂ vehement reaction one of our partners had when we first told them about the routine genital inspections? they were aghast. andâŚÂ they were the first to say, "that excuse sounds like bullshit. why were they actually doing that?"
that was a mindfuck.
it's still hard to wrap our head around the idea that they had an ulterior motive or some hidden instructions they were working under. and the plurality, the dissociation, they've made all our really early memories into slurry. i remember a few doctor's appointments wherein we stripped and had our junk looked at, butâŚÂ for all i know that's normal? i know we spent a lot of time in hospitals while really small, butâŚÂ in one of those, they took out our tonsils (i think?????) and at least one of those has to be related to the fact that we're missing a bone in one of our ears.
all our really early childhood medical records are inaccessible, in another country. we can't ask for those, if they even still exist? and our family was too poor to afford regular doctor's appointments after a while unless we were turbo sick. and this is all justâŚÂ it's circumstantial. it's all circumstantial, built on top a shifting, useless foundation.
there's nothing there.
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in the aftermath of that conversation, aforementioned partner (perisex) and a now-ex (intersex) said that they'd honestly just assumed that we already knew whether or not we're intersex and had just never wanted to pry. and we justâŚÂ fucking segfaulted?
they pointed outâŚÂ our relative lack of body or facial hair despite never having had laser/electrolysis, our high-ish voice despite never doing voice training, growing breasts during puberty, the shape and size our junkâŚÂ they pointed out that it would be a coherent explanation for why our grand/mother acted that wayâŚÂ and. probably a bunch of other things? (this was six or seven years ago, iirc)
i'm kind of anxious that i'm not conveying how reasonable and compelling they sounded. because it was convincing, it was compelling. here was an idea being put forward by two people i trust super highly, that brought together a whole bunch of disparate, really upsetting things about our life under one coherent explanation.
we were convinced enough to bring it up to our pcp and ask for a karyotyping. she said no at first, whichâŚÂ hurt in the moment, but honestly was super fair! i've been in trans communities, i've been online. i know there's a non-trivial amount of trans girls who latch on to the idea of being secretly intersex in a fetishistic and/or insecure way to make their gender feel more '''''authentic.'''''
so we told her everything we've written here. it was the most open and honest we'd been with her â or possibly any nurse or doctor ever. it felt gross and invasive at the time. (but there's no situation in which suddenly disclosing all this trauma history wouldn't feel Weird And Bad) and she was probably overwhelmed by all this new information. she agreed at the end, given that i consented to her examining our genitals. (apologetically, she said that it was mandated by the health center's policy. it was intensely triggering, but we managed not to break out sobbing until after the appointment was over.)
it took two agonizing months for the karyotype to come back 46XY, no chimerism or mosaicism. when our partners suggested that we should look into whether or not we're intersex, they mostly suggested klinefelter as a possibility. and so this feltâŚÂ devastating? the most credible lead went up in flames. our pcp was very sympathetic and supportive; she offered us a referral to a specialist in a larger hospital to keep following this thread if we wanted. but she mentioned we might have to go off hormones for an unknown amount of time while undergoing tests and we politely declined, just overflowing with fear and regret and so much shame.
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i've been writing for three or four hours at this point. i don't know why these feelings are dredging themselves back up now of all times.
it's been years. we haven't seriously pursued anything related to this since. there's still thisâŚÂ cloud of fear and dysphoria and violation swirling over all these moments of our childhood. the alienation and frustration with our body â how it never seems to fucking work like anyone else's, it's just wrong or non-functional or [âŚ] no matter what â still lurk under the surface. i don't know how to make sense of any of it.
itâŚ
iunno. we just have this feeling thatâŚÂ without anything official and credible from a doctor, we both can't and shouldn't explore whetherâŚÂ whether trying to find community on this would be helpful, whether it makes sense to look at our life through the lens of intersex analysis, whether we should doâŚÂ anything. and it's not like we're a fucking transmedicalist otherwise or whatever the fuck. we're just scared of hurting anyone. the responsible thing to do is to just live with the discomfort rather than run the risk of being appropriative and shitty and bigoted.
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i don't know. i don't have a conclusion planned out; i was hoping i'd write my way to one and i failed.
we still feel a gaping maw in our life and body and selves-understanding, and wish we had an explanation to fill it
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