#and my computer's about to die haha..

[kristhekrispy]

PLASE TELL ME ABT YOUR OWN OCS !!!!!!!!! plis :> if u want to

HEHE

okay little disclaimer I have no art of them that im proud of and the characters make no sense because they're from when I was 9-12. anyways

MAIN CHARACTER Piper! So, in the story, there's magic that some people have. you can teach yourself, but some people are already naturally skilled. piper isn't either of these. she wasn't skilled and when she tried teaching herself, she failed. really bad. she didn't even care about magic, she just wanted people to be proud of her......shes my little sopping wet cat.

Aruna! Aruna is one friend of Piper. She specialized in more dark magic. people would think that she was smart and mysterious, but she was just sorta quiet. kind of person that keeps to herself and then is really open when you're close :]

Sól! another friend of Piper. acts happy and stuff, optimistic to a fault at times. he specialized in light magic and healing. he's seen as the dumbest in the group and it gets to him.

all three of them are somewhere in their mid to late 20s...I think i'd say around 26 or 27. all knew each other as kids and grew up together.

and I think I brought up mischief, malice, and mayhem? anyways, they're side characters. just these three kids, pulling pranks and stuff. probably stuck to each other like piper, sól, and aruna did at their age. they're treated like problem kids, but no one does anything to help them for a while, making them act out even more. a lot of stuff still isn't clear for me yet, but I think maybe piper would be reminded of herself and her friends, and she'd try treating them right....the kids stay chaotic, but they'd at least be treated right. I really need to do more with them.....

[saeist]

"how many times do i have to say it? no" nagi breathes out, barely even acknowledging your presence as he continues to play on his computer in his dorm room

with a loud huff, loud enough for him to hear even with his headphones on, you flop down at his bed, sprawling your arms around as you stare up at his ceiling

"c'mon sei! i'm literally almost legal but yet i still don't even have a first boyfriend, let alone a first kiss!" you complained, throwing your hands over you face

you see nagi shrug before retorting something along the lines of 'what does that have to do with me'

"nagiiiiii" you drag out, hoping to get a reaction from him. to which, you do get a reaction from him! his signature look of boredom.

"fine. i'll help you"

"yay" you clapped your hands

"only if you buy me 5 battlepasses and whatever i want on the nightmarket" nagi bargains

with a deep sigh, you agree "fine!"

after a bit of more complaining to nagi that you were infact bitchless for most of your life and you're getting a little desperate to get some action as you are a junior in college and two, most of your other friends that isn't nagi are in relationships which makes you a tad bit jealous that you are gonna die alone anyway without getting some any action

you don't know how you even got to this point of the conversation where whether or not nagi has or had been in relationships but here you are now

"so wait, let me get this straight.." you pause, holding your palm out as a way of making nagi pause whatever he's mumbling about, "you already kissed someone?"

nagi shrugs again, "it was only because of some spin the bottle shit reo made me play at some party we went to"

"so that makes you experienced then?"

"not really"

"but you already have your first kiss?"

"i guess?"

"then you are experienced!"

nagi gives you a puzzled look as he lies down next to you. "what do you want me to do then?" he asked, just so he can be done with it

"i want you to teach me how to kiss" you turn to look at him with a glint of your eyes that basically screams "i am determined to get the perfect first kiss with someone i will pursue"

nagi looks dumbfounded at your completely bizarre request. he looked at you like you just grew a second head

"what the fuck"

in the end nagi does eventually give in (not because you totally bribed him again into buying him an entire collection worth of items at his nightmarket and some battlepasses that could easily be around 3 months worthwhile)

so now here you were, seated across from nagi, ready to learn how to kiss and what better way to learn than to ask your best (and only) friend at your college!

"so do i just close my eyes or..?" you start, beginning to feel self aware at the situation that you brought yourself onto

"i'd prefer that" nagi retorts, making you giggle a bit because of how funny he sounded

"okay.. okay" you breathe, closing your eyes as you slowly start leaning in.

"... my eyes are now closed"

for the record, nagi didn't really mind nor care if you opted to opening your eyes while doing this whole thing but he just doesn't want to see you see him all worked up

"i'm leaning in" nagi warns you, so that you won't feel like he's being invasive or all that funky shit. basically he just didn't want you to get the wrong idea

and so, your lips meet.

"congrats, you got your first kiss" nagi casually says as not even a millisecond later, he pulls away and moves to the other side of his bed

"nagi! that was barely even a kiss!"

"how would you know if you never had it before this?" he retorts, making you heat up in partial embarrassment because it was true that you didn't have your first kiss yet and the other reason being which that he was technically your first kiss

"i-i just know, okay damn it!" you stammered, "let's do it again!"

"if you want to kiss me that badly just say so" nagi attempts to make a joke to lighten up the dampen mood but from what you think, he just worsened the whole situation

"haha very funny nag–" before you could even finish your sentence, nagi crashes his lips against yours.

instinctively you placed your hands over his chest to which he places them over his neck, giving him more room to suck your face off.

you may or may not have accidentally moaned in the midst of this activity you two were doing which prompted into something more

you were now laying flat at his bed with him hovering you. still not breaking the kiss whatsoever. his shirt long gone, now at the floor. everything was going smooth

that is until reo decides it would be the most perfect time to barge in to tell nagi about how he just got a new pair of soccer shoes that were issued at the latest soccer magazine

"nagi! you'll never believe what i just got! it's the one messi just wore at the cover of– JESUS CHRIST"

reo basically shrieked, shielding his eyes with said magazine.

you and nagi basically separated. your eyes dart to nagi's shirtless body and to reo who was looking between you and nagi. just in time for a hypothetical light bulb to pop up at the top of his head

"oh.. i'm just gonna" reo throws his thumb back at nagi's door and dashes out before yelling "be safe you two!"

when the door closes, you and nagi both sigh in relief that he was gone but the damage was done

"well.."

"uhh.." you fiddled with your fingers, unable to look at nagi in the eye.

"how was that then as your first lesson?" as always, nagi just seems to find a way to try and cut the atmosphere although this time, it worked.

"it was a splendid demonstration. i'll rate it a 8/10" you applaud

nagi crawls over to you with a small mischievous glint in his eyes. he traps you in between his arms as he stares down at you.

"just an 8?"

feeling a little frisky, and obviously enjoying what was going on earlier right before reo interrupted, you decide that maybe learning from nagi wouldn't hurt a thing or two

you throw your hands over nagi's neck before responding to him

"could you show me how you did that thing earlier with your tongue again? i couldn't quite get that" you say in a fake curious tone making nagi chuckle

"okay. let me demonstrate it to you again. thoroughly" nagi whispers before catching your lips with his.

you went to school with nagi's hoodie the next day and people (and reo) could only guess why

[mortalscience]

criminal minds 18x08 Tara thoughts behind cut (SPOILERS)

oh, my sweet, sweet, Tara. MY GIRL. I knew this would be an emotional journey for her and it was. ;_; also could like, the show chill on the dead parent trauma for five minutes though? LMAO. i really loved it though, i saw a lot of myself in tara in this episode. i cried like 3 times hahaha. "how can you all just go on? the world needs to stop and feel what i'm feeling." <- REALLLLL. "they don't want to know what it was like for me: a motherless daughter" <- OH OKAY JUST COME FOR ME. tara coming to terms with her anger and grief regarding her mom, probably the one lingering issue she had, so that it would free her up to move forward in life, was a wonderful journey. <3 couldn't be me tho, i'll never get married hahahaha.

which, dude, I thought everyone was lowkey reaching about the tarbecca engagement, how did y'all predict that? LOL. i just went along for the ride cause it was a cute idea but damn. props. you guys called it. it was so sweet! and everyone was so happy. rossi shouting in italian! and that cut to jj - i think it was lowkey a little healing for her to see this for tara. and penelope about to explode from joy lmao. nothing she loves more than a BAU engagement. it was really great for the team to have a nice, happy moment. (and i'm sure it's the calm before the storm of whatever the hell is gonna go down in the last two eps of the season.)

hooray for the return of the codependent BAU team, having all their major life events happen in front of or with each other, LOOLLL.

GARVEZ MOMENT!!!! luke and penelope standing next to each other during the proposal and a shoulder bump :D :D :D :D :D my cutiesssssssss!

not me partially predicting some stuff in this episode in this fic i wrote hahaha. sadly, instead of luke wondering why he couldn't get ahold of penelope, it was emily. hilarious though, when emily walked into voit's room and saw penelope and was just like aughhhghh. the groan of long suffering acceptance.

poor penelope feeling guilt over tate andrews and equating herself with a serial killer. and it was strangely sweet how voit kind of connected with her in a paternal sense. and it makes sense that voit would like penelope cause she's the only one that's been kind to him. but i am glad that emily, while obviously feeling a little bit frustrated by penelope, told penelope that she didn't need to explain and that she didn't sound crazy. <3 <3

loved emily's 'tired' speech at the BAU. girl we're all tired, this season has been WIILLDDDD

luke and jj showing up at the hospital and luke shooting eye daggers at evan while he hugged rebecca was so funny to me. he was like STAY AWAY FROM MY BESTIE'S GIRLFRIEND. ASSHOLE.

FRANKLY i'm not entirely sold on evan's innocence - aside from just being a jerk who tried to move in on rebecca while her girlfriend was in the hospital. i feel like the likelihood is low that he is involved - i'm like 95% sure he really was just a red herring all along - but it just still seems off. could be because the actor is playing him so smarmy. haha.

the unknown potential maria jones connection has got me about ready to go back and watch that episode to look for clues myself hahahaha. I NEED TO KNOW!

voit referenced "collateral damage" - meaning all the people who died because they crossed paths with him - of which 'CollateRal' is the name of next week's episode. what does it meannnn. someone will die next episode? or maybe it's to do with whatever's going on with maria jones' case.

what else did voit want to tell tyler about alison?????

tyler thinking penelope's computer wouldn't be locked and touching penelope's stuff. ahaha. that scene made me laugh.

there sure was a lot of stuff pointing the finger at ochoa as the disciple this episode.

we have: ochoa being strangely concerned about voit going back to prison and him needing to "accept" it, the statement of "I believe you are different" in a slightly reverent tone, the suspicion about the disciple being someone who knows all about voit's memory issues so hospital staff are high possibilities and yet emily hand-waving ochoa as a suspect because of her "reputation", ochoa thinking it would be "the best thing for the both of them" for tyler and voit to work together (maybe with the hope that interacting with tyler would revert voit). INTERESTING.

there also sure was a lot of stuff making tyler look bad this episode.

tyler went SO HARD on this evan theory, which if had turned out to be true would have been a point in favor of him not being the disciple. but since evan was framed, it just makes tyler look like he totally went after the guy. D: D: we're not gonna know who the disciple is until we know!! they are throwing so much evidence at both ochoa and tyler at this point hahaha. DAMNIT!! (but omg I am loving this! WHO IS ITTTT. what a great mystery!!!)

all in all, another BANGER EPISODE from what is shaping up to be a legendary season!!

[revivemyreverie]

"Was this yours..? Too bad! It's so ugly, just like its owner, haha!"

Twisted from: Persephone; Kore; Queen of the Underworld.

Rue Amorfia

ルー・アモーフィア

CV: Mariya Ise (伊瀬 茉莉也)

Technical info.

Gender: Female

Birthday: 02/03

Age: 17

Height: 152 cm (5’1)

Hair Color: Dark Mauve

Eye Color: Lavendar

Hand Pref.: Left

Homeland: Isle of Lamentations

College Info.

Class: 2D Set 1

Club: Science Club

Favorite Subject: Biology

Other.

Hobby: Gardening

Likes: Pruning Plants

Dislikes: Weak-minded People

Favorite Food: Spring Salad

Hated Food: Pomegranates

Specialty: Intimidation

UM: The Sweetest Death

Flora such as flowers or trees will die the moment she touches them, taking their life force for mana and slowed aging.

Kore of the Garden

A letter from a renowned nature witch to a local school teacher within the Isle of Lamentations.

To whom it may concern,

The Amorfia House deeply apologizes for the incident caused by our daughter, Rue, in which she had purposefully destroyed the class' gardening area in hopes of presenting her own plant project alone. We shall be funding any purchases concerning pots, seeds, and gardening as a whole as compensation.

Additionally, we have also been notified about her recent actions with the school’s computers, specifically with her downloading online games during class time and threatening other students who catch her. As a mother, I do understand that Rue’s behavior is absolutely unacceptable, and have decided to take it upon myself to homeschool her to teach her how to be a proper lady. We are very sorry for the incident once again and will ensure that she reflects on her actions properly.

My condolences,

Helena Amorfia

🥀.

In a child’s room, a girl laments to a certain Shroud on the computer. His baby brother laughs in the background.

“Idia!!! They’ll keep me locked away in my own room until I die! Please, you have to break me free!”

“Stop lying, even my mom knows your mom bought you an entire forest to run around in. Even your crying is fake!”

“… Can’t you at least go along with it?! Man, now mommy’s never gonna believe me.”

[thornrings]

SCROLLING ON NOELLE'S TIKTOK ACCOUNT

"HOLY CHEESE AND CRACKERS..." *video of noelle quickly flicking her room's lightswitch on and off. she quickly gasps and points the camera down at her hooves.* Holy cheese and crackers, guys... It's Uboa...

"I FOUND MEW UNDER THE TRUCK??" *footage of catti's dad under his car changing the oil* Yeah, holy crap, guys, I thought it was a myth, but... *noelle giggles* *she turns the camera towards herself* *text reading "XDDDDDDDD" appears on screen*

"PART 2/? - I FOUND A BAD EGG!!!" *noelle holds an egg painted to look like one from pokemon up to the camera* Yeah, I tried throwing it out again, but it just came back... *she very gently places the egg in the trashcan, closes the cabinet, and opens it again. the egg is gone.* I just can't seem to... get rid of it... *she walks over to her fridge and opens it, the egg is there* Yeah, I think my fridge might have had a bit too much fruitcake, *she zooms in on the fruitcake in the fridge* haha... Sound off in the comments if you have any ideas on how to get rid of this thing.

"WEIRD CAT PETTERZ RPG GLITCH" *noelle is pointing her phone camera at an old-looking tv* Uh, yeah, I don't even know how to describe what's going on here... Did somebody, uh... *she laughs* Did one of you shove fruitcake into the VCR when I wasn't looking? Seriously, if anyone knows what's going on here, leave a comment...

"LITTLE-KNOWN DRAGON BLAZERS SOFTLOCK?" *more of a scripted tone here, but her mic still sucks* Most people know that in the original Dragon Blazers, you can get softlocked in the cross-shaped maze if you don't bring the character who knows the way through. It's even acknowledged in the manual as "one of the bad guy's magic spells". But did you know that you can actually get softlocked even earlier? If you save in the area just south of the forest dungeon, then avoid saving riiight up until your sister gets cursed, then die, you can actually warp back to an area that's impossible to traverse without one of her debuffed spells. If you save there, you'll never be able to get out. Spooky!

"60 seconds of OG Cat Petterz ambience" *a wide shot of noelle's desk, including her computer (open to Cat Petterz), a few school books, and an open window. it's a beautiful day outside. the camera jitters slightly with the natural shake of noelle's hands.* *there is text on screen that reads: "It looks like you've been scrolling for a while! Maybe you should take a break with some cozy Cat Petters ambiance."* *there is something dark outside the window* *it lurks, it writhes* *it seems to greet you* *noelle holds the camera just as steadily as before. does she not notice?* *how could she not...?*

You feel compelled to scroll back on her profile, as far as you can go. You open one of the oldest videos you can find.

"FUNNNY Ice-E Snow prank on sister" *noelle's finger covers most of the camera. the edges of a snowy forest scene are visible around it. she speaks in hushed tones to another child.* You're sure about this…? Okay, you're probably right… If it's for a funny video, then… Right, it's fine… I'll relax, you just watch me! *the camera's perspective changes.* AAAH!!! I JUST SAW ICE-E OVER THERE!!! … YEAH, OVER THERE!!! *the wet crunch of a hand compressing snow is heard. noelle huffs, dashing forward. a taller person fills out the edges of the frame. a rustling of fabric nearly peaks the microphone, and then the person shrieks.* -- HEY!!! WHAT THE-- *the camera backs up again.* Elly, why would you… … You little shit…! Wait! They didn't-- It was me that-- *the video cuts out. it resumes to a closeup of noelle's face.* I just realized… I had my finger over the camera the whole time, fahaha… Uhh, I guess I'll post the video anyway… Yeah, yeah, I'm still posting it! I'm doing it right now! **END.**

[jesncin]

Comics I snagged in the US!

It was my mission to pack as light as possible to the US because I knew I'd be bringing home a bunch of books that are so much harder to find/ less accessible in my home country. I figured this would be fun and low-stakes to write about compared to my Stonewall win adventure haha. And I feel like nerding out with yall!

In Anaheim I was gifted so many Hellblazer comics from @hbosscreations but I decided to responsibly (your mileage my vary how responsible this decision was) snag the first 5 volumes, up until the Dangerous Habits arc- aka the iconic Lung Cancer arc but most importantly (for me) the inclusion of Adult Goldie right before that arc starts. They also gifted me stickers which I cherish so much.

Then in Midtown Comics (over at New York), we decided to sneak around and see what they had to offer! My personal goals was any Hellblazer floppy I was attached to, and Superman: the Kansas Sighting. The latter being my white whale (it's not in any of the "must read" Superman reprint collections so I knew it would be hard to find).

I found my favorite Metropolis superhero instead, Jimmy Olsen (lmao) and I adore the Matt Fraction and Steve Lieber run so I was glad to purchase this volume! ALSO I was tickled to find Hellblazer #51 in the long boxes, famous among Hellblazer freaks like myself as the issue where John Constantine is canonized as bisexual. And an all around great standalone story. DC Pride Special was advertised all over the place and there were copies on the shelves, but nope. I wanted Hellblazer #51 as my Pride purchase, haha.

Alas, no dice for Kansas Sighting. You could say the Kansas wasn't sighted.

In New York, we were able to visit the Harpercollins office! It's a beautiful office decorated with books, history, and just great whimsical vibes. There, my editor gifted us a copy of Strange Bedfellows by @arielries and Sunhead (by agent sibling Alex Assan)! I struggled finding Sunhead at home so this was a great find. Had I not forgotten that Brownstone (By Samuel Teer and Mar Julia) was also published under Harper, I would've asked for a copy too! The fomo is real on that one,,,

Up next we drove up to the city of brotherly love, Philadelphia! There's a ton of book stores in Philly, but we had our sights set on Atomic City Comics.

Y'all I was getting desperate. Midtown Comics offered to order Kansas Sighting and send it to me, but with me moving around so much for this trip, that'd be a gamble. So I decided to try calling a store I was going to visit in advance. Well, they didn't answer the phone, probably because of my foreign phone number. So I tried e-mailing them through their website. No response. This was getting dire.

We arrive in Philly and meet up with a friend to check out bookstores around town. First stop was Atomic City Comics where we saw a table signing for Gabriela Epstein in the store. It turned out she was the cool person checking out comics right next to us as we were talking about her haha. What an awesome way to meet up! I had to grab a copy of her Danny Phantom GN and get it signed.

So after doing my own searching, it was time to ask the shop people if they had my white whale. Superman: The Kansas Sighting wasn't in their database when they searched it up on their front desk's computer. So the store guy looks through the collections section to see if it's there. He tells me a comic from 2003 that didn't sell well doesn't exactly encourage DC to re-print it, and I'm starting to lose hope. He says he'll give it one more try and look into storage. So we wait.

"I've got good news for you" he says when he returns. And the sound I made when I saw what was in his hands. Apparently the guy in charge of storage said "I know exactly what you're talking about" when Store Guy asked him about Kansas Sighting. I cheered, I screeched, I said I could die happy now, and everyone had a good laugh. I'm now a proud owner of my second favorite Superman story!

Also all the Martian Manhunter comics were Absolute Martian Manhunter. I don't trust White John Jones, I refuse to acknowledge him. However there were some floppies of Others Among Us which, while delightful, I don't love that story enough to own lol.

We hung out in a bunch of other cool bookstores, but since this is a comics summary I'll skip through that to highlight the comics haul.

In ALA, after a delightful time at the Gaysss in Comicsssss panel, we visited the APALA meeting where we knew Gene Yang would be signing books. We were delighted to find our friend Zachary Sterling (author of APALA honor book Mabuhay!) also signing books there! I wasn't sure if he was coming but we were so glad to finally meet an online author friend.

I packed exactly one book with me to the US (very uncharacteristic of me) and that was my own beloved copy of my all time favorite Superman story: Superman Smashes the Klan. I wanted Gene Yang to sign the story that has been so influential to my art and writing.

We also prepared a printed booklet of Private Interview as a gift to him. We were so wracked with nerves but thankfully the incredibly welcoming atmosphere of the APALA meeting (including an author who assured us that Gene and Lueyen [who he was duel signing with] were chill and cool) encouraged us to be brave!

We gifted Gene and Leuyen some Lunar Boy bookmarks and keychains, plus handed the booklet of Private Interview over to Gene. He was so gracious! Leuyen was so sweet. I wish I got to talk to her more, she was radiating extremely fun energy. We ended up snagging a copy of Lunar New Year Love Story (I've only read the e-book version, so it's great to have a personalized copy! Fantastic book btw).

At some point near the end of the APALA meeting, Thien Pham and Raina Telgemeier (along with Briana Loewinsohn) showed up and were taking a group photo with Gene and Leuyen. We moved out of the way thinking "these are seasoned comic titans who are long time friends with each other, and we're little newbie debut fish who just met them, we'll get out of their way" only for Leuyen to insist we get in the picture too! Gosh it was so sweet.

Afterwards Raina said she was a fan of our work which is so surreal when I've been studying her comics since college! I don't have the photo unfortunately (maybe I'll be tagged in it on insta at some point) but just know somewhere out there is a photo of a very bewildered jesncin among powerhouse comic creatives.

Lastly, in my desperate attempt to find Brownstone in a bookstore I ended up finding these two in a Barnes & Noble near Niagara falls. I've read both these stories online a good bit and collected some physical copies but have been missing the first volume for both, so these finally round up my collection! Both gay manga with intensely different vibes, haha. So I call that a win.

And that's been my comic adventures in the US! All the books I got in ALA are free to snag, and along with the gifted Hellblazer books- the only books we truly paid for were the two mangas, Jimmy Olsen, Hellblazer #51, Danny Phantom, and Kansas Sighting. We've got some real treasures that I'm so excited to add to my book shelf.

[npookie0]

Could you do an alternate ending to the Headless Lover Misaki fiction? ❤️

Like y/n calls Misaki while they're about to shoot them from the rooftop, and of course Misaki picks it up, only then to realize that their target was you. When Misaki realizes, they get super upset and go and kill y/n's ex instead, then they come back to y/n's apartment and kiss, rambling on about how they were so scared that they almost lost you ☺️

The ending of the original fic broke me 💔

Lover With Their Head Intact

Misaki x Reader, alternative and happy ending for Headless lover do read that story before you read this because this is not going to start like Headless lover did

Words: 1383

Cws: Spoilers for Killer Chat maybe, anxiety possibly, shooting someone perchance

[...]

A few days passed, Misaki was slowly getting ready for their job… Jesus how fucked up it sounds, killing someone as a job… Well it was too late for them to regret it.

They were on top of a building, their gun held firmly in their hands.

"Just take deep breaths Misaki, in and out just like [your_username] told you too." They whispered to themselves.

When they were preparing their riffle, their phone buzzed, startling them a little. They took it out of their pocket and unlocked it, it was you.

<your_username> [ 21:25] You've got this Misaki :) I believe in you!

They smiled softly, the stress loosening its grip on them ever so slightly. They hit the record button to record a voice message. "Haha thanks for believing in me! I'm totally dying here now, but hey! At least you're here to supporting me!" They hit sent.

Misaki's gaze shifted from their phone towards the target, they could see them holding a phone to their ear as if they were listening to something, a little smile on their face.

Misaki started to feel bad, uncertain. This person was innocent, they didn't deserve to die, but the client offered a lot of money for them. There was also this heavy feeling following them, their gut trying to warn them that this was a bad idea, that they'd regret it...

Another buzz torn them away from their thoughts, back to reality. Reply from you.

<your_username> [21:28] Hey if you want to we could call. I know, I know, it's disturbing. But it's not like you're killing some mafia boss it should be okay to call when the target isn't super dangerous.

Misaki thought for a second. Their thoughts conflicted, calling during an assassination was a big no-no for them, but maybe today they really could use hearing your voice, especially when their gut feeling was so annoyingly huge today.

<hitmeuppp> [21:29] yeah i think id like that

They didn't need to wait long for the call, the pop up came right after they hit 'send'.

You started talking first. "Hey there, how's it going?"

"Oh like usual y'know, sitting on a rooftop with a riffle in my hand and a pretty person on the line." They replied, the anxiety in them slowly leaving their body, hearing you was enough to calm their nerves down.

You chuckled. "Really now? Well, can you tell me something about your target?"

"Why? Writing a biography about me?" They asked sarcastically.

"You could say so yeah. Now tell me, I'm curious."

Misaki rolled their eyes and looked through the lense of their gun to see their target clearly. "Shit, they're on a phone with someone." They cursed.

"Oh fuck, that's bad." You replied immediately, understanding how bad it made the situation for Misaki now.

"I'm so fucked if they won't hang up soon, amazing! Just what I fucking needed." They were starting to panic again.

You acted fast. "Hey, hey, calm down a little okay? Tell me how they look like, it'll help you pass some time." You said, your voice quiet and soothing.

Misaki took a deep breath. "Fine, maybe you're right." They started describing the person, their clothes, hair colour, length and all the basic information about their appearance. "they're also sitting in front of a computer, really bad posture if you ask me, but who am I to judge I sit the exact same way lol."

You went quiet, no words coming out from your side, not even a breath.

Then, the weirdest thing happened. The target suddenly turned to look at them, directly at them, almost into their eyes. They were shocked, but the most shocking thing was about to happen.

"Oh shit. Misaki someone hired you to kill me." You suddenly said, then a thud on your end was heard, in the exact moment that target fell from their chair.

Misaki froze. Eyes widened, mouth opened, hands gripping their riffle. "What.. are you... sure?"

"Are you seriously asking me if I'm sure about seeing an assassin pointing their gun at me right now?!"

"Shit you're right, that's a stupid question." Misaki laughed through gritted teeth.

They watched you as you stood up from your floor and took your phone into your shaky hands. "So, what now?" You asked.

"Fuck I," they paused, "I don't know... I won't kill you if that's what you're worried about Y/n." Your name suddenly slipped out. Right, they know it now. They know everything there is to know about you.

They know that you're a writer, that you're not a killer and that your ex was the one who hired them, but out of all these information only the last one mattered to them.

"You know what?" They suddenly asked, sounding more upset than you've ever heard them before. "I'll go pay someone a quick visit and then I'll come back to you, you're okay with it?"

"Y...yeah. I think I need a moment to calm down anyway." You replied.

Misaki nodded. "Alright. I'll be back to you, promise." With that they hang up. Putting their equipment back into their backpack and made their way off the rooftop.

Finding your ex wasn't hard, they were surprisingly easy to track down, especially after Misaki asked V for help, not telling him the real reason behind their sudden interest in that person though.

They watched them, their every move. Maybe they were a rich person, a criminal too since that's what V dug out about them, but they were overconfident about their safety.

And that was their mistake.

Letting their guard down, unexpecting that something in their plan could go wrong, that the hitman they hired could be friends with their ex and the same hitman would go after them.

Misaki aimed their gun, fire burning in their eyes, anger fueling through their veins into their mind.

Bang

Their first shot was aimed at their stomach, it was a flawless shot. But it wasn't enough.

Bang

Another and then again, a few more after that, until they calmed down. Blood puddle under their body, blood puddle Misaki wished the dead ex would drown in.

Would they feel guilty?

Maybe.

Did they regret killing them?

No.

Misaki almost lost you because of them, death from a few bullets was the least that person deserved, but they had a place they needed to go back to, a person to visit.

Knock Knock Knock

Three slow knocks echoed though your house, you made your way to the door. You opened them slowly and cautiously, but you relaxed when you saw Misaki on the other side.

"May I come in?" They asked.

You slowly nodded, taking a step back and opening the door wider for them to enter through. They came in, kicking their shoes off and then turning at you again.

"I, uh, I've got something for you. I hope you'll accept it as a apology for almost-killing-you-because-of-my-client." They outstretched their hand towards you, in their hand there was the most exquisite bouquet of flowers you've ever seen.

You gasped in surprise, taking their gift and sniffing the flowers. "You remembered my favourite?" You asked in surprise.

"Yeah! I kind of made a list of your favourite things..." They were flustered, looking away shyly.

You smiled softly. "Thanks Misaki, they're lovely."

They looked up at you. "So, are you upset with me?" She asked, her eyes having a look of hopefulness to them.

You took a second to answer, your face serious. It made them a little bit anxious, fearing that you'd tell them to get out. "Of course I'm not silly!" You suddenly said with a chuckle. "You didn't know that it was my ex, I kept my identity a secret a little too well." You sighed. "i forgive you. It would be hard to stay upset with you for long anyway."

"Hm? What do you mean?" Misaki asked, confused and lost.

"Well..." Instead of continuing with your response, you took a step towards them and then gently kissed them. "Because I like you too much, you silly."

Misaki's mouth was wide opened and they could only look at you dumbfounded with warm cheeks.

At least in one universe a silly assassin can be happy with their writer still by their side and not six feet under...

Hi!

I hope I paid back for the heartbreaks I caused with Headless lover <3

Have a nice tiemzone!!!

Nathan <3

[pigcowboys]

Hi boo(i hope that was not too cringe)! Could you pls do a percy jackson, enemies to lovers! story? Like in everyone in the Camp knows their hatred against each other but then they get send on a quest together and end up kissing each other to disguise their quest?!

I would really appreciate it!

Have a good Day!

pairing: percy jackson x gn! reader (2nd pov is used but someone does say 'chick')

summary: much to your displeasure, you find yourself on a quest with the one person you hate the most.

warning(s): BICKERING. mutual pining (they just don't know it yet.), kissing, swearing, enemies to lovers.

a/n: IT WASNT CRINGE DWW HAHA, i tried my best!! school starts for me pretty soon so im trying to write as much as i can before i have to go back.. (also im sorry abt the images i dont know whats going on with my computer.)

you hated them, everyone of them.

that wretched camp and it's obnoxious staff oh, and don't even get you started on that stupid oracle. she set you up! they all did.

gods, why of all people did it have to be him?

perseus jackson - most of the time shortened to just percy jackson, maybe even peter johnson at times. what an ass he was.

believe it or not when you first came to camp half-blood you had actually taken a liking to him. he was cute, full of energy and full of endless bravery, your exact type.

you weren't sure when it begun, your hatred for him, that is. it kind of just..started. when? not sure. your exact guess must've been that one valentine's day when he accidentally sneaked the last muffin at breakfast. yeah, that must've been it.

to be honest though, you didn't need a reason. you just did, and you weren't exactly quiet about it either. from the day you started to hate his guts all his advances to be nice to you were met with a glare or a huff. sometimes you'd just straight up walk away from him.

so, it basically didn't take him long to send you back the same glares or huffs or even the smallest mutter of 'geez, not this chick again..' everyone hoped the feud would dissipate, that the two of you would grow the fuck up and call a truce.

too bad their prayers didn't help.

infact, you were pretty sure that even if the gods themselves came down from olympus and said 'get along or die right here' you'd pick the latter in a heartbeat.

so, when you'd initially been called into chiron for some 'great news' you'd expected him to tell you that percy had finally decided to leave camp - or that you'd won the lottery. fuck, you wished that was it.

"hey, stay on your side, bucko!" you said, nudging percy to the side aggressively. "i'm not on the market, especially for you."

"can you be serious for second!" percy snapped back, his eyebrows furrowed in frustration. "we have to prove to chiron that we can do this." he turned back to face the front. "or...we're in for another lecture."

"i wouldn't mind, really," you grinned. "i've perfected the art of sleeping with my eyes open."

"if only you could perfect the art of silence.."

you glared at him.

the two of you were submerged underwater at the moment in one of percy's bubbles. chiron had asked of you to go to queens in order to do..something? you didn't really pay attention to chiron at the time - besides, you were thinking about drowning yourself in the nearest lake when you'd heard the percy going on the quest with you in tow. the only thing you could remember was that it was super important to not let anyone see you.

something about the appearance of two demigod children to monster being dangerous? you weren't sure why he thought the things wouldn't be able to sniff you out anyways.

the bubble wasn't even your idea to be fair. you'd suggested just taking the train, as it much easier but percy disagreed - as usual. said it would be quicker to just swim over via bubble transfer and although you wanted to disagree, you settled on the idea that the station at this time would be packed as hell.

so you bit your tongue and allowed yourself to be trapped in a bubble with percy for about a half an hour or so.

"ugh, how much longer..?" you asked, adjusting your clothes uneasily. the bubble wasn't by any means uncomfortable just..kind of warm? weirdly enough. percy didn't spare you a glance only opting to shurg his shoulder slightly as he focused on the vast ocean in front of the two of you.

you glared at him from your spot in the bubble, uncomfortably crossing your legs as you turned away from him, jumping when you realized a never before seen fish was staring into your soul from outside the bubble. it wasn't a surprise to you to see the fish, percy was the son of poseidon, you expected him to go full aquaman one day and pull up to camp half blood with a stream of wild dolphins and squids.

still, the beady little dead eyes scared the shit out of you. and in your natural knee jerk reflex, you moved back, inching into percy and bumping his shoulder. he turned to face you with a distasteful look, face contorting in confusion when he noticed the small school of fish now gathering.

your face morphed into one of uncomfort as you gazed at the tons of fish that seemed to spawn out of nowhere. "uh..can you call your friends off?"

percy seemed to share a look with the fish, a look of embarrassment flashing over his face briefly as he glared at them intensely. you looked on at the exchange in silence because, was he really talking to fishes? the fish eventually scrammed after a while and you and percy were back on your way. silence fell over the two of you before you spoke up suddenly.

"i didn't know you spoke fish.."

"drop it."

"i think we're here." percy annouced as the bubble started to drift closer to shore. were you guys there? you weren't sure at all. you were just happy to be out of that bubble - the close proximity was making you break out.

you were in fact there, somehow. and it was by then it hit you that this was a quest - a really important mission for a demigod and since it was assigned to specifically you and percy, it meant you had to deliver.

your duo walked towards the city, looking around for any suspicious looking civilians or any sign of irregular activity. it would've been an easy task to scope out the objective of the mission if it wasn't for percy's loud breathing.

seriously, you could hear him practically breathing down your neck as the two of you walked. him and his stupid big nostrils - you couldn't focus.

"mind breathing a little less loud?"

percy blinked at you. "these requests are starting to get literally concerning." his face contorted in confusion. "how the hell does one 'breathe a little less loud' ?"

"they not be percy jackson."

"that wasn't even english??"

you were about to say something else smart when a couple of people ahead caught your attention, they weren't inherently weird looking but, you got this vibe from them - that they weren't completely human. your mind raced as you looked around as nonchalantly as you could.

there were people here. to your right, 2 parents and their one hyperactive son who clawed at the ice cream in front of him with his tongue, a bright smile on his face and to your left a group of younger looking teenage girls who were chatting brightly. most likely about hair dye because their highlights were so bright they were giving you eye cancer.

you thought fast. pulling percy by his wrist as you dashed down the street, rushing into the nearest store slash tourist attraction you could as you pushed him into the corner roughly, looking behind you to see if the people had followed you.

he gave you a completely surprised look, slight annoyance forming on his face as he exhaled heavily. "is there any reason you felt like dragging me into this.." he looked around, eyes landing on a random cowboy hat that was situated on a hook in the corner of the place. "slightly..cool place?" he finished, grabbing the cowboy hat and observing it curiously.

"i saw them, well - i think i did.." you mumbled out, looking around erratically as you watched out for any signs of being followed. percy quirked an eyebrow at you.

"the IRS finally caught you orr.."

"percy, this is serious!" you exclaimed, growing slightly embarrassed when the store owner shot the two of you a look. you smiled at the owner awkwardly, ushering percy into a corner with your hand.

"look, i'm pretty sure i found the guys we were going here for." you said, still stealing glances behind you. "i saw them..just now, when were walking."

"did they follow us?" percy asked, more seriously now.

"i'm not sure," you frowned.

percy thought for a moment before speaking once more."they wouldn't do anything with all these humans here - we just have to make sure we blend in."

"and how do you suppose we do that?"

percy grinned at you, reaching over to grab another hat that was right next to the one he'd picked up earlier.

you grimaced, who's idea was it to put you two together?

"do you think we lost them?"

"nah, we definitely still need the disguises."

the two of you were situated on the street currently, attempting to look as normal as possible. though, it was pretty hard to with these stupid cowboy hats percy insisted the two of you had to wear. claimed it would be "inconspicuous" but in reality it was extremely, eye catching.

you figured he just wanted you to wear it so he could laugh behind your back about how utterly foolish you looked. it didn't help that he'd picked out the hat with the corniest design for you - and it was bedazzled.

you let of a huff of frustration. "can we switch? this one's too big on me., i'm half blind here, man."

"you'll live," percy reassured. "besides, it's better if they can't see your face."

"what's the use? they'll just sniff us out eventually."

percy shot you a look. "you're no fun."

you opened your mouth to say something when percy's face changed as he locked eyes with something behind you. you barely had time to react when he pulled you into a brutal bear hug, turning you away from whatever it was that was behind you.

your muscles tensed as your face started to burn with embarrassment. a "what the fuck, percy?" was muffled into his shirt as you felt the presence of the monsters nearing closer. your heart sank to your feet as realized how near they were really.

"whatever i do.." percy whispered in your ear. "just promise you won't be too mad."

"what're you talk-"

and then before you knew it, you'd lost your lip virginity. i mean, it wasn't the worst first kiss story you'd have to tell people. boy kissed me in order to distract the bloodthirsty monsters that were tracking us down! wow, how romantic.

in all honesty, you knew percy just did what he had to do. you knew he just had to keep you to keep your disguises up. that was probably the rest why you leaned into the kiss, hands coming up to rest on his chest as his brutal bear hug eased into more a gentle hug, his hands moving the hold your hips.

the kiss had to look real - romantic. that's why you pretend to be so into it that you let out a satisfied hum. you weren't sure if the monsters had moved on from the two of you, you weren't even sure if you were safe at all in the moment. but, it was starting to get hard to think as your mind swirled with various conflicting thoughts that stemmed from your actions at the moment.

percy broke the kiss, his eyes gazing into your curiously as he removed his hands from your hips slowly. you removed your hand from his chest, pulling away gently. your eyes searched his own for any sign of discomfort or disgust as you started to grow weary of the fact he'd just stolen your first kiss.

yet, you were surprised to find that there was none - just confusion and surprise. you tore your eyes away from him, clearing your throat. as you fixed your outfit. "i..i think i saw them go somewhere over there." you pointed at the secluded alleyway not too far from where you and percy stood. "let's go - we can get the drop on them."

percy stared at you for a moment before nodding, slightly dazed and following you towards the alleyway silently.

the ride back home - or should you say float back home was silent, as it always was. though, something different seemed to be hanging in the air this time. a feeling of awkwardness that was mostly unnatural to you and percy.

you wanted to ask about it - the kiss, why did he do it? why was that first thing he came up with? why did he lean into you slightly? why did the world seemed to stop for a second when your lips met and most of all whyyy the hell did you want it to happen again?

you stole a glance at percy. the two of you were a few feet away from each other, on opposite sides of the bubble. maybe you were going crazy or something but did percy look..good? you swore it was just because of the mixed feelings you had about him being your first but you couldn't shake the thought about how beautiful he looked in the moment.

okay, something's not right.

"do you wanna talk about it?" you blurted out suddenly, shifting positions as you leaned forward slightly. percy turned to look at you, he wasn’t annoyed nor angry, not even suicidal. he looked, enamored — and slightly caught off guard by your question.

"talk about what exactly?"

your eyebrows furrowed. "you kissed me, percy jackson." you pointed at him accusingly. "and you liked it."

percy blew a raspberry, a slightly surprised look on his face. "what makes you think i liked it?"

you paused. had you read something wrong? you thought about dropping the idea but thought against it, deciding to die on that hill. "because your hands somehow found their way onto my hips," you started. "and your lips pursed — and your heartbeat picked up little by the little the longer it lasted."

you crossed your legs, inching away from percy as you gave him a small frown. "and..you looked at me weird." percy's face was flushed as he looked at you silently from his position on the other side of the bubble.

"how did i look at you..?"

you glanced at him. "like you didn't want to drown me in the lake and leave my body for the fishes." you joked. "like..you didn't hate me."

"i don't hate you."

your head spun towards percy, your eyes widened comically. you opened your mouth to say something but the words were caught in your throat. percy analyzed you before speaking once more.

"i don't think i ever have, it's just - you're very annoying." percy sighed. "and it sucks because you're more attractive than you think you are." you stared at him in silence. your heart pounded in your chest as you gulped.

"do you like me?"

"do you like me?" percy repeated with emphasis on the me.

you laughed, inching towards percy on the other side of the bubble. "i do." you stopped in front of him, a warm smile on your face as you watched a smile break out onto his face. "i like you too." he whispered, staring at you quietly before leaning forward slightly to test the waters.

you instantly took the bait, leaning forward as well as you locked lips with percy one again. a bolt of lightning shot through you as you leaned into his touch, placing your hand on his shoulder as you climbed into his lap. percy seemed more than happy to have you there, his hands coming to rest on your hips so he could keep you steady.

you broke the kiss, hands slithering around his neck as you looked down at him with a small smile. you were about to say something when your attention was brought to the sickly sight of a line of fish outside the bubble once again. you yelped in surprise, stumbling back slightly and if it wasn't for percy's grip on you, you probably would've busted your ass.

percy looked behind him, slightly annoyed at the presence of the fish. it lingered for a bit longer before dashing off reluctantly. at which point, percy turned to you with a frown. you eyed him curiously.

"what?"

"he's going to tell everyone about the '2 demigods getting it on in the bottom of the sea'. "

[goodolddumbbanana]

[GOODGUY Nexus au] Meet Sun - The Depressed Asshole [1]

"What happened to my smile and my will to live? Gone."

"Remember kids, whenever you find yourself feeling trapped, feeling suffocated, that's okay!! Fish get eaten in the ocean and they choke on their own waste in undersized tanks everyday. If you are not dead, that means society has done its job." :))

***

They started out like the other Suns and Moons. Getting sentient, sharing the same body, and fighting for control until they nearly killed each other.

The only difference was that even when they were separated, Moon was still an asshole. They taunted and bullied Sun, and often used the threat of shutting him down to get Sun to obey.

They were like the king, and Sun was the sad clown who danced to the stick they would hit him with whenever he stopped.

Sun has tried to stay positive, but the more days go by, the idea of Moon love and care about him seems like a lie he is trying to deceive himself.

But things would get worse, Moon could kill him or he could tear himself in half until one day…

Anyways... Like a butterfly flapping its wings in the northern can cause a tornado in the southern.

Sun has changed, and the universe has changed with him...

It was a late afternoon, when the kids had all gone home and Sun was left alone to clean. The smell of cleaning filled the air, and with each ball he cleaned, he hummed a different tune.

"Hmm… Almost done, only 232 balls left. Haha… I hate my life."

His chuckle echoed in the empty space. The loneliness was like a cold pressing down on Sun's ribs and spine, making him unconsciously hug himself because of the sudden feeling of restlessness.

Moon wasn't here.

Who was he kidding, Moon never wanted to be here, unless his brother needed something, or wanted to push Sun into some dimension craps to turn him into a test subject again.

And it's not like he can say no...

Suddenly, his internal organs rattled as he slowly stood up, the pain tearing like a torch melting the circuit board inside his stomach before pouring more mercury in.

Moon had shoot him with some stupid machine they had built, and the aftershocks had blown a huge hole in his stomach.

It hurt like hell and Sun thought he was going to die, but then Moon had smacked him in the head to shut him up before fixing Sun as good as new.

Though… Why does it still hurt now? Sun winced, trying to get up and falling again.

His hands were shaking, his body was convulsing. His internal systems were flooded with bright yellow error warning symbols, the fans were running at full capacity, but his core was still hot enough to make his head steam.

He wanted to call someone but for some reason his voice box wouldn't respond, only emitting a staticky sound like a broken radio.

"Moon… Moon…" Sun still managed to scream weakly. He struggled to crawl out of the ballpit and crawl to wherever the camera could see him.

"Computer… Help." It is exhausting, and Sun has struggled to scream, even though it felt like he had a knife stuffed in his mouth.

"[Warning: Someone is injured, contact nearest support.]"

The dinging response made Sun's heart swell with hope, only for the computer's voice to knock that hope down and throw it into the mud.

"Oh wait, it's just Sun. I was wrong." The computer's AI looked extremely disappointed as it recognized Sun. Its voice was filled with contempt, as if Sun had soiled its eyes.

"No need to contact Moon. He always say to avoid calling them unless it's important."

The second AI was no better, just continuing to agree with AI one, completely ignoring him as he groaned in pain. A wave of nausea hit him like a wire was being ripped out behind his head and his stomach was popping.

Everything was spinning and before the feeling of breathlessness began to overwhelm him, everything went black.

That was how Sun passed out, realizing, oh, he was worthless to anyone.

***

- This Sun is more meaner. He is not afraid to open his mouth, and usually just loves to throw hands with whoever messes with him.

- He loves to beat the crap out of Monty whenever he has the chance.

-His relationship with Moon became much frayer, but they still love each other. (Kinda)

- He likes to crippled his enemies, because it is easy to live and feel the pain more than just die and get peace. His sadistic side gets shown a lot.

- He killed his Moon, not accidentally but intentionally. (Of course he still feels guilty about it, but things have already happened and Moon has forgiven him when he comes back so they are cool.)

- He and Nexus at first have the : "Who is that sassy child?" Vs "And you are an ugly bitch!" But then they slowly warm up to each other and care and treat the other more healthier than Moon and Sun ever do.

- After turning Nexus into a goose, Sun keeps Nexus in his room and reads them stories for goose Nexus to sleep.

- Sun is still silly, he just hides his side very deeply.

[doki-doki-lit-club]

question for all of you:

fav music artist?

Oh my gosh, our first ask! THANK YOU SO. MUCH AIHJHAKFBDShKFAS

Natsuki: actively shitting my pants i love this question okay chat chat listen here my love for Babymetal is beyond fucking HUMAN I will kill for them i will frame for them i will die for them i will lie for them i will kiss them i will marry them you don't want to know the lengths i am willing to go to vro

(why can't you express this positive enthusiasm towards me?) (what do you want me to do give you backshots or smth the fuck) (yes) (sweetie what the hell. other sweetie, also what the hell.) (no cause i get you like i feel both of them on a spiritual level) (ya know what... be who you are for your pride.)

Yuri: There is something about Natsuki's enthusiasm that hinges on bestial ferality, and somehow I find it both offputting and oddly attractive. Anyways, as for myself, I enjoy listening to Mahler's symphonies, but as for more modern artists I do find IAMX's experimental music fascinating.

side note from natsuki: chat fyi yuri does not talk like this irl she literally makes your mom jokes idfk what shes on rn

(sukies shes just letting out her inner alpha it's okay!!!) (wow, natsuki... I didn't know you were such an animal... you got us all feeling some type of way, man, I don't know...) (i feel submissive already) (I hope you all die of scarlet fever.)

Sayori: ugh this is gonna be hard jeez uhhhhh lemme think... OH RIGHT WILL WOOD I LOVE WILL WOOD I made monika listen to him to and she likes it heh... weirdly enough tho my current favorite song is COMPLETELY the opposite of will wood's whole, like, vibe- AiScream by that one jpop idol group i forgot the name of IM SORRY IM SORRYYYYYYYY AHHHHHHH

(RUBY CHAN) (HAAAAAI!!!!!) (NANI GA SUKI) (CHOKOMINTO!!!! YORI MO A NA TA!!!) (AYUMU CHAN?!?!?!?) (HAIIII!!!) (NANI GA SUKI?!?!) (Sutoroberii fureibaa yori mo a-na-ta!!!) (SHIKI CHAN!?!?!) (𝓱𝓪𝓲….) (NANI GA SUKI!/?!!??!?!) (COOKIE ANDO CREAMU. YORI MO A. NA. TA.)

Monika: This was a great question! I can't say I listen to an individual artist, but I do have a few favorite songs- my top choice is definitely Little Dark Age by MGMT, but a few others are Lay All Your Love On Me by Abba, Snap Out Of It by Arctic Monkeys, and Mambo No. 5 for... obvious reasons.

(don't you also really like weezer?) (...) (yeah queen you bought all the albums and everything) (...) (...) (...) (...) (...) (... you bought all the fucking weezer albums?!?!??!) (AHAHA WOW LOOK AT THE TIME I THINK IT'S TIME FOR SAYORI TO TYPE SOMETHING GO SAYORI GO WE'RE ALL LOOKING AT MC NOW THE FOCUS IS ON MC NOT ME.) (buddy.) (omg buddy holly haha... ha... hm.)

MC: Kendrick Lamar. Where do I begin. My glorious king. My beautiful pinnacle of radiance my patron saint my absolute monarch my advanced placement global history test above average score. Words cannot begin to describe my love for you. I gave birth to our third son yesterday. Tears of joy streamed down my face as I witnessed yet another beautiful result of our love. For one hundred days and one hundred nights you thrusted deviously in a motel roo

Sorry about that, v11v1-en, hope we answered your question!

(hey why'd you take the computer from me what happened to my free speech??) (oh wow the constitution where did it go gee I guess you have no rights now how tragic.) (sigh... you gotta fight back mc... men's rights..)

ooc: the stuff in parentheses is them out loud at the club btw! the stuff they'd be actually posting is out of brackets <3

[marimayscarlett]

have you seen flake's new browser game? where you submit your high score and be in with a chance to win a bundle signed by him?

it's so similar, maybe even identical conceptually to a similar competition rammstein held way back in the windows 95 era of computing. (a time i didn't experience because i was born in '05 haha, still love it tho!)

from what i've deciphered, reading and translating the readme file included in the zip, they ran a competition where you played a game, emailed your high score, and then if it was high enough, be entered into a draw to win prizes. the date shown on the .exe file is the 10th of november 1997, almost 2 months after sehnsucht's release. i think one of the prizes was a copy of sehnsucht.

this is a piece of rammstein media and history i feel goes overlooked in the fandom. as an aspiring game developer myself, it's so interesting to see what pieces of interactive media were available. granted, they were promos, but fun promos. i hope to add to the library myself, even if they're independently made (though if i got to create a game for r+ i think i would die happy jdkdskfs)

that's all i wanted to say. i love your longform posts about rammstein albums and thought you'd appreciate some info about a different part of r+ history. i'm definitely going to continue researching it. and if anyone's reading this, you can find the game and a load of digital rammstein goodies here, including a benzin flash game and some e-cards!

Hi and thank you so much for your message!

I came across Flake's little game in his newest Instagram post:

and tried it out for a bit! It took me a while to understand that I'm not supposed to collect the gifts but actually avoid them, and I'm not very good with games like this 😅 But it's fun! Here's a little impression of it:

I've heard about the PC game which accompanied the release of the single "Das Model" and was on the retail copies of the single. Here's what the rammwiki website (a bible for me at this point, I'm so thankful for this incredibly well researched, endless source of information) writes about the different levels:

The game itself is split across three levels, all also divided in to three separate platforms each. The first is a subterranean cavern, populated with water monsters and apache helicopters.

The second is a concert venue, populated with cockroaches, flying robots and floating sex dolls.

The third level is the beach from the artwork of Sehnsucht. This level is populated by an aggressive clone of the player, sea urchins, falling barrels of toxic chemicals, and a monster disguised as a flirtatious woman.

Here's a little walk through - very 90's in style and sound 😄

Thank you very much for sharing your professional insight on this, and reminding me of this game! Would've loved to play it too, but since I was only 3 years old at the time, well... my parents, who were right in the target/age group for Rammstein, didn't play it either, were too caught up in Lara Croft 😅

And thanks a lot for your appreciation, I'm glad that you find joy in my little posts 🤍

[damnedrainbows]

ABSOLUTELY INSANE UNHINGED VO HCS IKVE WRITTEN, WITH FUNNY TITLES, ON A DAY OF NO SLEEP AND A FEVER PART 2 HERE

Part 1

(warning, absolutely deranged typing incoming, like fr I need to be tranquilized. you have been warned)

Haha electronic cat go brr

Similar to a cat, he does something akin to the ‘cat activation beeps’ when he’s disgruntled or you startle him. Except it’s that sound that your keyboard makes, if you accidentally press down the shift button too much. What I call the ‘sticky key beep’. Vel and Val love to startle him about it cause it’s funny

God don’t you hate it when your boyfriend has to update during sex?

As much as he loves making love to his partner (s, depending on if it’s polyvee), he has a very sensitive cooling system with fans that can easily be blown. It it’s too intense in the sheets, he’s gonna overheats. Because he’s *abruptly shut down* his system has to do the thing computers do where they have to check to make sure nothing was damaged in the abrupt shut down. Val usually has time to have a shower, make a sandwich, and do his taxes.

Oh my god didn’t my tamogatchi die when I was like eight?

He’s not often super silly, but he has his moments where he likes to play around and annoy his Vees. Specifically the tamagotchi mode. As a way to get back at them, he’ll make tamogatchi noises when he wants something, and he absolutely will not stop the noises until he gets the thing he wants. Especially if it’s food….or pets.

I hate when my micro(byte HA!) expressions give off what I’m feeling.

Similar to Alastor’s shadows Vox has a bit of a tell of how he’s really feeling, in the form of his micro expressions/emojis before he filters them out. They’re quick, very brief flashes you’d probably have to screencap to actually see the like one frame, but these expressions, images, emojis and what have you give a tell on how he’s really feeling. If he’s around those he trusts, he’ll let the first screen linger for a bit, depending.

One of them he hates that Val LOVES is the adorable pixelated hearts in his eyes and little pixel lines of a blushy

Clicky mouse feet, but careful they sensitive

He has genuine little computer mice feet, with scroll wheels and buttons that are fun to press. They can ALSO be used as a real computer mouse, hilarious as that position would be. He’s deathly ticklish on them and the Vees like using it as a way to mess with him. Sometimes it’s the only way to make this grumpy man smile.

“Voxxy I can’t find my computer mouse can you help me 🥺”

“Val don’t you DARE I WILL punch you in the dick”

mmmooore in a bit!

[mortalscience]

criminal minds 18x07 all the devils are here thoughts behind cut (SPOILERS)

OH MY FUCKING GOOOOOOODDDDDDDDD I AM UN FUCKING WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FOR SO MANY REASONS!!!!!!!!!!

FIRST OFF THE GARVEZ!!!!!!! I'M!! I'M DYING!!! SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP!!! LUKE KNEW PENELOPE NEEDED HIM AND HE WAS THERE FOR HER LIKE HE ALWAYS IS, AND THE WAY SHE CLUNG TO HIM AN DN DNASDA GJIASKLDJSLA. I MEAN THE WAY HE JUST CAME INTO FRAME IN THE BACKGROUND BLURRY AT FIRST THEN COMING INTO FOCUS AS HE CAME UP BEHIND HER AND SHE COULD JUST SENSE HIM THERE AND SHE FELL INTO HIM AND HE SQUEEZED HER TO HIM!!! HELLPPPP I CAN'AT BREATHE

*deep breaths*

...

WHAT ELSE HAPPENED LMAO I'M TRYING TO REMEMBER

okay but the reason penelope was SOBBING INTO LUKE'S SHOULDER was actually so horrible, she tried her hardest but she could not save tate andrews from a horrifying, painful death. THAT IS SO FUCKED TO DO DO MY PENELOPE. ;_; help her luuuuke, help herrrrr.

OKAY. yknow what the FUCK else had me unwell was these MOTHER. FUCKING. SPIDERS. so uhhh I'm EXTREMELY arachnophobic. LMAOOO. first off they kept jump scaring me with the spiders suddenly on the screen and then I would have to look away/close my eyes and wait until my boyfriend said it was safe to look at the screen again. yes i am a grown woman. i can't do it!!! I CAN'T DO SPIDERS!!! penelope was onto something with the acid shower cause i'm about to do that myself.

related to that because of my extreme arachnophobia, the indepth look at the ingested sicarius spider kill technique literally made me feel fucking SICK. watching that guy fucking die and vomit up bloody spiders, i am just. PHYSICALLY ILL. EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT. this is the worst, most horrifying episode of criminal minds ever. to me.

voit's "oh fuck you" to tyler LMAOOO. hilarious actually. i mean frankly everyone's crazy to think tyler could just get over it that easily and go on to work with voit problem-free? tyler really shouldn't be questioning voit at all hahaha

speaking of voit, such good stuff this episode!! loved the further development on how his regained sense of empathy has changed him. the 'cleansing' scene with him and penelope was so great. i love that she is the one to help him try to come to terms with who he was but also who he wants to be and who he CAN be. obvs he'll always be a serial killer - but if he chooses to Be Good then he can spend the rest of his life Doing Good. it won't make up for his insane crimes, but it's literally the least he can do, spending the rest of his life helping instead of hurting others.

and the fact that penelope is the only one that can make elias smile??? like a genuine smile???? good. yes. love. penelope is always so fucking good at that. SHE CAN REACH ANYONE.

LUKE THE BOMB EXPERT AT IT AGAIN!! my boyfriend was like "why is luke doing all this bomb stuff, why don't they get the bomb squad out here" and I was like LUKE HAS A *LOT* OF BOMB EXPERIENCE OKAY??? lmfaooo.

love baby profiler tyler cutting his teeth and papa pasta guiding him through it, but tyler is still unsure about himself. it's ok baby boy you'll get there.

"you'd never know that the ultimate predator is the one you least expect" - elias talking about sicarius spiders but I'M TAKING THIS AS AN OCHOA IS THE DISCIPLE HINT.

speaking of, I was super suspicious of Evan but also thought it was a likely possibility he was a red herring and it looks like that was the case. is he dead already?? lol. rip evan?

penelope mentioned red rover last week, and this week luke mentioned red rover. it's confirmed, they are fucking and also sharing a brain cell.

tara and jj making the break in the case! and a fun jj, tara, and penelope on the computer scene! they're all so cute and i love them. one of the few non-anxiety-inducing scenes in this entire episode

cyrus showing up live really threw me for a loop for a second before i remembered duh, deepfake, voit developed a whole deepfake system for baugate haha. the show totally tricked me for a minute, i was like HOW IS THIS GUY NOT DEAD. and i'm convinced it was ochoa cosplaying as cyrus because she's the only one that would know elias well enough to manipulate him so well and pull all his strings. to be able to reduce him back to that abused little boy.

loved the little moment when luke and tyler came back and tara comforted luke and emily comforted tyler.

and of COURSE the other thing that's got me unwell is TARAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. the next episode is gonna be killer. MY BABY TARA.

takeaways:

THIS EPISODE WAS SO HARD ON PENELOPE HOLY SHIT.

GARVEZZZZZZZ LIVESSSSSSS

MORE CONVINCED THAN EVER OCHOA IS THE DISCIPLE

I'M GOING TO BE PHYSICALLY UNWELL FOR THE NEXT 3-5 BUSINESS DAYS

[lunarmoves]

wELL IF WE’RE BACK ON THE TOPIC OF PAINTER cracks knuckes and becomes extremely biased i think that’d be so funny too

youre just doing whatever playing some game on your computer about going through doors with monsters (what kinda game is that sounds dumb) and you die and you just hear laughing

and then you catch sebastian talking to the roku stick after you threw it out for insulting you.

i also think that mayb with the sketchbook if you ever got a glimpse at it you’d see some drawings of a little crt with a menacing >:} face sitting by the water before sebastian snatches it iut of your sight a little too protectively this time

or you watch i have no mouths nd i must scream and sebastian says “he would have overrode this guy like navi…… sniff….. i miss my painter… i miss him a lot ill be back….” And then he hides under a blanket obviously not real lel

(idk how you see their relationship or maybe i forgot completely bc soup brain)

"going thru doors with monsters" ayo is that a pressure reference?!

HELP ME LMFAOOOOO catching sebastian talking to the roku stick kjfdhkdfkjdfjk. tbh i think him and pAInter would gang up on reader for a couple of days just to prank them about the whole thing. like:

you: why r u... talking to the roku stick like it can hear u?

seb: well that's just rude. it has feelings too, you know. look at it!

you: .......it's a roku stick.

also that's a cute idea LOL sebastian drawing pAInter in his new sketchbook and [redacted for spoilers]. i imagine their relationship as like an older brother-younger brother kind of thing haha

in any case, at this point in the fic sebastian is solely focused on his spouse <3 he thinks about pAInter once in a while but. well. he knows pAInter is fine bc [redacted for spoilers] ;P

[journey-of-daydreams]

https://www.tumblr.com/journey-of-daydreams/787650200291426304/hi-i-hope-you-dont-mind-if-i-share-my-thoughts?source=share

Haha, yes it is, I am interested in Program!Rewrite, because can come up with a lot of angst there, plus, this is exactly the moment when Rewrite is helpless, and can't do anything, in other words, in their world they are a god, but outside computer, they are nobody (yes, this is a reference), it is quite interesting to study the grief of Rewrite (if Rewrite learns concept of death, and that reader did not abandon them, they just died), for them these emotions are generally new, normal people do not cope with this very well, I am afraid to imagine how such a creature Rewrite will cope, they will probably kill more, or will try to create a digital copy of reader from files, but this will still never satisfy them Rewrite, because surprise, this is not a real reader, and other crazy god-demonic things.

Also, I think that my question provoked everyone to ask you questions, I hope this is not too overwhelming for you 😅

yeah, i find it fascinating too!!

(also i like answering questions about maze.rewrite so no worries :} )

death mention under the cut. again

rewrite doesn't like feeling powerless. the reader being a physical entity, they absolutely hate it. and assuming it's impossible for them to actually pull the reader into the digital world, they would not handle it well.

(ok i am a little confused as to how rewrite could harvest souls/trap people in the digital world but not the Reader so let's just say the reader is special and immune to their pull because. reasons. because it's angsty. DON'T ASK QUESTIONS)

should the reader die, they would absolutely create a copy of you in their digital world and pretend it's you. they're all about mimicry, and they will do that to cope with your death. they'll probably outright just pretend you're not dead. they'd probably even convince themself you're all fine and dandy in their game now. everything is fine!! they're fine, you're fine!! let's just keep playing games together.

they'll likely become far more sadistic + toy with the people trapped in the game more often as well, in an attempt to distract themself.

and, they will kill more, yes. but for a reason. this digital mimicry of you? it's not sentient. but maybe it can be, and can be more like you, if they start giving it the red rings? they try doing that. maybe it works, maybe it doesn't. if it does work, it's not really you. and the second it starts behaving even slightly off; do things you would never do; rewrite will destroy it and try again.

it is quite interesting because in normal circumstances, rewrite would be pretty much completely unable to experience grief; but a program!rewrite with a physical!reader could. this would be completely new to them and they would have absolutely no idea how to handle it in ways other than just... pretending.

i really think rewrite would also avoid thinking about it completely. but maybe, just maybe, on their worst days, when they feel the most grey and unstable: they will hate the fact they were powerless to do anything to save you. but that thought will be buried deep down into their code, locked away, along with the memory that you are, in fact, dead.

[supmaww]

the video of my bug becky painting :) unmute for music!

details under the cut 'cause this was a fun piece and I like talking about my work

In case anyone is curious, the song in the background is "A melody better left unknown" from the Blood in The Bayou soundtrack. It's fitting for obvious reasons (RIP Kian ily, you down-bad failed rockstar), but it's also one of my favourite tracks because of how gutted it leaves you!! I'll never forget that feeling of dread when Grizzly started to write the song with Becky. God. My favourite scene of the entire series.

We never truly meet Becky in bitb, but she's my favourite NPC anyways. I could go on and on about her and Kian's relationship (and I have... let me know if you want me to dig up the post) and what could've been. She's the perfect tragic ex-girlfriend for this silly tragic story. She was dead before we ever even meet her.

I struggled a little with the colours of this, mostly trying to get them to show up on my phone. My monitor does not display colours correctly, so it can be tricky trying to make stuff bright and saturated enough while still maintaining the contrast I was looking for. I think I did okay, but ehhh I think it could be improved on. It still looks miles better on desktop. Sorry mobile users.

The flowers, red spider lilies, are an iconic symbol of death. I tried to think of something more unique and less overdone, but fuck it. Straight from google they represent "sad memories, such as last goodbyes or the death of a loved one", plus they're also linked to reincarnation?? Hello??? The fact that they're native to Louisiana and grow in bayous make them all the more perfect. They're Becky's flower, hands down. Plus they're spider lilies. Like the bug (or arachnid). Haha.

It's kinda tricky to see, but the front pieces of her hair floating in the water form little bug mandibles. Probably my favourite part of the piece. I got the idea midway through the sketch and I knew I had to follow through.

Speaking of her hair... it's brown. This is due to the fact I was referencing the very talented @/alkalineleak's becky design and got carried away with my beloved warm colours before remembering that one of the only actual canon descriptors of Becky is that she had black hair. Whoops. I adjusted it a little but alas... It's brown. In a desperate attempt to make her look less like Rachel, I gave her an eyebrow piercing. But it's covered mostly by her bangs. Oh well.

This is probably my first digital painting I've posted since I drew Chip as a werewolf for halloween last year (if I remember correctly). I've improved a ton since then, but I'm still learning. I find with paintings the lack of lines gives you wayyy more freedom but also makes conveying forms much more tricky. Though I like how it turned out!!

My art program crashed a total of four times, two of which seriously set back progress. Consequences of recording a timelapse on a computer that can barely run Clip Studio Paint in the first place. Still not as bad as my goobleck animation... don't talk to me about that

This was all a huge bout of chronic procrastination. I have actual art projects due, figuring that I'm in art school. I'm so screwed. Like a week ago I swore off fanart and yet here I am... didn't last too long did I?

I am no better than Kian and would also die and join the hive for Becky (bug wife! bug wife! bug wife!). I hope they're together in hell.

Okay damn I still have more to say but that's a whole essay and a half, so I'm going to stop myself there. It's also 4am and I gotta head to uni in 3 hours. God. Uhm... Happy halloween go relisten to bitb it's spooky season!! (edit as I am posting this the day after: wow, that was a bad idea)