#and whatever else i‘m interested in

[infinitetimes]

hey moots. . . what if i had a spam / yap / whatevs sideblog that is called @lunaricent . . .

[playerprincess]

What’s with MC‘s Curse ??

I don’t think I have seen anyone talk and theorize about MC‘s Curse/Powers (whatever you‘d like to call it), and wanted to share my thoughts on it with the limited knowledge that we have.

If you have your own theories please share them, I‘d love to hear what everyone else thinks!

(Disclaimer: English isn’t my first language and I have a hard time translating my thoughts, so I hope you can understand what I‘m getting at anyways 😭)

All we really know from the Demo is that our Curse "changes" the people that we touch. The only time we really saw the effects of our abilities is when we meet the traveler and he grabs our wrist.

The game only says it affects people when we touch them, but we didn’t really put our hands on the Traveler at all. They were touching our wrist. Does that mean our curse does not only activate when our hands are touched, but also our wrist? What area of our hands/arms is affected by this?

From what part of our hand does the curse activate and where would it be safe to touch us?

What I also find interesting is that our touch isn’t a direct death sentence. It’s not a lethal touch. The way MC describes it, it only "changes" people. But change how? Their faces contort into a wide grin and they attempt to kill us. So it’s not like we have a Shigaraki type ability (look up My Hero Academia for context). I‘m really curious in what way the MCs powers alter people‘s minds.

I also believe the choice of language regarding MC and their curse is very much intentional. (As in "curse" instead of "powers" or "abilities" and "changing people" instead of a "cursing them back" or anything along the lines of "hurting them")

I also find interesting that the people affected by our curse attempt to strangle us, wich apparently seems to have happened before from what MC describes. They’re driven to madness sure, but I just wonder by what. Does our curse perhaps cause hallucinations?

I‘m also reminded of a scene in the hunger games mockingjay part 1, after rescuing Peeta. While being tortured by the capitol, he was injected with a venom from a hallucination inducing animal (Tracker jacker) to initially manipulate his thoughts on Katniss. Because of this, he starts to associate her with terrible things like the bombing of district 12 and sees her as an actual threat to himself and others. After he’s rescued and meets Katniss again for the first time, he immediately tries to strangle her. Perhaps our abilities work similar to the tracker jacker venom, causing the "victim" to see us as a threat and trigger their fight or flight response, causing them to to defend themselves.

When we meet Vere, who is a Monster, he pulls us closer and says "Looks like we’re both…" wich also confused me. Perhaps MC isn’t as human as we might assume. But if we were, Mhin would obviously dislike us right? Maybe we’re just a rare case, a supernatural being that somehow goes undetected by the main cast. Or maybe they know and just don’t let it be known. Maybe we’re not quite monster but also not quite human (a secret third thing). It seems like there’s something he knows that we don’t, or perhaps that we’re actively trying to conceal.

In the unnamed MC origin, it is stated that initially MC‘s curse used to be celebrated as a touch of enlightenment. I just wonder how they came to that conclusion, judging by what happens when someone gets touched by MC. Why did the priests believe that turning mad to the point of trying to strangle their precious oracle was any sort of divine epiphany? I‘m just so curious about this specific origin. Additionally to this, the game states that we experience "unnatural premonitions" that rattle your body and soul". While we‘re able to cast spells in the Alchemist origin and can detect magic, these premonitions seem to be something different entirely. Is it part of the curse? Is that just something that happens when you grow up around priests? I don’t know, seems like some hidden ability.

I also wonder if the effects of the curse are just the result of MC not being able to control it. Maybe it’s not really a curse, but rather some sort of power that can be controlled if you practice? They never learned how to keep their powers at bay, so naturally they turn everyone they touch insane. I mean, after getting attacked everytime you touch someone who would come to the conclusion that their powers aren’t actually harmful?

We also don’t know if the state of madness can be reverted somehow. All we know is that the people MC touch go insane and immediately attempt to murder them. But what would happen if they were taken away from MC? Would they attempt to kill everyone else as well or is it just us? Are they still capable of acting "normal" once the trigger (MC) is removed?

Lastly… those edgy ass bandages…

Also MC is so goddamn edgy for using bandages, like come on man, you can’t tell me that that’s more comfortable than just wearing gloves. But to cut them some slack, gloves are a bit impractical and not as easy to find, so who am I to judge. And as I said before, we don’t know the specific area our curse is activated on. Maybe normal gloves don’t cover ourselves enough. With bandages, you can kind of pick how much of your skin you want to cover. Of course long gloves exist, but I think they’re a bit harder to find than regular ones. So maybe the bandages aren’t actually such a bad idea.

I think there‘s a lot of potential and I‘m really looking forward to the release of the game to find out!

I can’t wait any longer guys I‘m going insane

Let me know what you think

[wingsdippedingold]

You what else is a plot hole? The stairs.

I‘m not sure if it has been discussed already, but Nesta had already climbed the 10k (12k actually) when she reached the 6k step and went back. Going back up is far harder than going down.

It’s not even that Sjm forgot about that detail. When Nesta first tried it and reached only like a 50 or something, She told Cassian that it was 100 technically.

I‘m so fricking tired of Sjm‘s inconsistency.

Also, Cassian calling a very sick woman that climbed 50 stairs down and back „pathetic“ as a 500+ year old gym bro with a lot of experience is pathetic.

Yk what? I don’t think it’s a plot hole.

First I’d like to point something out, that 10,000 steps doesn’t even technically grant her freedom from the regimen that the NC has set up for her, it only allows her to go wherever she wants, but she’d likely be forced back into the HoW by the end and would definitely still be made to train.

(I’ve been talking to all the literary analysis ladies on tik tok who are convinced SJM’s sewing seeds of doubt to create some sort of reveal that the IC actually isn’t amazing, so bear with me because this gets messy)

Even if it’s not what SJM intended, if we look at Nesta like a real person, I think it speaks to how broken down she was at that point. Obviously, at this point Nesta seems to be doing a lot better than she was at the beginning of the book, she’s closer with Cassian, she’s training, and she’s made friends, but that doesn’t really negate the negative effects her treatment has also had on her.

Any logical person with all their faculties would realize there’s no difference between moving back vs. forward once you’ve reached halfway (in her case foward being even easier), but that’s not where Nesta is.

Her mental state is so bad, even if she’s not literally drinking herself to death she’s not she same Nesta to her core, that she can’t even realize her own situation. And if we want to go to a more symbolic route, I think this also speaks to the standards the IC has set for her. She’s only considered fully “healed” when she conforms to whatever mold they’ve determined for her: subservient to Rhysand, pleasing to Feyre, and agreeing to Cassian. To the IC, there is no compromise, either she’s acceptable to them or she’s not. Now I don’t remember the exact circumstances regarding this particular climb, but at that 60% spot, she didn’t reach the 100% that they wanted in the way that she wanted. Despite not actually completing the full journey that would grant her the title as “healed”, Rhysand and the IC actually had achieved their goal of controlling her and breaking her down to be moldable.

What’s interesting is every time she attempt to climb she achieves more steps before going back to the HoW, and every time she seems more and more healed. Now obviously this is a byproduct of her getting healthier and progress, but I think it can still serve as a narrative element showing that the closer she gets to this alleged “freedom” the closer she gets to whatever the IC wants her to be, regardless of if it’s to her benefit or not. And to add to this, she’s not “going up” she’s descending down. Furthermore, what does Cassian do to her attempts and progress? He LAUGHS. There is no encouragement to see her push through and endure, there’s humiliation for not immediately being good enough. That alone should tell you that Cassian wasn’t actually a “trainor” nor should he entrusted with Nesta’s improvement.

ALSO, 6 thousand steps, let alone 10 thousand is INSANE. The fact that she was able to do even that still boggles my mind.

The Burj Khalifa, the world’s tallest building, only has 2,909, not even a third of what they said Nesta had to descend in order to leave the HoW. That task is not a “test of mental endurance”, it’s in fact not meant to be humanly, or faely, possible. SJM’s not stupid, she knows that that is a daunting number (even if Nesta manages to get down 6k), and the IC knows that as well. Cassian waits for Nesta at one because he KNOWS that she won’t make it, not that he doesn’t believe she will, but because he KNOWS.

Again, as many have said it was never presented as a legitimate choice, and the HoW was never meant to actually be about Nesta’s betterment for her own sake.

[starlingstalk]

Oh my god could you elaborate on the vampire au thing id LOVE to know

Thanks for asking!! I‘m notorious for not knowing how to actually write anything story wise so this will be more about how vampires/ghosts fit into their character dynamic! :‘D

For everything vampire my inspiration is always Shiki (horror anime about vampires). I am so intruiged with the questions of morality Shiki raises in an exposition that is so alike novels like The Plague; simple characters with fixed moral alignments that are all neither right or wrong in the face of survival.

The way I see Morro‘s and Cole‘s relationship is VERY roughly based on that of Seishin and Sunako (the Monk and the daughter of the vampire family). So Morro being a vampire in the AU is more of a symbol than anything else. In Cole‘s resignation to let himself be bitten; consumed is his inability to lock away the empathy he feels towards someone he can‘t help but understand.

Vampires in Shiki cannot live without feeding; it is a matter of survival, a precondition to their being. Cole thinks something similar of Morro as he struggles to belong as a ghost around his friends.

Blood, or the color red, symbolises the self, the person he believes he has lost. Morro sees humanity in Cole‘s innate struggle to find himself. That‘s where I find it interesting to connect him to Komiko from Noriko‘s Dinner Table (my favorite movie everrrrr).

Cole is bound to Morro, he thinks of him as Morro thinks of himself: A person reduced down to their will. Morro is frustrated about serving as something to anyone.

And yet as Kumiko does, he settles on a very absolute world view. Like rabbits and lions; Morro‘s belonging was in being a rabbit, defaced.I bring this quote up every single time, but here it is again.

„A rabbit, a suicide, a killer, evil, water overflowing from a glass. I‘ll be what no one else wants to be.“

He is a tragedy, a killer, evil, scheming, cruel, yearning. Anyone he needs to be at the moment.

But to Cole he is a will trashing around at the realisation he has nothing at all. He feels the way he struggles with himself will lead him down the same path.

In desperation he lends himself to Morro, thinking: I‘ll be whatever you like me to be.

Oh and maybe about ghosts in general: I like the thought of them just merging. One of my fav movies is Tetsuo the Ironman I am like SO into all things merging especially if it’s like a figurative funger abominable marriage type thing. I am a huge horror fan.

Maybe Morro is also hungry as shit because he can only drink ghost blood and now that he‘s out of the Merged realm he‘s hungryyy. Like imagine he’s just like overjoyed about possessing Lloyd bcs he has so much human blood to drink. Plus I like the concept of Morro literally sucking the humanity out of Cole. And then instead of killing him instantly as it would normally he gets his forehead rift and boom Wotd happens??

That would be silly wacky fun.

[rhiannons-bird]

okay so I‘M FINALLY READING SWORD CATCHER AND I HAVE THOUGHTS

I‘m only about halfway through but I need to rant

- it‘s incredible how well cassie manages to lend a unique voice to each of her characters every single time. she just doesn’t miss does she?

- lin caster is the awesomest girl. i just love her because she reminds me of other cc girls in the way that she is kind of a very typical heroine on the surface but you can actually feel her emotions and she’s very believable & flawed & human and you just can’t help rooting for her + i love her friendship with mariam

- everyone is bisexual & it’s completely normalised i love it here

- lin & conor??? apparently they are the flagship which I know because I took a peek at the tag after they had two scenes together because the ENERGY OMG

- ahh yes, conor 😌 another pretty man with issues who’s in a lot of trouble and likes to cover it up with sarcasm, pompous behaviour, fancy clothes & vanity- you just can’t help but love it

- but also he‘s the biggest prick and i want him to have some sense beat into him by everyone around him

- like he qualifies for a huge growth arc but it could also go downhill and turn into sth ugly

- anyone had a weird sense of déjà vu about him and lin after that one little excerpt about adessa and suleman? like, she’s an ashkar with probably immense magical potential let’s be real i see where this is going and he‘s a prince (future king) with marivent blood 🤔🤔🤔

- conor‘s frat boy posse make my blood boil- especially with the way they talked about antonetta in that one scene 🤢🤮

- falconet is the nicest one by far but he‘s sus as hell i know he’s up to sth 🤨 but i rly wanna like him 😭

- the ragpicker king is just a cool dude who dresses emo and has people murdered on the regular i guess i love him. he’s hot. - kaz energy but also very different at the same time. can‘t wait to see more of him. and there’s def more to him.

- also no, andreyen, i don‘t understand either what people mean about ji-an having an off putting manner i‘m pretty convinced she‘s never done anything wrong in her entire life 💗except for the murder what murder

- kel can only be described as a calmly unhinged cinnamon roll. he reminds me a little of james (especially with his „mask“) but if you orphaned him & janked up the loyalty & sluttiness by a hundred

- like fr he is so confused just running around threatening and/or kissing people wtf 😭✋🏼 he just has chemistry with everyone he interacts with lol

- kel & conor remind me of matthew & james but if there was a big power imbalance and a everything is a little more fucked up 🙃

- generally the way power & power dynamics are portrayed and handled is very interesting i like it

- antonetta has my entire heart ❤️

- I need more of her but as an individual not just through kel‘s pov, so far i’m not very big on whatever is being hinted at with her and kel

- I adore merren just like everyone else, he‘s kind of giving a weird mix of christopher/matthew/wylan and I‘m here for it. plus: autism coded character yeass

- also nice to see some jewish rep. (i did not know cassie was jewish before lol) the ashkar are really interesting (& as far as their treatment by the rest of the world goes at times infuriating😤) to read about and add a lot of depth to the world building.

- i love how we see the complexities of their culture portrayed through lin who on the one hand is deeply ingrained in it and holds/has received a lot of love & care for/from her own people while also having been wronged & ostracised by them and how both can be true simultaneously

- as someone who‘s very familiar with multiple romance languages the languages in this book are incredibly entertaining to me

- SO MANY SECRETS & political intrigue hehehe rubbing my little hands together can’t wait for all this to escalate (because it most certainly will) 😈

bottom line

I’m really glad i finally started reading this.

it took me a while to get into it & I’m still holding out on a final judgement since it seems very slow but i’m a patient reader and i appreciate a good setup.

also I want a creepy black crocodile pool in my house now.

[imminent-danger-came]

So- we all agree that MK will at some point fight his friends.

But what do you think would cause an actual fight to break out? I can imagine a CONFRONTATION. Arguing, a small scale brawl or scuffle. A full blown, all out, cataclysmic battle however? HOW???

Yeah, MK did lash out at Macaque when he was pretending to be Wukong. MK was definitely upset, but the thing that made him want to straight up fight Wukong was Macaque antagonizing him and hitting him where it hurts.

Mei and the real Wukong wouldn’t do that. They love MK too much. And vice versa. I just can‘t imagine them fighting eachother while fully aware.

Do you think it would be a loss of control situation? That MK‘s too powerful to contain? Brainwashing 2.0? Golden Circlet? Someone pretending to be MK and leaving the real one to deal with thr consequences? I‘m just listing all the different tropes at this point oof

Or do you have a specific scenario in mind that you think could realistically happen or hope for?

So! I think it'll be a combination of a loss of control, good ol' fashioned manipulation, and MK learning something that pushes him over the edge.

Like, you know in 4x13 where MK says things that distinctly don't feel like MK—"We'll alright then", "Oh there's nothing mindless about me friend"—and he's smiling and very much unhinged, and it's all kinda scary? I feel like there's gonna be a lot more of that next season, all aligning with MK and his fate vs what he actually wants. Like:

Subodhi: “Who or what you are, even I do not know the answer—but of one thing, I am certain: fate has plans for you! Great plans, or foul? Time will tell.” MK: "I- I can't be! I'm just MK!" Subodhi: "The Monkie Kid?" MK: *Gasps*

(4x06 Show Me the Monster)

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"Great plans, or foul?" - "Remind me how this 'game' is supposed to convince me I'm not destined to turn into an evil monkey demon thing again? Cause every option I pick takes me to this same screen!" - Aka, despite your choices the final outcome is inevitable. MK wants to be MK, but he's also the Monkie Kid, and he can't separate himself from whatever he is—i.e. MK is gonna have to reconcile the different parts of himself, including the parts of himself he refuses to acknowledge.

The conclusion Macaque helps MK come to at the end of s4 is that no one can decide who MK is for him ("Only you get to decide who you are kiddo."), and what I LOVE to point out is that the person who decided who MK is, who he will be, was in fact himself—or at least the curse version of himself:

(*sigh* this wasn't supposed to be super long and then it was. The rest under the cut!)

Curse MK: “Haha, seriously? You still think we’re just some, noodle delivery guy? You can’t remember where we came from, and we got ALL this power, and you never once thought, WHY US? What are we? What is our purpose?”

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Curse MK: “You can’t escape it, this thing, whatever you are, embrace it. Embrace your destiny.”

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Curse MK: "You can see it, can't you? This is your fate. Your friends will turn on you, seeing you for the monster you will become. They will destroy you, harbinger of chaos."

(4x07 Pitiful Creatures)

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It's this interesting mess, where it seems like MK is spiraling towards becoming something else, something he doesn't want to become. So let's add a little check mark next to the "loss of control" box for why MK is fighting his friends next season—I'm not sure he'll be entirely "himself" if you catch my drift (maybe a kinda Samadhi Fire Mei situation, similar to the way she loses control).

Next point: good ol' fashioned manipulation.

So, just like LBD we got another puppet master on our hands, the person who was pulling the strings and released Azure.

AKA whoever the fuck this guy is:

Hooded Figure: "There will of course be an inquiry into how the scroll of memory was stolen in the first place, and what is to be done now that the Jade Emperor has been dethroned. The universe is perilously close to tipping into chaos. If it comes to light that any of this party were involved, you can believe the consequences will be dire—but only a fraction of the price compared to what shall come to pass should you succeed."

(4x14 Better Than We Found It)

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The thing about this guy who wanted Azure to become the Jade Emperor and lose control—perhaps they wanted the Jade Emperor's power without a host so they could use it for their own purposes?—is that we don't know what their plan is, but we can assume it's going to include MK ("Great plans or foul?", MK as a "harbinger of chaos" with this mystery person trying to tip the universe into chaos, etc.—I'd argue they're the next stand in for destiny)

Which gets me to my point: our hooded figure is going to manipulate MK the same way they manipulated Azure, and the same way LBD manipulated MK before, which means gettin' all up inside MK's head. Making him doubt both himself and Monkey King and his friends.

And well, people trying to turn MK against Wukong has had a track record of MK absolutely losing his shit and going into Monkey form before (which admittedly may be the very thing the hooded figure wants):

1.) The very first time MK glitches into Monkey Form is after the curse insists that "We're just like Wukong—a fraud! A trickster! Destructive! Why would our legacy be any different? Actually, no no- the chaos and destruction we'll bring upon the world will make Wukong's past look like nothing."

2.) Then, first time MK fully enters monkey form is after the curse insists that "It's just like the Lady Bone Demon said—all you'll ever do is cause pain and suffering!", which in itself is tied to the words Mei says to Wukong in 3x10 "Don't you see you're hurting the people who care about you the most?" which is ALSO tied to 4x08 with the reason MK decides to run off to begin with—he's afraid of hurting the people he cares about (just like Wukong) and that perhaps he really is only destined to cause pain and suffering.

3.) After 4x07 MK goes into his Monkey Form again in 4x08, but this time it's after Azure tried to destroy MK's faith in Wukong ("Monkey King's a hero he wouldn't just-" "You saw it with your own eyes! His betrayal his brutality, he took the only friends I had from me."). MK really starts to lose it after he learns Azure won't release Wukong from the scroll ("I won't let you take Monkey King away from me again!").

4.) Next, in 4x09, MK starts glitching into Monkey Form after Macaque insults Wukong ("Or, he was just doing his usual Wukong thing and being a lazy peach eating idiot—ignoring all the worlds problems."). It's also directly after MK wonders why Wukong stayed on flower fruit mountain all those years: "You think Monkey King ever felt like this? Maybe that's why he stayed up on this mountain, just having a good time with you guys. You know cause- cause he knew he'd be out of the way where he couldn't hurt anyone he cared about."

5.) Next instance of Monkey Form isn't until 4x13, but I'd argue it's the most relevant of the bunch. For the entire special MK hadn't flickered into Monkey Form once, but he does after Azure starts insulting his loyalty to Wukong: ""After all Sun Wukong has put you through, how much he has let you down, you would STILL meet your fate trying to protect him? He doesn't deserve such loyalty, yet you insist on learning the hard way, just as I did. I should have never trusted the Monkey King! The false sage, equal to NOTHING!"

And then after this we have the scariest instances of Monkey MK I ever did see:

MK is ripe to be manipulated in all the wrong ways, specifically around his relationship with Monkey King—and perhaps even his friends if the situation gets bad enough (though I would imagine it being something more like MK trying to leave to protect them [again] and the gang not letting him) (Other side note: there are literally 5 examples of MK going into Monkey Form because of how his relationship/view of Wukong is being called into question, all at the end of s4. That is so many).

I think a la 2x05 and 4x07 MK will also have his perception of himself pushed to it's limits via our new antagonist. So rather than Wukong or Mei antagonizing MK for him to lash out, I'd say our puppet master will be the one to antagonize MK. To push him towards whatever they need MK to be for their plans.

And with that, I'm checking off box number 2 "good ol' fashioned manipulation".

Now onto point number 3, MK learning info that pushes him over the edge (which will be helped by point number 2 and lead to point number 1, FULL CIRCLE BABY).

So the special definitely set up the fact that there's more both MK and the audience don't know about Wukong's past, particularly around Macaque:

Macaque: "Every choice has consequences kid, for someone." MK: "Okay come on man! What happened between you two, for realzies!"

MK: "Seriously! Come on man I need answers!"

(4x11 A Lifetime of Mistakes)

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Oh sweet MK, answers you will receive! They just won't be the answers you want. (The fact that MK is questioning Wukong's past at all, along with the curse saying "We're just like Wukong" as proof they were destructive, leads me to believe that uh, maybe your boy is having some doubts! One of the things MK is specifically upset at Azure about is that the Lion attempted to "turn him against his own mentor". That's all gonna lead somewhere)

Which, the implication is clear:

For undoubtedly some important reason, Wukong had to either kill Macaque or bring him to deaths door. But, MK over there who refused to abandon or hurt Mei even when she was going to burn away reality, who refused to abandon his friends even if it might risk unleashing the curse into the world, might not understand the nuances (hi "good guy" V "bad guy" binary mentality) of whatever happened between Wukong and Macaque.

Lego Monkie Kid is a show where plot points and arcs line up—the fact that MK's faith in Wukong is being questioned, the origin of SWK and Macaque's falling-out is just around the corner, and MK losing control is a very likely possibility, it all means I would be surprised if it everything wasn't going to be acknowledged at around the same time. All these things will build off of one another, and MK is going to spiral HARD (and SWK probably will too. Sorry boys)

The Macaque and SWK backstory alone would be enough I think, or WHATEVER other Wukong past plot points they want to introduce, but we also have the matter of MK's origins—his purpose. Why he was created and why he exists (again that who MK wants to be VS what fate has in store for him, and acknowledging the different parts of himself). MK, without any real knowledge of what he is, already believed that he was destined to bring chaos. Say, MK were to learn that he was either created for such a purpose or was something that caused chaos before (hello EAMK), this would absolutely RUIN MK's perception of himself.

So then combining all of these different problems and the culmination of MK's series long crippling self-doubt/identity arc, we're like, fucked? Honestly I can't imagine MK not having a full blown, all out, cataclysmic battle and breakdown.

There have also been certain things building up from s2 that MK never really talked about with Wukong. MK was willing to punch Wukong in 2x07 (the og "hey MK your mentor kinda sucks" episode). He was clearly hurt by Wukong's decision to leave in s2, Wukong proceeded to lie all through s3, and after Monkey King apologizes to MK in 3x14, he sort of brushes it off:

Sun Wukong: "I know I can never make it up to you. Honestly, I- I never thought I'd live as long as I have let alone be someone's mentor—turns out I'm not very good at it. I guess what I'm trying to say is...I'm sorry MK. For all of it." MK: "It's okay—I can always get another bowl of noodles."

Sun Wukong: "Wha! No! Not the noodles! Ugh! I mean, I'm sorry for being a bad mentor and making you clean up after my mess!" MK: "I know—sometimes I just play dumb to lighten the mood."

(3x14 Destiny Fulfilled) (Crying look at that face full of love. Oh my god. Fuck. Fuck me. How dare I write a meta on why these two are going to fight)

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To me, this scene reeks of MK going "oh thank god things can go back to normal", and then trying to sweep everything under the rug without actually acknowledging or processing anything. He does something similar in 4x11, wanting to brush past Wukong's mistakes and rush to SWK's "path of the good guy" and "good life choices" so that he can move on.

When it comes down to it, MK doesn't want to have any issues with Wukong, but unfortunately there are very much issues. Wukong has tried his best to make amends and be better for MK, but MK isn't letting himself heal. He's running from himself, and he wants to pretend things are much simpler than they are.

And, once MK is forced to come face to face with how complex and messy both himself and Wukong are? I am expecting that kid to break and an all out fight to emerge. SWK V MK, Mentor V Student, Monkey King V Monkey Kid.

But, because Wukong is Wukong, he's not going to be able to go all out against his student (he couldn't even go all out against Macaque or Ne Zha), which, with how powerful MK is, that's not going to go well. That's where the gang steps in—they're going to have to try and put a stop to MK, and get him to see reason, to come back to himself. "Mend the fracture between [him]self and Wukong" if you will. Perhaps even Samadhi Fire Part 3 if we're lucky.

Or at least that's how I imagine it could go down!

[pathologicalreid]

ohhh I wanna jump in on the little maeve ,discussion‘ and maybe spencers love interests in general:

honestly I don‘t dislike maeve, maybe it‘s because I‘m really gay and was like ,oh she has a nice voice, I totally get why spencer would be into her‘ so that blinded my judgement but yes she is a pretty one dimensional character.

even when the writers tried to give her more character, like not wanting help or hiding her fiancé, they didn’t write it well enough? she had much potential but was used to give spencer more trauma/develop spencers character more.

I loved seeing the scene between him and blake where he‘s worried that she might dislike him because he might be weird or whatever and basically the quote: ,it doesn‘t matter what she looks like - she’s already the most beautiful girl in the world to me‘ because it shows how sweet spencer is but again used to underline spencers character.

i don‘t hate her, i don’t like her, when she died I didn’t cry because she died, it was because of how spencer reacted.

(and don’t get me started on how the writers ruined spencers and jjs friendship-)

as you said he had more chemistry with one-episode characters! I’d like to add ethan (bisexual!spencer is canon to me idc he was originally written as bisexual and I‘ll never let that go)

i mean you literally show us with chemist!reader that spencer with someone somewhat similar to him can be written so so good!

anyways I‘ll stop yapping now!! 💐

my beautiful bouquet anon!!! (i've hidden my rambling under the cut but i do discuss the implied sexual assault from when spencer was in mexico)

i totally get what you're saying when you don't hate her but you also don't like her! there was potential with maeve for sure, but the writers dropped the ball.

i would argue that the maeve arc didn't really develop spencer's character as much as it probably should have. i could probably count on one hand the number of times she's brought up after "magnum opus". maybe i'm just insane but having my gf killed in front of me would probably have more influence on the rest of my life. so, when cat brings up maeve in season 12, there's a lacking impact because we absolutely haven't seen any indication that spencer still considered her the love of his life. (the impact in that scene for me is the sexual assault implications).

the "she's already the most beautiful girl in the world to me" line has had such an impact on the way i characterize spencer. he literally says the most wrought and profound things and it's in character!

i will always talk about how jj and reid's friendship was demolished by the writers i love opening discourse on 'truth or dare'

i don't usually include ethan in the one episode romances simply because they have a history!!! something homosexual happened there!!!! everyone else's story starts and ends in the same ep.

chemist!reader is everything that maeve could have been. thank you for bringing her into this conversation. put me in the writer's room!!! i can work something out!!!!

you're always welcome to yap!! in fact i adore it!!!

[ivane-embraces-the-weirdness]

If you need context, just tap or click on this word!

And now on with the show:

Characterdynamics between my OC (Wyrm) and the main cast of SflV

Gothetta/Gruftine: Since the kids are now in their worst teen years (between 14 and 16) Gruftine is now ofc in her experimental phase and also where she’s looking for more female role models than whatever Kryptina is for her.

So once she spots the mysterious young Tatzelwoman, who gives out drinks and uses small amounts of magic in a creepy cave, while wearing a nieche mix of erololita and steampunk with a carnival touch, she’s of course intrigued. And since Ivané isn’t that far past from puberty yet and can recall her own feelings during that time pretty well, she manages to relate to Gruftine pretty well and give her advice (especially with her romantic interests), help out (like having her back when Gruftine knows she fucked up), goes on adventures with her and overall becoming an unconventional older–sister character to her.

Overall their relationship in my head is pretty wholesome.

Oskar: Oh, Boy! If you found this account via my little comics, you know exactly how the poor guy learned about Ivané!XD

At first he’s traumatized by her and his uncles relationship, but eventually he accepts her and her shenanigans and warms up to her, but not as close as Grusfine is with her.

He still takes her advice from time to time and sometimes she has to be a mediator between him and his uncle, when they got beef again.

And they share a similar taste for music, so she sometimes takes him and whoever else is coming to a party or rave that’s not too age restricted. So she’s at some point more of a step–in–Guardian than a surrogate parent.

Klot: To clarify: Ivané is NOT good with really young children! Infact, she’s pure shit at babysitting and she knows it. So good for Klot that he’s already between 11 and 13 in this AU!

They met because the count just one day spawned at her place, dropped him off and their conversation went somewhat like this:

„Hold this for a sec, gurl, I‘m busy rn!“

„But I–„

„I know, you’re abysmal dogshit at this but I believe in you!“ *Drops Klot, turns into a fruitbat and despawns*

And after staring at each other for minutes, she resumes to work at the bar, playing some cardgames with him, when conveniently nobody is around, with a sign at the entrance that read „Please only come in when: badly injured, hiding from armed pursuers or threats or looking for an non +18 conversations! I was randomly forced to babysit!“

Most of their conversations where Klot asking questions about her experiences like „What does it feel like to die“ and then she either answers it or takes off into storytelling about one of her adventures, manifesting as a flashback to the viewer.

She also does her best to hold back her vulgar language around him, but she does slip up sometimes and he picks up on it quickly!XD

So yeah, she‘s more of an awkward guardian around him.

Leechy: Wyrm might be using technology and can build or fix simpler mechanisms when she needs to, but she’s really got more of the art–autism while Leechy (at least according to many headcannons) is more of the science–autistic.

The only thing they really connect over is their shared social struggles (her teaching him social skills while he helps her with fixing a more complex machine) he’s also more interested of her stories about times where she worked at more sci–fi esque settings or the one time she flew to space.

Otherwise she just drops him off with her more sciency friends or is his guardian when no one else is in the mood to go with him to nerdy places like a museum or a science fair.

Fletscher/Stoker: Most of the time she despises him and his bullying of Oskar and kicks his arse from now and then (and the count lets it slide since he caught on to the mistreatment of his nephew by now and that’s the only way he can punish him without looking like a jerk himself) he despises her too and tries to provoke her (especially infront of Oxblood).

They do have sincere but short conversations from time to time where they have to begrudgingly admit that they are both eccentric little gremlins to different degrees who‘re both really bad at math.

So their relationship isn’t so beneath the belt like with Oxblood but more rooted in her sense for justice and him being somewhat put in his place when she’s around.

Okay, that‘s it for now

[x-0ophelia0-x]

A work of Art which did not begin in emotion is not art. - Paul Cézanne

pairings: Artist!Reader x Ezra Bridger

warnings: none! just fluff and a sad ending. And not proofread yet.

word count: 2,4K

summary: You’re an artist. Drawing is your passion, something you do whenever you need to relax or do when you’re motivated. You see things in a different way, a more peaceful one. Observing things is your speciality which comes in handy when you start your anatomy studies on a certain someone, whose training sessions with Kanan seem to be the perfect opportunity for you to study.

authors note: this might be my favorite one until now- this prompt was stuck in my head like for forever now. Being an artist is part of a reason why this kind of escalated in it‘s length-

It’s also S4 Ezra, ignore the gif, was the only one I found with Kanan 😭

This wasn’t originally based on Cézannes quote, I just had a rough idea of a peaceful scenario on Lothal and his quote seemed to fit the best on how this fanfic went on.

I might make a series out of this, words can’t describe how much I enjoyed writing this one 😭

anywayyy, the Ahsoka final will air in just two hours and guess what? I‘ll miss it because it’ll be 3 am here and I‘m supposed to get up in 4h for school :D

enjoyyy <3

What is Art?

It was a question you could never really answer yourself.

It had grown into a part of you, defining the person you had become.

Art wasn’t just a drawing on a paper or on whatever material you could imagine. It was a feeling, an emotion. The desire to create something new. The desire to immortalize your emotions into the paper you were working on.

The Arts priority is to make you feel something, to understand the Artists hidden message.

Some use it to express their feelings, others indirectly use it as a love letter to their beloved ones.

Art ist a matter of perspective, some see boring studies, others see emotions at it‘s purest form and then others again see the hidden message behind it.

And yours? Let’s say that yours was a mix of everything.

- Lothals sun was low, it’s dimmed light bathing the landscape in a beautiful haze of gold. The grass fields reflecting the golden light perfectly as they were moving with the wind. Lothals mountains being highlighted by it while several loth cats where playing around. 

The whole scenery sent a feeling of comfort and warmth to you, the peaceful moment, a luxury for you and your friends since fighting against the empire was your dangerous lifestyle.

You sat by a rock, leaning against it while a loth cat was cuddling up right next to you. Going into a peaceful slumber, trusting you with it‘s life right now. As you sat there, holding your sketchbook with the one hand and your pencil with the other. You couldn’t help but to get lost in this moment. 

Everything seemed so perfect right now and the beautiful scenery in front of you really resembled a painting itself. And beside the loth cat, you weren’t alone. 

Hours like this were used by Kanan and Ezra to train, a perfect opportunity for them since they wouldn’t get distracted here as much as somewhere else. 

And this was your perfect opportunity to make some anatomy studies. 

Drawing was your passion, a hobby you shared with Sabine. 

And moments like this just boosted your motivation. Sitting on a open field while the sun had it‘s golden hour, having your pen and sketchbook right beside you, what else could you possibly want more?

Ezra also became a key figure to your studies. His training sessions with Kanan offered you dynamic poses, interesting ones that were perfect for your exercise. 

You often found yourself sketching him, being it while he trained or while he fell asleep on your shoulder due to his exhaustion whenever he finished his double trainings with Kanan and Rex. He knew about your hobby, everyone did. What he didn’t know though was that you were sketching him, that he was a constant figure in your sketchbook. Studies of him while he trained, slept against your shoulder and his face, especially his eyes.

You loved him and he loved you. You both confessed to each other a while ago, he didn’t really question you whenever you watched them train or always having you sketchbook near you since he knew that drawing was your passion after all. Ezra even enjoyed having you around, not only because you two were a couple, but because he knew that with you, he’d never be truly alone again just as he was before the ghost crew found him. 

The crew is his newfound family, there’s no doubt in that, but they wouldn’t stay together, close like they were right now forever. The day where everyone would go their own ways would eventually come, leading to them being completely united again just when they’d have a mission together or plan a trip or something. He’d have his friends but he’d again have to live somewhere alone, which was a fear of him, one he hid damn well from the others. 

But now he had you, someone he’d never imagined meeting in his life. Someone who would love to spent their life together with him. Someone who felt the same connection towards him like he felt for you. 

His training with Kanan continued, parrying each strike from Kanan while you continued to sketch him. Each pose having a different dynamic. 

Whenever you felt that you had too many poses on one page of position, you chose single parts of him, his face, his hands holding the lightsaber or just his expressions, drawing them separately next to the poses. Trying to bring in some contrast so that looking at those sketches later wouldn’t be too boring.

The loth cat eventually woke up, nuzzling it’s head against you while it watched the Jedi and the Jedi in training, train. 

Then it’s head turned to you, looking into your eyes and then into your sketchbook. It seemed to recognize Ezra‘s silhouette, looking back and forth, as if he was comparing the original Ezra with his sketched version. 

You couldn’t help but laugh at the creatures confusion, it was adorable.

„Yes it’s him“

You said, your voice just loud enough for it to hear, not wanting to risk Ezra hearing you. He didn’t know that he was the star of your sketchbook and you didn’t know how he’d react if he realized that you had a whole sketchbook of him. 

The loth cat then again looked up to you, gesturing to your sketchbook and itself.

„Do you want me to draw you too?“

You asked it, smiling down, adoring it‘s character. It was the first loth cat that didn’t attack you at first sight but instead chose to actually spend time wit/ you. 

And it seemed happy about your question, taking a position while looking straight at you.

Not wanting to hurt its feelings you changed your subject, sketching the cat instead of Ezra right now. 

It was still on the same page as Ezra though and even if it didn’t really fit with your topic for this sketchbook, it somehow fitted to him, his connection with those kind of creatures being his passion. 

When you had the bases finished, having a full body, a close up from its head and a version of it sleeping like earlier, you continued with its details. Something you loved. Hours could pass by and you’d never grow bored of adding more of them.

The difference this time was that you were fast and didn’t need too long for the loth cat‘s features and details. Being finished quicker then it thought, showing it the results. 

You weren’t a loth cat expert but it’s stunned expression, looking at your sketches of it with awe, was kind of an confirmation that it liked your way of portraying it. 

You chuckled at its reaction, it was fricking adorable. It then turned its head against to your direction, as if it was asking you if it was really him.

„Yes that’s you“

You then spoke softy, failing to notice that Ezra’s training had ended. 

Seeing you interact with the cat warmed his heart, and Kanan noticed it.

„Ah.. young love“

He teased him, receiving a smirk from Ezra.

„Don’t get me started on you and Hera.. Master“

He replied, knowing that he hit a spot with this one.

„This point goes to you“

Kanan then says, faking a defeated tone with his voice. 

„Enjoy the sunset“

Was all he said before leaving the field and walking over to their ship where the rest of the crew was. 

Ezra also made his way to you, but from behind, aiming to scare you a little.

While you still let the loth cat to look at your sketches, he sneaked up from behind you, throwing his arms around your waist and whispering a short ‚boo‘ against your ear.

„Oh my force!“

You shrieked, jumping at his sudden approach, accidentally losing hold of your sketchbook. Then realizing that it was the sketchbook. 

„That’s what she said“

Was everything he said, not able to hold in his laughter while you jokingly pushed your elbow against his side.

„Very funny. Bridger.“

He sat down, right next to you, bringing his arm behind you and wrapping it around your waist, holding you into a half embrace. 

„I feel honored and scared at the same time“

„As you should“

You then also started to laugh, placing a soft kiss on his cheek.

„How was your training today?“

„Like always.. I‘m just happy that it’s over for today, Kanan and Rex went hardcore.. I didn’t know that I had this many muscles until today“

You chuckled.

„Why? Did they remind you how useful they are while they let you do the galaxy’s most historical workout?“

„No. It’s because I feel EVERY single one of them right now“

He whined, letting his head fall and rest against your shoulder.

„What about you?“

He then asked, yawning as he looked at the golden hues spraying wildly across his home planets landscape. 

„What about me?“

„You were drawing again, I saw you when Kanan gave me some seconds to relax“

Ezra said, shifting his gaze from the sun to your sketchbook.

„You always seem to have this with you when I‘m around.. can I see it?“

He asked with a genuine tone, sounding almost innocent.

„You want to.. see my sketches?“

You asked, hoping that you understood him wrong but him nodding proofed you otherwise. 

„I‘d love to“

The cat noticed your unease with showing him your sketches of him. But it also sensed your bond, it somehow made it happy that you two were happy together. With the power it held right now, it decided to play the matchmaker and carry your sketchbook over to Ezra. 

„I don’t know where you found the little dude but I already love him“

Ezra said, laughing at the cats action which left you more nervous then before. He wasn’t an idiot tho,knowing Sabine meant that everyone on the ghost learned the importance of someones privacy regarding a sketchbook. It was yours after all, who was he to do whatever he wanted with it, right?

„Would it be okay for you if I see it?“

He asked you, holding the sketchbook in his hands after the cat gave it to him. And you somehow where curious of how he’d react, if he’d like them or hate them. 

So you accepted.

„Sure.. just.. you’ll see it yourself“

You said, looking down at his hands that held it.

Ezra then opened it, the first page already on full display, showing sketches of him training and his eyes. He didn’t think too much into it, thinking that it was just a coincidence but when the page after and the one right after continued to have the sketches of someone looking like him, he couldn’t help but wonder. 

„y/n.. is this person me?“

He asked, slowly rising his head from your shoulder to look at you, and you nodded.

„Yeah..“

Was all you could say right now.

„Please don‘t feel creeped out..“

This catchend him off guard.

„Why should it creep me out?“

Ezra asked her, returning his gaze to your sketches. Looking at them in awe.

„These sketches are perfect like- they are amazing.. breathtaking even“

He continued to turn the pages, looking at each portrait of him, mesmerized by how perfect you catched in his details. 

And you where completely dumbfounded. Didn’t expect this reaction.

„But.. why me?“

Ezra then asked, getting you out of your confused state.

„Uhm…“

You started, not knowing how to explain it to him at all.

„well.. I needed to study the anatomy on someone so.. I decided to exercise it on the person I care the most..“

You said, looking down at your sketchbook.

Ezra then smirked.

„Is that so..?“

A blush made its way up to your face, reddening with each word he said.

„You’re adorable“

Was all he said before he placed a kiss on your temple. 

„You even drew the cat“

„I did“

He then closed the sketchbook after he was finished, laying it down next to you. 

„So.. I saw that you studied different parts of me too… which one was your favorite?“

His head was once again on your shoulder, holding you close with his other arm while you also held him close with yours around his waist. 

„Your eyes“ 

You said almost immediately.

„They remind me of the endlessness of our galaxy and the hyperspace‘s blue. I could look at them forever and never get bored by it. They’re.. You’re mesmerizing“

Your tone was genuine, and this time it was Ezra who was blushing. 

„Thank you..“

He said, feeling kind of proud that he had this comforting effect on you.

„You’re mesmerizing too tho..“

You chuckled at his nervousness. His cocky attitude from earlier being completely replaced by it right now. 

He then had an idea, knowing that his drawing skills were terrible.

„Would you want to teach me to draw like that too?“

He asked you, feeling excited about this. And you too felt the same, sharing your hobby with someone was good enough, but sharing it with your partner was just out of this world.

„Of corse! I’d be more then happy!!“

You said, your excitement evident in your voice. 

It was a promise you both looked forward to. 

Then, you two, okay technically three since the cat refused to go aways, laying down between you two, sat there with a perfect view, looking at the sunset in front of you, staying together until it went darker and darker, enjoying each others company.

You both were still unaware of what was about to come.

Which daring challenges would not only cost you one dear person, but also another one‘s well being.

Unbeknownst to you this was one of your last peaceful moments together. 

The galaxy had other plans for your futures and soon enough your sketches of him where the only things you had left to keep his memory fresh in your mind.

To remember him whenever you felt lost, feel close to him again even if you felt the loneliest you ever felt before.

They kept you strong, for years to come.

And you knew that whenever you’d find him again, you’d need to start a new one.

[bfiaflbox]

- Endanovember -

Pairing: Matty Healy x female reader

warnings: swearing, smoking, shitty writing

Disclaimer: this is a one shot at the moment. It's kinda Christmas themed, completely unrelated to anything else. I just sat down and typed this out so no proofreading here.

The title is from that graham Norton interview where Matty forgets where the album comes out and Ross reminds him that it was "Endanovember". Bon Appetit.

I wrote a second part to this, but I don't like it yet, so let me know if you're even interested in a second part :)

Endanovember 2022

„Are you ok?“ he asks, kind of timid. We‘re sat in a tiny coffee shop just around the corner from where he lives.

„Yeah…“ I struggle to put my feelings into words „I guess I just feel a bit melancholic“

„About what?“

„Christmas? I don’t know. I love the lights and the vibes and the idea but the reality always disappoints.���, I let out a sigh. After Matty doesn’t say anything I continue. „We were discussing Christmas plans in the family group chat and… my brother is spending it at his in-laws, my mom is going on some yoga retreat or whatever and I haven’t spoken to my dad in three years, so I‘m just kind of… here I guess? I don’t know, I feel a bit left behind“ fuck, putting it into words makes it feel real and hurt even more. It’s triggering some deeply rooted insecurity, the feeling of not being loved. Tears prick at my eyes but I’m determined to not let them fall. Proper date that would be, him taking time out of his busy day just to sit here with his … what, situationship? Friend with benefits? to cry about her disfunctional family.

He reaches out and takes my hand, his thumb drawing circles on the back of my hand. He doesn’t say anything at first. He seems to be lost in thought for a bit then says: „You could come home with me.“

„Are you inviting me for afternoon sex? Because I’m not averse to that idea“ I joke

„Nooo, I mean yes, but I was talking about Christmas. Come home with me to spend Christmas with me and my family.“

„What? Don’t you think that’s a bit much to bring your current fling to the family Christmas celebrations?“

„Fling??“ he looks at me kind of confused and hurt. He lets go of my hand.

„… I mean, yeah??“ now I’m not sure anymore. To be fair we haven’t talked about what this thing between us is. To say I liked him would be the understatement of the century but I definitely wasn’t his girlfriend. I met his mates and we spend as much time together as our schedules will allow but he’s a busy man, probably not just with music-related things. I never allowed myself to hope that this was an exclusive thing.

„No! What? Do you think that‘s what this is?? That‘s bullshit!“

I get the feeling I just fucked this up royally.

„I just…“

„Have you been seeing other guys?“ he interrupts me.

„No! I just thought that we haven’t talked about what this is and…“ I’m lost for words.

„Nine months! We see each other every chance we get, we speak every day, you know all my mates, I take you to every event as my plus one, I tell everybody you’re my girlfriend and you think this is just a fling??“

„I don’t know? there hasn’t been a single conversation about this!!“ I’m annoyed that he’s getting mad at me.

„I need a smoke“ he gets up, grabs his coat and leaves.

What the fuck just happened?? I stay seated for a few moments, then decide to go home, too. Fucking asshole, leaving me here like this.

I put on my coat and step outside into the cold late November air. Matty is pacing on the sidewalk in front of the cafe, cigarette in hand, looking upset. Apparently, he did not leave, he did indeed just need a smoke. I kind of feel guilty for doing him wrong like that, even if it was just in my head.

When he sees me, he stops for a second, looks at me and goes „Ok you know what? You’re right, we haven’t talked about this. Let’s talk about this.“

„Can we maybe not do that on the sidewalk?“

„Fine. Let’s go to my place."

He grabs my hand and starts walking. I want to yell three or four different things at him at the same time. I want to ask him where he finds the audacity to be mad at me, why the fuck are his hands this wonderfully warm when it’s freezing cold outside and also I want to beg him to let us fix this because it’s a good thing, whatever it is. But I stay quiet, walking beside him, down the street to his place.

Once we’re inside, I blurt out „I really don’t get why you‘re mad at me because…“ I don’t get to finish my sentence because Matty has pushed me against the wall of his hallway and is kissing me like a starved man. My anger is wiped away instantly and I want nothing else but to feel his lips on my lips, forever. Still, my hands find their way into his lovely soft curls. I make a fist and tug at the strands they grab, admittedly in an attempt to hurt him a tiny little bit.

He groans, breaks away and rasps „Kindly, shut the fuck up, I’m not mad at you, I’m mad at myself for not making it clear enough to you that I fucking love you“ Excuse me, what?

„Excuse me what?“

He huffs out a laugh „Yeah you heard me“

I‘m glad I have the wall for support because right now I’m not sure I would be able to hold my balance. I kind of want to ask him if he‘s taking the piss but think better of it. All I do is look at him while trying to process what just happened.

„Darling, you‘re the kindest, funniest, most compassionate person. You feel so true and reliable and safe. I know I'm not the easiest person to be with but I can leave some of the heavy things behind when I'm with you. And you’re so. Fucking. Sexy“ he kisses me again and I get it. I get it because I feel the same way. Being with Matty feels like coming home to a good place where someone actually gives a fuck. Yes, we are having a great time whenever we hang out, I just thought he didn’t feel remotely the same. But he‘s here, I‘m not making this up, this is actually happening.

„Could’ve said something earlier, Idiot“ I whisper as we break the kiss for air.

„I should have, shouldn’t I?“

I nod. „That would’ve been clever“

„Yeah“ he agrees.

„Yeah because... turns out I love you too and we could’ve had this all along“

„You could’ve said something, too, you know?“ he lets out a soft laugh

„And what, completely humiliate myself?“

„Hey, no kink shaming“

We both burst out laughing and I playfully swat at his chest. Matty hugs me in return and I feel like I'm finally home.

[puppiesfolder]

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-𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴! 🐶🐾

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꒰ #antons21on21 ♡ ꒱

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.　 +⠀ ⠀my sweetest pookie turns 21 today 😍🥳🎂

i’ve thought about this caption for so long and i still don't know what to say here. i always want to share all my love for anton, but i‘m actually not good with words. it’s a bit hard for me to say what he means to me and how i feel about him. or to tell you all the things i like about him. i can never find the right words, but i guess that's okay because i‘m more of a person who shows her love instead of saying her feelings.

but at least there are a few things i want to say anyway.

— my toni, my star, my sweetie, my brachio, my love, my anything 🦕🧡

it’s only been 282 days since i REALLY noticed you for the first time and the beginning of everything 🥹

i remember so well that i never thought i could love someone so much in such a short time, but things happened and i really couldn't get you out of my head. i had never allowed myself to feel this way, i just wasn't ready to fall in love with you. i was scared of what i was feeling in such a short time, but you never gave me a chance to not love you. the more i tried to look away from you, the more my heart wanted you and pushed me towards you. i needed a little more time to realize what you meant to me. it’s been such an interesting journey with you to get here. so many ups and downs, so much has happened in these few months, not only good things but also things that have hurt a lot, but the only thing that has happened is that i love you even more than before ♥️

my most memorable moment was definitely when i met you in person. when i think of that moment, i‘m still so happy and it still doesn't feel real to me that you really exist, it still makes me cry so often, because i miss you since then so much😭 but in that moment, when i was in front of you, nothing else mattered - it was just you and me. i just knew i loved you, but i never realized how much it actually is 💫 every single part of you is so precious to me and touches me in ways i didn't even know were possible. with you, i feel like nothing really bad can happen to me because when i‘m with you, it feels like my whole world stops. and i‘m so grateful that i found you by accident and never stopped thinking about you 🥺♥️

now it's the first time i can celebrate your birthday with you, that's a milestone for me - i think? 🤔

i know you don't want to get older, but cutie, that's okay. it’s just the way things are, and turning 21 is a special age. also, not everyone can say they turned 21 on a 21 🤭🧡

i really want you to always be happy and that's why this is my biggest wish for you on your birthday 🍀 i wish that your family is with you today. i hope you get a big big brachio cake 🧁🦕 to share with all your favorite people. pls just enjoy your day and take a break from all the stress that was bothering you in the last months, do whatever makes you happy and feels good to you 🌟

i hope the sun will shine today as brightly as it can for you. ☀️💛

in the end, all that is left for me to say is: i wish you the happiest birthday, my beloved anton 🥳🎂🧡

— 찬영시 사랑해 ♡ +. *

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ANTON TURNS 21 ON 21st

#문쪼꿈열어_앤톤생일이야

#ANTONishingDay

[mod-doodles]

Quick rant but i‘m struggling with the bear fandom and cast/show runners response to sydcarmy or in general romance? why is everyone so pretentious i saw someone on twt say people who ship sydcarmy need to get out because this is not riverdale and it pissed me off so much what’s with this assumption of two main characters falling in love makes the show less serious or something. Ayo‘s interviews are also still a bad taste in my mouth because i feel bad openly shipping them now idk i don’t want this to be one of those shows were the actors/creators hate their fans/fandom :/

Firstly confession I never watched an episode of Riverdale I tapped out that YA genre when I stopped watching PLL, TVD and the originals, so I don’t get the reference.

With fans of the show who hate the ship it’s layered: apparently people hate love, the romance genre, interracial love, Carmy being in love, Sud being the one he’s in love with and much more lmao. Some of these people have intersecting thoughts on this.

The articles from the cast and crew it’s a catch 22 situation, I’m a cynic so my approach to life is ‘expect the worst and be prepared for the best’. What they’re saying does not align with what I’m seeing and I’m aware that what I’m seeing is not say a stereotypical Redditor is seeing and that’s fine. I’m also aware that show runners need to keep viewer’s attention and want for more, hence cliffhangers and plot twists; they aren’t going to give us a play by play of the stories progression.

My suggestion is to do whatever you think is best for you and your mental health! That might be avoiding certain platforms where they engage in those conversations that might enrage you or it might be silent shipping.

For me it’s knowing what I’ll yet from each platform so if I go look I now what to expect

Twitter: is mostly a good time if you stay to the fandom tags, idk what anyone else is doing. I do know Twitter was fighting on the frontlines of the anti ship battle at one point and god bless them for their service.

TikTok: is great at helping you be delulu with all the fanedits lol but I know the algorithm is suggesting is anyone who is remotely interested in the show the the comments while mostly pro ship have some anti ship viewers as well.

Instagram: idk anything besides the official instagram for the show so you’ll get everyone’s opinions on everything.

Tumblr: is a safe space, all the ships have their own tags and mind their own business 🤍 that but also after having interacted with people who ship sydrichie / sydmarcus there wasn’t any animosity so great.

It’s a show, we’re experiencing escaping reality don’t let anyone ruin the fun for you. Be unbothered and delulu!

[rose-colored-sd]

I loooove your art so much!!! It‘s beautiful! I‘m a new slam dunk fan (only 70-ish chapters in or so) but I really liked Yohei before … and then your art made me love him even more!! I hope this isn‘t a weird question, I‘m genuinely just curious (and I hope to get sucked into the ship even more hah) but what do you like about Yohana the most? (from my point of view, still early in the manga, seeing how Yohei tries his best to keep Hanamichi out of trouble, trying to keep the thugs off his back and all, thats just … GAH!!!! So cute!!!! Yohei is peak husband material isn‘t he??) ((Also, if you don‘t mind, don you like Ryota/Hanamichi as well? I think they are so cute … sharing one brain cell basically (again, from my point of view, things may change maybe? idk, anyway)) Thank you for sharing your amazing artworks with the world!!! They make me sooooo happy, just, thank you so so much!! I‘m currently struggling a lot with everything irl and when I feel sad or overwhelmed I look at your art and it always makes me smile <3

Ryohana was my first ship and I made a few drawings for them before I was fully absorbed by Yohana LOL. Reading SD, it’s just so funny and cute how quick they get along when Hanamichi is usually reluctant to trust other people’s judgement, and Ryota is like an older brother to him. It’s even more endearing to me that Ryota has a little sister, so I imagine that he thinks of Hanamichi as a little brother too. I love seeing their dynamic whether it’s platonic or romantic!

I think it’s after I reread SD a few times is when I started liking Yohana, (also thanks to Chidentsurusai who was one of the few people that made Ryohana and Yohana before SD got its renaissance)

Like you said, Yohei has his back. He’s just so attentive without even trying. He notices the subtle changes in Hanamichi’s mood, or guess whatever Hanamichi’s thinking. I also like that he always makes fun of Hanamichi but when it’s a group of guys making fun of Hanamichi he will not stand by it (Let’s just say he doesn’t like it when he’s not the one causing Hanamichi’s frustrations 🤭)

It’s also interesting to me that Yohei seems to dgaf about following school dress codes, listening to class, respecting the teachers, etc, but he’s willing to abide by the rules when it benefits his best friend.

I also love that said best friend is dense. Hanamichi is a big sap that writes love letters to confess his feeings, his dream is to hold hands while walking home with the person he likes. There’s just so many possibilities when your protag is a dumb little yearner 😙 (fact his love for basketball also outgrew his feelings is also interesting to me, who knows what else he realizes 🫢⁉️)

I’m glad my delusional drawings are giving you some joy, Anon 🫶🏼 Yohana gives me joy too when it’s rough irl, my pookies fr

[beardedhandstoadshark]

If Smash Bros is a kid playing with toys, Melee is said kid getting older, and Brawl/Subspace Emissary is them growing up and struggling with the societal pressure to stop being into "childish things“ already vs going "fuck you cringe is dead“ to them, then where does that leave Sm4sh and Ultimate?

Especially Sm4sh, with the Master Core. That thing was weird, right? It came out of nowhere, created nightmare fuel, and dropped dead on the ground.

So I‘m proposing: it continues right where it left off. Tabuu is dead, and with it, The Cringe. The first kid, then teen, now adult is living their best life creating sickass crossovers of more games than ever before now that they‘ve got a Steam Account.

But anyone who‘s ever grown up ridiculed, be it for their hobbies or their interests or whatever, who’s spent their entire life up until then perfecting how to hide what they love from anyone else and no one to share, knows: The shame doesn‘t leave. Not completely.

It lingers, it festers, in the back of your mind and out of sight on most days, all the little jabs and familiar hurt every single act of love reminds you of piles up one by one, until one day in the middle of it all it finally cracks, and bursts out stronger than ever.

Or in other words; if you fight the hands on a high enough difficulty, it gets interrupted by the Master Core violently ripping out of Master Hand.

Aside from Master Hand specifically being the Creation half of the Hand Duo, putting emphasis on that, the Core’s forms are interesting. It starts off as a humanoid giant with no face but a glowing head, sweeping arms arms across the stage like someone shoving their things off a table, the head bursting open into a vacuuming void or slammed on the ground.

Defeat it, and it turns into a Beast. With sharp teeth and spikes in its back, claws like a T-Rex and scorpion tail, it looks like a chimera of animals a kid would find cool.

After that, too-many swords with spiky edges and even spikier decoration barely made out. Look me in the eyes and tell me you didn’t have an edgelord phase as a 13y old where you thought stuff like this was the sickest shit ever.

Then the next phase: You. Or rather, the character you picked to make it this far. If it’s your first time, most likely your favorite or Main too. It’s programmed to be bigger than the player and have all your custom moves and equipment, but as you defeat it, it shrinks down in size as the Black swarm slowly clears to show the colors underneath.

If you defeat it in the 3DS version, this is where it ends. In the WiiU version, you get another phase: Subspace Emissary Body Horror Edition. A maze that plays just like Brawls (Tabuu’s) Subspace, but in the form of a body whose guts you traverse, where you have to find and hit 4 hearts that audibly beat. It spits you back out after the first 2, but you go back in to finally finish the job,

And there it is. The Master Core. Cleared of the festering swarm, it’s just lying there. Still. Glowing a bit, a rainbow of the previous forms’ colors contained with black and white. Behind all the darkness, there is nothing that can really hurt you.

(Unless you wait for too long. Because if you wait for 45 seconds, it will fly back up and unleash Tabuu’s attacks on you.

Because if you don’t do anything against those thoughts and ignore them, the shame will just come back to strike you.)

So you go kick it, and it comes back. You strike it, it comes back. Next kick, it comes back again, another kick, strike, every time it comes back, but every time, it flies a bit farther, takes a bit longer, is easier to get rid off, until finally, for the last time, for real this time- GAME!

So that’s what the Master Core is, imo. The literal Core of all the negative thoughts that festered over the years of the kid, teen, adults’ shame of loving the things they do, ending in them finally coming to terms with their childhood experiences and moving past them once and for all.

(And Ultimate’s spirit mode is them getting into the Smash Bros fandom on the internet but if i ever explain that one it’s in a different post)

[ft-3racha]

hey people,

i just noticed that we are almost at 600 followers??? what???? to know that so many of you enjoy what i do on here means a lot to me, so i wanted to take the opportunity to talk a little, so please feel free to interact with me in the comments, because i have a very important question and i want you to decide with me on this one:

WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE AS A SPECIAL?

i do have some ideas, but maybe there is something you‘re really interested in i haven‘t thought of yet? and i want to make sure y‘all also get a say in this, since this blog wouldn‘t be where it is without you!!

second thing is: i never really told you guys anything about me really…

so hi, my name‘s marlon, i‘m in my early twenties, pronouns are he/him and i‘m a guy!! i know the kpop community is more of a female dominated place, but i feel very welcome nevertheless. <3

next up: the groups i stan and my bias(es)

- stray kids is my ult group, my ult bias is chan (i would literally die for him wow), but i also bias han and changbin, the other five are my bias wreckers (it‘s just the way it is what can i say)

- my ateez biases (yes, another bias line sue me) are mingi (i love that man with my entire soul), hongjoong and san; bias wreckers are wooyoung and yunho (but everyone wrecks me every now and then, so one could argue again)

- p1harmony biases are keeho and intak, bias wreckers are jeongseob (mY ROOT CAME 2005-) and jiung hihi

- seventeen biases are s.coups, mingyu and wonwoo, unsure about bias wreckers atp bc i‘m not that deep into svt yet

- with enhypen, my bias is heeseung and bias wreckers are jake and sunghoon

- my txt bias is yeonjun (the man that initially got me into kpop tysm), bias wreckers are kai and soobin

- and finally, bts: my biases are yoongi and jungkook, bias wreckers are hobi and namjoon (but everyone else is also chef‘s kiss, so again…)

i don‘t know if you noticed, but i have a thing for rappers and/or leaders….oh well-

anyways, that‘s it. let‘s chat a little!! tell me about your biases, talk to me about the special…or whatever you feel like talking about.

thank you<3

[rooftopvibes]

Books I read in January

Franz Kafka / Complete stories 🏢

This year it’s the 100 anniversary of Kafka‘s death so I decided to start this year with a book which contains all his short stories 💓 I‘m obviously not going to talk about every singe one of them because there are so many so I picked a few I liked a lot and the longer ones.

What I really like about Kafka is that there are so many ways to interpret his work, you can even find a new way to interpret it and you always make your own work out of it in a sense that it can be about your life and your feelings and you feel understood by it because it describes how you‘ve been feeling all these years, you just never found the right words for it. So it speaks to you in a very special way since it’s not only talking to you but it is what you make it. Maybe I just feel that way because I read Kafka’s biography/letters and I feel very connected to him so I don’t know how people experience it who don’t relate to him as a person/his letters that much.

• Resolutions

I swear I had this short story on my mind all day, every day! I read it some months ago but I think I didn’t quite understand it well and I always came back to it and read it so many times and it found its way into my heart! It describes so well how I feel and what I‘ve been doing for years, it also made me quite sad. For me this story is about always getting up, always finding your way out of a terrible state (which is relatively easy) yet you are pretending and deep down you still feel miserable. So the only way to break this circle is to not only accept your misery, but also „throttle down whatever ghostly life is remained, that is, to enlarge the ultimate peace of the graveyard and let nothing else exist besides that.“ and not even get better, not even try because it’s not worth the effort and you are tired. You finally just want to feel peace and stop this war within yourself.

• A Report to an Academy

I liked this story a lot and it also made me feel understood. It feels like such a deep story but on the surface it’s a very funny one, it’s about an ape who becomes human-like since he is forced to live among humans and is being dragged away from his real home. Especially the feeling of isolation and never feeling any sense of belonging, like there is something inherently different/wrong about you but you have no choice but to adapt to a society that just doesn’t fit to your world, that came through to me. You don’t adapt, you are going to die but believe me you still have to suffer, even if you function in this society, you will always be different deep down. But it’s also about identity and the animal part in us humans. I read it more like the ape was just a metaphor for a human who is very different from everyone else. I know my 12 year old self would have loved the story and would have felt so understood, so I‘m sad that I didn’t find it earlier.

• The Judgement

You get to know a lot about Kafka himself when reading this story since it’s about a father and son relationship and marriage (a topic which he always feared and avoided). It’s very tragic and while reading it makes me so angry at the father and i‘m just in disbelief. You have to consider that Kafka wrote this story in one night and you have to imagine what he felt. It was also one of the first stories he wrote, so one of his first experiences what literature can do for you and that it is a place to let out anger and find relief, that it is a place where everything can happen. I think you can feel what he felt while writing it also the fact that he wrote it in one session really comes through.

•The Burrow

The burrow is such an interesting story, for me it’s all about paranoia, loneliness yet longing for others and always this vague anxiety. The protagonist (an animal) is very paranoid because he always hears this noise and is afraid someone will take over his burrow. I feel like it resembles Kafka‘s relationships with woman, he is scared to let someone into his burrow, he is scared to get out of it to go into the real world. I also felt like the burrow pictures his mind and his work with it‘s many floors and the mindset that it has to be perfect yet being very anxious about it, about what if it’s broken, what if there is something wrong with my burrow (me and my mind?). So I won’t let anyone in it. There is also this part of the protagonist wanting to drown in his work, not wanting to be part of the outside world. I think you can interpret this work in many different ways and that’s just how I personally feel about it. Also it ends in the middle of the sentence and you don’t know who will win, the threat (the noise) or the protagonist. Kafka wrote this story at the end of his life so it can be also interpreted like the noise (the threat) is coming from inside the animal and is the illness that’s slowly killing him yet always getting louder. I think it’s such a good metaphor because when you‘re ill it feels like there is always this noise in the background that gets louder and louder and will eventually kill you. Also in his other short story „Advocates“ there is this loud noise and I see them in a connection.

•The Metamorphosis

It’s what Kafka is known for, the bug became a symbol even though he wrote to a publisher that the bug can’t be on the cover because „it can’t be drawn, it can’t even be shown from a distance.“ It was very painful to read and you could feel the despair, the shame and the guilt. It left me with a very painful and uncomfortable feeling when Gregor had the apple stuck in his back even when I think about it now I feel very uncomfortable. I see that this is so legendary because at the time it was written it was new and there was nothing like this. Still today there is nothing like this work and it is as legendary as it was back then. I think it’s very easy to understand and to relate to so I understand why so many people love this work. There are already so many interpretations on this work so I‘ll just leave it for now.

• A Hunger Artist

A Hunger Artist who’s talent it is to not eat loses slowly the recognition of society. This story goes hand in hand with Josephine the Singer since in both of them the protagonist is an artist and they are both about the life of an artist and their relationship to the public, their struggles and their uselessness, they worked themselves to death for nothing, they didn’t even get the recognition they longed for. Even though it is written with a lot of irony, it has something very true to it since artists often struggle to survive in this society and often don’t get the recognition they deserve even though they destroy themselves by working so hard and dedicate their whole life to their work.

•Josephine the Singer

Josephine the Singer always whistles and is ordinary yet the people come and listen to her voice. This is Kafka’s last work he wrote and it resembles the state he was in, very ill, seeing death coming but also looking at it with some kind of peace. At the beginning I was kind of confused and didn’t understand the story, so I think it is important to know that this was his last work in order to understand it better. It gave me a feeling that Kafka was still anxious that his work isn’t good enough and he will be forgotten.

• The Penal Colony

A gruesome machine which exists to kill the condemned is the protagonist in the Penal Colony. The other characters seem like nothing more than a role, a solider, a officer, a visiter and a condemned. When Kafka read this story publicly (one of his very few public readings) it was a very big scandal, it is said that people were passing out and running out of the place because the story is so nauseating. The Penal Colony was written during the first world war so it can be seen as a reflection and comment of those times where brutal tortures were common.

The first time I read it I had a very different experience then when I read it now. All I remember from the first time I read it is that it was making me feel very nauseas and I was shocked by the brutality. When I read it now it didn’t have that shocking effect because I already knew what is going to happen (yet it is still nauseating of course!) Now I felt a lot of satisfaction while reading because this immense pain one can feel isn’t just something vague in your body, it becomes something logical and solid (the machine). What’s within you becomes material out of your body so you’re just letting it out. It might sound very masochistic to say it like that but I think you can find a lot of relief in the Penal Colony.

Stephen Chbosky / The Perks of being a Wallflower 🪻

„You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand.“ I didn‘t know that other people thought things about me. I didn’t know that they looked.“

Charlie starts his first year of highschool and is quite anxious about it so he writes anonymous letters to a stranger (a person he just heard about). We watch him try to „participate“ more in life, like his english teacher Bill told him to. He finds friends, loves, tries drugs and makes some mistakes. Throughout the letters we get to hear a lot about his Aunt Hellen who died in a car crash. It begins and ends with this mysterious figure, where we, by the end of the novel, get a clear picture about.

I read this novel the first time 1,5 years ago and it inspired my writing a lot, there are many quotes in it which I still think about today. Also it is my comfort book. I felt terrible and decided to read it again. It’s easy to read and it has so many nice moments. I also love the characters! By the end it made me cry so much i don’t know why. Finishing the book is really the worst part because it’s my comfort and then when I’m finished I don’t have any comfort anymore so I read it very slowly. Also it made me realize how I don’t participate in life at all and don’t even attempt to do that and that just made me sad. I felt it so much when Carlie thought there was something off about him and when he felt panic when Sam touched him :(( It will always be one of my favorite books and i know it’s always there to comfort me so I‘m a little sad that it’s so short even though I think it shouldn’t be longer. Also the movie is actually really good because the writer of the novel is also the director of the movie but some of my favorite parts are missing in the movie. I watched the movie before I read the book and I feel kind of sad about that because I already had a clear picture of the character and the place in my head before even reading it.

Hermann Hesse / Narcissus & Goldmund 💒

Goldmund, an artist meets Narcissus, a soon becoming monk at the cloister school. They teach each other important things about life and lead each other on the path that is meant for them. You see Goldmund grow and find himself throughout the novel while he goes on long hikes, doesn’t have a home and meets many many lovers but also other people who become friends or enemies. It’s a lot about longing and desire but also about finding one‘s path. Narcissus and Goldmund are so different yet they are bond for life.

I didn’t know what the novel was about so I read it with zero expectations but I definitely didn’t expect it to be a gay romance novel so I was surprised. I mean you can’t make me believe that Narcissus isn’t totally in love with Goldmund. So my expectations were high after the first chapter, not only because of the characters but also because the way nature was described is very beautiful and I loved the whole atmosphere at the cloister. I could imagine it so well as I had to study cloisters the time I read the novel I could imagine it even better and was in the mood for it. When Goldmund leaves the cloister and is going wild for girls I was getting a little bit bored, it’s just not a topic I‘m interested in and it made me kind of uncomfortable to read. But then the part of him being an artist and finding himself are great and there are very beautiful passages in every chapter. The end was really beautiful again and I definitely think this novel makes you think and can teach you some things but I feel like not everyone will like the language or relate to the characters. So I‘m really unsure about this novel because I loved the beginning and the end but the middle part wasn’t so interesting to me. I haven’t read a book like this so it’s really special, I’m just unsure what to think about it. At times it touched parts of me that remained untouched and i also enjoyed reading it but sometimes it just made me feel weird. Overall it’s very beautiful, it creates a special atmosphere but there is something about it that makes me feel weird and uncomfortable even though it can be comforting at times. Maybe it’s just that the novel leaves me kind of empty and clueless, I can’t really say what’s bothering me. But I will still read other works by Hesse. Since this was my first one I shouldn’t judge too hard, maybe I just need some time and read some more works to get a greater understanding of his language.