#did problems

[burningsolarsystem]

Love how one of the biggest reasons I thought I couldn't have DID was because I didn't experience blackouts.

Then proceeded to refuse to consider it after I discovered that PDID is a thing.

Meanwhile, ironically, though I don't have major blackout moments, I do have a few minor ones on occasion.

I can't tell you how many times I might get snapped at for asking a question I just asked a minute ago. Not fun to try to explain "Oh sorry, my brain forgot it existed." So I just laugh it off and pretend I'm not terrified of the fact I don't remember the fact I just asked the same question.

Or I'll be cleaning and suddenly "come to" while walking to return an object I cleaned back to its place and I'll have to look at it and look around to see where I got it from because last I remember I was cleaning a different object. Like idk, what do you mean I cleaned this, since when?

And later in I'll laugh about these moments, but at the time it's pretty terrifying that I can't remember something that literally happened a minute before.

So idk. But at least some things are starting to make sense.

(Sorry for the run ons and bad grammar and stuff, I'm hoping it's not too bad. I'm tired and today was a day.)

[thefluxsystem]

I wish people understood that being a system doesn’t inherently make you feel less alone

We can try to help each other out as much as we want, but, no matter what we do, we’re all still trapped inside the same derailing train

[stellichor-system]

Frantically sifting through the brain for alters that can have a reasonable response to things™

[thehellsaint]

Eh, it sounds to us like you have a fundamental misunderstanding of what endogenic systems actually are.

I know endos don't respect systems enough to educate themselves on what actually causes alters to form but I actually read the things linked to me and was able to come to the informed decision that your sources are thinly veiled editorials by non-reputable sources.

Some endos say they're choosing to have a disorder, some say they're choosing to have alters, all of them invade spaces they're not welcome and help themselves to the resources made for and by disabled people who need them.

[cerealsystem]

Nothing like having people look at you funny when you reference something that happened yesterday like it happened three years ago

[only-knives]

sometimes i forget children exist

[hermitsdump]

as a kid the adults at church kept telling me that I would be a brain surgeon because I had long fingers (which is stupid bc as an adult I'm always teased for having small hands??)

and it rly affected me, for years I was afraid that no matter what I wanted to do that I would end up in that field and that was too much responsibility

Anyway inside me are 2 wolves and one throws up and cries looking at diagrams of skin layers and hair follicles. the other wolf craves images and information of medical stuff.

[neptunejheart]

This makes me laugh cus relatable

[undead-furbies]

I'm Host of a system & currently sick so my throat is sore and I sound terrible.

I've been trying to be quiet so that I could get my voice back but the problem is that all the other alters see this as an opportunity to talk so the body just keeps talking anyways & I'll never get my voice back😭

[burningsolarsystem]

Turns out my memory is worse than I thought, and I hate it.

My gf and I were talking and the topic of the first time we met came up. And I didn't remember. She described the whole thing and, nothing. I couldn't remember. Then she explained how we became friends and started hanging out and I still don't remember. My brain has forgotten most of the beginning and only starts remembering after we were already close and falling in love.

Apparently, the nickname she always uses for me was given to me when we first met. I didn't even remember that, I thought she gave me that nickname later on.

I don't remember meeting her. I don't remember becoming her friend. I don't remember, and I am on the verge of tears because I want to remember. I desperately want to remember, but I can't.

Why did my brain rob me of this? Of everything I could have forgotten, why this?

And I felt awful the whole conversation because I should remember. I should. What kind of partner am I if I don't? I'm just glad she understands and didn't hate me for not remembering.

I don't remember and I'm terrified. What else could I have forgotten? What other important memories will I forget? What important memories have I forgotten already?

So, yeah... my memory sucks and I hate it. That's how my day is going.

[thefluxsystem]

i want to be able to go into denial about being a system again, like way back when. and i know that’s a strange thing to want, denial, but… there was a time when i was still hopeful the right antipsychotics would work. i miss when there was a chance that it wasn’t DID.

[stellichor-system]

Nobody:

Not a single soul:

That one alter breathing down your neck "just in case" because you've been left alone: 👁️👄👁️

[bewitched-bullet]

Something that's really hard. Being fired or let go from a job of 6+ years because your symptoms of DID become too much for your employment to accommodate (Not that they even tried), and that, in turn, causing more trauma to the system.

Yay (sarcasm)

[cerealsystem]

Our therapist wants us to try these mindfulness exercises but every time all of us but one attempts to do it we fuzz out and get blurry. It was a mild annoyance at first but now I can’t enjoy my brownies without remembering I’m supposed to be mindful and turning into soup

[contemplatesolitude]

My 15 years old overly shy personality screwing up the chances of me, horny girl, fucking.

[chappellroansgf]

when you’re feeling really happy and carefree and then someone you didn’t realize was confronting decides to remind you y’all have debilitating depression