#existentialist

[thepursuitofunderstanding]

You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame; how could you rise anew if you have not first become ashes?

Friedrich Nietzsche

[dzgrizzle]

From Tom Gauld (and Kierkegaard)

[jeanclamence]

—Nausea, Jean-Paul Sartre

[psykopathy]

Me vs me

[wanderingmind867]

This might sound weird, but I kind of wish tumblr could track when I began following people and/or when I became mutuals with them. Because my memory is not always as great as I want it to be. I don't even remember when I made this account. All I know is that my mom died in 2022, and I made this account probably around 2021. I don't remember when I gained each of my followers, though. Kind of wish I did. It's not like these are in real life friendships (of which i have very very few), but this is more than i used to have. These (combined with my years of social skills classes), probably helped me to become more social. I'm still not social enough to share my anger issues with anyone besides my dad (everyone else still only sees my polite side), but I talk more in school now (which still only means i occasionally speak). I blame the social skills classes and this account, honestly.

And since I blame this account for helping me, I kind of wish I could see when I first gained each of my mutuals. Timelines might me existential, but they're still something my brain craves. Now, what brought this on, you're probably wondering? I'll tell you. My phone has a copy of my tumblr activity tab saved, and it always displays it when I have no internet at school. The posts there are all about the lost hero, so i must've made them in september or october. And it showed @snapcandle liking one of my posts from back then, so it's got me thinking. When did I "meet" these people? When did I gain all these mutuals? It might make me feel miserable to realize how fast time has gone by, but now the thoughts stuck in my head.

[philosophors]

“If anyone on the verge of action should judge himself according to the outcome, he would never begin.”

— Søren Kierkegaard, “Fear and Trembling”

[ahdndnaneb]

“Any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we’re doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.”

— Homer, The Iliad

[chwoyaz]

how i perceive skk and their philosophical beliefs, particularly existentialism and absurdism

in my opinion, dazai's an existentialist. his character explores around the concept of finding meaning in life bcs he has no idea what's the point of it all. is there even value in the act of living? or is it just a foolish desire human beings have?

we all know dazai struggles with human emotions and has a constant conflict with his own identity

and yet, dazai constantly makes his choices in order to seek meaning (ex. staying in the mafia for a period of time, joining the ada, saving people, etc.)

the thing is, he WANTS to learn what it means to be human; wants to understand and find the value of life

as for chuuya, i believe he's an absurdist.

chuuya's journey is simply—for lack of a better word—ridiculous.

he has faced many absurd challenges in his life, yet managed to turn his life around through sheer force of will (mind you), and continues to live through it all with a devoted passion towards maintaining his relationship with humanity

like dazai, chuuya also struggles feeling human. at his worse moments, he feels like a weapon only wielded for war

despite that, chuuya continues living and commits himself to the people around him as an act of defiance in my opinion

yes, the conditions of his life is inane. laughable. maybe even pointless. but does it matter?

he doesn't particularly care abt the greater value of life or actively search for the meaning behind it, since he has already lived his entire life accepting its madness

he does and will constantly choose to live in spite of his conditions bcs he refuses to give in to the notion that he's not human and therefore shouldn't even cease to exist

in the end, chuuya rejects the promise of death and the power of destruction he's clearly capable of in order to stay in touch with his humanity—no matter how absurd his life is

[aosdatc-s]

Riddle me this:

Why am I now an absurdist while I'm reading Sartre and De Beauvoir but a year ago, was an existentialist while reading Camus?

[crustaceansingles]

You shouldn't have encouraged me yesterday if you didn't want me to drop everything and do more juiceposting.

[thepursuitofunderstanding]

When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago.

Friedrich Nietzsche

[dzgrizzle]

[jeanclamence]

La Femme Impeccable

The Impeccable Woman by Jean- Clamence (me)

You are wonderfully angelic.

Your touch is irresistibly surreal.

Whenever we are alone together, I feel intensely hedonistic.

I feel myself renewed; loving you endlessly, never resisting or submitting an appeal, willingly walking away from what is real.

In a way, you are the tangible soul of a full life and everything in it's pursuit;

Both in sadness and in madness, in dysphoria and euphoria, your very fingertips hold fine life—the sick and healthy present of this vast, meaningless human existence.

I sometimes even question myself; 'Why is it her I make my muse?'

I sometimes even find myself answering 'no' to the question 'Is this life of no use?'

There is a gentile, sensible, exquisitely distinct atmosphere which floats about your being and draws me as a deserted nightlight attracts a sole moth.

I run to you mindlessly, mechanically, following a fluttering beauty so full of life as a cat does, seeking the delightful enrichment of my soul which I have only ever found in you.

[embracethelacerations]

Wrote a little poem, thought I'd share:

Chocking embrace of life

Dark entombs consciousness

Last gasp for air

Eternal nothingness

[su3asideal]

make me bleed again

make me bleed again

while my wounds are still fresh,

watch me w those eyes

while you stab me in the chest,

make me bleed again

while i love you ......

[pisceanpharies]