#i used to be so certain about what the “perfect” i wanted to strive for was and had so many rules for myself in order to appear acceptable

[bi-panicatthedisco]

>:Đ hello hello! l wanna request a self aware au TWST about player defend them? Like player is hang out with they friends(in real life) while play the game and the friends will go "oh you like him? l just think he overrated his reasons of overblot does kind of selfish" and player just start explain about how they understand them reasons to overblot and they just love them just the way they are while them hearing it all because player still have the game open ,can you write this with Vil, Jamil , Leona and Malleus please? Thank you( ◜‿◝ )♡((´ ω `♡) hehe l just think of this after reading your other post about this au💕 l love your blog so much have a nice day:3💕💕💕)

Defence Of Blotted Images

~Request~

[hey guys, author here! ah man this one took awhile, love the prompt, really it was motivating! But then the procrastination bug got me after Jamils lol. But finally finished them, hope you like it! Accidentally went a little off the prompt I think? Reading it over it might not be exactly what you asked, but hopefully it'll still be okay haha. Thanks a bunch for the request! And as always remember to drink some water and get some rest! And like before, side note that there's still two requests open]

------------------------Vil-----------------------

Your day has been going well, a visit to your friends house. Just hanging out and watching some shows, and playing twisted wonderland.

During a lull in the conversation, you decide to open twst and use up the LP. Alchemy lessons with Vil Schoenheit. Your friend notices this, a weird expression on their face.

Friend: "Vil? Eh, not my favorite."

Well that caught your attention, and the attention of a certain character inside your device. Accidentally messing up his potion and getting a good.

"Why's that?"

Friend: "I mean, he's kinda spoiled. Back when he overbloted, everyone just forgot about it. And don't even get me started on the overblot itself!"

"What!? Vil definitely isn't spoiled, I mean he worked hard to get what he has! And what are you talking about with the overblot?"

Friend: "okay, agree to disagree on the first point. But the overblot was seriously the point I started hating his character. He tried to destroy the whole world, just because someone else was more beautiful than him! That's so stupid! I didn't really like him before that, but that was definitely the nail in the coffin."

Vil freezes, his body starting to move automatically to do the lessons as his mind is racing. He agrees with your friend on some points. His overblot was truly his most ugly moment, a desperation that pushed him to the brink of madness. Yet despite knowing that, he can't help but hope you don't see him as only the man he was during the overblot. A feeling of dread settling into his gut over your next words.

"Okay, I get where you're coming from to an extent, but Vil is so much more nuanced than that. He's hard working, striving for perfection in himself and others. And holding himself to the highest standards. Only to see Neige stand up on that stage, and appeal to something he could never have. It makes sense he'd have a hard time."

Friend: "that's another thing, the whole plot with Neige didn't make much sense. I mean Vil still got big roles, so what if Neige got the 'hero' role? It just feels like making a big deal out of nothing, cause he wants to be the main character."

"But all through his life he was always typecast as a villain! That would seriously affect a kids psyche, constantly being told they'd make a great villain. Being too perfect to be a hero, or even human. It'd get to everyone! He doesnt even want to just 'be a hero' he wants to stay on stage till the end of the show, without his character dying or being defeated by the heros."

Friend: "still doesn't justify trying to kill Neige, just feels petty to me. Wasn't Neiges fault he came up with a better performance for the sdc."

"Okay, very arguable, lots of folks think NRC had the better performance there. and while he did try to kill Neige, it wasn't just because 'Neige had a better performance'. There were many factors at play."

Now you're starting to get a little worked up, and your friend is laughing to themselves. Meanwhile Vil has a shocked expression on his face, that goes unnoticed due to the vigor with which you defend one of your favs.

"First of all, all the stuff I mentioned before. The performance industry making them into rivals, with Vil always on the losing side. Vil wanted to win this performance so desperately, practicing for weeks. Seeing it as the chance to prove he can be better than Neige when being judged on their own merits and not just the industries casting. Only for to see Neiges performance and immediately assume he's going to win exactly the same way he has for their entire lives. Not only that, but the blot drips were influencing his judgement. He's a great character, who made a bad choice in a moment of high emotions fueled by years of resentment. Which he later admitted was him at his worst, and regretted!"

Friend: "...pfft- haha! Noted, don't get you started about Vil hahaha!"

"So many feelings. Not enough words."

Friend: "mood."

You both laugh a little, and completely miss Vils expression. You... You know a lot about him, but to know all of that and still defend him so much... Well it's flattering to say the very least.

As the lessons run out and the screen turns off, he's left there, a soft smile on his face. His want to meet you in person reignited tenfold. He'll never ask for anyone to defend him, not one to accept handouts or pity. But for you to do such a thing, and say with such resolve. He will accept it with grace and gratitude.

Thank you player, and see you soon.

----------------------Jamil----------------------

You yawn, leaning back on your friends couch as you open twisted wonderland. It's been a slow day, just a relax and do whatever sorta day. You click on the lessons tab and start Jamils alchemy lessons, having no idea the insanity you were about to hear.

Your friend sits down next to you, leans over and says something you can hardly believe.

Friend: "huh? Jamil? Geez, why would you pick him? He's pretty annoying haha."

"...what?"

Friend: "y'know, betrayed Kalim, threw a fit when his evil plan failed, nearly killed folks just cause he wanted to be housewarden? One of the worst characters in the game, easily."

"WHAT?!"

In your state of utter disbelief at the misunderstanding of his character, you don't see the twinge of annoyance on Jamils face. Who is your friend to judge him like that? He bets they'd do the same in his position! Besides that... How dare they try and make you dislike him. And what if it works...?

Friend: "I mean, Kalim was just trying to be a good friend. And Jamil completely betrayed him just to be housewarden! Not only that, but his overblot was especially pathetic. He just threw a fit cause his plan failed. A plan which included kidnapping the MC, brainwashing Kalim, and manipulating the entire dorm! Easily one of the worst villains, and most annoying characters."

"You're kidding, right?"

Friend: "no? Why would I be. It's true haha."

"Well for one you're leaving out basically all the details and reasonings! Like for example, I dunno, THE YEARS OF FORCED SUBSERVIENCE AND REPRESSING HIS OWN WANTS AND POTENTIAL TO UPLIFT KALIM?!"

Friend: "still doesn't excuse him."

"Sure, his anger over the years of his life forced to only be a shadow to Kalim, and the impossibility of ever escaping those chains locked around him at birth. It was a little misplaced during the overblot. But you must remember that he'd only ever been stifled while working behind Kalim, and NRC in his head was his one chance to escape his cage, if only for a brief few years. Then Kalims parents bought his way in, and Jamil was forced back to the shadows after getting a taste of freedom."

Friend: "okay, geez, dramatic much? Still shouldn't have been taken out on Kalim. The sunshine boy was innocent!"

"Sure, but he was innocent because he was blind to Jamils suffering! While I don't like what he did to Kalim, it's understandable why. ...it's kinda a tragedy, he has all the potential to be one of the greatest mages if he could only be given the chance. And yet he has to see those opportunities be given to Kalim, just because of the family he was born into. Neither side was completely in the right, and you can't just dismiss Jamil as all bad because of the what we saw during and before his overblot!"

As you finally slow down, you realize your friend looks amused. And you suddenly realize just how silly of a thing this is to argue over. You just have so many emotions on this guy!!

Friend: "wow, Kay lots of feelings on the snake dude. Noted haha."

"He's just so cool and tragic and I hope he gets all the freedom and happiness in the world! Easily one of the favs."

Friend: "alright, I guess he's a Little more nuanced and stuff. But we're still gonna have to agree to disagree on liking this guy."

"Fine fine, for now. I'll get you to care about him eventually though!"

Friend: "pfft- good luck!"

The conversation dwindles out, and you feel a sense of resolve to show your friend all the wonders and beauty that is Jamil Viper. Meanwhile he's sitting there, going through the motions of the lessons while his thoughts are trained directly onto you.

You know a terrifying amount about him, and yet still think of him so highly. He lets out a breath he didn't realize he was holding, before realizing something even more terrifying.

He was scared you would agree with them, even despite all the times you've confirmed you like him. What a frustrating feeling. Why did he even think like that? ... nevermind, at least you think of him as enough, if only he could express his gratitude to you...

It'll be much easier to tell you everything in person anyway, so just wait for him player.

----------------------Leona---------------------

You lean back, you yawn. It's a slow day, just relaxing at a friend's house and talking about whatever goes through your heads. But the conversation died down a little bit ago, so you decide to open twisted wonderland and use up the LP.

Your friend glances over your shoulder, then makes a weird face when they see you picking Leona in the alchemy lessons.

Friend: "man, Leona is really frustrating, right?"

"Nah, I like him. He's mean, but that's just part of his charm haha."

Friend: "wait, you actually like him? Why???"

"Why not? He's cool. What do you even have against him anyway?"

Friend: "you're kidding! He's absolutely insufferable, lazy and mean, and book two just cemented how awful he was!"

"WHAT???"

Friend: "his plan was just evil, and stupid! Then he threw a hissy fit when his scheme to win the spelldrive tournament failed! Plus he never learns anything, it's so frustrating!"

"Okay, please tell me you're kidding."

Friend: "absolutely not! Like what, you lose your evil plan to win the big game, and get insulted by an old man. And your only course of action is to throw a magical fit that could potentially kill people!? Besides what Lilia said was right, with his attitude, he never could've been king! He'd just run his country into the ground, and never raise a finger to do anything to help it. Freaking sad."

Leona, who's been listing in on this since the lessons started, is getting seriously pissed. He grits his teeth as the lessons pass him by without care, only getting goods. Who the hell is your friend to say anything about him!? What do they know about him!? And how dare they try to make you give up on him too!

But even as a low growl escapes his throat, he knows that in a way, they are correct. There's more nuance to his reasons, sure. But technically that is what happened. And yeah, given the chance he'd do it all over again. Still, he's curious what you'll say about it. Not wanting to admit to himself the fear that you'll agree. That you'll just say, yes, that's all he is.

...don't. Just don't say anything if you agree... Please.

"Oh wow you missed like all the characterization! For example the reasons behind him being 'like that'! We're you not paying attention to the chapter about his past!? At all??? He's so obviously depressed, hence the "lazy and mean". Wanna know why?!"

Friend: "wow, not really. So many feels."

"Too bad, you've got me started now!"

Friend: "Oh goody... Heh."

"First of all it started with his childhood at the sunset savannah palace! When he was born, all the servants saw him as a chance to bolster the crown prince. Putting him down constantly to compliment Falena, overall just being jerks while Leona was a little kid, and liars! I mean seriously, Leona was a good kid, and they were making up whatever rumors they wanted just to be mean to him! Absolute monsters!!!"

Friend: "okay, but that doesn't excuse the spelldrive thing."

"I'm getting to that! Now you know what he grew up with, so let's fast forward to NRC. At that point, he'd given up on a lot of things. Like, y'know, being happy or content in life while being stuck in a position that only caused him suffering!? But even despite all those walls he'd put up, he still let himself hope for the slightest moment that he could be content, even just a little bit, if he beat Malleus. Someone who reminded him of Falena. Yes his plan wasn't good, definitely a evil plan. But the reasonings behind it are understandable! And during the overblot, he saw all his plans fail in front of him, along with his hope to almost prove to himself he can win something like that using his strengths. Then Lilia just had to rub salt in the wound!"

Friend: "yeah, still not convincing me haha."

"Look, I'm not asking you to pity him. Heck, Leona wouldn't want you to pity him. It's just... Such a complex character, that can't be written off as just evil, mean, and lazy. He can be nice even, especially to his underclassmen. ...in his own way. And he's insanely smart and talented! But if I went through everything about Leona, we'd be here for hours. But I doubt you wanna hear it all haha. Just, maybe give his character a second chance?"

Friend: "my goodness, so I take it Leona is a fav?"

"...slightly."

Friend: "gotcha, promise I won't be That mean about him around you."

"It's okay to be a little mean, he does deserve some of it. But just not all, y'know?"

Friend: "pfft- yup! For the enrichment!"

"For the enrichment!"

As you both laugh, the screen turns darker. Slowly turning off as Leona stands there. Unsure how to even react to that. And feeling a little defensive over someone just knowing all that stuff about him. Seriously herbivore, that's private information. He never asked for you to say any of that, no need to go baring his entire personal life to people just like that.

...yet, you know all that, and still defend him. Huh. He can't say he expected that. Weird feeling, can't say he Completely hates it. But he'll need to have a nice long chat about revealing other people's freaking life stories once you're close to him. Are we clear, player?

---------------------Malleus--------------------

It's a chill day. Meaning? You're gonna chill. Specifically at a friend's house. Living the dream, relaxing on a couch and doing nothing with zero expectations for any conversation, just calm silence. Heck yeah.

But of course it eventually gets a little boring, so you decide to open twst and use up the LP. Why not, y'know? As you click on the alchemy lessons tab, and Malleus' lessons in particular, your friend leans over. Making the weirdest face, before saying one of the most insane sentences you've ever heard.

Friend: "Malleus? I don't get his popularity, I mean his character got ruined during book seven."

"What???"

Friend: "before book seven, he was just a silly guy who liked gargoyles! Then, probably to appeal to the fandom or whatever, he took a hard left turn into possessive at the drop of a hat! Like geez, mischaracterized in his own game lol."

"You're joking right? This is just a prank. You can't be serious!"

Friend: "please, why would I lie about this? It's true. I'll be completely honest here, didn't like Malleus much even before the overblot. But it really just cemented the fact the devs are just trying to appeal to the player base, even to the loss of a okay-ish character."

"Oh my goodness, WHAT!?"

Friend: "what? It's not like it's not true. C'mon, the entire reason book seven even happened is because of Malleus suddenly being super clingy and pathetic over someone who wanted to go! He threw a almost deadly magical tantrum, because what? Lilia is old or something? It's just frustrating to watch a character with so much potential, just be fumbled so badly."

As your friend speaks, neither of you notice the infuriated expression on Malleus' face. He wasn't going to listen in on your conversation, but when it was about him, he got a little curious.

Suffice it to say, your friend is Very lucky there's a screen between you all. I doubt they wanna be on the receiving end of a furious dragons lightning bolt. Do they really not understand how important Lilia is to him?! How important everyone is to him!?

Somewhere, very quietly you can hear a clap of thunder. And at this point, the screen might not be enough to save them! They're even trying to get you to hate him! Would you? Would you become like everyone else who's scared of him, or hates him for his power? He despises that thought... He's waiting for your response, unsure whether or not to hope you'll even defend him.

"WOW! HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE OBJECTIVELY WRONG!?"

Friend: "what?"

"Okay, look, I can see where you're coming from. But the place you're coming from is the circus! Malleus has always cared very fiercely for his friends! And the added stress of being someone who'll outlive all of them eventually, means he's all the more protective of them during the time they're with him!"

Friend: "still, the big magical and possibly deadly tantrum was an overreaction. And it was barely foreshadowed."

"WHAT!? Okay, imagine you're going to live for thousands of years, outliving all the people you care for. Not only that, but the people around you treat you with a standoffish reverence. But there's always been someone who was there for you, one constant and kind presence. Then out of nowhere, they just up and reveal they're gonna be gone forever! Not only that, but the three other people he saw as friends, were also people who would leave him so quickly compared to his long lifespan! What he did during the overblot might not have been right, but it was extremely understandable! And well foreshadowed!"

Friend: "I dunno, he just always felt off to me. Like at first he's all silly and cute about gargoyles, then he's possessive and dramatic. Couldn't they just pick one thing? It just didn't fit his character."

"He can be silly and tragic! They are not exclusive things! Goodness gracious, this is fictional character media literacy 101 over here. Look, I probably can't make you like the guy, but there's so much to him that I haven't even got into. He's amazing, and deserves the world. Maybe just give him another chance? Read some vignettes, maybe glorious masquerade? Also read book seven without any bias, just once? He's such a cool character, you'd be missing out if you just wrote him off completely."

Friend: "...fine. but I probably still won't like him, he isn't the type of character I go for."

"That's fine, he's not for everyone. It's just... Mischaracterization is so rampant in the twst fandom, it felt like I had to defend him a little bit haha."

Friend: "no no I get it, I get that way with my favs too."

"Yeah, universal experience right there haha. Anyway, moving on from That, wanna watch a movie?"

As the conversation moves away from the subject, and your screen grows dim and turns off from inactivity. Malleus is left there, eyes wide in shock. You would defend him so fiercely, it's a novel experience...

You care about him, without expecting a single thing in return, even if he would willingly give anything you might ask, if given the chance without the screen in the way.

He wonders if you would still think so fondly of him, if you were to meet in person. I guess he'll just have to find out soon, he can't wait to meet you player.

[m-a-r-i--c-h-a-t]

but who told them all my distorted thoughts lmao

[vertigo-tango]

hey heyyyyyyyy before i ask anything i just wanna say thank you for posting your sketches and paintings, especially all the tam ones and the latest igor and karter sketch, the one with a tag that says "art is less of a skill and more about coming to terms with yourself" (paraphrased i think), that helped me wrangle the root cause of my invisible mental breakdown at a party yesterday. i realised my art style/drawing process wasnt what i wanted but not just because its not time flexible and oddly stiff, but because it isnt what i was feeling, what i was thinking, it was ideas in my brain thinned and skinned into a pleasure for others to look at rather than for myself to draw (plus it took me 20 minutes to draw a pose and the back before i restarted for the 4th time)

taking it slow was the fisher having food on a hook that me, starving, was swimming towards. sure, im proud of my end results, but what does that mean about me, did the time i put in encapsulate what i had in my mind, and most often its a yes, but it feels like it was someone elses version of the same idea.

to be childishly honest, your artstyle is the one i exactly wanted and expected when i was younger so seeing you here was kind of a wake up call as well as what the fuck am i doing in a weird sense. ill be honest idk what my new artstyle will be directed to, experimenting leads to it having lots of dna of the previous one but that is to be expected, so thank you again man(gn), keep up what youre doing.

anyways massive apologies for the weirdly sentimental rant from a guy youve probably never interacted with, i wanna hear more about both tamalex (more specifically tam but we can push aside my bias for a second) and the riot brothers, i love reading your headcanons teehee:)))))

hi hi, I'm going to be honest, seeing this ask made my day astronomically better

I'm glad I'm not alone in this cause man does it suck. but I'm happy that you found the direction you want to go. keep to it, and best of luck

[also don't apologise for reaching out. being able to talk to people with the same interest is genuinely the only reason I post on here, so never hesitate to reach out to me, I would love to talk]

[galene-gothic]

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Your bare face is gorgeous. I’m not sure why I felt the need to say that but it just came through and I couldn’t ignore it. Your lips are an area of focus in this reading as well. I’m not sure what it is about your lips - it could be that you have naturally pink lips, cupid bow ones or have hyperpigmentation around your lips that make it look like you have a natural lip liner (it’s going to be different for everyone) but no matter what, they’re extremely gorgeous. Maybe because it’s winter in the northern hemisphere, many of you could wear lip balms, petroleum jelly or lip glosses but it gives your lips a wet appearance. If not, you lick and bite your lips a lot, like even if you don’t have any of the attributes mentioned above, the way you move your lips, the way you touch it, lick it, bite it, everything just gives you a different vibe. Now moving beyond your lips because while I could sing praises about them all day, I want the reading to consist of more. Your energy is such that when people see your vices or perceived ‘flaws’, it doesn’t disinterest them but instead only add more dimension to you. It makes you more attractive to them because they experience a certain ‘rawness’ in you that they might not get to experience elsewhere in this world due to how everyone is striving for perfection to the point they all seem manufactured. You’re someone who people stare at when in cafés or public places and I’m so sorry but you have fallen victim to catcalling possibly multiple times especially when you were younger than you are right now. You didn’t deserve that. People find themselves losing a certain level of consciousness when they’re close to you, especially physically. You cause people to feel a heat when around you and even away from you, it depends on the person, sometimes it is a gentle warmth that envelops them, sometimes it is a certain hotness running through their that makes it hard for them to contain themselves around you, to even breathe around you, let alone act normal and sometimes it is in the form of jealousy, people of the same sex or who are interested in increasing their appeal but haven’t been able to find their own spark feel intimidated by your scorching heat that seems to engulf all around it unapologetically. One thing that I need to warn you about is that you definitely have people who are jealous of you. You don’t even seem to notice it but when you’re out, people who are literally taken tend to check you out right in front of them, causing their partner to feel a certain hostility towards you. People stare at you a lot, it is very obvious. It’s come through multiple times. Right now, you’re someone who is just very nonchalant. You don’t hold onto connections too tightly, let alone chase them.

You used to formerly speak with your eyes a lot with certain people, it created a sense of knowing, belonging, connection and familiarity but now you just walk past those same people like you don’t know them or you might greet them, smile at them but you don’t seem to have the same gaze in your eyes anymore, often breaking eye contact quickly or not even caring enough to maintain it, it causes them to feel hurt sometimes, wondering if they never meant anything to you, if you just forgot them, if they were just that forgettable to you but it also makes you irresistibly attractive to them. You’ve developed a certain peace within yourself, there were days when you didn’t know how to live or had forgotten how to do so. You had become very internal, causing you to live within yourself and with it came a lot of overthinking. You used to hold onto grief and people could have underestimated you back then but you have moved far past that. You’ve become more present and mindful, you have started living beyond your mind. You’re starting to smile more, live more and keep your life, treasure it, even if it isn’t perfect, even if it didn’t turn out the way you had imagined. You’ve definitely had a past that was full of tears. It was difficult but you’ve left it all behind, this sense of presence and contentment is adding onto your attractiveness because the sorrow you’ve experienced has also given you a lot of wisdom. One thing that you don’t want to fall into is mourning and desperation because you have experienced both. ‘Extreme nostalgia’ is what I just heard. The sorrow you’ve experienced on your path, the tears that you’ve cried are the very things that are helping you move forward with such confidence and self assuredness. Since you’ve experienced so much, many dark thoughts too, possibly suicidal ones for some of you and have always managed to find a way out, you just feel like things will turn out fine in the end. You have tortured yourself enough in the past, it’s time to live now. That’s how you think and this shift is noticeable because you’re just focused on your own life. Your perception of connections especially romantic ones is that while they’re beautiful, people can burst your bubble so you just want to be discerning enough to only let a certain kind of people into your life like that. You desire to love but it’s not that big of a desire anymore, everyone wants love, to give and receive it, to be desired and desire someone but the way you look at it is “I’ve been there, I’m glad I’m out”, you’re just glad to be over it. It doesn’t even have to be romantic, I’m picking up on major disappointments in connections in general, causing you to prioritise yourself first and foremost.

You’re actually a hopeless romantic, a devotee. When you love, it’s very deep for you, your love is of divine nature. There’s no wandering eyes or anything of that sort, there’s just your person who you hold to be dear, almost divine, your love is devotional, almost like worship. I wonder if there was a point when you were devoted to the platonic or/and romantic connections in your life just for them to end and you were devastated about at least one or a few of them but the fact that you’ve managed to come out of it has given you more power because you know how deep your love runs, you know how you love and what kind of love you give out, and desire for yourself so it gives you the self assuredness that you deserve similar energy. You hold yourself and others to a high standard but if they don’t live up to it, you just abandon them and move forward. It’s nothing malicious but you just don’t see the point in getting caught up in the waiting game, training game or sticking around to entertain less than what you know you deserve. You have a different, slightly detached and elusive vibe to you. Your eyes and words tend to teleport people to a different world, not literally obviously but that’s what it feels like for them. Your energy is not possible to ignore, it bothers those around you because of the elusiveness mixed with the heat that I mentioned earlier but it’s not a bother that they ever want to get rid of. They enjoy the feeling of slight discomfort that comes from your presence. You interact with people very casually, not with everyone obviously but your ease of interacting with others is something that adds to your attractiveness. The vibe that I’m getting from you is that some people are bothered by your heat, others find it warm but both of these parties do not even realise when you started filling their world with nothing but yourself, it just hits them randomly and so strongly. I’m picking up on a romantic vibe from you and your beauty, it seems very gentle despite the heat you radiate. You’re also full of contradictions, despite your heat, you have a romantic appeal but despite the gentleness and elusiveness of it, you really confuse people. Some of you get turned on by fighting, not the excessive toxic kind of fighting but the dramatic yet silly ones that add to the pulse on your vertical lips are very much welcome by you 😭. I keep on hearing ‘what do you mean?’ by Justin Bieber here. “Don’t know if you’re happy or complaining”, “first you wanna go to the left and then turn right, wanna argue all day, make love all night.” You feel like home while simultaneously repulsing people. You’re a complex person full of contradictions and that’s what seems to make you attractive. I hope that you enjoyed this reading. Thank you for reading, much love and take care.

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This pile is for you if you have been touching and rubbing yourself a lot recently or just do so a lot generally. You have an intense sexual nature but really innocent eyes. You also crave fairytale love, like the innocent kind of love that doesn’t include touching and rubbing but just an eye contact makes you feel something, just an accidental brushing of skin is enough to make blood rush up to your cheeks, that’s the kind of love you desire and also give out but despite that, your sexual energy slips past your fairly pure and innocent exterior. Despite your love for consuming romantic content, you are not desperate for it. You understand that it’s a luxury to be with you and act like it. You know that people pleasing is self betrayal so you do not go out of your way to please others but at the same time, when they’re around you, you do please them? It just comes naturally to you. Much like the last pile, I’m getting something with the lips but in this pile, either you have plump lips, have a protruding lower lip or just pout a lot. Maybe, it’s just a natural slightly pouty appearance but I’m literally getting flying kisses so I’m not sure. Despite this innocent appearance and your desire for romance, you are very good at leaving people behind. You’ve learned that it’s best not to overstay your welcome anywhere. You’re someone who leaves people and things behind at the required pace, and you do not even seem to care about what anyone might think. You are fine with being lonely, what you’re not fine is getting used and heartbroken by people who might not have your best interests at heart. You have always had this delicate balance between being a friend and a lover. This could have led to misunderstandings in the past, you tend to treat your friends affectionately and generously, and those of the opposite sex or the sex you are interested in romantically might misunderstand, taking it as a free pass to underestimate and disrespect you? It has likely happened at some point in the past, definitely not for all of you but this quality of yours makes you very attractive. Also, when you fall apart from such people, they aren’t even able to voice out how much they miss you because you didn’t have a relationship set in stone and you just act as though you never even met them, as if you don’t know them, never did. In the past, you may have been unable to maintain this delicate balance or might perceive it as such but you are starting to go forward in life with stronger boundaries and that makes you very attractive.

I wouldn’t be surprised if some or in fact, many of you stopped making friends with the opposite sex due to such misunderstandings and disrespect. People from the past miss you, they’re terribly attracted to you and you’re irreplaceable but you’ve clearly grown out of that. If not, this is not your pile. I’m getting a lot of youthful energy here. It’s not just this delicate balance that has made you feel misunderstood in the past but also your friendships with people of the same sex. I’m legit getting friends from school missing you if you’re out of it and away from them (especially if you separated from them connection wise). You do not realise just how hard the nostalgia hits people of the past when it comes to you. People remember you as ‘the one that got away’ honestly and I hate this concept because it’s just sad, and I believe in true love being present, and not getting away but yes, you’re awfully missed. This is funny but people realise that they love or miss you at around 1-3 a.m. in the morning. You have something melancholic and lonely about you but also something so wholesome, and warm at the same time but you also interact with them by rolling eyes, sighing, vacantly staring, calling them dumb and saying something like “who cares?” All of this is dearly missed when you’re gone. You shouldn’t have to get away for people to want you, to appreciate and desire you, to treat you kindly, and with love and respect. You have this thing where you naturally love your friends a lot and don’t hold them inferior to other connections but this has led to you naturally relying on them and also treating them with a lot of love, and priority, and it was not rewarding for you because they used to develop hostility towards you over time for some reason. You’re very attractive to those from the past because they’ll genuinely never find someone like you anywhere. You’re an unconditionally loving person but you also understand that it’s better not to get involved in the lives of messy people. Also, you have a very casual and friendly way of interacting with people when they’re around you, you greet people and treat them as though you’ve known them for years at least for the amount of time that you’re around them even if you’ve just met them. You also have a tendency to be mean and get on people’s nerves but it only makes you more endearing because they get obsessed yet repulsed by you.

There’s something very innocent and pure, almost naive about you but also someone so dirty and mature. The energy here is a bit more contradictory but your contradictions are what seem to make you attractive. People who are used to being in control and are able to read others well find themselves being unable to remain controlled when around you and fail to read you, causing them to be frustrated, intrigued or/and drawn to you. There’s just something different about you that makes others feel like they’re changing, they’re shaking up, it’s not something that they can even put a finger on, it just is. People can’t help but want you around after meeting you, your presence and energy are intoxicating. I wouldn’t be surprised if once you enter a new environment, you see specific people everywhere around you because they just want to be close to you even if it’s from a distance. Many of you here seem to look like puppies or possess that kind of energy. This is the pile where you attract or at least intrigue those slightly older than you. Even people who claimed to ‘not date someone younger than them EVER’ can’t help but be curious about you, be attracted to you. Despite your youthful and puppy like energy, it’s them that feel like a puppies? Like, after meeting you, initially you’re the one acting like a puppy, treating them well and lighting up when you see them but the more the time starts passing by they feel like you’re not taking them seriously, they’re the one following you around everywhere, wanting to prove themselves to you, they do not even understand why they feel so lovesick without you around as if they were a puppy without their owner. Also, another thing is that some people have their youth attached to you and well, they’re still attracted to you even if you’re no longer in touch. Time passes by too fast when you’re around, people find themselves wishing that the hours would go slow so that they could spend more time with you. You’re a piece of warm sunlight of the first spring when it’s not hot yet but just a pleasant weather with a slight amount of coldness that vanishes when you graze their skin. You’re a joy to be around - a dream girl. You’re pleasant because there’s nothing too imposing about you but your energy though gentle and soft in nature is felt strongly, enveloping all that’s around you. People can’t help but want to be a part of your world. There’s also a sense of fragility that I’m picking up on here but it’s something that others feel fortunate to see about you. I hope that you enjoyed this reading. Thank you for reading, much love and take care.

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 3 ꒱

I think that some of you love dancing or just enjoy being young and enjoying life, being present. You’re just so candid, there’s something youthful and timeless about you due to how present you are because you’re someone who actively tries to be present. You do not want to perish with time which is why you try to make every moment count, to have adventures, to try and live your dreams, to leave a legacy. “People will not remember what you wore but they will remember how you made them feel.” You seem to have a solid understanding of this and try to make others feel good about themself and life itself. You’re very busy making the most out of your youth and out of your life but in your presence, you try to make sure that others don’t feel left out, you try to be as inclusive as possible, understanding that they too will only live once. You have an energy that’s everlastingly young about you and your eyes are very attractive, like they’re just captivating regardless of their size, shape and colour. Your eyes give you an appearance of goodness because they look like eyes that would belong to someone good, they’re open, inviting and warm but it seems like more of a disguise once you’re gone because when people run into you or are around you again after a falling out of some sort, your eyes lack that old familiar warmth that once greeted them and they feel an actual ache at the thought that your life continued on without them. You are someone who won’t stop your life for anyone, you want to have fun and spend your life joyfully so when you’re not getting that with certain people or in certain environments, you’re quick to pull yourself and continue on with your life, trying to make it as beautiful and celebratory as possible. Many really extravagant words are coming through for you, I wonder if your energy is a bit dramatic and extravagant too. You are someone who knows how to touch people and gently persuade them but remain distant, causing people to admire you and almost need you. There are times when people think that you’re wasting their time and try to give up on you but something happens that causes them to lose their discernment and heart to you again.

It’s hard to stay composed when you’re around because you just make them feel like little children. I find this endearing, you have a way of making everything very personal. You make memories with people and one thing in particular that stands out to me as attractive is when you call people by their name, it feels personal, it feels sweet. However, most people do not come forth to you beyond yearning for you. You’ve probably had friends confess to you in the past, out of nowhere. You’re very loveable in every sense of the word and people who share closeness to you or once did cannot help but wish for more than that. Many people do not even manage to get as close to you as they’d like to. There’s a lot of fear attached to confessing their feelings for you. The helplessness attached to liking you makes you irresistibly attractive, pretty much obsessively magnetic. Seduction is supposed to be subtle, it’s supposed to be non threatening, that’s what your attractiveness is like. I won’t lie, you do have a very scary attractive appeal too, like people who are attracted to you right away but even so, you win them over more and more over time. When you are around people, the world seems to stop but they don’t even notice it until after a while, they’ll have no clue when it started, when it got so deep. People do have a recognition of a connection with you from the start itself, of course it isn’t like that for everyone and it doesn’t have to be but those who recognise this are still unable to voice it out, however, if you’ve experienced this, you’re probably aware of how they act because their actions and mannerisms likely do give away their feelings. I’m picking up on humiliation, ridicule of looks, etc. You seem to have glowed up, take good care of yourself physically and dress to the best of ability, carrying yourself with your head held high because you remember how you were treated when you weren’t as attractive. This could be something like people close to you leaving you or disrespecting you too, it seems to extend beyond just looks actually, you’ve glowed up mentally and emotionally too. Also, you are forgetting the past, you are trying to, you have grown and don’t want it to hold any power over you at all. You are not in denial or anything, in fact, the kind of ‘forgetting’ seems to be a very healthy one, you’re naturally letting things go without regrets.

You make people feel very young, to share an innocent bond with you, full of memories, they can’t help but yearn for you. It’s your friends and those you share communities with that find you to be the most attractive. Also, you’re someone who literally doesn’t have regrets in terms of connections because you’ve always done your best, you’ve always given your all. You have really strong self respect, it was likely developed with time and experience but those you share memories and past with, if they were struggling, you’d not let them come back in order to search for comfort, support and companionship because you remember how they left. Those who have lost you have especially had to pine for you, the realisation that there’s no one like you is hitting them. Many of these people, even platonic connections seem to have acted like you weren’t all that in the past but now the reality of having lost you is starting to set in. Some of you have nice thick hair or you do something that makes it look full, you could simply just leave it open for example, some of you here use a lot of eye pencil, liner or eyeshadow too probably in brown or black, if not you just have captivating eyes like I said earlier. Your energy brings about a heat that is hard to ignore, it’s usually a strong heat than just a warmth, the type to make people act out of control because they’re not sure how to act around you. It’s like you make them lose control and feel hot, and they regret certain things they say or do but still crave more of it because it’s addictive. The way you move too, gosh, you might not even pay that much attention to it but you’re so attractive like lethally attractive. I keep on getting a theme of you wasting people’s time but it doesn’t even seem to be intentional, you just move on with your life is all. You come off as someone who’s like “if we meet again, we meet, if we don’t, you have my memories to remember me by.” You make everything feel like a movie - a dream - in fact. People get so attached to you, they get so used to you, when you’re not around even the most familiar place starts feeling strange. Some of you could possess dimples or one single dimple. I hope that you enjoyed this reading. Thank you for reading, much love and take care.

[fxirybun]

💭 PAC: your DR s/o’s messages for you

this is a shift-related pick-a-card reading. DR means “desired reality” whilst s/o means “significant other”.

this is a collective reading ! take what resonates and leave what doesn't. i cannot guarantee 100% accuracy. take the pac reading lightly ჱ̒ ｰ̀֊ｰ́ )

ෆ⸒⸒ cat 🐈

thank you for being my source of light during my lowest point. you inspire me to think things positively and to motivate myself to improve on certain aspects of my life. your words of reassurance comforted me when I was doubting myself and my abilities of striving forward.

i see you as my mentor , the one who teaches me the art of appreciating oneself. you make me want to be a better person for you , sweetie , and I mean it. i don’t want to succumb myself in the dark any longer, and it was all thanks to you. thank you at the bottom of my heart for accepting me for who i am , even though you have seen my vulnerable side.

i may not be the perfect person that you wanted me to be , but I would like to ask you if you could give me a chance. a time for me to adjust myself and to reflect upon the flaws i have. life has been cruel to me ever since , and it was all because of the karma that I need to face from my past. but all this enduring misery led me to you and that our paths are meant to be crossed.

ෆ⸒⸒ coffee ☕

i came here to write down my thoughts about our connection. i've encountered numerous people in my life , who want to have a piece of myself and taste it for their pleasure. however , i can feel my heart wandering as if it were in constant search of something , of someone. who knew that this stained heart of mine was craving for you ? as i laid my eyes on you , i can feel the everlasting warmth that is emitted from you.

my sweetest devotion , your beauty outshines the rest , and better yet , i instinctively can see myself transforming into a moth , trying to come closer to the luminous star that can be only seen during the evening. i love how nurturing you are and that your intentions are pure , similar to how a mother fosters her children.

i would be lying if i told you that I’m not enthusiastic about our meeting. as a matter of fact , i'm getting impatient and am very much eager to encounter you sooner. i've been reckless about my actions in life by making poor choices and dating multiple people who would bring me more harm than good. please forgive me , my love , for being clueless that you were the one who could fill my heart’s desire.

ෆ⸒⸒ earphones 🎧

i've been meaning to write down my thoughts , though I’m not sure words can capture how much i miss you. i've met countless people , crossed paths with those who’ve sought my attention , but none have stirred my heart the way you do. lately , it feels as though my heart is wandering , always searching for something that’s missing—and that something is you. without you near , it’s as if a piece of me is lost , drifting in the void.

i think back to the moments when i was by your side , and the warmth you bring feels like a distant memory i can’t let go of. your presence has an undeniable gravity , pulling me in like the moon draws the tide. even in the quietest of nights , i find myself longing for the sound of your voice , the comfort of your touch. my world feels dimmer without you here , as if the light only returns when you’re close.

i never thought that i'd feel so incomplete in someone’s absence , but the truth is , i'm counting down the moments until we can be together again. every day that passes without you feels like a lifetime. please do know that you are never far from my thoughts , and i'm longing for the day when this distance between us is finally closed.

[emeritusemeritus]

heyyy!! Number 1.) BIG fan of your work. Your work is literally 💋💋💋

number 2.) can you please make a Fred Weasley x reader Drabble of him asking reader out too the Yule ball (during their 6th year). Reader is a gryffindor prefect in his year and the two are always butting heads

but Fred has always secretly fancied her and has decided to man up and ask her out too the Yule ball. Which she agrees because she feels the same way!

Then all gryffindors are SHOCKED because they always assumed they couldn’t stand each other bc they were always arguing!

Can you also make their relationship similar to James Potter and Lily Evans (yk- opposite attracts, enemies to lovers and prankster x prefect.)

thank you so much!! I’m sorry if this isn’t easy to understand, English isn’t my first language!! Again, keep up your amazing work x

Hi my dear Anon! Thank you so much for your sweet words. I can only apologise for how long this has taken. I’ve been trying to work away behind the scenes to catch up on request but ended up failing miserably. I hope I did your request justice and that you enjoy! 🖤

Warnings: Mentions of strict parents, minor swearing. Detention and punishments. Minor sexual references and jokes. This is mostly pure sweet fluff, enough to rot your teeth. The twins get the reader in trouble. GryffindorPrefect!Reader

Word count: 3.3k

Song for writing: Cenotaph by Ghost 🖤

Perfect Prefect [Fred Weasley]

Becoming a prefect in your fifth year of Hogwarts had never been something you had strived for, but had somehow fallen into your lap at the recommendation of your professors. Your parents had naturally been thrilled and you were proud of your position, though it definitely had its faults; specifically two very identical faults that continuously hindered your otherwise easy job.

Fred and George Weasley.

Always together and synonymous with trouble, the two Gryffindor students had tested your patients for over a year now, always pushing their luck and thinking the rules didn't apply to them. George was moderately more quiet than his counterpart and much more agreeable. Fred however was a constant pain in your side that you couldn't budge, though you weren't sure you actually wanted to be rid of him. He was gorgeous, naturally, and the playful back and forth you'd developed over the years had become surprisingly fun for you, even if it did sound harsh to less cultured ears. He was insufferable and incorrigible, arrogant at times and always immature, but there was something about him that always seemed to redeem his character. He was funny, most of the time, and you found his non-caring nature surprisingly endearing, knowing that he didn't care what people thought about him as long as he made them laugh. Life wasn't made to be taken seriously to him and you respected that, sometimes wishing that you lived a little more in his way.

You were a fair prefect, or so you thought. Definitely not as cut throat and power hungry as some, but also not a pushover when it came to rules that ensured safety and well-being. You'd turned a blind eye to the Weasley twins too many times, in their smaller misdemeanours anyway, choosing to look aside when it had no serious impact upon the school or other students.

"Hey perfect," Fred smirks as he strides past you in the corridor, five minutes before curfew and certainly not walking back to the common room.

"It's prefect, idiot," you scold, though you can barely conceal the smile threatening to erupt, your words carrying no malice.

"No. I was right the first time," he beams, turning on his heel to flash a smile at you.

"You know what time it is don't you."

"Why, lost your watch, perfect girl?" He calls over his shoulder, mildly colliding with his surprisingly silent twin as he doesn't watch where he's going.

"Boys!" You call out, using your big girl voice.

Both of them pause, turning slowly to look at you with looks that you're certain would break your resilience on any other night.

"Men, I think you'll find," George calls out, suddenly finding his voice.

"Yeah sure," you mock, walking closer to them with a judgemental eyebrow raised.

"I can prove it, if you want-" Fred begins to say, his eyebrows wiggling as he reaches for the zip on his school trousers. You scrunch up your face and hold up your hand to stop him going any further.

"Don't bother, I don't have my magnifying glass with me."

The laugh that tumbles onto of George sounds like a bark and echoes through the otherwise empty hallway, making you smile. Fred, now blushing a magnificent shade of fuchsia, mutters under his breath and nudges his twin hard in the arm in a wee attempt to shut him up, not that it works.

"Well how about this... I'm offering right here right now, I'll sort out those knickers of yours that you've gotten in a twist," Fred grins, jokingly wiggling his eyebrows.

"Can we not do this tonight? I have somewhere to be, can you just do this another night?" You say, trying to show your annoyance.

"Big date eh?" George says with a wink, his arms crossing in front of him as if he's studying you. Fred by comparison remains silent, his face twisting into a frown of displeasure for whatever reason.

"None of your business," you snark, turning to look between the two. "Any chance we can wrap this up easily?"

"Depends," Fred says, suddenly coming to life again. You sigh, knowing that it was a stupid idea to even try. "What are you going to do for us?"

His shit eating grin and crossed arms are the last straw, knowing that he would never give up so easily.

"You know what, just go," you say, averting your eyes. "I don't have time for this."

"They will do nothing of the sort," Professor Mcgonagall says, surprising all three of you as she steps around the corner, catching you all in the act. Your stomach drops, wishing you were anywhere but here right now, especially with these two.

"Professor," you try to say, scrambling to find the words but she merely raises her hand to silence you, giving you a look that tells you it's a pointless endeavour to even try and appeal the inevitable.

"Weasley and Weasley, you appear to be much too far away from your dormitory considering the curfew was five minutes ago, explain yourselves." She gives them both a fierce look which only deepens when Fred's cheeky reply does not excuse his rule breaking.

"And you Miss y/l/n, I expected better from you, a Gryffindor Prefect nonetheless. Perhaps we should be re-thinking that badge of yours if you're allowing this on your watch."

"Professor please-." Your eyes widen, panic taking over you at her words. Would she really strip you of your rank for a single misdemeanour?

"It wasn't her fault Professor," Fred says quickly, your eyes shooting to him in surprise at his leap to your defence. Never once had Fred Weasley stuck up for anyone like this.

"All of you will receive a week's Detention with Professor Flitwick, starting tomorrow, perhaps then you can consider your places at this school," her gaze turns towards you, "all of you."

"Professor!"

Tears begin to form in your eyes as her punishment is given. You'd never once received detention in all your years at the school. Never had anything less than a perfect record that would now be blighted by this. You were angry, upset, ashamed. Your gut ached, stomach sinking so far down that you felt like it was going to fall out of you. Your breath was getting harder and harder to catch, the very thought of your parents receiving a letter of your misdemeanours enough to trigger a full blown panic attack for you.

"Y/n isn't to blame, it was me and George," Fred says, stepping forward to block Mcgonagall from exiting as you stand still, unable to look anyone in the eye.

You feel George's eyes upon you but you don't look up, the sound of Fred's haggling with the professor fading into the background as you accept defeat and retreat back to the common room where you could cry in the privacy of your dorm. You don't offer a goodbye to either of the twins but simply disappear instead, too upset and angry.

You spend the entire night in a foul mood, swinging like a pendulum between tearful and angry, settling somewhere around disgruntled. Your anger was entirely directed towards the twins, mainly Fred like normal for their idiocy and complete lack of foresight on how their actions affected anyone but themselves. You'd cancelled your plans and your mood has spoiled a perfectly good night ahead of you.

Stepping into Flitwick's classroom after classes the next day felt more akin to torture than punishment, especially since you'd be spending the next hour with the twins. You'd never had detention before and spent the entire day in an anxious mess of what was to come.

To your surprise the twins were already inside when you stepped into the classroom, though you didn't interact with them at all, not even sparing a single look. Professor Flitwick had given you the instructions of what you were to do during the hour, which mainly consisted of organising the classroom and tidying up after the first year class that clearly had not perfected the levitation charm yet due to the sheer number of spills on the stone floor. Magic was not allowed to be used during the detention and your wands were confiscated by Flitwick in his desk, which only further disgruntled you.

You ignored both of the twins the entire time, choosing to be the opposite side of the classroom at all times in the hopes you could just get it over with. Luckily for you, neither of them attempted to talk to you either and gave you space, surprisingly.

"See you tomorrow Perfect girl," Fred had said when the hour had ended as he walked out of the classroom. Momentarily forgetting yourself, you look up at his words, catching his eye briefly before you dropped your gaze and sighed.

The next day passed quickly and before you knew it, you were in Flitwick's classroom again for detention which passed surprisingly quickly. You could feel the twins gazes on you much more than the previous day, with a few attempts to make contact but you didn't bite. You left as soon as Flitwick dismissed you without ever looking back at the pair.

Wednesday's classes dragged, the day seeming to never end. You'd dragged yourself over to Charms relatively late, but this time the twins were nowhere to be seen.

"Your wand please miss," Flitwick says with an outstretched hand, which you place your wand into with a polite but brief smile. You take a seat awaiting your instructions and the others, a deep sigh escaping you at their apparent disregard of all rules.

"Mr Weasley, nice of you to join us, though you seem to be missing your counterpart."

You look up at Flitwick's words questioningly, silently praying that if there's only one of them that it's George. No such luck. Fred steps forward, handing Professor Flitwick a note that he accepts without question and gestures for Fred to take a seat beside you in the cramped desks after giving up his wand.

"Tonight you'll be working together, I must leave to attend to something else but I will be back before the hours out. I hear from professor McGonagall that you are in this predicament due to crossed wires hmm? Perhaps we should straighten those out. Tonight I would like for you each to write me a few chapters on the other person. I shall accept nothing but insightful ideas and knowledge of the other, this means understanding their character and their methods. Perhaps by understanding one another we can prevent future misdemeanours and thus avoid further punishment. Three chapters minimum, all by personal quill so I will know if guidelines have been broken."

Flitwick scurries away after giving his instructions and you remain silent, gobsmacked by his words. Why in Godric's name would you want to understand Fred Weasley's inner thoughts? Aside from George, probably no one else could. You didn't want insight into his inner workings nor his character and you sure as hell didn't want him poking around in your mind. So much for keeping a distance.

"21 questions? Perhaps we could play a game of truth or dare? Kiss and tell?" He says from side you, the teasing lilt to his voice so profound you could almost feel his smirk through his words.

"Nice one," you reply in a deadpan fashion, "as if you're interesting enough for three chapters. Player of stupid pranks, beater on the quidditch team and identical twin. Groundbreaking. Wow, maybe I can stretch those out over three chapters."

You huff, sliding down into your seat as you pick at the threads of your school jumper, wishing you were just organising labels again.

"Ouch," Fred replies, reaching for his chest like you'd cast a spell directly at his heart, "think you've got me covered with that perfect girl? And it's creator of pranks, not just the player of."

"You created those?" You ask with a tone of bewilderment, ignoring his teasing snipes and finally looking up to him for the first time in days. His hair seems longer today, with a little flick around his right ear where it fans out slightly.

"Yeah me and George create most of our own stuff."

"Oh," you say quietly, your eyes flicking down to your empty sheet of parchment. "Well, they're really good."

He snorts and you can understand why, having done nothing but hate on his and George's pranks since you became a prefect, actively trying to block him at times.

"I'm serious," you say somewhat nervously, suddenly feeling urgent in your affirmations. "That's really impressive magic, I had no idea."

"Hmm."

There's a shift between the two of you, hardly noticeable to the untrained eye and yet the tension seems to have lessened considerably allowing an awkwardness to settle.

"So other than academic, beautiful and apparently impressed by pyrotechnic creation, what should I write for you?" Fred says, breaking the lingering silence as he twirls his quill around his fingers. You chuckle at his words, the teasing lilt returning to his voice.

"One out of three Weasley, dealers choice which," you laugh with a shake of your head at his words.he scoffs and you shoot him a look, raising your eyebrow slightly as if to implore him.

"You seriously don't think you're beautiful?"

You frown at his words, seeing the bewildered look in his face, his bottom lip tucked slightly between his teeth as he fights back a smirk.

"Yes very good, next," you roll your eyes.

"You're serious aren't you?" He asks, still giving you the same look. "You really don't see yourself very clearly do you?"

You're silent for a moment, considering his words. Had he just actually complimented you or was it just the punchline to some obscene joke that would come later? Regardless, you simply shrugged, absently tapping your quill against the page a few times.

"So, I haven't had the chance to actually apologise for all of this," he says softly, his gaze upon your face. "I, we, never meant to get you in trouble."

"It's okay," you say weakly with another shrug, feelings of hatred and anger about the situation having long since faded.

"I'm not," he presses, reading out for your hand and grabbing it in his much larger hand. "I hated seeing how upset you were because of me, hadn't realised how much I loved our little back and forth until you froze me out."

You look up to him in surprise, expecting his smug little smirk but instead you find a neutral expression and honest eyes. You're quiet for a few moments, unsure of what to say and consumed by the warmth radiating from his hand into yours.

"I'd never had a detention before," you admit quietly, feeling a little silly considering you were saying that to one half of the duo that had probably spent more time in detentions than in class.

"Really? Now I feel even worse."

"Don't," you say quickly, "I just never wanted to get a letter sent home."

"Strict parents?"

You snort, realising that didn't even cover it but instead nodded, keeping your gaze fixed away from his.

"You know detentions aren't actually that bad," he says, understanding that you weren't going to elaborate further on the matter. You look up questioningly at him, your eyes squinting slightly.

"When you have good company," he adds, his classic smirk returning to his face. You laugh, nudging him in the shoulder as you pull your hand away and reach to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear.

Fred suddenly picks up his long forgotten parchment and reaches for the pot of ink in the nook of the desk, setting it between you both.

"Right, perfect girl, we have 20 minutes to do the work, ask me anything."

"Well I am pleasantly surprised," Flitwick says upon his return as he reads through the essays you have written about each other. Somehow you'd each filled the page with notes of each other's past and futures, hopes and dreams, family and so on. It had been an eye opening conversation and somehow knowing more about Fred Weasley made him even more endearing.

"You may both be dismissed, there will be no further detentions this week as I feel this matter is now resolved, hmm?"

Stepping out of the class, you suddenly feel slightly awkward around Fred, the tension and the ice now seemingly broken. Fred however, didn't seem to share in your awkwardness and had flung his arm around your shoulders the second you'd received your wands back from Flitwick, flashing you a brilliant smile.

"Well, perfect girl, did you want to keep your paper on me? Maybe you can frame it when I'm successful, or keep it locked away in your bedside table or on a shrine?"

"Shove off Weasley," you snark back, smiling widely at his ridiculous words.

"Well I'm keeping mine, might need it for reference when I'm writing our wedding vows." His smile is so wide, and perfect as he reaches for the paper in your hands and pocketing it.

"Now I now you've definitely been hexed."

"I am surprised though," he says, removing his arm from your shoulders to reach for your hand. Electricity zaps through your body at his touch, the suddenly familiar and yet foreign intimacy filling you with warmth.

"Surprised? About what?" You ask, looking up to him.

"About what was written on the back of your paper."

"What? I didn't write anything on the back of my paper?" You say in confusion, brows knitting together.

"No?" He smirks, reaching in his pocket for the paper and pulls it out, handing it to you.

You drop his hand, turning it over in your hand to see the back.

"There's nothing-." You begin to say until words begin to appear in black ink, letter by letter. It looks like an ink flood at first until the splotches of ink disperse and settle into Fred's perfectly messy handwriting.

Will you go to Yule Ball with me?

You look back at Fred with wide eyes, amazed both at the proposal and his ability to enchant the paper without you noticing.

"I've been calling you perfect for years, let me prove to you that it's exactly how I see you." He says, stepping closer and taking your slightly shaky hand in his, his wide sparkling eyes looking in to yours.

"Of course I'll go with you," you beam up at him, watching the way his shoulders relax at your acceptance, his entire face lighting up with your words.

To say people were shocked when the gossip spread around that Fred Weasley had asked the Gryffindor prefect to the Yule Ball was an understatement. Whispers circulated following the pair of them wherever they went, but it only seemed to fuel the fire between them, their banter on heightening with a captive audience.

If the Yule Ball proposal had been a shock to the masses then the kiss they shared that night in the centre of the dance floor with everyone around them was enough to render the gossipers catatonic. The first of many kisses.

The only person who was not shocked by any of it was George Weasley, the sneaky enabler who had feigned a Quidditch injury on detention night that had cost him missing half a match and spending the night in the infirmity with Madame Pomfrey faffing around him at all hours. He'd figured it was the only way that he could get his brother alone with the prefect he was so obviously pining over and he'd take a night of broken sleep in the infirmary over a lifetime of his twin's increasingly pathetic pining.

[authenticbunni]

My highlights from “Power of the subconscious mind”

These highlights are from a book made in 1963 By Joseph Murphy, Who taught this around the us, and has given regular people that had little idea about it result of their manifestations, if this gets enough notes then I’ll make another part with the success stories from the book. The words in green are my own, for you to further understand or Apply it to modern day manifestation

Never use the terms, "I can't afford it" or "I can't do this." Your subconscious mind takes you at your word and sees to it that you do not have the money or the ability to do what you want to do. Affirm, "I can do all things through the power of my subconscious mind."

Still the wheels of your mind, relax, let go, and quietly affirm: "My subconscious knows the answer. It is responding to me now. I give thanks because I know the infinite intelligence of my subconscious knows all things and is revealing the perfect answer to me now. My real conviction is now setting free the majesty and glory of my subconscious mind. I rejoice that it is so."

Whether the object of your faith (religion) is real or false, you will get results. Your subconscious mind responds to the thought in your mind. Look upon faith as a thought in your mind, and that will suffice (be enough or adequate).

I wanted to know his method, so I asked him why he re-peated the words prior to sleep (SATS). Here is his reply, "The kinetic action of the subconscious mind continues throughout your sleep-time period. Hence, give the subconscious mind something good to work on as you drop off into slumber." This was a very wise answer. In thinking of harmony and perfect health, he never mentioned his trouble by name.

Apply the power of prayer therapy (This can be an affirmation/vaunt too) in your life. Choose a certain plan, idea, or mental picture. Mentally and emotionally unite with that idea, and as you remain faithful to your mental attitude, your prayer will be answered.

Power goes into our word according to the feeling and faith behind it. When we realize the power that moves the world is moving on our behalf and is backing up our word, our confidence and assurance grow. You do not try and add power to power; therefore, there must be no mental striving, coercion, force, or mental wrestling (basically desperation, I would explain it but it’s too much, you sorta kinda have to read the book to get it :/).

To affirm is to state that it is so, and as you maintain this attitude of mind as true, regardless of all evidence to the contrary, you will receive an answer to your prayer.

Similarly, your subconscious mind is the master mechanic, the all-wise one, who knows ways and means of healing any or-gan of your body, as well as your affairs. Decree health, and your subconscious will establish it, but relaxation is the key. "Easy does it." Do not be concerned with details and means, but know the end result. Get the feel of the happy solution to your problem whether it is health, finances, or employment (these were like the big concerns in the mid 1900s, you can replace these with your desires). Remember how you felt after you had recovered from a severe state of illness (replace that with your desire). Bear in mind that your feeling is the touchstone of all subconscious demonstration. Your new idea must be felt subjectively in a finished state, not the future, but as coming about now.

using your subconscious mind you infer no opponent, you use no will power. You imagine the end and the freedom state. You will find your intellect trying to get in the way, but persist in maintaining a simple, childlike, miracle-making faith. Picture yourself without the ailment (this means like illness, but you don’t have to worry abt this word) or problem. Imagine the emotional accompaniment of the freedom state you crave. Cut out all red tape (hard stuff or complex manifesting routine/self concept) from the process. The simple way is the best.

Do not weaken your prayer by saying, "I wish I might be healed." "I hope so." Your feeling about the work to be done is "the boss." Harmony is yours. Know that health is yours. Be-come intelligent by becoming a vehicle for the infinite healing power of the subconscious mind. Pass on the idea of health to your subconscious mind to the point of conviction; then relax. Get yourself off your hands. Say to the condition and circum-stance, "This, too, shall pass." Through relaxation you impress your subconscious mind enabling the kinetic energy behind the idea to take over and bring it into concrete realization.

[synchodai]

PROMPT: Gortash actually tells Durge what they were like in the past.

WORD COUNT: 800+

"Very well, you wish to know who you were before? Who you truly were?"

Something flashes in Gortash's eyes that you can't quite discern — fear, regret, pity. It was only there for the briefest of moments, but you've come to recognize it. It's a warning, the same one he gave you when you were moments away from discovering the Iron Throne. Along with it comes a promise: This will hurt. You will be destroyed, crushed under the weight of a sinful and bloody past that the people had left to erode in the dark forgotten depths of Umberlee's embrace. You entered that lost fortress believing you can save what's worth saving, but it's that foolishness that will ensure that it can never be recovered.

Are you certain this is what you want?

"Yes."

Gortash shakes his head. "You were a monster. A true one in every sense of the word. Everything you touch is bound for destruction. There's no getting around it; it is your purpose, the reason for your existence. And so, Orin was lauded as a hero, a valiant slayer who did what most wished to do but were too afraid to actually accomplish. The reason no one looked for you when you disappeared was because every being with any instinct of self-preservation was glad to have you vanished.

"Ketheric certainly despised you, so much so that he didn't care enough to recover whatever parts of you remained in that blasted tower. Perhaps because he knew you wanted to murder that precious wayward daughter of his. Fool man that he was, blinded by dead, rotting attachments. It was a challenge that almost cost me a finger to reconcile that interpersonal clash.

"And Orin... As I said, no one could blame her for what she had done. You would drag her across Moonrise, battered and beaten for all to see. Yes, you were largely admired and feared for these public displays of discipline. You were but a stern master training a hunting hound, yet one could also hardly be shocked when the same dog bites back. And if it kills you? Well, that says more about your cruelty than it ever will Orin's."

You had it coming.

Oddly enough, there's no venom in his words, even as he tells you that you were the worst person alive or dead. If anything, he seems resigned. Deflated. Regretful.

"And you, Gortash?" you ask. "Were you also happy that I was gone?"

He lets out a hollow laugh. He looks agonized over what you just said, uncertain if he should even answer. But he's already promised you the truth.

"I should have been. With you gone, so was the biggest obstacle to a world under the complete control of the Black Hand. I would have been obligated to take you out of the picture one way or another. And yet..."

"I've never been one to discard things unless there was no other option. Often did you chide me for it, called out the clutter and inefficiencies that it tended to entail. I thought it to be resourcefulness, but you regarded it as sentimentality. Our philosophies often clashed like that. You wished to cull the weak, and I was of the mindset that they could be made stronger, that every one of us should have the chance to strive for perfection. "

There was a nostalgic wistfulness in his tone now. "I believed I could bend and mold you enough so that we could achieve what was thought to be impossible. You once told me you believed I could fix anything. Those were in our early days, when the Absolute was nothing but a shared delusion between you and I. For what is madness and genius but two sides of the same brilliant coin? A coin I bet on you."

His gaze pierces straight through you, stripping you as bare as your stunted memory could remember.

Recollections come to you like drops of water on parched soil. No matter how monstrous you acted towards this one, he was unfazed. When you ask him why, he scoffs and tells you that any pain you can inflict is nothing compared to what he's already gone through and what further torture awaits him in the future. You could tear him limb from limb, but as long as it fulfills his purpose, he will take it. Things have to be broken if they are to be put back together again, stronger and better than before. He is glad to be changed, to be transformed by your lash — he welcomed it.

"Vile and cruel as you were, you were glorious and powerful beyond compare. Of course you were — you were divine."

Unbidden, another memory comes to you, more world-shattering than all the weight of your sins. A deft and nimble hand exploring your scarred form as if examining a blueprint. A mortal man sculpts divine flesh. You know in your unholy soul that this is an inversion of the natural order. And yet, you allow yourself to conform to the shape of his touch.

Your god created you in His image, and you let Enver Gortash paint over that image with mere human hands. You asked your Father for forgiveness, but it was too late. To be loved is to be changed.

Gortash gives you a rueful smile. "You were the closest to perfection I ever have or ever will experience."

[hashiruchan]

Headcanon: What subjects would Primarchs teach in high school?

(Based on subjects I had in high school or am familiar with)

This is my first Warhammer 40k headcanon, I hope you like it :'3 It comes with some quick sketches

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Roboute Guilliman – Economics/Business Administration He is usually strict because it is his duty but he helps his students from time to time, everyone loves him

Vulkan – Civics and Ethics His class focuses on kindness, responsibility, and community service. Everyone gets an A, but he expects you to do your best.

Konrad Curze – Student Supervisor (Hall Supervisor/Dean of Students) No one dares break the rules when he is around. His office is dimly lit and no one knows how he always catches the students before they even think about misbehaving. What could you expect from the Night Haunter?

Corvus Corax – Physics He would make any class interesting, he is sad to fail students and he loves them like they are his children

Lorgar – Religious Studies Somehow, every lesson becomes a sermon and 20 ways to pray to the Emperor

Mortarion – Chemistry The lab always smells funny. An expert in handling toxic gases, the students suspect he is immune to all dangerous substances. Strict

Leman Russ – Physical Education "You're not tired! You're just weak! Keep running!" Gym class is less about fitness and more about survival.

Fulgrim – Philosophy Every discussion ends with an impassioned monologue and the students leave questioning their entire existence thinking what perfection really is. Typical handsome but ruthless teacher

Perturabo – Workshop The assignments are almost impossible. If your project isn't reinforced with adamantium and designed to withstand artillery fire, it's not good enough.

Jaghatai Khan – Biology He loves explaining evolution and animal physiology, he likes to talk about horses a lot, he would be a very funny teacher.

Rogal Dorn – Law/Government Studies He follows everything to the letter, very calculating and always remembers everything he and his students say in every class. Every assignment must be structured like a legal document.

Ferrus Manus – Engineering Very practical. "If you can't build it with your own hands, you don't deserve to use it." Students who present blueprints without actual prototypes are judged harshly.

Angron – Math No one understands why he is so angry when explaining basic algebra, He throws chalk at students who can't solve equations fast enough, don't blame him deep down he is good.

Magnus the Red – Psychology He knows what you are thinking before you say it. "I understand your trauma better than you do" he says. There are very intense debates in class and to calm them down the students leave with mild headaches.

Horus – Language and Literature (English/Literature) Charismatic, good, helps his students and motivates them to be better every day, everyone's favorite without a doubt.

Alpharius – Substitute teacher for any subject "Wait, weren't you teaching biology yesterday?" No one knows how many of them actually exist, I'm actually Alpharius

Lion El'Jonson – History Classes about wars always have a suspicious lack of details about his own past. "We don't talk about certain events. Let's move on…" he doesn't stop talking.

Sanguinius – Fine Arts Every class feels like a divine experience. Students often leave inspired… or in tears. No one wants to disappoint him, he always strives to make his classes relaxing, stimulating and creative for them, he would spend all night cutting out paper flowers to hand out the next day.

[theunsinkableship1]

Things are not always what they seem...

⚠️Disclaimer: This is Lukolaland only. If you don't believe you should skip. No harm intended and no hard feelings. Only strong feelings here.

Dear Lukola Shippers,

I hope this message finds you well, no matter where in the world you are. Though I’ve been mostly quiet recently, I want you to know I’m still firmly aboard this ship, and the waters have felt calmer of late. We are witnessing great waves of success coming to our Lukola. Watching them thrive individually and achieve such success is a joy, it’s wonderful to see them striving and thriving in their unique journeys.

Today, I’d like to open up about something personal. It’s a topic that requires sensitivity but resonates deeply with what we often discuss as a community. Appearances can be deceiving.

Humans are complex beings, and we can never be entirely certain of what’s happening behind closed doors. Even when all signs seem to point in one direction, the reality could be something entirely different.

When I was younger, I was in relationships that seemed one way from the outside but were very different beneath the surface. Back then, I was seen as someone confident and put-together a "popular girl," if you will. But inside, I felt like a wallflower. People were drawn to the version of me they saw, not the person I truly was.

In one relationship, I fell deeply in love. To the outside world, we looked like the perfect couple. But the reality was far from that. I was shy and cautious, but I fell for one of the hit boys. I was deeply in love, but he wasn’t. I became more of a mix between a prop and a seat filler in his life. While I was publicly acknowledged, I wasn’t truly valued in his heart. Being young and in love, I sometimes acted jealous and irrationally, making poor decisions in my attempt to hold on to the relationship. While I gave my all, I never was someone that he truly cherished. I was young and blinded by my feelings, so I clung tightly to the relationship, convincing myself and others that everything was fine. Looking back, I realize that what people saw from the outside, the smiles, the handholding, was a façade for a connection that didn’t exist in his heart. His attention was always somewhere else.

Later, I entered another relationship. I was tired of being alone. All my friends were in relationships, and I found myself longing for one too. This time, it was with someone I became very close to through mutual friends. Though we had a strong bond, we quickly realized we weren’t a romantic match. Yet, for two years, we stayed in a "relationship" because it worked for both of us at that time, he was coming to terms with his own identity, and I was healing and waiting for the right person. To the outside world, we were a couple. We even lived together and shared milestones. But in reality, we were best friends who blurred the lines of companionship. Only our close friends knew the truth: to the outside world, we appeared to be a couple, but in reality, we were just best friends. Sometimes, things can get messy, and lines blur. While I was in this pretend relationship, someone from my past reentered my life, wanting to marry me. Things moved quickly, and even though my friend knew our arrangement was temporary and understood the situation, there might have been some emotional complexity. Perhaps I was ready to move on before he was, or maybe it was because we were emotionally intertwined in many ways. Societal perceptions could have played a role as well. I’m still not entirely sure. After my wedding, we went our separate ways. Though we remain on friendly terms, we are no longer close, and I haven’t heard from him in years.

Life is full of such complexities. For example, I have a chronic hormonal condition that, at times, makes me appear pregnant when I’m not. Years ago, this led to assumptions and speculation, especially early in my marriage. People congratulated me on pregnancies that didn’t exist, which was deeply painful as I faced uncertainty about whether I could have children. It taught me how much appearances can mislead even well-meaning people.

So, why share all this? Because as fans, it’s easy to speculate about the lives of people we admire. But the truth is, only they know what’s happening behind closed doors. I’ve noticed many people dismiss or deny the bond between them, but I believe we can’t be doubtful of its existence. I’m confident they are also aware of what they share. What we’re speculating about is what’s truly happening behind the scenes and why things are unfolding the way they are.

It all comes down to perception and observation. There’s something peculiar about this situation, too many coincidences for certain things to be purely incidental. Patterns emerge that can be explained rationally, and those who pay close attention recognize the mixed messages that make a straightforward narrative unlikely. Occam’s razor doesn’t apply neatly here.

Moreover, we have public evidence, not just imagined scenarios, that suggests there’s been something deeper between them at some point. The idea that 'there’s nothing more' doesn’t hold water because, where there’s smoke, there’s fire.

Appearances, whether on red carpets, social media, or interviews can only tell part of the story. And while our love for Luke and Nicola is real and rooted in admiration for their talent and chemistry, we must tread lightly.

I adore Luke’s subtle and nuanced acting and his incredible singing voice, which has a charm that captivates. Nicola’s range as an actress is extraordinary, and her vibrant personality shines through in everything she does. I support them both as individuals and as a couple because they make me believe in their connection.

I remain here because I believe in the love they seem to share, whether it’s in a glance, a gesture, or an unspoken understanding. Until the day there’s unequivocal proof otherwise, I’ll keep believing because they make me feel the love.

With love and hope,

The unsinkable ship 🚢

[eldritchtoast]

What is your durge’s parenting style like? :o

Oh man don’t get me STARTED

Actually, I will get started, so here’s my analysis/head canons on not only Durge as a parent, but also Bhaalspawn family dynamics 💆‍♂️

ON BHAALSPAWN AND FAMILY

Throughout the game, it becomes apparent that Bhaalspawn value family more than one would probably originally give them credit for. For one, they strive to please Bhaal, their ultimate father figure, above all else, and very rarely do we ever see it pay off, making it a one-off trade that a lot of people with narcissistic parents can resonate with.

We immediately get a bad impression of what bhaalspawn view as family through the Murder Tribunal and Serovok’s abuse of both Helena and Orin, but it’s also important to point out that it does seem to be an exception, especially when seeing Orin’s reaction when facing those facts.

She’s absolutely distraught at learning about it, which causes her to break in the moment, showing that even bhaalspawn have a semblance of what is considered a nuclear family/hierarchy, and even familial abuse is somewhat taboo to them.

ON THE DARK URGE SPECIFICALLY

Regardless of personality interpretation, I do believe the Dark Urge would be an extremely patient kind of parent. They’re a collected cult leader that has led a decaying religion towards prosperity, but even in the game it seems they’re written to be seen as kind of an immovable object kind of person.

While we don’t get a lot of information on what the Dark Urge was like before the tadpole incident (a necessary sacrifice, since they’re a blank slate for the player to project onto), we do get a glimpse of what Orin and Durge’s relationship was like through a letter written by the Dark Urge themselves.

«Little sister, whatever in the Grey Wastes are we going to do with you? Bhaal will never care that you waste your time, posing your corpse-dollies. Bhaal doesn't care whether you give him the corpse of a pauper or a king. At the end of the day, all Father wants is death in droves, death in numbers. To sap away the life of this dull world as swiftly and widely as we can. You plan, you plot, you prevaricate, and you waste his time. Bhaal doesn't need us to think. He needs us to kill.

You kill beautifully, and have talents in your shapes' magics that I never will. But you do not understand Lord Bhaal. Perhaps it is a failing of your diluted blood, as a mere grandchild. I am his sole living pureblood. I will accept no challenge from you, until you show some damned respect.»

It’s interesting how even though this is something written very shortly before Orin’s betrayal, the Dark Urge still seems to be extremely patient with Orin, even when she herself is on the brink of betraying them.

Further more, in this letter alone Durge is doing more for Orin than her “father” has done in a lifetime. They do the one thing Orin always wanted from Bhaal- they validate her. They validate her and her art even when they don’t see the point in it. Not only that, but the whole reason Orin overpowered Durge is because they let down their guard enough for her to backstab them, showing that they probably had a soft spot for Orin.

That, along with the fact that the Dark Urge is probably significantly older than Orin, makes me pretty certain that they would also be like that as a parent.

I’m also a sucker for kids & gentle giants, and that’s kind of what I see durge being like, even when they’re ruthless to everyone else outside the cult.

Being gentle doesn’t solely make a good parent, though. Especially when they had a proper home so briefly before murdering their family, Durge would not be a perfect parent. With their duty as Bhaal’s chosen and head of the cult, I can see them being rather detached at times.

DURGE & REDEMPTION

Redeemed durge in my eyes would get things together a little more- in my universe by the time that happens, Azalea is already in her early 20s, but it’s better to make amends later than never. Seeing the way Bhaal treated them and with the love and support they’re given from their friends, I do think that they could become a very good parent, especially when breaking the cycle of abuse is such a big theme in the over all story of BG3

I like to think Redeemed Durge and Azalea go fishing together sometimes :^)

[memepocalypse]

Bardic Inspiration Starters pt. 2

[source]

"There is no sweeter music than the screams of our enemies. Now, go compose."

"As much as I would enjoy looting your dead body, I truly do want you to succeed here."

"If reckless shenanigans got us into this mess, then why can't they get us out?"

"If it weren't for a foolish attempt at glory, then nothing would ever be accomplished.

"You might fail, die even. But at least it won't be boring."

"They say laughter is the best medicine. Your face must be curing the world."

"Your roar didn't scare me. The stench of your breath did though."

"This a special occasion. I didn't typically engage in mental combat with the unarmed."

"You're proof that even the gods make mistakes sometimes."

"As it turns out, stupidity is a crime, and you have been sentenced to death."

"You will never face an opponent as great as I. In fact, you will never face anyone again."

"This isn't going to hurt for long. But oh damn is it going to hurt."

"We're not going to simply stand here poking fun at you. We're also going to poke swords and arrows at you."

"People told me you were terrible. It's not true. You're actually far worse than that.

"Some babies get dropped on their heads. You obviously were thrown against a wall."

"At first I thought that you were brave. Then I realized you're actually just stupid."

"You run about whacking things with a piece of metal. Truly, what an advanced being you are.""You remind me of an ape in armor."

"Typically I have to pay to see a freak show like you."

"As an outsider, how does it feel to have humanoids slaying you?"

" You fiends are most courteous."

"You are full of malevolence, wickedness, and evil. Soon you are going to be full of our weapons and spells."

"Fiends have been trying to take over the world for thousands of years, and you've failed every time. Are you noticing a pattern here?"

"You're probably too stupid to understand this, but worry not, the confusion will be over soon."

"If you shave a dwarf, all that's left is a nose and a beer gut."

"Elves live ten times longer than humans and accomplish ten times less."

"The only thing lucky about halflings is how they don't get crushed to death by real people walking around."

"I am not certain what it is that makes you so stupid, but it really works."

"Is this your first battle ever? Well, it's certainly your last."

"Blade with whom I have lived, blade with whom I now die, serve right and justice one last time, seek one last heart of evil, still one last life of pain, cut well old friend, and then farewell."

"I do not study the divine to imitate what they do. I study the divine to imitate what they are."

"The PCs aren't for the wine or storytelling, they are here for the gnome tossin' and dwarf wresslin'!"

"The secret we should never let the gamemasters know is that they don't need any rules."

"I was once a man, not a great man, not a saintly man, but a good man, and a man nonetheless."

"I did not choose to be a monster—a shell of a man—half-human, half-fiend. I am a tiefling. I am what I am."

"If it has walked these lands, I can track it. If it hasn't I will find it anyway."

"Because the wizard will eventually need a personal audience when slaying gods."

"That perfection is unobtainable is not an excuse not to strive for it."

"Words carry weight. Mine far more so than yours."

[tossawary]

Thinking about how hard the "Star Wars" prequel films dropped the ball in terms of female representation. Like, looking back on the original trilogy, it kind of sucks that the only main female character is Leia, and while Leia does kick ass and I love her, it also sucks that the last film 1) put her in that bikini and 2) abruptly made her Luke's twin but didn't let her have a lightsaber or use a lot of the cool space magic powers.

When you only have one female character, she often ends up bearing the unintended burden of a lot of hopes and expectations of fans. She's just one person. She's never going to be compelling to everyone.

And then you have the prequels and you'd hope that they'd do a little better with male-female ratios this time? With experience? But the only main female character is Padmé, who's pretty fun, but also ends up 1) desperately in love with a murderer, 2) spending most of the last movie barefoot and pregnant, staring out a window, because they cut the "founding of the Rebellion" plotline, and 3) dying not because she was Force-choked but because she has "lost the will to live" because "fuck them kids", I guess.

(I know there's theories about Sidious siphoning her life force or what the fuck ever, but I don't caaaaare, because I hate the idea that Sidious has that kind of reach for no fucking reason and also it's not actually IN the movies! It doesn't count!)

The Nubian handmaidens are a cool concept, but they're all background characters, who barely get named. We don't get to actually see them and Padmé do a lot of on-screen work together. She doesn't get to confide in them regarding her love or her fears. She speaks to her guard captain more onscreen than her handmaidens.

And while we do see female members of the Jedi Order in the films, they're ALSO all background characters, like Jocasta Nu and Aayla Secura and Yaddle. As opposed to more active Jedi characters like Qui-Gon Jinn or Mace Windu. Like, damn, the prequels are the perfect opportunity to introduce and show off even a female Jedi supporting character, and they just did not do that. That sucks. The careless absence of women in this universe sucks. The careless absence of women as significant characters in these films sucks.

Every other piece of additional material for "Star Wars" has to move to patch this. The "Jedi Apprentice" and "Jedi Quest" novels strive to add and name female agemates and mentors. "The Clone Wars" television shows add Ahsoka as a protagonist and Ventress as a villain and a whole bunch of new female characters.

Yes, given that these are prequels, there are some characters who are not really realistically changeable. (Yes, trans people exist, obviously, that would be very cool; not sure that "Star Wars" was going to go for that back in 1999.) Obi-Wan. Anakin. Yoda. The Emperor. Unnamed Sad Mother of Luke and Leia. You need those ones. EVERYTHING ELSE was up for whatever they wanted to do.

So, anyway, I'm currently thinking about characters you could potentially genderbend without affecting the story pretty much at all. Qui-Gon, obviously. Mace Windu, as well. I think fandom would then hate both of these characters even more then, unfortunately, because fandom is what it is. Whatever legitimate criticisms levied at both of these imperfect characters would have increased tenfold, I am certain of it. But we're talking about the prequels's badly executed stories, not fandom's misogyny. (And misogynoir. A black woman as the leader of the Jedi Order when it was destroyed by the Sith? Fandom would have been even more of a fucking nightmare.) It would suck that they both die, but the prequels are a tragedy anyway, so, eh.

Bail's role in the prequels could have potentially been played by Breha Organa instead. Although, I don't know how well the Extended Universe novels had extended Leia's backstory by that point in time, maybe Bail had already been established as the Senator and Breha as Queen, so maybe not. At the very least, you could have had Mon Mothma in there doing his superspy stuff with him or something. Padmé's guard captain could have been a woman.

Both Darth Maul and Count Dooku could have been women. Yes, they're both evil, and yes, they both die, so it's not perfect on the representation front. But it's something, especially if you balance that out with some good characters, and look, I can't coherently complete this thought, I keep getting distracted by the mental image of hot evil Sith ladies. I think a female Count Dooku would have kicked ass, honestly, as much as I enjoy Christopher Lee in the role.

My main goal with this thought exercise is purely upping the number of plot-relevant female characters, pointing out that it wouldn't have been hard to add more women without changing all that much if anyone involved had actually bothered to think about that.

The original trilogy only mentioned "The Clone Wars", so the clone army didn't all need to be copies of Jango Fett. There could have potentially been a half-dozen genetic donors, with the Kaminoans creating different clone soldiers for different purposes. Some of them could have been clones of women. (I hold the unpleasant headcanon that the clone soldiers are all sterile (or functionally sterile, incompatible with unmodified humans) anyway, because the Kaminoans don't want clients to be able to "steal" their work.) And the clones are actually a fairly minor role in the films themselves, admittedly, not given any more development than any of the droids (it's the show that does the work), but again, it's still something more.

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..look I strive to be creative in the way i post okay. here's i7 and their volume during freaky times <33

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horny fuelled explanations below the cut <33

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never stops talking (praising) and moaning group (riku, gaku, ryuu, momo, and touma)

- this is the group that's just the most vocal. not necessarily the loudest, but the ones that talk the most. they'll go on and on about how good they feel, how much they need you, and so on. it's like second nature to them, the way the words just tumble out of their mouth. tell them to tone it down, or shut up, maybe they'll agree, but it's hard to keep it in..

- riku is a bit inexperienced about everything, but willing to learn. he asks if this feels good for you and that too. anything you do to him though.. he's so, so sensitive, trying to choke back his pretty sounds as you take care of him. adorable right?

- you can't tell gaku to shut up. every time you fuck he's just grunting out praises for you constantly, talking out how good you feel, how much he feels, and everything in-between. when he's close, his words get more jumbled, and interrupted by his own uncontrollable moans. he's really impossible to shut up unless you push that mouth to do something.. else. get creative!

- ryuu is calmer than everyone else but still talkative. he wants to know if you're okay with this, okay with that. poor guy's so worried about making you uncomfortable.. when you're fucking though, it often comes out sounding like asking for approval like a breathy "are you feeling good?" in-between gasps. he's so sweet isn't he?

- I may struggle to write momo but it's so obvious he belongs in this category! his voice is so pretty, of course his moans are too! sometimes the sentences coming out of his mouth are completely unintelligible, mixed in so much with surprised little "ah, ah, ah"s.

- touma is embarrassed about it, but he can't help it! everything you do just feels so good to him, he can't help but tell you. he expresses affection verbally a lot of the times, and this is no exception. "good pets don't talk", you tell him, and he tries his very best to shut up, biting his lip in effort. i stand by my touma petplay agenda.

the embarrassed complaining and whining group (yamato and tenn)

- they're tsunderes, I don't know how to word it any differently. unless they're extremely fucked out, a complaint will be occasionally on their tongue. even if they're riding you, tied up or held down, there's an "can't go any faster?" or "you're so mean.." or even a crude "fuck you" from yamato. they're just embarrassed I promise! it's kinda cute, seeing them try their very best to insult and complain through the intense pleasure.

- yamato.. oh he definitely is a little asshole. he has a dirty mouth, and isn't afraid to use that against you. he'll try to dirty talk to get the upper hand (and it's amazing actually) or to insult you. be sure to give him some sort of punishment. he likes to complain about the pace a lot, often impatient if you're too slow. don't be affected through, the way he yelps out a "too fast-!" when you suddenly speed up is so rewarding.

- it's a bit unexpected to see tenn this way. usually he's the perfect, polite angel. though, if you wind him up in the right way, he'll start hissing out biting words, sentences littered with gasps. bear with him, this is one of the only times he can act this bratty without worrying too much. besides, it's cute, paired with the way he leans into your every touch while insisting he's not at all affected by what you're doing.

puts hand/pillow over their mouth (sogo and torao)

- these two are here for wildly different reasons, but will try to muffle their sounds. it's endearing, but at a certain point you just want to hear their pretty moans. get creative, how will you manage to do that..?

- sogo... poor pent up sogo.. he's so repressed, it's so hard to keep himself from staying quiet. he'll press his hand to his mouth so harshly it's like he can't breathe sometimes. if you try to take his hand off (which is a little hard) he'll subconsciously lean his head away, embarrassment reddening his face. Shame, he's one of the more perverted ones out of everyone..

- torao is nowhere near as embarrassed as sogo, but he does find it a little embarrassing that he's the one making more noise. shouldn't that be you?! to be honest, he expected to be the dominant one, so this is.. different. expect to have him try make you louder than him, it'll be like a little competition.

whispers (?) and gasps (yuki and minami)

- I mean.. just listen to their voices! they sound so beautiful and graceful sometimes, it feels so good to get them out of their shell. you're the special one that gets to hear them like this after all.

- yuki isn't repressed by any means, he's just.. usually quite calm. he's also quite.. freaky in the sheets, so it's a little hard to catch him off guard. when you do though, your ears are blessed. yuki's breathy words and sighs are to die for.

- honestly, if you're dating, minami whispering things in your ear is something to get used to, he does it all the time. he does it to tease you, or to tell you something away from anyone else's ears, or if he just felt like it. though.. when you finally get him fucked out enough, his volume is erratic, switching between low, controlled whispers and high pitched whimpers when you touch just the right spot.

makes the prettiest faces, but quiet. (mitsuki and nagi)

- I'm not saying they're so silent, but they're more composed than the rest. they don't hold themselves back much, but their face shows most of what they're feeling.

- mitsuki is one of the more dom characters in i7 i stand by what i say. he's more on the quiet side, trying to keep himself down to hear you better. you're just too cute okay! but he has the cutest voice too, so it becomes a little competition as to who can be quieter, it's sweet.

- nagi either rambles out praises, or keeps himself quiet, preferring to keep his mouth busy with.. other things. he won't miss out on the opportunity to kiss every part of your body after all! he's a big fan of body worship if you can't tell.

(this is fuel for asks please send me asks)

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Sufi Practices & Reality Shifting

My thoughts are a bit of a mess right now so l apologize in advance for any confusion, I'II try to simplify this all as much as I can. Let me say beforehand that I'm not an expert on any of these topics. I'm agnostic, not Muslim, but I grew up in a Muslim household. I wanted to share some of these Sufi practices I found that I think can actually help some of you "reach your higher self," soften the ego, and reshape your inner narrative (I'm not even a believer what am I saying... anyway just roll with me here.)

I first want to talk about what urged me to post this, because of a book I first read when I was around 11. It's still one of my all-time favorites. On the surface, it's Islamic fantasy so you'd think it's all made up and I shouldn't be using it as a reference point. But guess what? I will. Because it's not at all made up.

Alright, let's dive in.

"The foundation of matter is condensed energy. Thought is also energy. And if the energy of thought becomes condensed enough, it can very well materialize."

Sufi Practices & Other Tips

Alright, here are some Sufi-inspired practices mentioned in the said book, plus a few gems I pulled from other source books (Reality Transurfing by Vadim Zeland, Perfect Human by Al-Jili)

Core Practices

Dhikr

Repeating a Divine name or phrase, silently or aloud, to anchor your awareness and purify your focus. It's a way to quiet the ego and dial in to your desired reality.

Muraqabah (Meditation)

Deep internal contemplation or spiritual vigilance. You meditate with clear intention, training yourself to tune into subtle inner signals and stay fully present.

Sama/Whirling (Sema)

Rhythmic music, chanting, and spinning to transcend the ego through ecstatic movement. It's a physical way to induce altered consciousness. Dizzy enough, and your mind can slip into different states. Kind of like a bodily tool to shift your awareness.

Khalwa (Retreat)

Traditionally a 40-day seclusion with constant dhikr but we're gonna do the mini version starting with just one hour alone a few times a week. No devices. Just sitting, walking, or writing in complete solitude.

Service/Compassion (Khidmah)

Acts of service done with humility and no expectation. Serving others is meant to soften the ego and align your inner and outer intentions.

Contemplation & Study

Reflect deeply on spiritual talks, poetry, and mystical texts to reshape your inner narrative.

Muhasaba (Self-Accounting)

Before bed, review your day without judgment. Ask yourself "Where did I act from ego? Where did I act from awareness??

Ascetic Discipline (Riyazet)

Riyazet means to strive against the human lower self (nefs or id) and it aims at invalidating the power of sensual desires of the id. It's done by putting certain restrictions like eating less, sleeping less, talking less.

Some Other Practices From Different Sources

Muraqabah for "Spiritual Travel"

There's a form of muraqabah specifically for "safar-e-roh" (journey of the soul) where you imagine yourself in a chosen location until you actually feel you're there. Advanced practitioners claim their consciousness leaves the body and experiences that place firsthand. They might use visualization, chanting and breath control similar to shifting methods like the Raven method.

Tawajjuh (Energy Transmission)

In some Sufi lineages, a master can "tune" your consciousness so you access higher states faster. Basically having a pro shifter boost your frequency. But for the great majority of you who have no master or mentor to guide them through it, here are some alternatives

Visualization of the master In some Sufi orders, if the master is physically absent, you visualize them in your mind and direct your focus toward them, believing the connection still works.

Connecting through a chain (Silsila) Some believe that even imagining the founder of the order or a great saint, with sincere intention, can substitute in part.

Self-directed Tawajjuh Turning all your attention toward God directly, imagining light or presence entering your heart, and sustaining that deep focus.

Dhikr + Muraqabah Repeating a sacred phrase while sitting in meditation, imagining the meaning filling your awareness until nothing else exists.

Slides

Create merital movies of your "Desired Reality," try and make it as vivid as possible. Visualizing where you want to be (your "slide") helps shift your frequency toward that version of reality.

Importance / Excess Potential

When you give something way too much importance like "I must shift NOW or I'll die you only spike the resistance.

Things to Reduce or Avoid

Mental junk food Limit mindless scrolling, gossip and pointless arguments.

Over identifying with emotions Feel them but don't become them. "I feel angry" ≠ "I am anger"

Instant reactivity Pause before responding, especially in conflict. Become aware of your actions.

Ego flexing Drop the need to win, be right or one-up others.

Also, for those of you who aren't Muslim and don't feel comfortable doing these but still want to give it a shot, you don't have to do these exact things mentioned here. You can certainly adapt it into a method you would feel comfortable using.

Okay, that's it. I had to take out some of the things I'd previously added because I didn't want the post to be unnecessarily long. I may or may not later make a separate post to talk about those things but for now this is it. Hope these can be of use to someone 🩵

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im the south american anon, thanks for your kind words, i love your account so much ♡. just wondering if you have a guide on how to prepare for a new school year or for 2024, have a wonderful morning/night 💗

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ACADEMICS

Try to recreate your ideal study routine before. Study any subject you want using that specific study routine that you can when school opens. This gives you enough time before school starts to make any adjustments needed.

Get a head start. If you do have access to your curriculum or syllabus, read or actively study content on those topics. If you don’t, you can usually search up your class and your state which shows what you’ll be learning.

Experiment with study methods + note-taking. For study methods, search up different ways to effectively study, and pick at least three that appeal to you. Then pick any topic you want, and use those methods to study that topic. See which one worked the best for you and which wasn’t. 

For note-taking, search for some ways to take notes, and choose at least 3 that appeal to you. Then watch a video/lecture on any topic, and use those methods to take notes on it. See which ones that worked the best for you.

Create a planner or diary. Use it to keep track of your assessments, assignments due dates, events at school or any after-school activities. This planner would be just purely for school-related things. 

I think a digital planner would work best with most students, but some traditional ones are equally as good. It’s up to you to choose how you want to plan your school life, but you need to have at least one planner. 

Find a good study website/app. There are so many academic websites/apps out there that can aid you while studying, which are just at your fingertips. 

I recommend Duolingo, Quizlet and Khan Academy. Of course, there are so many more out there so I encourage you to explore your options. Some websites are just dedicated to one subject. 

Set SMART goals. Set academic goals that are achievable and realistic. Wanting all A’s or 100’s all the time is just way too unrealistic, and the pressure of wanting to reach the standard you set for yourself is just going to stress you out. 

Wanting a certain award, or A’s in certain subjects allows you to allocate your focus properly and is within reach. While you should definitely strive for good grades, avoid getting caught up in the mind trap of trying to achieve ‘perfect’ grades. 

Create a study place and ritual. Before school starts, choose a place anywhere in which you study regularly. Avoid having more than one, because having just one allows you to settle in and focus better. 

If this place is in your house, ensure that the space around it is clean and free of anything that wouldn’t serve you while studying. Plus, you can put up some cute motivational quotes.

A study ritual is habits that you do before studying, that help you while studying. You can create your own of whatever things that help you to be more productive and focused. 

HEALTH

Establish a sleep routine early. A week before school preferably, start waking up at the time you’d have to go to school and sleeping at your desired time. This is so that when school starts, you’re not feeling groggy while getting ready because you’ve already adjusted to the time. 

Talking about sleep, ensure that you practice good sleep hygiene as quality sleep enhances brain performance and improves energy levels throughout the day. 

Plan your meals at school. For us who have canteens or cafes near our schools, we tend to just eat whatever and we forget to nourish our bodies. You still can buy from them, but the night before, try to think about what you can eat for lunch the next day instead of impulsively buying. 

Carrying small containers of fruits or vegetables to go with my canteen lunch is my favourite combination. 

Carry a water bottle. I used to always forget to stay hydrated during school, so instead of drinking from fountains, I now prefer to carry around my water bottle from class to class. 

Wear SPF.

Just having it sitting on my desk while I’m working, reminds me in my mind to drink water. Water also boosts brain performance! 

Create a stress management plan. There are going to be times when you feel stressed, but we want to avoid stress impacting our academic performance and mental health. 

Before school starts, plan what to do if you feel heavily stressed. This could be like a menu of things you can choose from or a step-by-step guide that you follow through. This plan should contain things that relax you, make you happy and distract you from stress. 

Practice good posture. Once school starts, we sit at a desk all day, and most of us forget the proper way to sit while studying/working in class. This can lead to slumping or hunching on a chair, which encourages bad posture. 

Remember throughout the day to practice good posture, if you can, put a little reminder on your device. Posture stretches before the school days also help. 

Try to incorporate exercise into your schedule. Exercise is frequently neglected when we just have so much studying to do and we’re busy with other activities, but exercise is essential to leading a healthy lifestyle. 

The good thing, is you don’t have to do it every day. Doing it 2-3x a week should be enough. Going on walks during lunch/recess, cycling to school or participating in gym are easy ways to incorporate during the school season. 

Keep your bag lightweight. Carry the absolute essentials to school, having such a heavy bag can do a number on your back and also affect your posture. If you do have one, try to keep most things in your locker instead of bringing them to and from school. 

Engage in social media mindfully. There are so many toxic studying accounts out there that encourage unrealistic expectations or offer harsh ‘motivation’ to students. 

Please don’t interact with these types of accounts, even if they provide motivation to you, it is not sustainable at all. 

SELF CARE

Choose your favourite way to take a break. Not just once a week, but always take breaks every day. If you want these breaks to be somewhat productive like reading a productivity book or exercising, then go ahead. 

However, your breaks can also be ‘unproductive’. Play some games, go online shopping or just take a nap. One break is not better than the other, I just encourage you to take any kind of breaks you want daily.  

Plan to engage in hobbies regularly. It is easy to neglect our passions and what brings us happiness when we’re focused on school. If you can, have a chunk of the day just purely for doing hobbies. It can be for 1 hour, 30 minutes or 10. 

Or, join an afterschool club that focuses on that specific passion or hobby. Not only is it time for you to engage in the things you enjoy, you meet like-minded people who also enjoy it. 

Try to plan things with friends and family. Before school, meet up with your friends or family and do things with them. Once school reopens, opportunities to hang out with your loved ones are scarce. So, do it now. 

Create a no-hard productivity day. Plan a day in which you are doing the most minimal amount of productivity that you can. While you can include a few productive things, nothing that is mentally or physically exhausting is allowed on this day. 

If you are way too much of a productive or goal-oriented person to spend one day of no hard productivity, create a catch-up day. Choose one day of the week that you focus on completing or doing anything that you didn’t do all the other days. 

Keep a journal on you. Sometimes things happen during the school year, and it does cause conflicting or upsetting emotions within us. Creating the practice of journaling before school reopens is a good way for us to process our emotions and situations. 

Carry a book you like in your bag or locker. When you finish all of your work in class, or you just want to take a break, you can read a good book. This is also a good alternative to spending your lunches and recesses when you’re not in a sociable mood. 

Create a reward system. For example, if I study for x minutes, I can do x for myself. Or I can x grade, and I’ll get x. These don’t have to be big or extravagant rewards, but something simple like one episode of your favourite show can do. 

MINDSET CHANGES

Practice a growth mindset. You are going to experience failure at least once (if not more) during your school career. You mustn’t take these experiences to heart, and instead, use them as lessons to encourage self-growth within you. 

Practice this mindset now, so that when school reopens, you won’t have a problem with extracting lessons from failures. 

Use comparison as a source of inspiration or motivation. It is easy to compare ourselves with our peers, as we are similar ages, but their skills can exceed ours. Instead of using up all of your energy to be envious of the, channel that energy into bettering yourself. Not to beat them, but to beat yourself. 

View studying as a time to develop your skills. While yes, we do study to get good grades, studying can help us to grow our other skills as well. We build our discipline, focus and critical thinking as well. 

So when you don’t get the best grade from an assessment or assignment, don’t beat yourself up and think all that studying was for nothing. You were building those skills, so next time, you can apply them when you have to study again.

Set firm boundaries with others and yourself. There are times when you just have to say, I have to study. Not just to others, but to yourself. Practice these boundaries before school when it comes to more general productivity. 

There is no rejection, just redirection. Change your mindset that rejection is nonexistent, and there is only redirection. Incorporate it in your daily life like;

‘there’s no more stock left of my favourite product, there’s probably something better out there.’ 

That being said, I’m not saying that if there is a barrier to your goal, you just move on. However, you should not be chasing things that are not meant for you and shift your focus when necessary. 

Detach when needed. Stop attaching your value or worth to things that are external and can easily be gone. This doesn’t have to apply to just grades, but also other situations. 

Try to start reading or researching about detachment before school reopens.  

Time is your most valuable resource, use it to invest wisely. Your teen years are going to be the most suitable time in your life to start investing in yourself. 

You have fewer things to worry about(aside from grades) and you have a lot of opportunities now to explore the things that you want. Please, don't spend this time doomscrolling or any other time-wasting activity.