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[sunnydbeam]

Gamma Code - Chapter 1: Hell In The Darkness

▪︎ Word count: 4,628

▪︎ Rating: M

▪︎ Chapter summary:

Your routine, methodical job becomes a deadly pursuit when you get caught up in a problem you didn't know existed. It turns out to be your problem now.

[hexbaiting]

LOKI 2x05 | "Science/Fiction"

[dykephan]

there are some phandom jokes which seem to actually bother phil but he never says this out loud or expresses insecurity the way dan so readily does, so people just keep making those jokes no matter how unfunny they've become. and the only way you can really tell that they get under his skin is because dan starts being extra sweet and encouraging and/or points the jokes towards himself

[bravenot]

‘you can comment on my character but not on my looks!’ (veth’s feeling insecure)

[childrenofcain-if]

see, there were many different ways you could kill someone you love. the slowest one was to not love them enough.

And here I thought we were gonna have a smooth sailing romance with M... why do you hurt us so 😥

hehe because it’s fun 😋

but seriously tho, MC will have a lot of conflicting thoughts because at the end of the day, it is a secret relationship. the scenario may have made it all smooth out in an instance, but it’ll be very different in the story.

think being caught by undercover journalists and overzealous students and having to deal with the aftermath. the royal family isn’t very flexible and they’ve already made an exception for victoria (after a lot of time had passed); there is little chance they’ll do it for M.

[epickiya722]

You know what, I still think Addison having white hair just because, like there was no reason at all would have been a lot better than her being ¼ alien.

I feel like the message could have been "We're all just different in our own way and that's okay" could have gone a lot better.

Her needing to feel like she belonged somewhere (in the span of 3 movies despite the first ends with her being accepted anyways and everyone coming together) and then it turns out she was part of a superior race still rubs me the wrong way.

[statictwoo]

I’m gonna say something weird and hope someone understands me...Barney Fife is what happens when someone has an inherent personality similar to Frank Burns but is loved and cared for.

[habakos]

Can we ignore the weird amount of pillows thank you

[fertilisedovumcell]

Passive dependency

Source: The Road Less Travelled - M. Scott Peck

Passive dependency has its genesis in lack of love.

The inner feeling of emptiness from which passive dependent people suffer is the direct result of their parents' failure to fulfil their needs for affection, attention and care during their child-hood.

It was mentioned in the first section that children who are loved and cared for with relative consistency throughout childhood enter adulthood with a deep-seated feeling that they are lovable and valuable and therefore will be loved and cared for as long as they remain true to themselves.

Children growing up in an atmosphere in which love and care are lacking or given with gross inconsistency enter adulthood with no such sense of inner security.

Rather, they have an inner sense of insecurity, a feeling of "I don't have enough" and a sense that the world is unpredictable and ungiving, as well as a sense of themselves as being questionably lovable and valuable.

It is no wonder, then, that they feel the need to scramble for love, care and attention

wherever they can find it, and once having found it, cling to it with a desperation that leads them to unloving, manipulative, Machiavellian behaviour that destroys the very relationships they seek to preserve.

As also indicated in the previous section, love and discipline go hand in hand, so that unloving, uncaring parents are people lacking in discipline, and when they fail to provide their children with a sense of being loved, they also fail to provide them with the capacity for self-discipline.

Thus the excessive dependency of the passive dependent individuals is only the principal manifestation of their personality disorder.

Passive dependent people lack self-discipline.

They are unwilling or unable to delay gratification of their hunger for attention.

In their desperation to form and preserve attachments they throw honesty to the winds. They cling to outworn relationships when they should give them up. Most important, they lack a sense of responsibility for themselves.

They passively look to others, frequently even their own children, as the source of their happiness and fulfilment, and therefore when they are not happy or fulfilled they basically feel that others are responsible.

Consequently they are endlessly angry, because they endlessly feel let down by others who can never in reality fulfil all their needs or "make" them happy.

I have a colleague who often tells people, "Look, allowing yourself to be dependent on another person is the worst possible thing you can do to yourself. You would be better off being dependent on heroin. As long as you have a supply of it, heroin will never let you down; if it's there, it will always make you happy. But if you expect another person to make you happy, you'll be endlessly disappointed."

As a matter of fact, it is no accident that the most common disturbance that passive dependent people manifest beyond their relationships to others is dependency on drugs and alcohol.

Theirs is the "addictive" personality.

"They are addicted to people, sucking on them and gobbling them up, and when people are not available to be sucked and gobbled, they often turn to the bottle or the needle or the pill as a people-substitute."

In summary, dependency may appear to be love because it is a force that causes people to fiercely attach themselves to one another. But in actuality it is not love; it is a form of antilove. It has its genesis in a parental failure to love and it perpetuates the failure.

It seeks to receive rather than to give. It nourishes infantilism rather than growth. It works to trap and constrict rather than to liberate. Ultimately it destroys rather than builds relationships, and it destroys rather than builds people.

[sunnyclouds-art]

I love to put Shoto and Kiri in "the other woman" situations where they never feel like they can be with bkdk because they aren't enough but in reality bkdk are actively trying ask them out in the most romantic way possible!

[bird-butch]

jimmy is such a deeply frustrating character to watch sometimes, every two episodes he'll be like "i wonder if kim even likes me :(" and every time you just wanna grab him through the screen and shake him and yell "of course she does are you fucking stupid???"

[bravenot]

it’s actually so crazy that the word veth means ‘none/not’ in cornish it’s such a coincidence that I feel like I stumbled upon a conspiracy

[itscuntingseason]

i can't write but i want to write a one-shot of hironaru from wotakoi so bad. of narumi having reccuring dreams/nightmares through the years, about her exes leaving her behind, about her hiding her true self, about her increasing anxiety and self-loathing (which she doesn't want to admit she feels). the dreams show up less after she's been dating hirotaka for a while.

but one day, when he's sleeping over at her apartment, she has the same dream. except, instead of being stuck in her hole of loneliness, fear and self-hatred, hirotaka shows up and sits next to her, indirectly telling her that he'll be there for her, even if she can't open up to him now. then, koyanagi and kabakura are at her side, smiling at her, each of them being able to bond with her over different otaku things. all of a sudden, hirotaka isn't sitting next to her, but is standing opposite from her in the distance. all she can hear is 'go to him, go to him, go to him' echoing in her head.

she wakes up from shock, the room is still dark and it's probably way too late (or early) for her to be awake all of a sudden. but she looks down, next to her, where hirotaka is sleeping, and smiles. feeling warmth blooming in her chest, she carefully leans down, picks up his hand and places a kiss against his knuckles. hirotaka wakes up from it, still half asleep. he gently presses her head down on the pillow, hugs her and tells her to "go back to sleep, idiot". narumi lets out a chuckle in response and closes her eyes. she'd probably have the old nightmares again at some point. but at least she has her friends, and especially hirotaka, by her side to remind her she's not alone.

slightly inspired by this art https://www.tumblr.com/averyshittyseal/726559489065680896/mild-nudity-just-cuddle-and-tenderness?source=share

[feralwhimsicalgirl]

need to be fucked until i feel good about myself again

[poshtotties]

[allthebestcowgirls]

this is how i know im too mentally ill to actually date bc this guy called me sexy and now i want to delete my bumble account and cry and i feel uncomfortable