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the midnight visits of wicked part 2
#wicked#the deleted scenes killed me wtf was all that#gelphie#galinda upland#elphaba thropp#brb killing myself over “ i wont leave you behind again” and the im not that girl in the background of galinda being jealous of fyerio#insane shit
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the scene people keep screaming about from chapter 5 of theseus' guide
#gravity falls#gf theseus' guide#billford#stanford pines#bill cipher#stanley pines#mabel pines#dipper pines#m.png#THIS WASNT SUPPOSED TO TAKE ALL WEEK AAGH#cool thing i did where i took these characters who i cant draw from any angle but the front and then have them turning around CONSTANTLY#not just views from different angles either! active turning! im a genius!#i feel like you can tell which shots were drawn on different days sadkfhlgljaskg this killed me. i was gonna clean up the bgs but fuck that#theyre functional on a basic level and that is all we need#anyways can you believe the notorious line is only in the fic because an eagle eyed editor (not myself) caught it just before it was delete#and started screaming until it got put back#also the way stump came over while i was making this and was like 'oh right. i ship them' at the way i made bill flirt lmao#it hits different in the visual!#alright now i gotta fucking haul ass on the chapter 8 one
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I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -
I am fine with "the audience" -
downloading my fics
printing my fics
copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics
sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3
making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss
doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc
I am not fine with "the audience"
doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity
feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever
Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.
Enjoy the fandom things.
#fanfic#ao3#archive of our own#fandom things#tumblr things#i may have said this at some point#i'm sure i have#but whatever - just in case#i don't say this with the presumption that i'm so amazing and people are clamoring to save my fics#but just if anyone is so inclined that's all#ftr i don't intend on ever removing my fics from ao3 or deleting fandom things from this blog#i've always shared my fandom things with the intent of keeping them shared bc that's the whole point of posting#but the fandom atmosphere and ao3 constantly being under attack who knows what can happen#not that this applies to anyone but should all else fail you can also reach out to me and i will personally give you a copy#at least of fics bc i save everything#not so much the tumblr things but this is a good reminder to myself that i should do that for the things i care about#that i've made or done and only posted here#anyway sorry i have now used up my quota of the putting words into sentences doing for today#i have plans to stare into the void now
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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)
#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright#here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really#im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting#the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one#like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans#and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall#it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf#i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear#also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb#sth#sonic fanart#sonic#amy rose#nov.aart#nov.junk
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i will like forever stand by the fact that self-insert art is good and helpful honestly. call it cringe or whtever but at the end of the day you need to realize that drawing yourself or writing yourself into your favorite media that makes you happy can be incredibly healing. there is seriously nothing wrong with wanting to experience a bit of a reality in which u live a life that is with your favorite character ever even if its "weird" cuz honestly who the fuck cares. make urself happy. let yourself have that singular pleasure of imagining yourself with someone or something that brings you comfort outside of this world that is not nearly as kind
#especially if ur like me and u use it as replacement therapy cuz you cant access real life therapy#i do not care if its cringe if i draw myself talking w sun fnaf or who ever fucking else#if i do not have anyone to go to for comfort Let me make it up at the very fucking least#talking#ugh or possibly#delete later
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050425 (most of these were inspired by Back to Square One by rosensilence)
#dc#superbat#fanart#the correct brush can make you feel like you can fight god#this colour pencil brush made me think drawing the second pic with no references was a great idea#i might delete this if it gets on my nerves more later#also i love twitter art challenges. i wish i could bring myself to be on twt more but also. god not really#all except the big supes is doodles from listening to the fic :)
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Snow blindness
#guys remember when Ed went completely blind in the book for like five days. yeah. y e a h.#im normal. so normal.#I've been holding onto this for a while now and i was unsure if I should post it#but here#if it does badly i will delete it and we will all pretend nothing happened bc im totally not a freak <33#(im a freak)#this is a normal drawing with no undertones trust me#suggestive#<- ignore that#totally completely normal drawing ahhahaha#I just saw that pose ref and . yeah#yk i cant help myself when there is a pose ref#my art#the terror#Edward little#<3#idk#other person up for interpretation#let me know your takes
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I'm sure that this kiss wasn't because of the golden blood. It's from my true feelings. Feelings that... I've never felt before in my life.
#my golden blood#my golden blood the series#mygoldenbloodedit#mark x tong#marktong#joss wayar#gawin caskey#jossgawin#lextag#userrlana#userrzey#userspring#mjtag#userbon#userspicy#mygifs*#clairedaring#usertorti#uservix#userrlaura#uservid#userpharawee#user25shades#thai bl#listen!! i know it's a long post but i couldn't bring myself to delete any of these. LOVED THIS SCENE!!!! AND I LOVE THEIR KISSES ASDFGJHKL#also mark's thumb going around tong's chin and then around his neck is very important to me in the end of gif 7
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Like okay fine whatever- everyone is entitled to headcanon whatever they want-
But for THE largest updates account in this fandom to actively erase a gay man from their Pride post and then proceed to dedicate an entire post towards a STRAIGHT MAN? That is absolutely insane, tone deaf and a PERFECT example of the homophobia this fandom harbours, and I'm just SO OVER IT.
#Anti Buddie#BuckTommy#911 Discourse#ranting and will probably delete#i am actually so fucking sick of it and this fandom#people pls send me cute buck and tommy gay shit I need to cheer myself up
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really whats interesting to me is that if u stay involved in a fandom long enough u get an evolution of scrolling from: ooh! - ooh! - ooh! - OH i didn't realise this was a trope - ooh! - OH - ooh! - ooh!!
to smth more like: read that - read that - oh LOOK it's my mutual - omg that one looks SO GOOD i love the trope subversion - wrote that - read that - oh my friends have been screaming about this one - wrote that - oh LOOK it's my mutual - read that - FRESH MEAT LETS GO SAY HELLO and its
SO beautiful and joyous. being a member of a community is fun!!!!! being so familiar with a tiny corner of the internet is fascinating!!!!! seeing the connections between yourself and other people is crazy cool!!!! we're all here on the web page together!!!! i see you and i love you!!!!!!
#dont ever let anyone make u ashamed of ur interests and ideas ok? ok. we're all here to have a good time#communities are how humans work. its like anything. choirs and group gardens and team sports. and fandom. we're pack animals really#anyway all this to say i value ur presence. dont ever be discouraged. i love that i get to grow alongside this community.#and ps. irl mutuals. just like. feel free to block tags. you dont have to read all my silly posts if you dont want to.#and if you do want to for some reason! hi! please observe how brave and chill about letting u see my tumblr blog i am! (:#because although i DO want to hide in case u think im weird... i also believe what im saying... passion and enthusiasm is the way to go#being genuine and true to myself is so so important. and right now i genuinely happen to be super duper invested in a zelda fancomic. as#insane as that sentence is. anywyayyyy TAG RANT SORRY EVERYONE <3#u kno me i liek to tag talk#being vulnerable is scary etc etc#linked universe#<- normally i wouldnt maintag but like. wanted to inject some positivity onto peoples dashes or whatever#idk how maintagging works honestly 😭#🐝#delete later#ao3#technically. idfk#fandom#?#idk
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I really wish we could get a scene where Percy reaches his breaking point and uses all his abilities at once. I want to see a proper earthquake. I want to see what he can do with his control over storms. Like, I want to see him move mountains - literally move mountains - to take care of business. Maybe the world is about to end. Maybe Annabeth is in danger. Maybe Estelle is in danger. Maybe his own children are in danger. There are several things that could make him so angry and scared that his limits shatter.
Children of Poseidon, even demigods, are often referred to as monsters. Because like the sea, they are brutal and merciless. And Poseidon has implied that Percy has surpassed every hero he’s ever seen, even hercules, when it comes to his capabilities and determination. Leo and Hazel have said you can physically feel and see his power, even if he’s not doing anything. I want to see Percy really tap into the godly part of him. I want him to send his enemies running for their mommies. And I want to read it from someone else’s point of view. Someone who can describe what it really looks and feels like.
Becasue imagine the most frightening, intimidating man you’ve even seen - his wolffish glare, embodied by his sharp features, frightening enough to paralyze you in fear - flying straight towards you on an angry black pegasus. Hundreds of other angry pegasi fan out on either side of him, looking like something out of a mythical nightmare. Then a dark, gigantic wave spanning several miles, taller than mountains, rises behind him. It’s towering over the valleys and hills, casting a shadow over the land, and coming right towards you, ready to demolish and drown every semblance of your existence. Then all of a sudden the entire sky is dark and the air is cold, and the storm hits you with unforgiving force. The brutal winds and sharp cold rain is so strong that you can barely stand. The booming cracks of thunder make your ears ring, and the blinding bolts of lightning light up the sky like electricity is at war with itself. And now… now the entire earth is shaking. The ground is rumbling beneath you so violently that every part of your body is painfully trembling, your teeth chattering and eyes bouncing. The earth around you is splitting into wide chasms, boulders tumbling and tress falling. Oh also a fucking volcano just blew up. It’s suddenly hard to breath as rock and dirt rain down on you, and you’re about to be burned and buried by miles worth of molten ash. Pompeii part 2, brought to you by Perseus Jackson.
Only this is 10x worse, because every natural element is out for your complete and utter destruction.
Because Percy controls all of that. And if he hits his breaking point, there’s no telling what he could do if he set his mind to it.
#i’d shit myself#i would ask nico to just delete me#bc that sounds much nicer#percy is a BEAST#he kinda just controls… everything?#why is he so scary#the cutie#i love him#he’s also my worst nightmare#AHHH#hehe🤭#percy jackson#pjo#heroes of olympus#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo headcanons#riordanverse#rick riordan#dark!percy
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I keep saying I'm trying to get back to normal, which for me is having one horrible depressive day every 2 weeks, then back to ignoring everything until the 2 weeks are up again
I think my depressive episode lasted around 2 and a half months,, it's the most pain I've felt in a while, at least in the sense that it wouldn't stop; if I didn't have a distraction, it'd be overwhelming and terrifying.
Right now it's mostly fading back to "normal", but still I'm left feeling pretty hopeless and lost,, this put a lot of my issues on the spotlight for me and I'm not sure how to proceed, I don't know where to start or what to do.
#delete later#I ASSUME the episode is over because I can mostly function again; I think.#Do I even bring up loneliness again. I isolated myself pretty hard these past 2 months#Im trying so hard to push against myself giving up. I wanna give up so bad. I need to Not do that#(not 'giving up' as in killing myself; it does feel like thts the only thing i Can do; but im trying so hard to not think like this because#it terrifies me; i dont want to be there#I mean giving up as in: 'stop bothering to try because I'll just fail anyways'; yknow?#I wanna believe I can do Something.; that there Can be times where I dont fail; where i can be proud of how far ive come; or whatever#thinking these things still is so painful. i hope someday it wont feel like a punishment to fantasize like this#sorry for posting this; by the way. i wanna feel like im talking to someone
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welcome to a guide for 2025 rpc and a throwback to the importance of creating well rounded , developed characters .

a general lovenote and reminder on how to create characters people want to rp with , as discussed by g. please note , these are all my own thoughts and feelings , but i'm not ' married ' to any of this . i'm happy for open conversation , thoughts , feedback etc , but i don't tolerate aggressive messaging .
the first thing i think about when i think about my character , whether for a rp , a book , a short story , or a 1x1 partner is . . . where is my character ? not just physically , but emotionally . what got them there ? what have they already overcome ? what do they have LEFT to overcome ?
whenever i write or create a character , i think about them in the same way i think about any story making . stories ( typically and in some manner ) have beginnings , climaxes and ends . they also have problems that need to be solved ( or not solved ) . there's an arc we follow . we go up the mountain , then back down again .
a beginning is not necessarily ' born in 1982 , to two loving parents ' . it doesn't need to be a beginning of time , but can just be the beginning to your characters story . e.g ' despite having two loving parents , she had a deep focus on soccer . if not soccer , then maths . if not maths , something else . from a young age , she strove for perfection and being the best at something .'
this beginning sets the tone of your character . in a few sentence , we can already see what kind of person she is and know that she has some internal demons she's battling . we don't necessarily need her entire family tree unless it's critical to the story.
from there, we have our climax or problem statement , where things really begin to boil . again , it doesn't necessarily need to be ' everything came to a head when her mother died ' . we can make it more character focused by writing ' in 2012 , her mother died and she threw herself into trying to create the perfect replacement family . she got married to 4 different men in the space of 5 years , and has 5 children shared among them , as well as 2 step children . but she is unable to settle down . she feels restless . she finds it hard to be a mother because everything reminds her of her own mother , and the loss she's endured . ' now , we already know two things about our character :
1 . she wants to be perfect and the best , including at creating families
2 . she is terrified of her role in motherhood due to the loss of her own mother and feeling unmoored without her
this can then take us to the problem solving portion of the character . this is usually where i like to start my character in rps and 1x1 and novel worlds . we have these 2 issues and 2 core beliefs within the character . they're instrumental to her . how are we going to overcome it ? ARE we going to overcome it ?
we can begin to think of the butterfly effect in terms of our character . we can begin to think of the tree and its branches growing within her , extending out to other characters . we can see how she effects other people , including those close to her , not close to her , new friends , old friends , new love interests , past interests . we can create drama and connections because we have a strong foundation .
so . where does it end ? does it need to end happily ? simple answer is no . your character can end in the exact same place as they did at the beginning , but the point is that we've gone on the journey with the character . maybe we've seen her talk to her mother's grave . maybe we've seen her go to grief counselling . maybe she's gotten pregnant or married again . the problem statement doesn't stop her or stick her in one place . in fact , if anything , it can encourage her to keep making the same mistakes . on the coin flip , she can learn . she can grow . she can heal . she can mend the relationships with her kids , her past partners , rekindle love , or find new love . the whole point in the made-up 'ending' for a character , is that we have options . we haven't locked her down . we can continue to plot , connect , develop , etc , as we go along .
QUESTIONS AND THOUGHTS I CONSIDER WHEN CREATING A CHARACTER :
how has your character ended up where they are right in this moment? think about where you’re starting them from, and what that looks like realistically. not just physically : how did they get to this place ? but also mentally : what did they have to do to become the person they are ? was it good or bad ? everything you are and do and become as a human is made up of tiny almost inconsequential decisions or choices you made. you decided to study x. you broke up with y. your parent passed away so you had to come back to your childhood home. your illustrious career came crashing down and you need a place to cool off. you never left here, you’ve been here from the beginning, because you’re searching for something. what is it? what is the thing that has your character right where they are in this exact moment ?
what emotion do they feel the most? regret, anger, longing, nostalgia ? this helps drive your characters motives past and presently. it also helps you understand their goals. what they want to achieve and why. maybe they yearn for longing and friendship and connection because they never got it as a child, whether at home or at school. maybe they regret not keeping in touch with their childhood friends because now they are surrounded by people they can’t trust and work in a shitty environment where you have to climb over others to get on top. everyone has a goal. everyone has an emotion that drives it. what is your characters and why does it matter? how does it present?
when’s the last time they cried and why? everybody cries and everybody cries in very different ways. it says a lot about the emotional state of a character and their emotional health. are they in tune with their emotions and cry at appropriate times? do they compartmentalise it? do they only cry when angry? dig into it and think of the why why why. why does my character only cry at this one thing? why does my character only feel safe crying alone? why.
what is your characters biggest regret in life? did they get on a plane when they should have stayed? did they study a subject only because their parents wanted them to? did they not kiss the girl when they wanted to? let’s be honest. our lives are filled with “if only i’d done xyz” . if only . this also provides a great opportunity to MAKE these plots and plot with other people. now we can come up with exes or ex best friends or old flames or whatever whatever , because there’s a good chance your character regrets something that impacts someone else and they regret it BECAUSE of that impact .
ADDITIONAL THOUGHTS AND TIPS I'VE PICKED UP WHILE RPING
honestly the more “whys” you can answer for your character, the more in depth you’re getting. in order for other people to understand your character, you need to understand them yourself. you can’t expect people to write with your character if they don’t really have much of a stable personality and your plots don’t make much sense. remember: plotting should contribute to your character and their development. human relationships don’t just exist because we like them. they exist because they serve an unserved part within ourselves.
genuinely think of their hobbies. it’s all well and good to say “she’s a bookworm and loves puzzles” “he likes music” but like. what does that actually mean? WHY do they like certain things ? do they like reading books or writing? do they like fantasy and escapism because it reminds them of childhood? do they listen to only their dads favourite music because they miss him? do they make playlists for niche and specific moods only applicable to them? why are their hobbies important to them?
consider their connections, not just future but npc and current. how would 5 close friends describe them in one word? how would their ex describe them in one word? what is one thing that others could safely always rely on your character for (eg designated driver on nights out, always having some type of fidgeting device, knowing a phone app to help you meditate or streamline a process etc etc). we all exist in the worlds of our loved ones, past, present and future. we leave marks with them. we are known to them. so what is your character known and loved for?
pick your plot first, not your fc or your character. i know this sounds counterintuitive but when you have a plot for a character and a clear path for development - it helps everything else fall into place. the worst thing are characters that are plotless (specifically for group rping). i’m going to be honest here: your character has to have something to give other characters. whether it’s drama, information, hidden secrets, a connection… your character has to have something of substance. i’d actually prefer they’re a stereotype then they’re just aimless and personality-less. when you have a big overarching plot and path for your character, it will not only help you plot with others, but also help keep your character moving and not JUST reliant on others to pick up the slack
rping has always used the yes and…? rule. that extends to your characters. instead of yes and…? think of So… what? your character loves to bake. ok. so what? what does that mean for a thread, or another character? why do we care? maybe we’d care if your character bakes experimental stuff and loves to test it on other muses. maybe we’d care if your character used to be a professional baker but hasn’t baked lovingly in a while. maybe we’d care if your character is a baker but has lost their charm and schtick and can’t bake the way they used to. this stuff is important. don’t just stick arbitrary things onto your character and expect others to care, especially when you don’t care and have just put it on your character as a random quirk. that’s not how people and humans work. everything means everything.
your character doesn’t have to be likeable but they do have to be memorable. evil nasty girls, manipulative jerks… yeah that’s all ok! but also you kinda have to show, don’t tell. you can’t just SAY your character is the “head bitch in charge” and then she never actually talks or says anything or does anything. sorry, but in order for me to see your character, you actually have to write them or at the very least headcanon them. otherwise, they’re just a blob of musings in the ether.
in order to create a character , you have to write your character . i see this a lot in groups .. people love to create a character pinterest , graphics , aesthetics galore . its amazing ! but they don't actually write the character and it can close off a lot of opportunities to plot because people don't know who your character really is . i hate to say it , and its not true for everyone but : if you're relying on aesthetic , then you could be lacking in the actual creation and writing aspect . plus , people have come here to WRITE with YOU . not just see fan edits of your character . write . write badly . write starters , even if they scare you . write with people you don't know . write with yourself . write with your best friend . but you have to actually do the writing part .
#rph#rpc#character help#character development#this is just babble watch me get weird and delete it in a day or two FDKJNFDNJF#this seems sooo egotistical as if im some writing god .. like fr shutup g...#I SWEAR IM NOT AN EGOMANIAC A FEW PPL MESSAGED BEFORE AND SAID THEYD WANT THIS . . ITS JUST MY THOUGHTS N FEELINGS IN 2025#IVE SEEN SOME SHOCKINGLY BAD CHARACTERS DKJNFDJKNFJN sorry thats mean but like . . yk .. some ppl rlly only focus on fc or aesthetic#me : constantly sweating over aesthetics#also me in this guide : dont worry abt aesthetic!#ok now im babbling again#this has been in my phone notes app for sooo long im cleansing myself..#also this is embarrassing bc its not even well written#OK FR SHUTTING UP NOW#hope this does help someone out there#my guide#my writing
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catboy max verstappen because uhhhhhhhhh yeah!! anyways enjoy
#in my mind the collar is a breakaway collar and the tag has his driver number on the front and his breed + blood type on the back#he has to drive with his tail tucked between his legs it is NOT comfortable#there’s also like a fireproof sock thing he has to wear over his tail#the ears tuck back because he’s in sports mode (like crocs)#my fav details are the sponsors on the racesuit and the whiskers on the helmet#anyway if this flops im gonna be so embarrassed im gonna delete myself from existence#but if you like it please talk to me about catboy max i love catboy max#catboy max save me#f1#f1 fanart#mv33#max verstappen#mv1#max verstappen fanart#my art#catboy max#is anyone even awake im posting so late LOL
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I hate him.
(Slight variations under cut: )
#my art#utmv#sans au#killer sans#sometimes i think 'oh i'm soooo over this asshole'#then i catch myself flustered out of my mind at a drawing of him#with thoughts like:#'he could make such a bad joke about that'#or 'it'd be nice to hug this pathetic idiot'#or 'it should be me he's kissing like that'#or 'at this point i can't care who gets on their back me or him—'#like ooooh my god... stop. STOP.#sorry. i'll delete this when shame catches up to me
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#this was a 2 page comic once upon a time ago!#but the other page is one of the many that was lost when my files got deleted last fall#was able to clean this one up enough to post it though#my art#gtav#trevor philips#michael de santa#gta v#trikey#gta 5#gta5#grand theft auto 5#tum/blr dont get me on this. nothing is shown only implied so it should be fine#also sorry will reply to asks 😬 eventually#got some recent work stress on my plate and it makes me more avoidant than usual#i promise im not ignoring u guys on purpose i just cant make myself not freak out these days
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