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angesaurus · 2 months ago

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Getting up at 5am is so painful when you feel like you tossed and turned half of the night 😭

#only time to exercise though #still so sad my bike is gone #so improvising until I can make a decision

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ciderjacks · 1 year ago

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despite Laios low self esteem making him think that if he’d been eaten, Chilchuck and Marcille wouldn’t have helped Falin,

theres a small part of me that thinks the reason Chilchuck stayed with the party and went back in the dungeon in the first place was because he didn’t want to leave Laios alone. That Laios was moreso the reason he stayed.

#dungeon meshi #chilaios #OK SORRY. THE DEMONS. I REALLY DID NOT WANT TO LIKE THIS PAIRING. I DIDNT. BUT. HHH. FHFHJFJV. I FEEL CRAZY. LET ME EXPLAIN.#Pre canon it seems Laios is the person Chilchuck is really the closest to #He gets along with Namari and they are probably way better as buddies than he and Laios but #He and Laios seem *closer*#If that makes sense #Laios calls him his first name enough and without any issue or hesitation from Chilchuck #That I sort of inagine its not like. A misunderstanding. Laios is on a first name basis with him for a reason.#He also worries probably more than anyone about Laios #And his biggest criticism of him is that hes “reckless”#he’s comfortable around Laios in a very specific way and so is Laios around him #and in the series he shows many times that he’ll risk his life to protect Laios #Like staying with him to confront the elves because he was worried Laios would say something stupid #Hes the first one to run up to him when Falin punches him #I mean I think he was also going back for Falin like its not like I think he doesn’t care about her or anything #He clearly does #But I don’t know if he’d have gone back if Laios hadn’t #And if Laios had been eaten I think he wouldn’t have even had to be convinced by Falin #I also think Marcille would’ve gone back for him but probably more bc Falin was going back #Like sort of a reversed thing #AGAIN not that I don’t think she cared about Laios at the beginning either #But she before the story she was mostly Falin’s friend who knew Laios through Falin #She only really got to know him when Falin got eaten and they had to do a team building exercise #Though now I sort of want to see an actually reversed scenario #Bc we also know that Chilchuck is sort of uncomfortable around Falin (said in relationship chart)#So I would love to see them be forced into a team building exercise to find a person they both love the way Laios and Marcille were

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unionizedwizard · 2 months ago

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backing up my files & just stumbled upon a very old journal entry (september 4th 2015) that is literally the biggest egg-in-denial copium ive ever seen. godbless

#but i don't have any masculine personality traits - for what it's worth in a patriarchal society where gender is the very fabric of social #existence #well naturally if i could be a man i'd do that in a heartbeat. but i can't pretend #i'd be a convincing specimen of manhood #17..... oh baby. i was right though....#“oh what if i just want to be trans to be interesting” beloved .#well !#it's so funny. it's really so funny #i barely remember writing this in the first place #fascinating that ever since day fucking ONE the problem was #it's true though. like i was right. but you Can be a failed man instead of a failed woman and it's actually preddy fun . so !#there's this “psychology test” by françoise dolto which - apologies - only works in french #but basically as an exercise to evaluate gender among young children #the therapist tells a child to pretend/perform a gesture accompanying each word #and one of the words is “tire !”. which you could translate as either “pull[on something]” or “shoot[something]”#and the conclusions were that girl childrens overwhelmingly pantomimed pulling on a rope while boy children mimicked shooting a gun #and my father smugly told me that he had done this experiment on me at around the same age mentioned by dolto and that i #always pantomimed pulling on something which in his eyes settled the question entirely. well #maybe the future is a world where boys don't care about guns huh. maybe i was destined to be a weird ass catboy this entire time. huh!#huh the order of these tags is all messed up. solve my jigsaw puzzle boy

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iobsesswaytoomuch · 5 months ago

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random ventish kinda thing in the tags??? Just keep scrollin, lads o7

#Had a dream where I kept saying the F word every five seconds because I snapped and was super angry at everyone #and I don’t- I- wha- where??? Did that come from???#And why does it scare me???#It kind of feels like I’m still in the dream and it hasn’t worn off??? I don’t like this???#That’s not me that’s not Obby it wasn’t real what the.????#And then of course it had all the unhingedness that dreams tend to have #I don’t remember all of it #but I remember baking in this giant dark room with a bunch of random people in it (vaguely resembling my old school’s gym)#and then we had to play instruments to bake #and I had a saxophone for some reason even though I’ve literally never touched one #and then we had to constantly pause because the instruments were powered electrically for some reason #and we had to use those exercise bike things to charge them and it lasted for like five minutes #and then Donald trump came in and I said “f you”#multiple times :D proud of dream me for that and only that #but like. What the fleeperdoodle??? I’ve never sworn??#and I just hate that so much #anyway #vent #weird dreams

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cosmogyros · 7 days ago

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I ought to be well accustomed by now to the fact that I live in backwards-land when it comes to most physical/health things, but it still confuses the heck out of me that eating food saps my energy so drastically.

Today was a classic example: I woke up in the morning full of energy, peppy and motivated. I was dancing around the house, getting a ridiculous amount of chores done, listening to music, having a great time...

...and then I had breakfast. Now, it doesn't really matter what the food in question is - my usual breakfast is either oats with a bunch of toppings (seeds, nuts, fruit, yogurt) or else eggs and toast - and today it happened to be a piece of pita bread with homemade guacamole (avocado, tomatoes, nooch, spices, lime juice) plus a protein shake.

And I have felt like a ZOMBIE since then. Exhausted, limbs heavy as lead, and I spent all the rest of the day on the sofa because I couldn't muster up the energy to walk from one room to another.

This happens so consistently. Whyyyy?! Why does my body hate food :(

#i took my meds. i took my supplements. i got a decent amount of exercise yesterday #so wtf is wrong with my body -_-#the days where i don't eat anything until like 2 or 3 pm are usually the days where i have the most energy in the mornings #running errands; exercising; doing chores; etc.#but i keep hearing from every angle that it's really important for your health to eat breakfast #so like... okay :(#and i love breakfast. but why doesn't it love me?#ugh #food #and out of consideration for others i should probably also tag this:#disordered eating cw #but like... if i follow my instincts it really doesn't feel disordered?#even though i know that i eat only two small meals a day and am 90% vegan #so it's extremely likely that i'm not getting all the nutrients i need #which is why i've been trying to force myself to eat breakfast like a normal person lately #but if it makes me this exhausted and dysfunctional it can't be good right?#i know i should probably just go to a nutritionist #but i really don't want them to tell me 'oh just eat three meals of diverse food per day and you'll be fine :)'#because i absolutely refuse to keep eating after i'm full. that's a really strong boundary for me #and people have shamed and pressured me all my life for eating as little as i do #to the point where i try to come up with lies and excuses to conceal it #like 'oh i actually ate a snack before meeting you for dinner! like a fool!'#'haha i guess that's why i'm good with just a side and a drink :)'#i need to stop doing that. but in my defense people are SO WEIRD about it when you don't eat much #there are all these little micro-aggressions that get really tiring #to the point where honestly i kind of dread eating out socially now #leave me tf alooooone it's not my fault i have the slowest metabolism of all time #cosmo gyres #personal #tag rant

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ezrawip · 2 months ago

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okay i genuinely believe id stay alive for at least a week on a zombie apocalypse. also depends on who im with or the virus variations, but a week is definitely guaranteed

#thing is if im with my dad then im in for a long run #if im with my mom id have to look after her the most #i will not be paired up with my brother because he'd kill the both of us 💀#if im alone its going to be tough but ill have more supplies #if the virus has any mutation like tlou im sure itll spread faster which is an issue #but if it's like average zombie through bite id only have to work out a little and im safe #the issue is knowing how to kill them though 😭😭#do i have the strength to pass a knife through someones skull???#sorry i really like zombie apocalypses ⛷️⛷️#didnt add why i think id survive but basically #im very stealthy and overall quiet #i can move through places very quickly without making any noise #i have an above average reaction time i think??#i work well under pressure and adrenaline #and im incredibly EXTREMELY good at keeping rations and gathering stuff. literally treat everything like its the rarest prize ever #i will not die of hunger and i will find useful items everywhere #the only issue is my body strength 😭#but i am athletic (if u consider i dont do any exercising) and have good long-term stamina #i also can function with small amounts of food and sleep if i get used to it #i just need to get stronger 💔

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uchiha-gaeshi · 2 months ago

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Mental health is reaching new lows rn ngl

#well it’s nothing that my intense exercise regimen can’t fix 😤#but really like I’m either going thru yet another derealization episode or am a minor inconvenience away from bursting into tears and #jumping off a cliff. and like I usually don’t even cry I cry once per season during a bad year #but literally everything and everyone pisses me off. I resent the fact that doing adult tasks takes me more effort now than it did when I #was 15. and whenever I brought up my concerns I’d get dismissed and called ‘mature #‘mature for my age’#nothing feels real and everything pisses me off #even my roommate’s mere existence pissed me off #needless to say I don’t feel very stable right now. well luckily I’m going on leave so I can finally book a therapy appointment #everything is harder as an adult. getting up in the morning is harder #talking to people without wanting to rip my eyes out from the mix of sheer boredom and the cumulative exhaustion of 20+ years of masking #is soooo much harder. I can’t fake office small talk. I just can’t. it doesn’t come out as genuine because it isn’t.#choosing what to wear is harder because I’m at the age where you’re supposed to be put together and know what you want and who you are #while I stil don’t and I’m not even close #choosing what to eat and planning it so that you buy the right things in bulk yet to spend too much to the point where you end up wasting #food. is hard.#I feel like life is like that old college meme of ‘choose one: academics social life or sleep’#*it’s actually choose two #except it’s choose one and it’s careeer success a social life hobbies a good budget #and I can only choose one. but I’m expected to do it all #and I can’t help but think that I’ll always be behind playing catch up #and like my life isn’t hard. I just genuinely hate life #and I really don’t like people. I pretend to like people but in reality I really don’t #my patience for my fellow humans is extremely thin. loved ones are on thin ice too #I should’ve done like a wilderness survival thing when I was younger because at least I’d have the option to check out of society #but I hate bugs #honestly though I don’t think my quality of life would significantly decrease if I had my basic needs met and never met a human face to face #ever again. actually my mental health would probably improve because I wouldn’t have the pressure of passing as normal and of meeting #the standards of black excellence. and in so out of touch with my peers that the chances of me having a close relationship with anyone my #age post college are extremely slim. and it wasn’t like that 2 years ago. now at times I despise socializing it confusing and draining and

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plentyghosts · 2 years ago

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How am I supposed to focus when there are little trinkets??

#i did managed to stay focused and get only what i set for though so yay me!#but the amount of self restraint i exercise every time i enter that shop is absolutely insane.#fighting the trinket collecting instincts is a hard battle

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muscariii · 6 months ago

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I've been thinking about what to draw during my break and I thought about doing requests/suggestions or something similar to that. Would you guys potentially be interested in that?

#of course ill make as much as ill be able to #i cant promise that ill draw everything #but i think it might be a fun exercise #it doesnt have to be only morrowind but again #my skills are a bit limited #ill do my best though!!#i still have stuff to finish for uni because sesja is in like a month but ill find time to draw for tumblr fur surr #muscaribrain

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dravidious · 1 year ago

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Typing Tips That I Stumbled Upon Randomly:

The Ctrl key lets you jump between words really quickly. If you hold Ctrl and press the left or right arrow keys, instead of moving your cursor 1 character you'll move it a whole word; if you want to edit that word that's 3 words back, you can just hold Ctrl and left-left-left, and you're there.

Even more useful in my opinion, if you hold Ctrl and press Backspace you'll delete the entire word you're on. That's just really nifty because a lot of the time when you're deleting you want to delete the whole word, so this is much faster.

Also, idk how well-known this is but holding Shift and moving your cursor will make you highlight any characters you move over. That's useful on its own, but combining that with Ctrl lets you quickly highlight whole words or sentences, so you can easily copy+paste them. You can also hold Shift to edit any selections you made with your mouse or something.

Also it took me too long to realize that the Home and End keys are actually really nice sometimes. Home takes you to the start of the line you're on, and End takes you to the end. Hold Shift while doing that and you can highlight the whole line. Very nice for programming. Also holding Ctrl and pressing Home or End takes you to the top or bottom of the page, but I barely use that.

A similarly useful key that I also overlooked is the Delete key. It's like the Backspace key, but it deletes the character in front of your cursor instead of behind it. Just like with Backspace Ctrl+Delete lets you delete a whole word in front of your cursor.

Also Ctrl+A lets you highlight the whole page.

Also even when you're not typing and instead just browsing a web page or something, you still technically have a cursor; if you click a piece of text, then hold Shift and press the arrow keys, you'll start highlighting text.

Practice Exercise: Click on the t in this word, then hold Shift and press left and right on the arrow keys! Now try holding Ctrl+Shift while you press the arrow keys! Hold Shift and press Home or End! Hold Shift and use your mouse to left-click on different spots in the paragraph and see how your selection changes!

#original #i had to use microsoft excel for the first time today and it SUCKED i had NO IDEA how to do ANYTHING #and i though “this is probably so much easier if you know the keyboard shortcuts”#and then i realized how much Secret Knowledge i have that make typing and stuff way easier #so i figured it would be nice to make sure my followers can also make typing faster and easier #also i wrote the practice exercise before realizing that most people use tumblr mobile lol #also there's some weird details that i didn't include #ctrl+backspace only deletes the part of the word that's behind the cursor #so if you're in the middle of a word it will only delete part of it #also ctrl+arrow keys sometimes doesn't skip a whole word #like with apostrophes like in “you're” sometimes it will stop at the apostrophe #depends on the text editor you're using #like on my favorite text app Notepad ctrl+arrows will always move past the whole word without stopping #except it DOES stop at hyphens like “ha-ha” but idk whether hyphenated words are technically separate words #oh FUCK yeah i spelled separate correctly without even slowing down or thinking about it! i'm learning!#it'd be really funny if all this stuff is just common knowledge and i posted the equivalent of “dark souls tip: attacks deal damage”

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aria0fgold · 10 months ago

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The acid reflux is gone!!! YAAAY!!! That's one pain gone :3

#aria rants #im moving my body around now cuz i dont feel sluggish and nauseous anymore and maybe what my heart #needs is more exercise orz... i Have been exercising lil by lil. like doing squats and wall pushups but only for a short while #i think i need more than that now though 😔 i need to get the heart pumping way more so itd do its job better #and not be skipping a beat or palpitating cuz oh god thats so scary. ngl scarier than the time i fainted honestly #must be cuz it was so much easier to pinpoint the cause of that one (postural hypotension) while i cant figure this one out at all

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discoreptile · 11 months ago

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Beasties of Greenhollow soundtrack! Some tracks on this are from older projects like elphame but all of them have been reworked in some way. Most of them are entirely new. Enjoy!

#soundtrack #music #indiegamedev #Youtube #beasties of greenhollow #indiegame #chiptune #elphame #hey again gang. Another scream into the void #Things have been getting more interesting tbh #I'm starting therapy again. I have learned from this that my anxiety is in the very very high end.#And I guess the only thing that surprises me about that is that it's an abnormally high amount vs the average.#I've had more intrusive thoughts this week than in a long time. (I almost said ever but that was 2021 where they woke me up...)#It's mostly about my mistakes and ppl I've scared out of being in my life because of the actions based on my anxieties.#Like “if i could go back in time I could fix it”... girl you'd be going back in time like 100 times. At that point it's not fair lmao #I think I shouldn't talk about who I'm dating here anymore. Friends told me to stop seeing so many new people and I took that advice.#I'm exercising incredibly frequently; obsessively so. It really doesn't change much in my anxiety. I walk for like 3 hours a day.#My friend group is... difficult. One of us had a falling out with another and the dynamic is just so awkward for me now.#it just seems like everyone else has moved past it though but I still miss him. I don't think this can be reversed #we used to talk on my stream and play digimon cards n jackbox and d&d... But now they're only interested in d&d which I don't love #For god's sake I've published a game and moved to a nice new place. why aren't I happy hahahaha #work is no longer enjoyable since BoG was publised. our new project is in an iffy category but it's not my place to argue #I want to write music and animate but I have to do my hours for this new project before I can do anything like that...#I ended up siding with my current boss in that ethical dilemma I posted about and rn idk if that was the right decision.#Okay what can i talk about that's good? We moved to a nice place. I'm celebrating BoG's release with family tomorrow.#Graeme's playing Iconoclasts- one of my favourite games! He's also returning to work soon so it'll be less awkward to have a lady over #Thinking about good stuff going on just draws the mind to holidays I've had before. I treasure my memories!#Okay so I've complained for a long long time bc life doesn't feel great rn. But rest assured I already know this is 90% my fault hahaha #Oh another good thing that happened!!! My elestrals card was printed and ppl are really happy with it. I have a card in a real card game!!!#don't tell anyone but there's another one on the way. Anyway that will do for now. I'm sorry about my... self.

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doom-dreaming · 2 years ago

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back in my nascent halo fandom days, i was a sophomore in college and taking a self-defense course as a filler credit. and there was this kid that could have been an incredible casting choice for a live-action, teenage john-117. if they'd needed a face role for chief in forward unto dawn, this guy would've nailed it.

naturally this meant that i started shaking like a tiny dog whenever i was within three feet of him. patrick, wherever you are, sorry for being so fucking weird around you.

#i was 18 and i was having a crisis #me talking to my therapist:#yeah i'm only ever attracted to real people when they remind me of a fictional character #listen. listen though #he had the longest eyelashes #he was cute okay? okay #and he had the personality too #quiet and patient and super chill #i was paired with him one (1) time for some punching exercises #and my hands were shaking SO BAD #and i was like 'ah hahaha sorry'#and he - without any judgment - was like 'it's all good :)'#if i'd been paired with him for the full-body wrestling floor drills i think my soul would have left my body #i don't know what made me remember this all of a sudden #but oh boy did i remember

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justalittlebluetiefling · 2 years ago

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One coaching challenge I'm running into is that we have an 11th grader on the team who is incredibly advanced. Like, so far above everyone else's skill level it's unreal. And her goal is to dance at a D1 college, which means that I've been watching technique videos for the last two weeks (and I'm nowhere near done) to try and find anything to help her keep leveling up.

The bright side of this whole experience is that I have run into SO many helpful notes to give my intermediate dancers to make sure they keep progressing, too.

#it feels like i've only got 1 year to make her feel prepared for college auditions even though she's still got 2 more years of high school #like at the dance camp we had last month #the instructors told her they think she could make a team like boise state #which is a HUGE deal because they're incredibly competitive #but like she's so far beyond anyone in the room skill-wise (coach and dancer) that trying to keep her progressing requires so much research #also her ego about the whole thing is so nonexistent so it makes it easy to spend all this time lol #i can tell she feels like she's not progressing though #which means i'm over here frantically googling: advanced stretching techniques and advanced leap technique and back flexibility routines #and how to keep progressing oversplits and ankle strength exercises #she's the sweetest kid i just want her to feel like she's getting something out of this experience #my coaching adventures

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purenguyening · 1 year ago

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That rhythm hell meme reminds me how much I struggled to get used to playing up-beat/syncopated rhythms.

#tbh i think it's only a meme among active musicians because rhythm exercises can be rough #as a former wind player i feel like even with double tonguing some of this is pretty rough.#i think every percussionist has an easier time with it since rhythm exercises are heavily emphasized #i digress #the seals are cute though #pure rambling

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griddlegold · 2 years ago

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my sister's friend called my (small-framed, nine pound) cat fat as a joke over the weekend and i'm still legitimately so mad about it

#like I TAKE CARE OF HER I MAKE SURE SHE'S EATING THE RIGHT AMOUNT AND GETTING EXERCISE #EVEN THOUGH MY APARTMENT IS SMALL AND I'M HAVING A HARD TIME TAKING CARE OF MYSELF #I MAKE SURE SHE'S WELL TAKEN CARE OF #YOU RUDE FUCKING ASSHOLE #i know he was joking too. like he's just a contrarian little fuck #but she sent him a photo of her and he went 'fat cat' and now my opinion of him h #is decimated #like fuck that kid fr #anyway. i'm not sensitive to anything i perceive as criticism wdym #only my sister gets to be mean!!!!!! no one else!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#el speaks

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