#realized i never rlly posted any of them though...

[monotone-artist]

just a few foster puppy pictures out of the hmm. 500 that i have

[id: nine photographs of various brown, floppy-eared puppies. first: top view where puppy is sitting down and looking up at the camera. second: sitting with his tongue out. third: laying down on her side with her head on my leg, looking straight at the camera.

fourth: laying down on her belly. fifth: sitting and leaning against me, his head quite close to the camera, which he's looking at. sixth: one puppy lays down while another rests her chin on his back.

seventh: an extremely close-up view of a puppy's face. eighth: a puppy, who notably has one blue eye, looks through the glass door. ninth: puppy stands on her hind legs, front paws on the glass door, looking inside. end id]

[radrobotz]

i think the funniest ocs ive ever had were it was like a next gen crossover au where all webseries (of the 2000s-2010s for reference) exist in the same world but its like the kids of the characters and the main character (and couple) were an eddsworld fankid and a dick figures fankid

[pushingdaisies1]

Its never too late baby . . . ♡

(✧ ˚.) PAIRING-> James "Logan" Howlett {A.K.A} Wolverine x Mutant Reader >_<

(✧ ˚.) SUMMARY -> You were always someone who utilized your strengths. Physical and mental, you were a jack of all trades. You were a true hero to the students you taught within the school. Amongst the other X-men, you would always be one of them. But you had this little tick, that always annoyed Logan no doubt. You were a secretive person, too secretive for even his "standards." For others, you were a pillar of nurture and guidance. He saw your well-meaning nature from miles away. It was almost sickening to him how you would stretch your capabilities out to no end. He would never deny that he could be selfish. Sometimes it's more worth it to save your spine, than risk it for someone else. Though with the problems being thrown the team's way as of recent, he always saw you spinning your wheels. You wouldn't reason with him even when he of all people would lend you a shoulder to cry on. Even the students at the school could see it. With their childish snickers and big-eyed looks at your comfortable banter with Mr. Howlett whenever he helped with class. You were in love with the Wolverine. Again, out of all the Canadians - him? It wasn't something like a schoolgirl crush. It was an infatuation sort of deal. You burned for him mind body and soul. You would pretty much follow this scoundrel to the ends of the earth, even the end of your life if prompted. Which causes something to break between you two after you risk your livelihood for your family. The people that made up your heart, including Logan.

(✧ ˚.) AUTHORS NOTE -> hi party people!! I saw so much of the sweet reception for my first ever logan piece , so tysm!! Genuinely from the bottom of my heart the love means so much. As I’m currently going through my x-men marathon time if you will , I’ve had this idea brewing for a while. Thankfully the resurgence of logan content has given me the push needed to formulate this yk! This isn’t a part two to my previous logan post. That will be coming very shortly, but this is its own thing. Timeline wise... erm.... idrk a good place to put this SIGH. I'm thinking like in between x2 and the last stand. also one last final note , the title I took from Chemtrails over the country club. specifically the one lyric - "it's never too late baby so don't give up." felt like an appropriate whimsy title, nd I have been hearing that song everywhere lolz. Anyways, toodles!!! ᐢᗜᐢ (✧ ˚.) CWS (?) -> Descriptions of blood and graphic injury , they/them pronouns for reader !! , mentions of major character deal , Logan cares too much ... which could mean nothing , ur comatose for like the good first chunk of this , Jean and u have LORE!!!!! (not rlly but u and her have backstory beefers/her "passing" affect reader 100%) , mourning/grief, And that's on having no healing powers!! Buh-dun-csh!!

Your fall from grace was quick on the battlefield. This was supposed to just be any regular mission. You were using it as a way to clear your head after all. But you took a leap too far and now here you were, plummeting. The issue at hand was apprehended, sure. But you didn't leave the fight unscathed. Your vision grew too spotty for you to even make out your surroundings. Your hearing too even started to fog. Looking down, somehow or some way a large-sized piece of shrapnel metal had made it into your torso. Right in the sweet spot that was not in the lungs. Your legs began to wobble, losing your footing slowly but surely. You didn't realize your body was falling to the ground. The warm feeling rushing through you was the blood exiting from your hefty wound. It was ironic the last thing your eyes met before collapsing. Logan turned back around immediately once he noticed you weren't clamoring to the jet. His heart sunk to his stomach as he immediately sprung over to you. By the time your head had smacked against the ground, you went out. Your fingertips began to buzz, your fatigue lifting all of a sudden. All of the hurt and weight on your shoulders lifted? You felt freer than before, with a piece of debree stuck inside of your body no more. Even if some people regarded mutants as the next step in human evolution, a majority were still stuck with fleshy bodies. If only you were made out of steel. In this momentary unconsciousness, you thought about everything that went wrong. Your existence as a whole, joining the school. Moving up from student to teacher at Professor Xavier's school, like Scott and Ororo you were one of the first. Regarded as maybe one of the most useful of the bunch. No one could ever compete with Storm, the literal incarnate of a goddess. You thought of her as your eyes closed, embraced with the warm memories of your early days within the school.

The professor was never one to play favorites among his students. But when he searched you out and arrived with a less conniving Magneto at your door, it was clear you were special to him and his cause. From that day forward you were seen as a pillar of hope to a lot of the students. To some, you were like a mother, to others a guardian who would save them no matter the risk. To Logan Howlett - "The Wolverine", you were a coward. A coward that he admired. A coward he respected due to the ways you handled... stress in the simplest of terms. From the day he met you, he wandered around the halls of the mansion bewildered and confused. Something about you stuck out. He would've done something with this urge sooner if his eyes weren't honed in on another.

From day one you were not surprised how fast he fell and yearned for Jean. The woman you saw as your confidant, your best friend, she was magnificent. Smart and poised all in one with a strong set of mutant abilities. She was on the same power level as the professor, which made sense for their connection.

For living in Jean's shadow, you didn’t hate it. You were her right-hand man. Your balance was comforting, she was like your sister. The professor in small quiet moments of honesty to you liked to compare you to him and Magnus. When times were simpler they weren’t at opposing ends of the mutant kind spectrum. Yours and Jean's dynamic made you feel at ease with yourself. How could you worry? Your identity became a part of hers a long time ago. Logan saw more to that with you. Sure you could nag a lot of the time, and you always barked up his tree whenever he found ways to smoke on school grounds. But you just had this pull for him. He'd always find his way to see you first whenever entering a room. His brash and gritty attitude always got all mushy around you. He over time grew a lot more fond of the smallest details when it came to you. He was an amnesiac, his past only bits and pieces. But you made him feel grounded. You cherished his growth in ways no one else had. You were the reason why he was so drawn to the "now" of life. He needed that in times like this. He couldn't keep up for long after the realization that Jean was gone finally sunk in. Drowning at his one-sided attraction, the longing that he could've done more, you pulled him right out from that rut. Thank god that the two of you combined had horrible sleep schedules. His nightmares still stirred while you were suddenly afflicted with these with the memories of being on that jet when it wouldn't take off. That same pain rocketed through you every night as you were haunted by the sight of Jean finally swept into the oncoming flood. The feeling of grief ricocheted throughout the entire school. But you found your way to stay afloat. It was Logan, which you never thought of yourself admitting. But truth be told it was him. He was the most anchoring thing around you. Ororo distanced herself for the first month, while Scott cracked under the pressure of grief. Late nights dashing around the campus halls to the kitchen, out to the court where you two just talked. You had never seen him talk so much until you two became each other's support. It made you feel better seeing him smile more. Especially when it was at you. Again, you would never utter that truth EVER. At least that's what you thought. But his smile was a nice reminder of all of the light he held inside of him. As much as he despised ... everything, he was still so nurturing in his own ways. Nightmares were an excuse for him to be next to you. Nightmares were his excuse to hold you tight to his chest. The pain of loss was a collective "excuse" between the two of you to just .. be close.

Soon though, this ideal predicament between you both started to crack. Because even though she was dead, you still knew you would always be inferior. It may be all in your head but the hate kept you driven. It kept you driven but also mad. Small things would set you off soon enough. You knew deep down whenever he'd look into your eyes, it was a nice reminder of Jean. Even with how much he denied it when you came to him in tears, your bitter pain and grief clouded your judgment.

Logan saw that even with his help you were still hurting. He didn't want to get involved in it entirely as some of it was your own demon. But he saw how bad your spiraling was and still wouldn't accept his help. Not even from Ororo or Scott, not even the professor. Neither of you would admit who started the argument. It was late, and you were tired from pushing yourself to grade papers. Logan couldn't sleep and wandered his way to your classroom of course. The conversation was fine until he mentioned the problem. Your problem which you didn't want to deal with right now. As you were only running on a few hours of sleep. But even with Logan's usual "take and give no fucks" attitude, he knew he needed to push. You were slowly shutting yourself off this time, and he didn't expect himself to be a part of that mix. It was all a misunderstanding, but the two of you were angry and fire was thrown.

Your shared feelings were complicated. This whole ordeal with him brought out the "worst parts" of your love for him. He too was dealing with his internal dilemma. How could he move on from Jean and you were still latched onto the idea of her? It was a stupid question that was brought up in a Logan way, which of course caused the spat to escalate. His poor mistake was what he shouted. Already with the fear of waking one or even all of the students, you hated what he even dared to utter. "We're friends, you need to calm down about this whole obsession thing bub!" Originally you were thinking of just heading to bed. You were too tired to continue on with this constant bickering. But that's when you exploded on him. You regretted every last word you said to his face. Because it was you speaking your honest truth. About what you felt for him, about your hurt and your pain. How Jean was practically your lifeline. Losing her was like losing a piece of yourself. Especially since you rubbed it in about the kiss he and her shared. That you had seen and that made you sick to your stomach. A couple hours later she was dead. Your heightened emotions make you feel almost dizzy. The more you talked the more you realized his expressions distinct shift. As he was reaching out for you, you immediately swatted his arm askew. He didn't realize he hated to see you cry as much as he did until now. With broken sobs, you ran out of your classroom. The papers once stacked neatly were now laid messily all over your desk. You made sure to keep quiet. What broke your heart even more was a half-awake Rogue you ran into. She looked even more awake seeing your distraught state. Her feet tip-toed against the wooden floors of the hall before she looked at you. A big reason you and Logan were so close too, was because of Rogue. She was a good kid, he always rubbed off on her. He told you everything about how he and Rogue met. You were so enamored hearing him recount even the foggiest of memories. It could even be arguments with Scott he had, you'd just sit there with wide eyes as you listened. His word became your gospel. It warmed you to your core hearing him almost sound like a dad. He had looked out for her from the beginning. You always tried to do the same even when he left for Alklai Lake for answers.

It was so silly when she had practically pushed you and Logan to talk. She was just a kid and you two took up the almost suto role of her protectors. Friend or parent, she too found two trusted people to confide in. So you immediately went into "teacher mode" as soon as she saw you with watery eyes. She looked puzzled when her face met yours. You calmed down her storm of questions as she sputtered on and on. What's wrong? , is something happening? Are you okay? The hug you shared was one of the last meaningful hugs you had with another living being. You practically cradled her in your arms as you helped her calm down. She looked up at you, her larger brown eyes almost like the ones of a puppy. "Please don't be lying to me... y'know ah don't like liars." She whispered softly, her bubbly southern accent quiet. Your heart broke into a couple more pieces as you lied through your teeth. With a content nod, you bidded her a goodnight. Turning back to your room to drown your sorrow in god knows what. It had only been a good couple of months after Jeans' death that a mission arose. The X-men were laying low after everything at the base. For the school's and students' sake. But it was always on time when something bad happened for the team to fix. Old enemies came a-knocking and this time it wasn't Magneto. It was all supposed to be an in-and-out operation. You immediately clamored to get your hands dirty once again. You and Logan hadn't been talking for the last couple of days. Not even meeting in the dead of night to speak to another. You longed to hear about his afternoons subbing with Storm. This was your chance to regain some well-needed level-headedness. The thrill of doing what's right for a better tomorrow always made you feel better The mission even got Scott to come out of his puddle of mourning. Making you feel even better seeing your good friend so triumphant as he quickly clamored for his uniform. You and Logan didn't even brush shoulders as Storm and Scott dashed off to prepare the jet for takeoff. Everything should have gone fine. You should have all made it out alive. Every single one of you, that's what you had planned. Your lapse in judgment will always be your curse. Because now here you were, in the lap of the man that made your stomach churn. That made you feel LIKE that silly schoolgirl feeling you despised. Snapping back to reality, you realize where you are currently laid. Logan's eyes eased from his previous panicked look of fear as he saw you conscious. You were still bleeding but it seems that with quick medical attention either one of them got it to lessen. Your heart raced as you felt the warmness of his hands as they pressed against your cheeks. "Come on, there you go. Just focus on me." He cooed to your heaving chest. In the far back of the jet, you couldn't see Ororo or Scott. What you could see though was the remnants of blood on Logan's suit. He must have carried you off of the rubble and into the X-jet. Your smile was nothing compared to the horrid wince that left you. Finally, after this long moment of ease, the pain set in.

Going down to hold your gut, you shuddered as your vision all of a sudden wavered. You took in a sharp breath as finally, you noticed how in bad shape you were. Red filled your palm as you shuddered. Thankfully Logan noticed you and your shaky breath and immediately gripped your hand. Even in this state, you were currently in, you would always be able to focus on him. "I know, I know it's scary. You got hit pretty bad, but it's okay. Just focus on me and you'll be okay? I have you." He encouraged softly with that comforting rasp in his throat. His eyes were shaken and his lip was firm. Though his mood lightened somewhat because at least now you were awake.

You tried to speak but you were so weak. That same fatigue stung you as you stumbled over your words. He cradled you in his arms as he kept his eyes only on you. Your weary mind still around belittling you, another one of your eerily humane curses. He saw your chest quicken and lip quiver as your eyes began to lull, you were struggling. "Hey .. don't strain yourself - what is it?" He too began to worry as you saw his vulnerability bloom. Finally your chest steady as you took in one big breath of air. You let out the one thing keeping you from slipping back into rest in one huff. "Don't let me die, asshole." The asshole part came out more garbled from you after you coughed out your last words. Your last words before your eyes fell closed. For some reason, your hearing stayed for just a while longer. In and out, you could hear him cursing under his breath. The last thing you hear is Logan's panicked shouting at Scott, "Can this hunk of metal go any faster?!"

Finally, after so much pain, there was quiet. Peace and quiet after your constant heartache. You felt freed from the chains of reality. From birth to now, now seemed like your death. You left your current reality with a bitter-sweet smile as you felt consciousness swarm over you.

You couldn't feel how long you were out. Oh, but Logan could. Six weeks you lay in the infirmary. With some sort of miracle and hope, Ororo was barely able to stabilize you. The team rushed back into the mansion in panic as your wounds were assessed. But no, you couldn't feel the panic that coursed through your loved ones as you lay so peacefully. You didn't know your heart rate was being tracked. You were stable but anyone could guess it'd take you a while to re-reach consciousness. That your accident broke the barely well Scott Summers. But most of all it affected Logan to the core. He felt his world shake under him as he finally realized what had just happened. Something snapped in a man so stuck in his ways. Those words you said to him before you went back down. They were short but in the moment meant so much. Not to mention the fact that even Logan, so careless and free, was guilty. Every time he came back just to see you, he wanted to curl over and into you. Just like how he mourned Jean, he mourned you. Though .. he couldn't because you were technically still here. He may have not noticed it but everyone else could. The lack of your presence hindered him the worst. He missed the way you'd bother him out of the blue during the quiet time around the school. He missed you telling him about your life. He missed the shitty snort you did when you laughed too hard at one of his bad jokes. He missed seeing you happy. He missed seeing you move around. Pestering students for turning in assignments late or cheating. He missed the feel of your lips against his forehead when his nightmares of Jean flared up. He missed the way you looked at him. The way you saw him not only as a man but as himself. He didn't know how to admit it but he.. missed you. He missed you so bad and it was eating away at him. He spent hours out of his day visiting you. Like what you two always did when you were alone, he talked. About his day, what he ate, and even the lessons he overheard. The school got even quieter with you gone and he hated it. He felt bitter and broken, he didn't want to feel like that. He especially missed the way he felt with you. Almost like being on cloud nine. He finally understood the pain you felt when Jean died. This time on a more intimate level than he'd like to admit. He felt like the moon was ripped away from him after the sun. Now he was just the lonely tide, washing away against the shore until you returned. Ororo did all she could to help. All she could do was maintain your physical well-being as your body healed with rest. Logan hated the wait. The time you spent not walking around the halls of the school was maybe one of the worst times in his life. Since it hit him so deep on a real level. In this array of pain and even more guilt, he felt something dawn on him as you were still comatose. He was in love with you, Logan was in love with you. He felt like an idiot but the realization would always stay true. No matter how stupid he felt. As much as he wanted to deny it, he knew. In the middle of his thought process, he heard the swift slide open of the infirmary doors.

Right now he was standing over you. The one thing that kept his spirits high about your recovery was the gentle rise and lower of your chest. He didn't have to look behind him to know it was Storm. She too had taken her time checking in on your unconscious form. He sighed as she walked up right beside him. She gently cupped the examination table where your body would lay. She looked down at her hands with a bitter-sweet smile on her lips. She looked over to Logan, who was at a pause with himself. She decided to finally break the long silence. "You know they'll be fine, right?" She hummed as she glanced up to look over you. He chuckled softly as his brow pinched. His chuckle came out more like a rugged scoff. "I know, this just feels weird." He sucked in a breath of stale air. "It was funny the first night you arrived at the mansion.." Storm drew up a memory of that fateful night. "As soon as I and Scott brought you in, they immediately volunteered to help Jean down here with your examination. They were always enamored with your set of abilities. You were one of a kind to them especially, I suppose." Now his hands gripped into the sides of the examination table. He looked down, in pity of you and himself. How could he be so blind? Storm butted in once more as she noticed his demeanor shift. "All I'm saying is, they'd be happy to know how much you worried." He nodded in response, reminiscing when things were good. From your first encounter to now, his heart warmed. "I'd do it for anyone else." He gritted out as he bit back a smile. The truth was he was still in agony about Jean's loss. It felt wrong to love you as he had longed for her after all of this time. But you felt like a whole different story. He didn't have to sit in agony knowing that no matter what his love would always be with another. You always gave him the time and day, hell even down to the minute to just be honest. He needed you at his side no matter what you were to him. Maybe you were more than a friend, maybe he was crazy about you, but you understood him. In a way maybe Jean never had. Ororo knew he needed more time so she complied with the awkwardness in the air. "I'll give you some more time. Rest easy Logan, they'd want that." She insisted before making her way out of the infirmary. He immediately looked down back at you, before looking back at the monitor tracking your heart. He sighed, biting into his lip. He stuttered the only thing that had been keeping him sane since he last felt your eyes open. "Don't fail me now dimples... I need you." He gritted as his teeth were practically ground into his gums. It has become a regular part of his routine now. Once the students were back in their dorms for the night, down to the infirmary he goes. He could never be tired of seeing you at rest. Seeing you okay and not in pain. He just wished he could hear you speak. He hoped that you could hear his pleas for you to wake.

As much as he longed for you he just bided his time. Like the fool he was, like the idiot he felt like when you made him so weak. You made him feel the most human he ever could feel.

That day was supposed to be a normal day. Classes had been more and more brief. After the loss of Jean and you being "put out." But he did not expect to see what he did next. Going into the elevator to head downstairs, to of course see you as always. He was ready to talk about what you missed away and so on. His chest tightened once he saw what was right in front of him. It was you, you were walking? You were awake and on your own two feet. Your midsection was still bandaged but at least you were standing up straight. But then it finally clicked. Wait, you shouldn't even be walking around right now?!

He immediately ran to steady you once your expression went more absent. "Welcome back to the land of the living." He roughly inquired with a small, pleased grin. "I feel like shit, so don't start with me Wolvie." You gritted out with that smile that made him too feel all good on the inside. Quickly, his arms calmly wrapped around you. He longed for your embrace for too long. It wasn't like you were fighting him when he enacted this. You wrapped your arms around him too. He made sure not to squeeze too tight with your bandages and all. A gentleman must stay mindful, he could recall you poking at him as he had a beer bottle half hidden in his jacket.

Your head gently rested in the crook of his neck. That quiet he hated so much before when seeing you in the infirmary was warmer now. He liked the peace and quiet between the two of you when you were there WITH him. After some minutes passed, you met him back face to face. You eyes lingered as you watched the way he swallowed in with composure. You had longed for him to see you. Finally, all the puzzle pieces were clicking, and with your luck all at once. You knew before this would have never happened. It felt wrong and almost hurtful for you to be doing this. But go big or go home I guess. It was you who initiated it, and he gratefully complied. Still keeping you steady, once your lips met his hand immediately went to cup your cheek. In the bliss shared, all of a sudden it felt right. The tender embrace of your lips with his felt good. It was hungry and it was liberating. You could feel his heart beating out of his chest as quick gasps for air were taken. "I'm sorry." He uttered out, forehead against yours. "I know." You said with a sanguine look in your eye. "I love you." He uttered again at a rapid pace. "I know." You purred, your eyes looking back into his hazy ones. Things would always be complicated between the both of you. But deep down you had hope. Maybe not now, someday things could just be normal between you and The Wolverine. That's all you wanted and that's all you dreamed of. Yours and his timing by all means was horrible. So it wasn't surprising this delightful moment got interrupted by Scott of all people. You and Logan looked back, hands immediately darting off of one another. Time to address THAT later.

Scott's mouth fell agape as he began to regret coming down here in the first place. He readjusted his glasses with a small scowl. "Well hello to you too, and Logan." He turned his head to give him that same look. "Wanted to check on you but clearly -" He made sure to put a specific emphasis on 'clearly.' "That job has been overtaken by him.. I'll get Ororo." Before either you or Logan could interrupt him, Scott was already pressing buttons up to the main floor. Now that it was just the two of you bubbling laughs were shared. You felt finally okay. You felt like yourself after those months of nothing but remembrance. You and The Wolverine wormed back into conversation as you could finally talk BACK to him. Another thing you wouldn't ever admit was that yes, you did hear him. His gentle words would always be your favorite secret. After that display of affection though, your and Logan's bond never stayed just a little secret after that. Even after all the trial and error, and the more soon to come, you finally had another moment. Another moment that you could look at when you are older and with more grays on your head. Logan Howlett was yours, no matter how much the universe wanted to throw you around a loop. You'd always have him by your side, till the end of time. Nothing would stop you from cherishing this connection. Not even the burning phoenix crackling over the horizon. You and Logan against time baby.

ꔫ✉ reblogs/interaction is appreciated <3

[glistenling]

Kinda long Twisted Glisten rant (positive)

Just some thoughts n headcanons of twisted glisten :3 This was a rant that i decided to clean up and post! Dont let anyone tell u that im not obsessed with this guy cause theyre lying to you also im shit at grammar mb

The concept of Twisted Glisten as a whole is so upsetting. The poor thing has to live the rest of his life completely unstable and unpredictable not knowing when he's going to become a horrible danger to everyone around. When he gets enraged and snaps out of it he has to live with the fact he probably hurt or even killed someone. He has to think about that, and it's especially bad because of the fact he's alone with no one to talk to or even have silent company with. It's just him and the monstrous versions of people he used to call friends paying him zero attention. When he does get company from untwisted toons, he's probably horrified the whole time; scared he's going to maim them at any moment without recollection or control over his actions.

The nature of how toons "deal" with him is horrifically cruel. It's horrible if you really think about it. They're just lying to him, making him fall into a false sense of security only to abandon him last minute. The toons don't want to hurt him. Though, they dont rlly have a choice in this. It's really the only way to guarantee the safety of the team, but he doesn't see it that way. When they look after him he thinks they're there for him. He believes that he's going to be okay. To then only realize, again and again, that they're not there for him. It makes him think they don't truly care about him, just themselves. Though, he'll fall for that over and over and over just for the slight sliver of a chance things will be different. He wants to believe that he won't be left alone with himself again, not knowing if and when he'll ever see anyone again. Crushing him mentally and emotionally more each time it happens.

When he gets aggressive in panic mode, it's because he knows he's being left to rot yet again. He's so distraught he completely loses control of himself, not able to cling to his consciousness. He's unable stop the ichor that is trying desperately to make him into a mindless animal. Though, when left alone, he gets violent because he is slowly convinced that they don't even care enough to comfort him on the floor. They couldn't even be bothered to play into the hopeless routine of giving him comfort only to strip it away almost as fast as they gave it to him. (Because comfort followed by immense hurt is better than no comfort, right?) That thought hurts and crushes him so bad he loses control, unable to hold himself together just a little longer in hopes someone will show up.

When certain toons [his friends] leave him at the end of a floor, it hurts him the most. Though it hurts him greatly when anyone abandons him, it's like a horrible punch in the gut to see someone that he cares for especially leaving him. This makes him feel insignificant, in a way. After the first time of this happening, when he saw them again, he unwillingly felt just a tad of resentment among his desperation. Though, it would never stop him from seeking out their love and comfort every single time. No matter how much that resentment grew over time, his need to be helped and comforted outweighed any of the negative things he thought about them when alone. They were mostly results of overthinking and isolation; he doesn't truly resent anyone for this.

In the idea of a type of recovery AU, if the twisteds were to be cured/fixed, how Glisten would be post-twisted events would be very interesting. It would greatly ruin his confidence and ability to put up his perfect persona. He'd push himself too far just to get that back, along with his confidence in general. He would have to fight against the fact that he was left to rot down there several times by the ones who say they love him. He'd have horrible abandonment issues and heavy distrust in anyone. Conflicted, he'd be unsure if he should cling to the nearest person or isolate himself because he thinks that they couldn't truly care about him because of how they treated him while he was "twisted". Or really, the way he interpreted their treatment, not really understanding how it was for the safety of everyone involved. Though, that fact doesn't change how much it scarred him.

Hope this wasnt too hard to read and make sense of Not the best at forming my thoughts into words. But ty for reading my word vomit >_<

[thewisewill80sbyers]

hiii, i was wondering what your take on mikes monologue was (maybe you have posted about it but i havent seen it😭) i think you have the best takes and tbh i havent rlly been satisfied with a lot of takes ive seen on this cause i feel like it goes against the script of the scene so im curious to see how you thought of it

I had lots of posts about it in the other blog, but I've lost them 💔

My idea for the monologue is that Mike wasn't lying, but he is also not really telling the whole truth without realizing it, the thing is he doesn't know the truth himself

he thinks he's in love with El, but in reality he is idealizing her in his mind, and he feels really insecure about himself at the same time, like they shouldn't be together anyway, but then this changes when he believed Will's monologue and believed that El felt like that for him (a lie) and that they could fix things between them

he didn't lie about what he's saying... but he means that love more in a platonic way even if he is convinced it must be romantic - he does love her, but he's not in love with her

it's a mix of idealization + a desire of being needed + not wanting to lose her from his life because he truly cares about her + thinking that he doesn't have any opportunities with Will even if he feels different when he's with him (but he's suppressing this so he's not aware yet, it's more subconscious - he still thinks what he has with Will is Platonic) + wanting to save her life and wanting to help her fight/give her courage at that moment (which he did!)

It's sort of the same situation as when Laurie in Little women does his love declaration to Jo, that's also why this movie is directly paralleled to season 4 multiple times and why it was on the board of movie inspirations for season 4, El is even parallelled directly with Jo because both of them talk about feeling like they don't belong and then Mike is making a love monologue that sounds very similar to this...

Laurie believes 100% that what he feels for Jo is true love, but this was never true love, this was childhood infatuation + idealization...

He doesn't get it though, that's why he's hurt when she says that she doesn't want to accept.... but years later, when he grows up, and gets to know Amy as an adult and really falls in love with her... he's eventually glad that Jo rejected him, because he understands that real love is what he has with Amy, and he never actually was in love with Jo even believing that he was, that was childhood love !

You can still call it love if you want, but it's not mature or endgame material, especially in a TV show lol

He cares about her so, so much, and he does love her, and he does like being with her and kissing her etc. but what they have is not a real partnership, it's not the real deal as will be the love with Will, it's idealizing someone - and that means that you don't truly see them and if you don't truly see them you can't love them even if you think you do or want to convince yourself of that

It's also true that he was afraid of opening up and being vulnerable with her and telling her at first because he was afraid that she would leave him, and it would hurt more if she left him after he did that, after he trusted her with that, (again, he believes what he's saying, and he's convinced it's what being in love should be like... He's 14 so it's normal imo ) and then Will made him believe that he could actually trust her with his heart... when it's not true... but he liked that feeling of being loved (by Will) so much that he thought he would feel like that again once he confessed his love for her...

Will's involvement is actually what will make them fail, because you can't resolve things in your relationship using feelings from a 3rd party, if you're not confident on your own in your love for someone... there's something wrong in the relationship, there's misunderstanding in the middle and incompatibility... ESPECIALLY if you live in a TV show and you're being written that way lol

when you don't resolve this problem only between the couple or having a conversation and heart-to-heart where El makes Mike feel like he can fully trust her finally then it means that the writers are not really putting the couple as endgame IMO, literally never seen it happen, especially when the other one involved is part of the love triangle lmao

What happened is literally the "Cyrano trope" or the Benverly trope, the Dan and Blair trope from gossip girl? idk call it how you want to call it... but the painting is what made Mike feel so loved that he thought that feeling was because of Eleven when it was all actually Will, it's a misplacement of feelings

Plus if we think about it Mike here was prioritizing his own emotional safety to El's happiness, he looked at her crying in his face and still couldn't find the will to tell her on his own... Which I don't think that someone that is truly in love would have done, plus he doesn't resolve this on his own as we said, there's no real development outside of Will's intervention AND we don't even see a scene of Mike and El talking in the finale and "resolving" things, we have a scene of El looking weirdly at Mike and going in her room and then the final foreshadowing of El LITERALLY leaving Mike behind!!!!

Whatever Mike might feel for her, SHE is the one that I can tell you for sure doesn't love him romantically and has also fully realized that she doesn't really want to be in a relationship with him anymore 💀

Anyway for Mike, I think it's mostly because of his low self-esteem that we're in this situation, he somehow is convinced that she won't need him at all unless they're in a relationship, and he feels this desire of being needed ( BY EVERYBODY in his life not only El!!! ) and he feels like if El doesn't want him it will hurt so he doesn't want to let her go (yet) he doesn't want things to change between them, he is TERRIFIED of things changing because it could mean that if things change between them then she doesn't need him and if she doesn't need him she doesn't want him even as just a friend because she's a freaking superhero why would a superhero want to even be just friends with HIM???? He just started to think of himself in such a shitty way since when he started dating her, and she triggers his insecurities so much even if she doesn't want to do that that's what happens, and so they end up not understanding each other and just feeling all this pressure on themselves!!!

Mike feels the pressure of "I need to look cool to her + I need her to need me, or she will leave! I can't be myself because I'm lame as fuck, and she's an amazing superhero!"

El felt the pressure of "I need Mike to want me so I can copy him and be normal like he is and good like he is! I am a monster and different while Mike is good and normal and knows how to be normal, so I have to appear cool and make him believe that normal people like me so he will keep liking me and not see just how much fucked up I am from growing up like I did"

And they both place themselves in these roles of girlfriend & boyfriend instead of being just Mike and El because they have too many insecurities about themselves that they need to work on, and the relationship triggers them and is just making them stagnant because they don't feel like they can be vulnerable enough with the other or like the other could understand them... if this wasn't a TV show maybe they could have resolved things with a bit of therapy, but I really don't think this is what's going to happen because of how the writers handled it in season 4 and because they involved Will in this relationship... I think El and Mike are just not compatible at this point, and they need to be single and work on this by themselves and find who they are!!!

Also, the people that inherently fix these problems in Mike and El are Will and Max lol

Will is able to make Mike feel like a hero and like an inspiration and at the same time he ALWAYS puts Mike as a partner never above himself, but he sees the real Mike, and he's able to reflect that to Mike as the painting shows... El is not able to do that for him

Max is able to make El feel normal like she's perfect as she is and like she doesn't have to be a superhero, and she doesn't have to be special, she can be just El, and she's just as important and great, and she makes El feel like she can explore options and learn new things about herself and Max doesn't need El to need her, she just wants El in her life as a partnership too!!! I loved the approach/explanation of the stranger things VR game about their relationship, I strongly suggest people watch that whole game because they got it, they got exactly why Max is perfect to balance El!!!

Anyway I just started ranting LMAOOOO sorry I hope it's clear, imo the situation is actually pretty simple to understand! Just keep in mind they're all really young and El and Mike are the least mature of the group for now, but they're growing up ❤️❤️❤️

platonic elmike will be beautiful because they'll learn to be friends without the heavy weight of expectations on their hearts

[gloopdimension]

do you have any ideas or interpretations about like. how post-forsaken 1337n7 would go about… im curious because i’ve been trying to like. Piece it together if it ever kind of Did happen. especially considering the fact that in tlg Guest was a rlly big part in winning the war against the bacon empire so like. what state would roblox even be in if they ever did come back? where would they live? ect… also Daisy is like! a very big and interesting factor (me personally im a polycule truther hehe)

OOOOOH

hmmmm. i think it could be very interesting and enlightening(...maybe also a little devastating) on both ends (7 seeing guest w his family, guest seeing how 7 would act w coolkidd if he was normal again[I HAVE OTHER HCS ABOUT THAT BUT FOR NOW, JUST THESE GUYS]).

iirc guest DID take out an important part of the baconarmy as he died so i imagine that faction would have to recover from that loss...everyone thinks hes still dead so hed have that going for him Personally in terms of peace at home.

the state of roblox when he returns is something ive pondered before but not super specifically. i dont care Much to sort out specifics rn

guest and his family would probably have to be quite protected and never really let that Hes Alive get back out. as i think he'd step back from his role fighting in the war because he just got done fighting another one on an Entirely different level(though he'd probably be even MORE of a force to be reckoned with w/ how the spectre unintentionally trained him). in my mind he wants to chill w daisy..matt.. and please please god see charlotte again LET ME SEE MY DAUGHTER.

ican write more abt charlotte later. or just ask me .aha

i always picture if 7 and cooly got to go back home they'd just..go back to where they lived prior. i think he lived off the grid, nobody found his corpse. spekaing of his corpse, 7 would remember what he did, find the blood and matter, and let coolkidd rest outside for a little while as he cleaned up (..honestly, i can picture him hurriedly[very sloppily probably...been a while since hes been able to use his gui to its full extent] replacing some things entirely).

as for the 3 of them, 7 1337 and daisy, hmm. i imagine there is Immediate concern from both sides of the men abt the things they did w eachother down in spectreland because 1. 007n7 feels really guilty about "taking" guest from daisy 2. guest feels guilty about "betraying" daisy (neither of them thought he'd return). its um. its very awkward. ive wirrten abt it manytimes tho so thats just here for additional thoughts.

past that though...Ok yes its still awkward even if the spectre loops were worth a thousand years and they know eachother inside and out--but not to say theyd drift. i think theyd stay in contact and .. GUEST WOULD BE VERY NERVOUS ABOUT ALLOWING COOLKIDD around charlotte but (while cooly was still damaged) hes still a good kid. i can picture 7 bringing cooly and some smoothies or something while they chatted.

daisy ohhh my gawddd i KNOWshes so happy to see guest. so many hugs so many kisses and SO MUCH FLUTTERING in her heart of just pure fucking joy. i think they would both cry and while she'd flinch at the state of his...half-missing face, body covered in scars, notable somehow more muscle, hes back home and CLUTCHING her in a way his hands could never be pried, despite everything its still HIM. and she loves him. she will adapt as will he.

i think there'd be a little rollerocaster of emotions. she gets the feeling something went on (when she does learn of 007n7). shes sad, angry, hes been gone this long, shes grieving the time they lost. it clashes with the joy of him just Being here again. i think daisy is quite sensible so she'd realize while her Anger makes Sense, its not justified and she'll likely just talk it out with a friend or even guest (FEEL FREE TO ASK MORE SPECIFIC Q'S ABOUT HER, MY BRAINS GETTING SCRAMBLED)

daisy and 007n7...i think daisy has quite an open mind but he'd be offputting and probably a little annoying .SORRY. he's quiet, apologetic but somehow snappy at the same time...he's under a lot of stress. if i just got out of murder hell i'd be tired and angry too.

i think AFTER SOME TIME hes very willing, as his emotions blow over tho, to get to know her and converse w her. I think everyone in the cast would need some time to themself rlly...

i can see the polycule vision but hmmm i dont knowww i just dont see daisy and 007n7

it is quite late as i write this so i might have run out of steam/have revisions later on. ill prob rb or edit whooo knoowsss!

[sugusoneandonly]

Quixotic - STSG - ch 2

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a/n 1: ik i said fem reader but like there’s gender neutral pronouns, however the reader does have feminine presentations maybe? Like dresses, makeup, etc. 😭 idk how ts rlly works guys dont cancel me im a rainbow person too😞

cw cont: jealous sugu ,, questioning sugu ,, oblivious reader ,, thats all i got lmk if i missed smth

!! do not repost/copy on any other platform !! if u do at least lmk where and give creds 😒 /j !! pls don’t tho <3

After your brief introduction with Geto, you were now sitting on a leather couch that overlooked the bright city of Tokyo. Gojo had stepped out to go handle whatever modeling business he had to attend to, leaving you with Geto. It’s been silent since then, even more than before the chatterbox out of all 3 of you had left.

You couldn’t help but admire the man before you, no doubt in the fact that he could’ve become a model himself if he wanted to. As if he could feel your gaze, he turned around to lock his deep lilac eyes with your own. You blinked. He smiled, softly but surely. Anything he would say, you would do. Whether out of fear, admiration, or something else, you didn’t know.

His studio was clean (cleaner than yours at least) yet had the essence of life and his own soul strewn over it. Silken fabrics adorned the windows and deep fabrics were strewn across the island in his office, his desk with a stack of papers and an open portfolio. With curiosity your gaze shifted to it, focusing in on it to try and see what was on them, his latest line maybe?

Yet before you could catch the slightest hint, his pale hands had flipped the open file closed. “I apologize for my lack of introduction, i’m Suguru Geto, you probably already know though.” You had to get a grip on yourself, he’s your…mentor and you can’t swoon around for your own mentor. “I’m Y/N L/N, I really love your work.” you quickly managed to get out.

A moment of pause, and he let out chuckle that was deep yet as light as a summer’s night breeze. “I’m quite familiar, I see your name in my notifications quite frequently.” And with that, summer’s scorching sun had graced itself into your cheeks, and if you couldn’t blush before you might as well have now. Your appreciation for his work posted online hadn’t gone unnoticed apparently. What’s worse, he knew your social media already and you can’t remember whether you left it private or public.

“..I’m sorry again for my harsh behavior it’s not everyday you meet your lovers ex and take them in-” He began but you quickly cut him short, hands frantically waving in front of you frown etched with wide eyes and scrunched eyebrows. “I have no feelings for him anymore and even if I did there’s no way I’d express them, especially considering everyones… positions. I didn’t even know I-” realizing your rambling, you finally looked him in the eye, a tight lipped smile pulled on his face. “Then there’s no point wasting time on informalities, is there then?” , not trusting your mouth you simply nodded.

“We have a tight schedule today, we begin with picking the next project.” we. i get to help my idol make his next project. a project that people are gonna wear. and people that actually know who made it instead of my occasional etsy shoppers.

When you returned to reality, you saw a collection of various designs laid before you on the coffee table. The seasons were shifting from summer to fall. Although it was early September, the industry never waited, not even on the leaves to fall. Your mouth fell to a small o , Suguru swore if you had gazed at him with the stars in your eyes, they might’ve been warm enough to make him melt.

wait, what, that’s not how it goes - sugu

You skim through each and every sketch, feeling as if you’ve discovered a new chest of gems, one that nobody knew of. You stopped when you fell across a particular sketch, not really a sketch but a photocopy. The style felt familiar, and upon closer examination, it’s my drawing

You look up at Geto, “I was thinking, there’d be no point in interning if you couldn’t exercise your own work. So, if it’s alright with you I was thinking to incorporate some of your ideas into the next line.”

A grin spread across your face, “Yes, Of Course! I’d love that so mu-” you were cut off with the door opening, and Geto quickly shut the folder with the sketches out of sight. You turned around to see the door, none other than Gojo standing there, playful pout gracing his face. “He’s not allowed to see the works in progress,” Geto explained. You tilted your head, no words, and like second nature Gojo responded “He wants to be mysterious and keep it a surprise like the bum he is.” Gojo had scrunched his nose at Geto, plopping himself down next to him, arm resting on the couch behind Geto’s back.

A twinge of jealousy pinched at Geto, seeing what’s probably surface level remnants of your past relationship come back to life like clockwork. He brushed it off, you had no feelings, Gojo has none, what could go wrong.

he forgot about himself

Yet, you had no feelings. None. You looked at the couple in front of you and exhaled with relief. you did it, you were over him, and you can carry on

It was dead silence now, how unfortunate. Why won’t your mouth work, say something. Thankfully, Geto and Gojo had been fussing over whatever rich people business Gojo had brought with him. Albeit, quite hushed. Praying your stomach wouldn’t go back to its old ways, you had jinxed yourself. A quite prominent growl had presented itself to the room. Geto glanced up at the clock, Gojo smiled. It was pushing 1 in the afternoon, unfortunately you couldn’t brush it off as only one person was sitting in the direction of the sound, and that person was you. Gojo had slightly toed Geto under the table.

“Next item on the schedule would probably better off as lunch, hm?” Geto offered, a teasing, forced?, smile on his face.

“Really?” You glanced down at the paper, lunch wasn’t for another hour? Quickly the paper was lightly tugged from your hold, two different hands yet adorned by similar rings. The two glanced at each other. “A designers life never sits set in stone, little one.” Gojo said in a sing-song.

“Ohh” you had bought it. They take this very seriously, perhaps it’s best not to mess around too much like this - Suguru

Quickly, the two men had already began to make their way out the door and to the elevator down to the city. You made your way to keep up with them, to wherever they were taking you.

©sugusoneandonly 2024

a/n 2 :: BONJOUR 🥖

This is very slow burn i think. Guys im being so fr idk what im doing im just throwing up my thoughts. Idk how to write enemies to lovers so i give u crisis sugu <33

[mysteriousmissme]

mysti’s intro post ୨ৎ

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hi ygs!! i realized looking thru blogs that i never rlly introduced myself—so that’s what this is!

i’m mysti!! i’ve (hopefully) spread misc tbhk or mitsukou posts onto your blog, so you’ve probably seen me around there or in the jshk community!!

feel free to read more of my yapping below (ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ.ﾟ

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ABOUT ME

୨ @.mysteriousmissme

i’ve had the same user handle since like 2020 on misc platforms so if any of u happen to recognize me from other fandoms tehe that’s still me!

୨ fun facts

infp | creative writer | minor | unhealthy tbhk obsession | majoring in mitsukoulogy (i love them so so much) | swiftie & speak now enthusiast | gracie abrams fan

୨ tumblr timeline

i joined tbhk tumblr during the nightlife arc’s release, so around january ‘23!! since then i’ve posted majority tbhk posts + rbs. i only ever really post abt it nowadays though.

i joined the jshk + tbhk communities in dec ‘24, but i randomly spawned and started posting and talking there more in mar ‘25, it’s been such a joy getting to know ygs and obsessing over tbhk together!

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tbhk !!!

୨ started reading: far shore arc ( ~late 2021 )

ever since i have been absolutely hooked. like no other fandom has had me this entranced i swear.

୨ favorite ship: mtsk

i absolutely love mitsukou more than anything in the world, they’re everything to me like i love love love them 🫶

୨ favorite character: kou

kou minamoto is the best and my favorite character ever like guys look at him he’s the sweetest and cutest character to ever exist i adore him so so much anyone who knows me knows i love kou so tehe you already know a big part of my personality now (≧ᗜ≦)

୨ favorite arc: nightlife ( tbhk98-100 )

i think it’s self explanatory but they’re js so peak guys.. i have an entire account dedicated to ml for nightlife btw

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tags !!!

୨ #mysti answers — tag to answer requests and stuff!!

୨ #mysti yaps — yapping sessions abt everything tbhk and life related

୨ #mysti’s mtsk edits — a compilation of lyrics that i associate with mitsukou and it’d be rlly nice if someone could make an edit w them.. tag me if you do tehe..

୨ #mysti’s miitopia — me playing w the miis tehe

୨ #moot tag — see all of my lovely mooties i’ve rb’d !!

୨ #mysti’s bracket battle — the mootie battle to see the superior mysti moot!!

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socials !!!

୨ discord: @/mysteriousmissme

⎝ note: lwk still trying to navigate thru here but i'm active on the kamome gakuen server!!

୨ pinterest: @/mysteriousmissmeee

⎝ note: i check here often!! there's another acc w my actual handle but if you go under my boards and see a "(i hate) tbhk" title then that's definitely me + my bio is literally kou minamoto. i dont post + my only followers are my online friends but i promise its me!

୨ quotev: @/mysteriousmissme | @/iloveyouimsorry

⎝ note: don't really check here as much + it's kinda dead but js thought i'd drop it in case?

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misc !!!

୨ yes i’m that mtsk x first love/late spring enthusiast who keeps yapping abt the edits in the community

୨ i absolutely love taylor swift guys ask me abt her and ill give you a list of songs that match each tbhk character

୨ i love ts x tbhk edits so much send me them

୨ go follow @mitsukousnightlife where my unhealthy mtsk nightlife obsession is on display for everyone to see yay

୨ my biggest tbhk flex is that on my bday in 2024 aidairo posted a hananene art and in 2025 s2e8 released and it was probably the best day ever

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let’s be friends !!!

thanks ygs for reading through this yap session!! i need more tbhk friends more than anything i love it so much. thanks for keeping up with all my posts and such tehe!

last updated: may 27, 2025

[g0rebaited]

first ever DoL ocs / pcs yap post... there are so many words full of my love for them... aauhhhhggg.. im very new to posting on tumblr this is scaryyy..

anyway here's the two of them !

(i didn't even realize they were both rocking the blue top + green bottoms until making this post omg.. couple goals fr)

alright so. Eidy.

Eidy is a girl w the cat tf, but also a crossdresser for the fun of it, he goes by any pronouns but generally is viewed as a guy (as intended) and ends up hearing he/him more than anything

Eidy does NOT live in the orphanage, has never even seen Bailey before, but does go to school. sometimes. most of the time he's in the moor, in alleyways or in the forest, looking for stuff to sell at the museum. (he knows abt the landfill and the potential goldmine there, but he's bad at talking himself out of situations so he just avoids it..)

if there is one thing Eidy is good at it's running away from situations. he can't talk himself out of anything but you bet he can out-run most people. and if he can't out-run them he can probably find something to climb up on.

he makes himself scarce SO quickly. avoids any and all confrontation if possible.

but that also makes it so that he doesn't really Know anyone, and nobody really knows him. sure, people have seen him around town in the alleys and at the museum, but Eidy doesn't really make contact with people. the only people he's made contact with are Winter (history teacher/museum), Gwylan (forest shopkeeper), Great Hawk (only briefly a few times) and Nasha (the other pc / oc)

Eidy has no friends fr

he's rlly into history and historical artifacts !! and that means hes also drawn to the lake. bc of the rumors that go around yk

but he does not like swimming at all so he doesn't know whether the rumors surrounding it are true or not…

he's also just very hairy. but all dol mods seem to be afraid of body hair. not that you'd be able to see it bc he's covered from head to toe BUT STILLL it's an important detail </3 !!!!!!

Nasha !!!

her lore is a lot more complicated than Eidy's...

Eidy's lore is basically just "catgirl moves to DoLtown and crossdresses. likes history. doesn't interact w ppl much" and then Nasha comes in with identity theft, coercion, human experimentation, etc etc

Nasha is the result of human experimentation done by Harper and their associates at the asylum; Nasha used to be just some very unfortunate dude who had his brain turned to mush by Dr Harper, this resulted in Harper being able to "create" a new person, which was Nasha as we know her now

Harper mostly left Nasha alone, though, as she was more of a side-project 😭 (after it was clear she'd become a success) but that allowed her to become her own person rather than Just Harper's Creation

Harper DID make sure to encourage Nasha to dress up and dye her hair n use makeup and all that, because the guy that 'owned' the body before is literally gone, that dude straight up doesn't exist anymore and now Nasha is piloting his body

so the identity theft was accidental (on Nasha's part), the coercion is entirely on purpose bc Nasha 'gets' subjects for Harper to experiment on, and the human experimentation is what she's a result of + smth she participates in by proxy

i would not say Nasha is a trans woman though, bc she never had the experience of being perceived as male, despite being in a male body

she doesn't rlly gaf tho, Harper gives her estrogen and money in exchange for a job well done, and furthermore she's free to do as she wants

(the estrogen's cause she does wanna look more feminine !! but that's an aesthetic preference rather than an actual gender thing

and i know the difference because i transed my gender 🔥🔥🔥)

she made friends with Eidy when he ended up in an alley near a house party, where she approached him bc she assumed he was 'like her' (he isn't)

they hit it off quite well, though ! Eidy knew things Nasha was interested in, and Nasha was just incredibly gorgeous to Eidy

Nasha DOES actually go to school, unlike Eidy who doesn't pull up most of the time. Nasha doesn't go to school on fridays though (her work day)

it does get her in trouble (bc of the missed tests) and so she usually has to stay extra long on mondays or thursdays

[rei-does-stuff]

Ever see a tumblr post that makes you so mad you make a whole mini essay about said character

Thats me, with Casablanca Memories and why Rei Hino doesn’t like men and WASN’T in love with Kaidou

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Rei starts off right off the bat saying SHE DOESNT LIKE MEN and has no interest in them, this is mainly because of her father, who’s fucking awful

Rei “liking” kaidou not because she is actually in love with him, but moreso it’s what’s expected of her, the whole chapter everyone is talking about love and their boyfriends but Rei isn’t attracted to men but she still thinks she’s ‘supposed’ to be

Hell she only “likes” kaidou bc he isn’t like her father he’s nice and kind and understanding, but it’s not real love. She even says hes like a big brother to her, because she has never had any sort of good man in her life to really compare him too, he’s basically the only real father figure she ever had that wasn’t a complete asshole, so she clings to this idea of him.

Like chibiusa (i swear to god it always ends up tying back to her—) she confuses these feelings with love, BUT NOT BECAUSE SHE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND THE DIFFERENCE, she does, but everyone around her talks about this feeling, of love, of having a boyfriend, she thinks she needs that, that this feeling of “love” is what she needs.

She sees Kaidou with another woman and feels betrayed not because of love but because she believed he was abandoning her just like her father,

Rei craves connection and she believes that romantic love of a man is the only way to find that connection, not it’s not true, this image by the spirit of her kissing him also isn’t true, it connects to her past life where she was with jadeite, but it was only her past, not who she is now

By the end of the short story it seems as though she never wants to fall in love period, but heres the thing, this takes place before the stars arc, before minako and her rlly get to know each other,

Now this isn’t just my Reinako brain being insane, it directly ties into the “we don’t need men” because that is the moment Rei realizes that she really doesn’t need men, that she doesn’t need a man in her life to be happy and fulfilled,

The story ends on a bittersweet not because its bad she doesn’t wanna fall in love but because she feels like falling in love = being with a man, which is why she doesn’t want it

But its by the end of sailor moon where she realizes that love isn’t just getting married to a man, that she doesn’t need men in her life to really be happy, she says it there in the story but she doesn’t fully realize it until the end, she found happiness without getting with a man

Its also through that whole kiss scene that she realizes she doesn’t want it, it upsets her and makes her unhappy, its a nightmare

Though its not as explicit as Chibiusa’s arc it’s still very clear because IF this was here to show that her not liking men was a phase she would’ve gotten with a man by the end, or show signs of starting to like men, but no!! She doesn’t, even by the end it’s clear, she doesn’t like men.

The whole story in my eyes, is a sort of metaphor for comphet in a way.

A less wordy/more condensed version here

Tldr LESBIAN REI IS REAL AND PPL NEED TO READ!!

[neptuniadoesstuff]

Queen Herrah (KoD AU)

(Spoilers for hk & spider/arachnophobia warning)

The last of the 3 dreamers, Mama Herrah herself (sounds a bit like Hera from Greek mythology, very unsure if that was intentional by the devs or not.)

Might draw the main cast afterwards (or well the 4 characters that are iconic when it comes to hk. & by hk i mean the original not my au's storyline itself.) Also yes I did a extreme change to Herrah's design bcs in Canon she kinda looks... idk kinda weird to me. So yeh overhaul on her design for my AU, KoD. Also if you know what the beast part in her species is, well... In my hk universe, the term "beast" is used for any sentient creature who walk on more than 2 legs but are sapient & have language. (Doesn't technically be humanoid, but are mostly humanoid)

So uh... yeh... This version of Herrah is extremely huge, like very huge, & much of most of Deepnest, she wears a mask (which is also, apparently, her dreamer mask) this is a form of mimicry to hopefully catch their unsuspecting prey. Many many years before the infection, she had a partner, who was apart of the honored caste that existed in Deepnest (whom in my universe were also hella cannibalistic to please the spider tribe), at a certain point, her partner pretty much got consumed by his fellow caste members, leaving her w/o a heir. Despite her being well... a common beast to the normal bug, she had power over the spider clan & most of Deepnest herself, & very much against the Pale King & his followers. However when the infection came about, she was asked by the Plae King to become a dreamer, at first declining as she very much doesn't want to associate with him, but realizing if she dies from the infection, there wouldn't be a heir to take her place, so she eventually accepted, but only bcs she wanted to have abheir, specifically a duaghter. In short 2 heirs were born (Yes 2), one was the particular Hornet, the other? Her name was Weirette. After this Herrah went into deep sleep, now leaving the 2 girls w/o a mother to take care of them. (As hornet was taken away to be raised by her dad & Weirette... no one knows what happened to Weirette...) After the seal was broken & she woke up from her long slumber, her mask became broken as well (aka her disguise), but even though deepnest was still the same, everything she knew was never the same... So she in turned decimated anyone whom is confirmed to be infected or looks infected. She still possibly lives in the semi-vacant place she calls home. (Btw this version of Herrah is not rlly much of a speaker, & by speaker I mean she doesn't speak in "common" or not very well verse in it, she mainly speaks in clicks & hisses)

(This is all my lore, as the only lore there was stated is her being the mother of Hornet, she's one of the 3 dreamers, & she's the queen of the Spider Tribe in deepnest. Also I did make her species a black widow bcs I thought it make sense for her to be one. I've actually drawn Herrah before but that old version is well.. old now & does not belong into KoD anymore. Btw Weirette is a future OC of mine.)

The unshaded version btw: *Insert Link here*

Heres a Link to Monomon (My version) & Link to Lurien (My version).

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[skylardoesthings]

PLEASE DOOOOO drop more or elaborate your hcs I'm starting to feel the eiliea illness creeping back up so might as well (the illness was never gone in the first place) also just realized your blog title. handshaking u on that we are in this asylum together 🤝 - @kumagorosh

LMFAO??? Yeah guys, im ill abt these guys, its funny that theyre not my favourite characters though.

Anyways i hope you like my insane ramblings, this is gonna be REALLY long so, you can see em all under the cut 👍

For the "in go, to the public Kiyama is Kira Hiroto, to his friends and family, hes Kiyama Tatsuya" hc, the reason why they found out his name is Tatsuya is because of Touko. No one knows how she found out, all they know is that one day during summer she appeared, saw Kiyama and went "HEY TATSUYA!" And watched him panic,

Inazuma Japan noticed that Kiyama and Mido sometimes tend to not answer them whenever they say their names, so they would say their alien names. When the two do reply by their alien names, they would yell "WRONG TRY AGAIN!" bc they are Not Gran and Reize anymore and they have to learn to not reply to those names

As for "The reason why InaJap was so nice to kimido was because of Dark Emperors" hc, it sorta came to me out of the blue while rewatching s3, Mido and Kaze are good freinds despite aliea and my hc is that is the reason why everyone warmed up to them – if DE didn't happen, Kaze wouldn't feel like he understood what Reize had to go through ans that feeling of inadequicy that followed them, if this makes any sense. (Note; if DE didn't happen, they would've either A. Not even be a part of InaJap or B. Be a part of it and get treated like outcasts, kinda like Fudou.)

Also all the sun garden kids, areori or og, knows how to fight btw. Og sun garden is just, better and stronger because of the Aliea Meteorite

ALSO BTW. This is game canon but like, aliea???! Is so fucked up in the games? Like Seijirou rlly was going to sell those kids as weapons of war and we went "wow, normal IE stuff." And Garshield too. Like what the hell

Anyways back to the hcs; Demonio, Kiyama, and Ronijo are friends! "How so?" You might ask, its the child experiments.

Prominence is very used to the heat and prefers it, they hate the cold.

Diamond Dust player, menawhile are the opposite, whenever it snows Hitomiko always has to remind them that they're human and need to be warm, so "Don't go outside without gloves or jackets–!" And they absolutely hate the heat.

Ok this is just semi canon bcz mido, but Gemini Storm totally has a inferior complex.

This is dubiously canon? But all of Eisei are on given name status with each other, and for the og cast, they're still a bit to awkward (well, more like strangers) with each other to do that, but in go they totally call each other by their given names

Ok now for my hyper specific hc where i have no idea where this came from but its something i like and kept

Reina is a psychologist! Maki is a nurse, why? Because honestly, with the way they grew up, they were probably frustrated a lot by all these different things would probably want to help themselves and others. Why them specifically? Idfk it just happened. Same thing with Mutou being a techie, Nagumo being a choach to bunch of kids (like handa in canon), and a bunch of other stuff

Ngl, my hc is that all the Kira's were probably in the spotlight post-aliea, so the hc that Shuugo probably lost a of friends when he was a kid was born,

Which takes me to the hc that he loves his friends and family. He's not ashamed to be a Kira, he holds so much pride for being one. One of his goal's for when hes an adult is to probably just make something for himself, be someone he himself could be proud of,

I honestly have ZERO idea where i got my "Kiyama sees a lot of himself in Kariya" hc, but i think it was when i was rewatching s2 and went "wow thid guy has a lot of similar mannarisms as Kariya" whenever i saw covert Kiyama+Gran

Which takes me to the, "Shuugo and Kariya are just mini versions of the aliea captains" hc, which is mostly by mannerisms. They probably unconsciously mimicked them or just adopted it into the way they do things or smthn idk. Hitomiko finds this adorable.

Ehm. Here's some of Shuugo and Kariya actually why not, mostly shuugo because... he's my favourite.

The whole "they're complete opposites of each other" bit is mostly based on my other headcanons, but also from Shuugo's recruitment needs + kariya's canon behaviour. (shuugo's talks for the both of them, and kariya in turn, insults people for fun)

Shuugo likes to fist-fight people btw, he's nice and calm, but he has anger issues, and when someone pisses him off bad he'd start fist-fighting people, which is pretty often. (Kariya in turn, gaslight people. for fun. like father like son, I guess?)

Nagumo taught both Shuugo and Kariya curse words.

Shuugo was the one who came up with the idea of Masaki transferring to Raimon (the moment he joined the soccer club, shuugo went through all five stages of grief at once)

oh yeah kariya and shuugo have a sibling-like relationship. idk if you can tell from all the previous hcs.

literally no one knew that they know each other, so one day during the match of raimon 1gun vs raimon 2gun in s1 of go, they started talking to each other post-match and everyone was just "????? since when ???" and the revelation that kariya is an orphan and shuugo knows him because his cousin(??) is the "owner" of the orphanage opened,

also because of kariya and shuugo knowing each other, the two of them (along with ichino and aoyama!) sorta become the bridge between raimon 1gun and raimon 2gun! they have a lot more joint practises and team 2 are able to play in official/friendly matches!

Also fun fact, Shuugo was supposed to have a character arc similar to Hikaru's when he was first introduced in the sequel for go s1, aka, Chrono Stone, but as we can see that never happened. Anyways, i totally do NOT have a whole ass plot and am writing a fic of this for myself. nope, Nuh-uh.

(i am, i just stopped writing it cause i got stuck with a bit I cannot write to save my life :sob:)

wow this is. really long, i am so sorry if this makes no sense, and I'm sorry in general.

[tumblingghosts]

Hello im rlly interested in all these time travel things.

im wondering if you have more of felix/clemensia timetravelling?

i didn’t, but your ask did get me thinking about both felix and clemensia being sent back…

(more below the cut)

also highly recommend the following if you haven’t already:

@felixravinstills wrote this response about felix landing back at eighteen as well as made this post about felix landing back at five (right after his parents die). also i have a oneshot about felix time travelling from dill’s pov. 

@meekmedea has an entire masterpost for their time travelling clemmie au where she lands back at eight-years-old. but also wrote a fic where clemensia ends up back at eighteen right before the tributes arrive. and i have a pov swap from reaper’s perspective for their fic.

anyway, onto felix and clemmie in the past!

there’s a couple different ways i could see this going, but i’m going to assume in all these cases that they died around their 30s (probably coriolanus, for different reasons- clemensia was likely a risk for him since they were friends and he didn’t want anyone who knew him that closely to potentially turn on him, and felix’s family name gave him a political influence that coriolanus wanted to get rid of). anyway: 

i. back to the games

i think they’d catch onto each other pretty quickly in this case. with so little time before the tributes arrive, if they want to gain any kind of favor, it’s going to have to be pretty distinct. clemensia was just planning on going to the train station to meet reaper, when she finds out that everyone is heading to the station on account of felix insisting that it be made a class trip, if mentoring the tributes is meant to be a class assignment. 

clemensia puts it together quickly after that. there’s likely going to be some debate on whether she reveals to felix that she’s also a time traveller, and eventually decides it’d be more advantageous to loop him in. besides, since they’re mentoring the same district, it wouldn’t be odd to see them together ‘making plans’ as it were.

so she does. felix hasn’t actually realized that coriolanus was the one to get him killed yet, but that’s mostly because coriolanus kept himself more distanced when he killed felix. clemensia fills him in with her suspicions though, and after a quick panic over worrying there might be other time travellers among them, they start to make some plans.

short term plans include being better mentors & keeping any of their classmates from dying with clemensia handling the former since she’s more personable (felix objects to this, claiming he’s plenty charming, but he doesn’t win that argument) and felix dealing with the latter (because if there’s one thing that he can do by throwing his name around, it’s getting better security measures put in place).

it is much harder than expected to get dill the medicine she needs, and it ends with getting most (if not all) the tributes some better conditions out of ‘fairness’ (i.e. food, water, medicine, etc.) but doesn’t help with the fact that they’re all still in the zoo. except...it kind of does, because investing more materials also leads to many of the mentors investing more time, and somewhat growing pretty attached - not enough to do anything as drastic as actually speak out against the games, but enough to ‘conveniently not notice’ when a mysterious scuffle draws the peacekeepers’ attention away during the preparation for the tribute interviews and about a third of the tributes are gone by the time there’s a headcount.

there’s some talk about this being planned, but felix throws a fit about how dare you and what are you implying and this never would have happened if you knew how to do your jobs properly and don’t you know who i am?? they back of pretty quick after that. 

security around the zoo gets tighter in the days following, supposedly. mostly it’s just gaul heading announcements about what a threat the escaped tributes are. it’s not helped by the ‘tighter security’ being found unconscious one morning and the zoo enclosure completely empty. it throws the general capitol population into a bit of a frenzy. there are rumors and complaints about how the quality of peacekeepers have gone down drastically, though no one knows where they started (it was clemensia).

their original plan was nowhere near this, but with how little time they had to plan things out, they’re basically just manipulating everyone around them to turn a blind eye - the tributes aren’t stupid, they can tell which mentors are sympathetic enough to rely on. not trust, exactly, but that they know won’t get them punished.

with the chaos of the tributes’ escape being a huge distraction for most of the capitol higher-ups, felix and clemensia have to finally confront coriolanus - not about the murdering them in the future thing, since he wouldn’t know about that, but about his attitude (since he’s has been pretty upset and confused about clemensia being more distant with him lately for seemingly no reason). felix is all for going full spite and making sure he never gains any sort of power ever again. clemensia agrees, but it’s also a lot harder for her to separate herself from coriolanus considering she had considered him a pretty close friend right up until she had gotten killed.

realistically, things probably wouldn’t go this smoothly, but it’s more fun to think about the various shenanigans they get into undermining coriolanus & aiding the tributes while “100% definitely not involved whatsoever” with the escape.

ii. back to eighteen (start of year)

sneakiest of the three options - they’re old enough to properly use their family’s influence, but also have more than enough time to make more gradual change. it starts small: some comments here and there, testing the waters to see how much they can say and still have people agree. 

clemensia starts to drift away from coriolanus, whereas felix grows openly antagonistic with him. clemmie’s main goal is to undermine gaul though - she has not forgiven gaul about the snakes and would not like a repeat of being bitten, thank you very much. since clemensia and felix aren’t close friends anymore (they were closer when they were younger), it takes a while for either of them to realize that the other is different. 

sure, they’ve noticed some changes, but had attributed different attitudes to their own influence. some changes, though, they couldn’t explain, and it only really starts to make sense when they come to the “oh, you’re here too” realization. felix is on board with the deplatform gaul plan, but it’s still a pretty difficult endeavor considering gaul has a close relationship with the president. felix might be his great-nephew, but he doesn’t think he can undermine her that way. 

coriolanus throws an extra wrench into things by assuming that, with felix and clemensia spending more time together, that felix is the reason clemensia is pulling away from him. it turns into a mix of high school drama and political subterfuge, where somehow the former is much more difficult for either of them to deal with. 

iii. back to their childhood

in the case where they land back in war times, their experiences are pretty different. felix is mostly doing family bonding time because he now has the perspective to actually connect with his much older cousins. clemensia, on the other hand, is majorly lamenting having to do childhood all over again. she was an adult! with independence! and she has to do primary school again! 

also, since i’m so fond of inky_dream’s trio of clemmie, felix, and iphigenia - they are definitely childhood friends. they haven’t gotten a chance to meet as much around the war, so interactions are pretty brief during those years, but once the war is over, clemensia and felix start to get odd feelings that things are much more different…

clemensia: wasn’t felix more of a brat at this age? felix: i feel like clemensia was less forward at this age… clemmie & felix: wait a minute-

iphigenia is pretty sure her friends have a crush on each other and is internally giggling at all their interactions. what’s actually happening is clemensia and felix trying to subtly test out if the other is actually a time traveller or not without actually saying it aloud. it comes to a head when sejanus ends up moving to the capitol and clemensia befriends him. 

felix essentially goes “yeah, no. actual-eight-year-old clem wouldn’t have done that.” and confronts her in private. clemensia has her “i knew it” moment and now they’re on the same page…except they’re also physically eight and there is a limited number of things they can realistically do being this young. people are hardly going to listen to the opinions of not-even-pre-teens.

it does help that iphigenia has roped sejanus into her plan to get her friends together because anytime they need to privately talk to make plans, iphigenia and sejanus are more than willing to cover for them so they can “have some time alone ;)” 

basically, it’s nia and sej being silly kids. buuut…felix and clemmie don’t realize that iphigenia and sejanus have made that misconception and assume the opposite. 

iphigenia & sejanus: aww our friends have crushes <33 nia & sej: we should give them time alone nia, aloud: oh nooo - i just forgot that i have to do something far away from here sej, aloud: um, me too! i’ll join you. far away. ;D felix & clemmie: wow, iphigenia and sejanus must really like each other if they keep trying to leave the two of us to they can be together. that’s cute. and it gives us the chance to get some private time to plan!

this one’s a mix of fluff and angst - lower stakes since they’re much younger and have more time, but also they’ve pretty much lost everyone they knew. if they change things, all the people they knew will grow up to be different people. similar, maybe, but not the same. and as much as they try to forget that, it’s not easy seeing those familiar faces and realizing that the differences they create are shaping different people too.

i do like to think everything works out for the better though ^^

(these were all written with felix & clemmie as a friendship, but they could easily dip into a felix/clemensia romance - especially for scenario #3 where they really only have each other to talk to since everyone else is treating them like children.)

thanks for the ask! :D

[burgerputty]

Do you think you'll ever expand on the au where Gideon and Wallace were basically role swapped? Hopefully that doesn't sound pushy or anything; I just loved the concept, especially the possible roommate dynamics between Scott and Gideon :]

I just realized I had asks and I never answered them but ga I need to! I’m glad your interested in it but I will explain what it is so far I’ll go in sections so it’ll be more organized. This is pretty long tho I’m bad at explaining so bare with me! I’m kind of gonna use this ask to explain the whole au if you don’t mind lol. Feel free to ask more questions!

The au itself explained: Gideon and Wallace are swapped roles. So now Wallace is the big evil character and is presumably Scott’s evil ex. Gideon is instead put into the role of being Scott’s roommate. He is described as Scott’s gay nerd roommate or just roommate. Since Scott doesn’t really have any real ‘evil exes’ during a random moment of being drunk Wallace remembers about his relationship with Scott (which is just college scollace fling, however I may change this later I’m unsure) and posts a thing on Craigslist and Ramona’s exes agree to work together with Wallace to terrorize BOTH Scott’s and Ramona’s love life.

Gideon: so it’s notable that Gideon being in the role of Wallace expands on his character if he wasn’t exactly ‘evil’ but unlike the anime that explores this concept I still believe he wouldn’t be the best person, and would still have his underlined struggles that are implied, just no status to inflate his ego. Unlike Wallace he is really bad at picking up guys lol, and is not really as accepting of Scott moving on with Ramona. He’s more distant and rude but he’s also snarky (just like usually Gideon lol.) Usually just games or goes to work, occasionally going out drinking with Scott’s friend group, (but no one really likes him.) also idk if he’ll go by Gordon or not.

Wallace: Wallace is an evil ceo that freezes his ex boyfriends in cryogenic tubes. He’s just straight up comically evil just super gay if that’s really the best way to put it lol . He’s a much more less insecure version of Gideon though I will say that. I don’t know if I will implement the glow as a concept for him since it’s a very Gideon specific thing that ties rlly deep in his character imo, but like Gideon he doesn’t really love his ex bfs but rather think of his boy toy trophies. I need to expand on him but this is it for now. He is also way less violent and angrier than Gideon.

Scott and Gideon’s relationship: So unlike Scott and Wallace I actually see Scott and Gideons roommate dynamic as the complete opposite. Gideon is almost like the opposite of Wallace in a way at handling certain situations. Wallace is willing to let go when Gideon is not. So the two met their first year of college in a similar fashion, Gideon compliments his Zelda shirt and class and the two just kind of click. They are both losers in college and enjoy being nerds but also try to get girls, (usually fails.) Scott often times comments on how Gideon is an ‘anti chick magnet’ Eventually when drunk Gideon says he likes dudes and he’s just gay after that. So eventually Scott gets with envy, Gideon thinks his band is lame and none of Scott’s friends really like Gideon but yadada. Obv before Gideon tries to hit on Scott but fails in a similar fashion as Wallace in canon. I like to think Gideon has a one sided crush on Scott but it’s like a huge crush that dies within time so yeah super one sided (sorry I’m scideon brained). So in the present Scott just kind of ended up living with Gideon. Gideon is quick to get annoyed with Scott but is also deeply attached to Scott I think and of course cares about him. He is more meaner about Scott breaking up with knives (rightfully so tbh) and is just more meaner to Scott in general, even if at times it’s just playful. He’s also not really that supportive of Scott’s relationship with Ramona but comes to terms with it eventually. But it’s notable he secretly hopes him and Ramona’s relationship fails, (yeah he’s still kind of an ass lol.)

but yeah that’s kind of it for now sorry it’s so long😭😭 I hope it makes sense. I seriously need to draw the au out more.

[cavernofstars]

Unprompted hypotheticals i send my friends part 2

All post-marineford spoilers

1: Do you think a part of why Luffy was so confident he could save Ace was because he was able to save Robin from enies lobby?

Do you think Luffy ever looks at Robin and thinks about enies lobby and how he was able to save her, but then thinks about Ace and doesnt understand why he couldnt save him if he could save her?

He would never trade one person for another, but do you think he ever gets sad when he sees her, thinking of how Ace wanted to live just like she did, but he didnt get to?

2: Luffy coping with Aces death in a opposite way to how he had coped with Sabos, since he tried not to talk about Sabo because it hurt, but now he talks about Ace because it hurts, but it helps.

Luffy pointing out little things the crew does that Ace did, little memories that he can watch live on through his closest friends, feeling like hes still there in all the ways he failed to keep Sabo around in his mind.

And the crew avoiding bringing Ace up at first, but then realizing it helps and frequently purposely doing those things because they knew Luffy likes seeing it?

3: Do you think that Luffy collects things that remind him of Ace or Sabo, and he keeps like any pictures from the newspapers or wanted posters of them?

Like after Ace died he started scrounging around any newspapers looking for images of Ace so that he wouldnt forget his face?

Like he has a whole collage of images up in his room.

4: Do u think that all the people who were the most important to Ace took a bead each of his necklace?

And either Luffy took the extras, and gave one to Yamato in Wano.

OR.

Even though it rlly hurt to do so, he gave his one to Yamato?

Shanks was the one to pick up the beads at the end of the battle, since it was because of him that the remains of Whitebeards crew even got to collect Ace's body.

Ivankov was the one who actually got the bead(s) to Luffy, since Luffy was already scooped up and taken away by Law, Iva would take em to plan to find him later on but then discovered Sanji and was like 'take.'

[strangevampy]

yapping :3

i know i come back to post like once a year, but i thought i'd talk about how college is going and everything going on in my life. i know damn well nobody here cares (not trying to be all emo, i mean like- eh you get what i mean..) and- idk, too much shit has gone on. firstly, i havent exactly graduated from high school yet, im in this dual enrollment program, but i dont actually have any high school classes to take anymore? if that makes sense? im at this community college full time, and only go in 4/5 days out of the school week for like 1 hour each day (im off on fridays). I think it's really nice, and it'll put me ahead once i transfer to the college i actually want to attend (A&T!! Aggie pride or whatever lol). My mom wants me to pursue a master's degree, so i dont see why i shouldnt. Also, I want a degree in Computer Science, and I really want to be a game/software developer. I know people say 'AI will taker over all our jobs!!! you all will be out of a career!!' I.. don't exactly fear that, but, only time will tell I guess... (TW for SA talk after this, so if u don't like that, feel free to scroll.) secondly, I was in some relationship that I ended around May and i didn't really find out he- violated me, i guess, until after I ended it. I was telling my friends about a certain incident where I went it to give him a small kiss on the lips before leaving school and he took it further than I wanted and it really bothered me, and they told me that it was SA, and that realization sent me down a bit of a spiral. In addition, we used to make out and stuff in the school stairwell (bad idea, i know, dumb shit..), but after I ended this and got with my current boyfriend, whenever we were in a stairwell alone together, even if we're just walking through, I got- scared? almost? like an overwhelming urge to keep my distance and watch him, and- i really didn't like that. ive already had too many encounters with boys talking about my body in ways i didn't appreciate, and after i broke up with him he sent me some lame ass fucking apology about how 'he feels so guilty :(' like i would care. idk. i feel like im going through some 5 stages of grief LMAO. i've been working through it, but it still feels weird. bleh, idk >.< uhh some other stuff... i identify as goth (i like the term babybat so i prefer that lol) and started leaning more towards that kind of style and culture and expressing myself more freely now. i LOVE androgynous style, and basically aim to confuse people on whether im male or female in the near future. ummm uhhh i dunno :3 im more into video games and stuff, i rlly like honkai star rail and project sekai (ace attorney and sally face will always be my comfort games though) and uhhh idk what else to add. to anyone reading, please remember to love. uts damn near 3 am and idk what im saying anymore but pls show those around u that u love and care for them. you never know what a person is going thru, and your beautiful soul may just make more than a difference than u know. thanks for listening to my schizo ramblings.,.. goobnight....