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emotionaleating · 4 months ago

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my biggest s3xual fantasy is to have someone notice my absence and wonder about me lol

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kaletalecowboy · 12 days ago

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dazai got wastedd

#bsd #bsd fanart #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #dazai bsd #dazai osamu #odasaku #oda sakunosuke #odasaku bsd #oda bsd #bsd oda #bsd odasaku #dazai #oda #kale art #relapsed. I MISS THEM.#actually managed to post bsd fanart isntead of keeping it in drafts hell forever and ever #this was in there for a week #the one from?? 2 years ago??? is still there

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burned0utstar · 6 months ago

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Will this stop? At any point in time, will this stop?

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bloomdoom1 · 10 months ago

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purrfectdollie · 11 months ago

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I WANNA RELAPSE

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xbeckittyx · 2 months ago

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marisfeathers · 2 months ago

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Oh wow!! Its never going to get better!! Whats the point of trying anyway?!

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burned0utstar · 11 months ago

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I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry.

I didn't mean to be like that. I don't want to act this way.

I'm sorry I can't communicate. I'm sorry that I try and push you away. I'm sorry. I just want you with me.

I'm sorry that I can't say that to you. I'M SORRY.

I'm so fucking sorry please don't leave me?

I know I'm hard to love. I KNOW.

I don't want to be like this.

I promise I am trying to change.

I promise I can act normal.

Please?

#mental health #vent blog #depressing shit #vent post #relationship #boyfriend #i wanna relapse so bad #actually bpd #bpd favorite person #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd #borderline problems #actually borderline #borderline blog #borderline personality disorder #borderline #sorry

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kickedin17 · 2 months ago

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I need to write a Post about rooms in tøp songs and how they're a constant symbol of confinement and self isolation (the contract ritn not today ode to sleep, etc) - a very private and anxious compulsive sense of self - a representation of how others percieve you but also a representation of how you may let those people down (redecorate, the contract again)

& how this continual thematic narrative of a sleepless anxious person spiraling out alone in their bedroom desperately waiting for the sun to rise is Also what becomes the narrative of dema, both with clancy literally being locked up for like 6 years during SAI, but also with ritn and redecorate and now the contract video we see/hear that this "space between two places" is a kind of waking half-dream, a hallucinatory hell, conjured when you're pacing your room at 2am after being awake for god knows how long, wondering if you should give in and fall off the grid and knowing you need to just fucking go to sleep because you'll feel normal when you wake up but you Can't. You Can't Sleep. (And in clancy's case there's also a scary old man choking you out at the same time and yk what good for her)

I Need to write this post Unfortunately it is past midnight and I don't want to enter the scary room pacing void myself so I'm going to bed for real and this is the most u get for now

#twenty one pilots #tyler joseph #josh dun #clancy #the contract #this feels incoherent but again its 12am #and u understand #twenty one pilots make music explicitly for bitches who Pace About It (me) thank you tyler for being a real 1 #i wd also add i think the room and relapse/addiction themes are heavily intertwined but that wd be for the actual Post #which im not writing rn #bc there's a lot there Especially with redecorate but the emphasis on rooms as repetition as some kind of failure as anxiety #as wakefulness that's at some point artificial and certainly hazardous but im keeping my eyelids up No Matter What #bc the other option is what .#and also the contract being seemingly directed toward the torchbearer #clancy failing on a promise he wanted to keep and he's tired and wants to give in and ''just take the deal''#Much To Think About

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xbeckittyx · 2 months ago

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karvviie · 11 months ago

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(opening my 10k word document of mainewash AU content) welcome to my twisted mind…

#i’m relapsing #i made some mainewash AUs a few years ago and actually wrote content for it but.#i didn’t finish it. and this was a long time ago so when i went to read it i was like wow this is awesome! i wonder what happens next!#CLIFFHANGER. GUYS I LEFT MYSELF ON A CLIFFHANGER. I WROTE IT AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT WAS MEANT TO HAPPEN NEXT. BUT I KNOW IT WAS AWESOME #I WILL FOREVER BE MAD ABOUT IT #rvb #red vs blue #my art #mainewash #washmaine #agent washington #agent maine #rvb the meta

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manic-aliferous · 3 months ago

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thinking of cleaning my room and getting my life together but also thinking of cvtting my thighs open

#made of styro #actually mentally ill #i need to cvt #cvutting #$h relapse #$h vent #sh cvt #tw s3lf harm #$h h4rm #$h addict #shedtwt #shedblr #$elf h4rm #actually bipolar #bipolar 2 #bipolar disorder #block dont report

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3m0g1rlyyy · 1 year ago

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i genuinely want to relapse so bad like it’s not even funny.

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gilmores-glorious-blog · 29 days ago

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troubled teenager jess mariano from hit 2000s tv show gilmore girls save me……..save me troubled teenager jess mariano from hit 2000s tv show gilmore girls <3

#idc if this is an embarrassing thing to be relapsing into in 2025 #i love him so bad #literally the guy of all time actually #gilmore girls #jess mariano #eli.posts

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burned0utstar · 3 months ago

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You can't handle me. I am to much, to sick. I am not made to be loved. I know you think you can, I know you think you want to, but you haven't seen me yet. Not bad, not throwing stuff around, not screaming and crying, and being scared because it feels like everyone hates me and you are going to leave me. Not hurting everyone because I am just so hurt.

You can't handle me. You can't. I'm sorry, but noone can, you can't either.

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princesssandyblog · 2 months ago

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No effort, just cute feet and your fav finger :)

Simp for feets

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