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waymaker (STILL)

Greetings Universe, TheTeenageSoul checking in here. Glory to the most high for life, experience, and understanding.  We're still here. Life goes on. I am writing this on April 2, 2020, in my apartment as my close friend is currently sleeping off his acid trip. The energy of youth reeks within this apartment. Direction is not the main focus, but living in the moment and experiencing life in the now seems to be of more importance. This same friend taught me something so amazing during our acid trip together last time. He taught me to be grateful for everything, no matter what. That's his secret. That's his reason for joy. I thought to myself at that moment. I thought, why am I not smiling right now? I have SO MUCH,  i've been given so much in my life, as if the universe has personally been giving me blessings. 7:06. I move with full gratitude now. Love and Gratitude are my superpowers. I am a superhero. Don't believe me? Watch the things I am set to manifest. Watch the world I am going to create with my energy. Than tell me I'm not a superhero. My biggest dream has always been to fly, until I found out I've been flying every night when I close my eyes. It's all about being aware. Knowing. Remembering. I love to fly, and I always want to fly for fun. I'm a young teenager of course haha. However, I want to fly with direction, unlike many of my friends. You know what, I take that back. I believe that my friends want to fly with direction, but they aren't as serious as me. Everyday I wake up, I will myself to fly straight towards my dreams. I will my reality to reflect the reality of my dream world. The life I want to live, the sights I want to see, I want them to come true in my physical reality. I can see them in the dream state, now it is time to manifest them in the physical. I pray that God aligns his will with mine, so that I may be able to discover the blueprint that is the course to my dreams. I know there is a path to my destination. Why walk there when I can fly? I believe that I have beautiful fluorescent wings that will take me to my dreams and back. These wings lift me up way above this universe. With these wings, I am setting a blazing trail of super rainbow fire behind me that the rest of the world can follow. You see, I am trying to be a way maker. I got tired of looking for someone else's blueprint, and I have now decided to make my own way. The sheep do not tell the shepherd where to go, but they follow as they trust their leader. I want to be trusted. I want to know the way. The destination is everything to me. I have love and faith that will guide me no matter what. I can always look at the stars for comfort. I have nothing to lose, but everything to gain. I am understanding the extent of my energy, and that extent is that there is no extent. I am limitless. I hear you, feel you, and see you. Thank you for tuning it. May you see the path I left for you. One True Media, Right on Time, Perfect Circle Energy.

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Mi crystals 🔮📿

My crystals seen it all

Seen me ball, seen me fall

Seen me cry out on mountains

By myself standing tall

I never feel alone

For you taught me company

And amidst adversity

Y’all the ones who stuck with me

And that’s real

I’m not all alone on this hill

We give out the feeling

When they’re fighting the feel

When the world goes dark

I look deep inside my heart

And find you all right there

& you were there from the start

Mi Crystals 🖤

-1ONE

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I feel like I’ve always been taking shots in the dark. I feel like I’m holding on to a rocket ship with dear life, hoping that it takes me to my destin(y)ation. I also feel that I might’ve slipped off this rocket ship in a past life, or something made me lose my grip. A part of me also feels like I’m already inside the rocket ship, and that I’m going to reach this place no matter what. I can’t let go. I won’t let go. -1

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the spins

I am actually very pleased to see that I am writing in the blog twice in the same year. I remember writing in this blog more consistently some years back, and then one day I had the mental affirmation that I wanted to experience life more, and then come back with more heat to write about. I did just that. I decided to live my life and soak in the things around me. During that time span, I experienced a lot and learned a lot (shout out 21 Savage), and I think that was the best thing for me at that time. However, I regret not spending more time contemplating about what was going on around me. I can honestly say I became more out of touch with the spiritual side of me. I watched less videos and read less about the things that interested me in a metaphysical world. I was completely indulged in the world around me and I was honestly just going with the flow. I met some great people, got into some sticky situations, seen some crazy sh*t, and felt some amazing feelings. I learned a huge deal about myself in this time as well. However, as we are riding this roller coaster ride called life, it is easy to forget who bought us the ticket to the amusement park. When you're at the amusement park, you don't even think about how you got there, you don't even really think about who you're there with. You're just there. You soak in everything around you in the moment and experience. I was stuck in this amusement park aspect for quite some time. I was living fast with no concrete, solid end goal. I knew I was going towards something, and I guess I felt that one of these rides will take me there in a way. I wish that I wrote as much as I do now, then. The universe is literally throwing signs in my face nowadays, and I don't know if it's a new thing or if they have always been there and I just couldn't see them. If we're keeping it real though, I wasn't even looking for them honestly. It was literally like I was going through life blind, just trusting my instinct and letting the waves take me wherever they pleased. There has been two major events that have taken place in my life that allowed me to literally sit my ass down and LOOK. These events forced me to stop everything that I have been doing, and evaluate every step that I was taking. Once I did this, I seen that a lot of those steps that I was taking led to nowhere. I was doing a lot for no real reason, or the reason had nothing to do with what I was meant to do. But what am I meant to do? Where am I going anyway? Or better yet, where do I want to go? Now that I have been writing more, I have a more concrete image of my dreams and aspirations. I can kinda see the path I'm on and what's ahead of me more clearly. It's not like I can see the destination, but I can definitely see some hundred feet away and that's way better than being completely in the dark. I am spending more time talking to myself and believing in what I believe in, and it has been changing EVERYTHING. Not too long ago, I came across a video of this super cool guy explaining the Merkaba. He was a white college kid who was meditating in a field in the middle of nowhere. No lie, homeboy's energy was jumping out of the screen. The Merkaba, or Double Tetrahedron, has been a figure that has grabbed my attention ever since I stepped into my spirituality. Homeboy in the video was describing the nature of the Merkaba, and explained how he created a whirlwind of energy around him while meditating and holding a vision of the Merkaba spiraling around his body. I thought that was the coolest shit ever, like some avatar shit. However, I didn't catch a case of The Spins that day. I think I tried to meditate that day and visualize the spinning Merkaba around me but it did not have any lasting implications. About two weeks ago, however, I was in a certain situation and I was thinking of a way to hold my energy to a higher frequency at all times. Then it hit me. Boom. I can just visualize this image of a spinning Merkaba in my mind at all times, and even better,  I can project it outwards so I always see it! Since then, I have been working on this visualization and I have been winning ever since. The more I can hold this vision of a spinning Merkaba, I can visualize Toroidal Flow and a positive flux of belief and manifestation energy in my life. So now I am a patient sick with a bad case of the spins, and I can't stop spinning. When I'm down, I just spin. When I'm up, I just spin. It's a roller coaster ride in itself, but this time, I have complete focus on what I am doing, and I can see it clearly with no filter. It's generally still a new thing I am trying out, but I hope to add it to my arsenal of techniques to be a badass in this life that I am living. The goal is to keep my energy up at all times so I can never miss a wave, portal, or anything that will lead me to a new vibration/frequency. Now I understand why Mac Miller made a song about this. R.I.P to the Goat! Love Forever.

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Ode to a New Year (revamped)

Sooo, I was supposed to write this post about two years ago. I got a little caught up. Such is life, but I am grateful for every day that has occurred between then and now. I have grown a lot since the times I have last written frequently on this blog, and it is very refreshing to come back and see that I am not different then who I once was, just a little more experienced. I am still on the same path that I was writing about from years past, only my body is slightly more withered from the experiences that I have been through since. These experiences define who I am today, as the experiences from when I was much younger defined who I was then. Experiences are a very important thing to me in my life now. I now understand that experience is the key component to growth and change in life. By experiencing, I am susceptible to the universe and I am subject to opportunity, chance, change, and challenge, which are all important factors to growth. The doctrine I had then is the same I have now, which is to live and grow. I know more now than ever that growth is important to make my dreams come true, and I will not give up until I am able to do so. The thing is, it isn't as serious as it sounds. The beauty of it all is that growth and experience is thrilling! The journey itself is probably the most exciting thing about growth, and the energy I feel while taking on new experiences is worth every bit of it, and it makes it all the more worth it.  Of course, there are times where the energies from these experiences are very odd, and it could even make me feel very uneasy at times. That is exactly what life is all about, and that's what I am learning to embrace all the more. I know more than ever that I am not like anyone, and everyone is unique in their own way. To connect with others, I must be conscious of our differences in order for us to connect despite it all. I am becoming more in tune with myself and who I am, and that makes it all the more easier to find what I like in life and stick around that, and stay away from the things that may bring me energy that I don't enjoy. This year, I plan to indulge myself with the forces that only bring me positive energy and attributions of growth, such as knowledge and wisdom. Now more than ever, there are plenty of forces in the world that are very toxic and detrimental to my mind state and way of thinking, and I just plainly do not have time for those energies. My ambitions and my goals are very contingent on all of my actions, so I pray every day that I move accordingly to my destiny, and I know I am. I will keep faith in the universe to guide me in this year closer to my dreams, and to connect me with the forces that are truly meant for me. I am still a kid at heart, a teenager, rebellious towards the expected conformation to society, and I will live this life searching for experience and thrill in the most beautiful ways towards a righteous path. I have gained more knowledge about myself and the universe has been talking to me more and more recently. I have been seeing plenty of repeated numbers, and have gained resonance with two numbers in particular, 1111 and 111. I pray and gain mindfulness every time I see these numbers, but I also wonder what the Universe is trying to tell me when I do see these numbers. On my way to Florida from my home in Texas, I thought to myself the nature of these repeated numbers in numerology. Every repeated number on a 12-hour clock is divided by a time of 1 hour and 11 minutes(1:11 + 1 Hour and 11 Minutes  = 2:22). Once all of the numbers in each time of repeated numbers are added up, I found that they are all separated by a common number of 3. (1:11- 1+1+1= <3>, 2:22 - 2 +2 + 2 = <6> ) Why is 3 the number that divides every repeated number? Why is there an hour and 11 time difference between every time of repeated numbers? Why do I see these numbers? I attribute all of them to being in tune. I also attribute seeing the proceeding number right after these numbers to being out of tune, as a sign to refocus and rebalance myself within the universe. The Universe does speak, and I am trying to live my live with all of my sense as active as possible to gain any knowledge that I can. I am not perfect, as no one is, but I am working towards getting better. I pray the angels continue to guide me and lead me on the chosen path of my destiny. & that is what love means. Truth forever.

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by the water

In my last post, I was in a place in my life where the near future was unclear. I was not sure where I was going to end up, I did not know where my relationship was headed, and ultimately, my whole life seemed unstable. Usually, I tend to remain calm under hasty situations such as those. But this time was different. I felt as if all the time and focus I've accumulated over the years led up to this point, and from here my life can either go downhill or uphill. I felt like a ball of energy, and the energy within me started to tremble and shake, gaining intensity as my life became more and more unclear. It was very detrimental because I couldn't find any outlets for this energy. There was an internal struggle within myself that nobody knew about. The only way I could think to get through this phase, was to ignore it somehow. I tried my best to focus on the other things in life. I tried to live by the day, spending time with my girlfriend and my friends. I went outside, went to forests, meditated, skated, and other things to keep me busy. Although this temporarily stalled my pain, there was a definite hole building within myself that I would like to say I am still recovering from.Fear of the unknown crippled me to a state where it was hard to get up in the morning. I was so frightened that there is a possibility in this life to give so much energy to something, and for it to bite you in the ass in the end. I was scared that there was a chance that I invested 10 thousand dollars, and I was going to leave with 0. This fear weakened me and made me unpleasant. The exuberance I have always tried to display was becoming harder and harder to express. People began to notice. I was asked questions like, "Have you been okay lately?" or, "What's the matter?", and me being me, my answer was always something along the lines of "Oh, I'm fine. Don't worry", even though I felt as if I was going through a mid-life crisis. It was a very rough time for me. I was very unstable emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. Looking back it, I was a hot mess, and it would have been even worse if it weren't for some special people in my life at that time. I was blessed to have someone that I was able to connect with when I needed to the most. That person served somewhat like my sanity when I thought I was losing it. There was an evident shift in my life that was going on, and I knew that this shift was going to alter my life very soon. I had no idea where I would end up in the next couple of months. I could've been close to home, or across the country. I getting hit by a huge wave, and I could not tell where this wave was heading.Now, this wave is coming to a standstill. I am washed up on beach right by the water, and it seems like this is my home for the time being. Where I am now, there is an energy in the air that makes me really curious. There is a vibration here that I want to plunge myself into. I know inside that I was meant to be here at this time, and for that I am eternally grateful to the Universe for getting my stars aligned. I am still very confused spiritually and mentally. But now, it's not as painstaking. I am content with this incertitude. I am okay with the fact that I do not have all of the answers right now. I try to remind myself that the answers to my long list of questions will come with time. It hurts from time to time. I often times find myself ready to go on an emotional outrage when I think too hard about why life works the way it does. I just have to remember that I am not meant to know at this point in my life.No matter what I know and do not know, I am grateful to be where I am today. I am grateful to still have a chance to understand more of this complex puzzle we know as life. I am blessed to come closer and closer to the answers of questions I've held for such a long time. There are even some answers I believe I already found, but I need more time to solidify these realizations.If I can go back 6 months and tell myself that everything is going to be okay, and I would end up where I needed to be, I would in a heartbeat. I would do anything to go back and relieve myself from the heartache and emotionally distress. However, those are the instances that are put in life where we live and grow. This is not an easy game, some levels are harder than others, but once you get past certain levels, you learn tricks and tips to get you further in the game. Right now, all I can do is keep on playing, until I finally win. Thank you for everything. 13 love

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Maturity...in a sense & Life duality

I cannot believe it has been over a year since I've wrote on this blog. I told myself that i wanted to take a little time off so I can grow and experience more, and I can talk about more things, although I didn't think I would take a year off. In the past year, I may say I've "Matured" a great deal. However, that word does not do it justice. I think the word I'm looking for is SoulMatured, because I feel I have become more aware of my spirituality and the unseen things around me. This last year was a huge wake up call for me. I was at the point in my life where I knew I was going somewhere for awhile, but I had no idea where. All I knew that i would have to make the decision soon, and I will be somewhat far from home. Throughout this time of wariness and uncertainty, I tried my best to stay positive and continue to push forward even through bad times.I believe doing this was a beneficial experience to myself spiritually, by balancing my emotions and Ego's. With more experience with situations in the last year, I truly believe I matured Spiritually ( or SoulMatured) by understanding my emotions  and becoming more aware of spiritually occurrences. Although, that is not the real reason I came to talk on here today. I've been thinking alot about the concept of life and why I react the way I do over the subject of "Life". For plenty of my life, I have told myself that I am deeply infatuated with life. I believed that the concept of Life attracted me in anyway possible. I would like to think I am addicted to life, and I would do anything for it. I'm not saying this feeling changed. This is all is still true. But sadly, I worded it wrong. I am in love with the concept of Positive Life. Sometimes in life, it is very easy to forget about the laws of duality. At times, life just seems so direct, and one-sided, almost blunt for lack  of a better term. It's hard to remember that almost everything has an opposite. As does life. There is positive life, and there is negative life, and these energies are in harmonious balance. Although there is brilliant, revitalizing, resonating life in the universe there is also unattractive, depressing, dull life. With me being so focused on the positive side, I forgot about its negative counterpart and phased myself into only believing the one entity. Although you can call this a "Quick Fix", I still found myself very angry at the fact that I could neglect that. I believe that when dealing with the most powerful forces ( Love,Trust,Life) people often time forget about these  common laws of duality, and tend to focus on the positive and neglect the negative. Yes there is positive Love, Trust and Life. But there is also negative Love, Trust and Life. There are people who have love for the wrong things (Vanity), TRUST Issues, and there living beings of evil. All these things are also defined by there word, but may not be the image you thought of when first thinking about the word. Because of this slight negligence, I believed we are deterred from a better level of understanding on the topics, and unaware of those situations on a different wave of frequency. If I continue to cherish life and all the good it can do, I might tend to forget about the children in Darfur "Living" in life threatening conditions everyday. Sadly, it is hard to understand and abide by the laws of Duality without allowing negative thoughts and vibrations flood ones soul. Duality refers to the positive and the negative to be imposed in balance.So, it may be easy for one to allow their moods to worsen while acknowledging this rule. However with practice, and experience, the negative connotation  would not affect your energy. livelove13, thank you.

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Change

Greetings World. It is coming close to a year since that last time I wrote in this blog. It seems I have just been going through the motions of life without enough time to reflect. Everything I've learned and seen in the past year will supply me with many things to write about from here on out. As humans, we might sometimes get bored with the lifestyle we have at one point in time, but what we cannot control nor see coming is how LIFE CHANGES.  Life can do a 360 in the blink of an eye, and that can happen to anyone. Today on February 22, 2015, a run in with the police had me think about this in full effect. Most people don't cherish what they have in this moment in time RIGHT NOW, or they dread the life they currently live. If you woke up to a random note saying,"Today, your life may completely change either positively or negatively" how would you react? Believe it or not, as humans we subconsciously read that note every day, facing the unknown occurrences that go on in the world. Are we really doing everything we can to make the most out of the life we live right now? I believe that is a question everyone can ask themselves. What you have can randomly and easily be taken from you within the blink of an eye. Also, what you don't have can randomly and easily be given to you within the blink of an eye. Before whether of those things happen, how are you living? Are you living positively or negatively? There is an undeniable truth that living a life with positive thinking and energy will result in positive occurrences. Knowing and understanding the sad truth that Life can anytime change may leave you feeling helpless and weak under the strong hand of Life, but there are ways to influence the outcome of shifts in life. There is an unseen balance that we all are apart of. The balance is more than good and bad, it is more than mean and kind. This balance in fact has no identity to my knowledge so far. But what I do know is that this balance has a lot to do with emotions and actions. Decision, Love, Trust, and Belief all play a role into this unidentifiable balance we all stand on.It seems to me all of those things coincide with what happens to us in our lives. The decisions you make based on Love, trust and etc all have consequence on our lives whether good or bad. Is your trust and belief in the wrong place? Even where you put your Love can be in the wrong place. One must have to keep positive with all those things, and positive things will happen in one's life. It is true that positivity attracts positivity, and negativity attracts negativity. Do you have any negative influence in your life? Sometimes they are hard to get rid of, and you might have to find a way to just live with those negative influences. If that's the case, take initiative and change that influence positive. Not everything in this world is out of our control, and there is no reason to feel helpless. In this world, you just have to be aware. Many people call it being Conscious. Know that at any time life could change, so if it does, it won;t hit you as hard. Live a life with positivity and love so when life does change, the chance it will be a positive change is greater. Whatever your belief is in, the forces that work invisible are there for you, and if you believe, love, and trust them they will benefit you. Everything you have is given. No matter how you obtained it, it is given. So if you are reading this I ask you to have faith! Love and believe in the spirits of positivity and everything joyful in this universe, and I pray they work around you in your favor so your life will forever change for the better. Where there is life there is love. Love Life 13- theteenagesoul