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my pride series looks really cool put together, so i wanted to post it like this

give the individual posts some love: imogen ♡ nick ♡ charlie ♡ michael ♡ tori ♡ elle (and a little nick and charlie bonus)

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- Zaïnab El Meziani

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summer days

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Family is Kinda Hard Right Now...

The chasm between me and those who love me grows ever larger. I have to raise my voice to be heard. My intentions and words become distorted as they cross. The voices of those on the other side are strangely clear to me. Maybe I do not realise their voices are distorted as well. The chasm grows ever wider.

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How do you heal when the damage feels like home?

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This landscape painting is uniquely special; my very first one created without a reference photo! This far I’ve mainly relied on my personal photos for landscape paintings. I was surprised at how vibrant the colors turned out, leaning heavily on my color cards to keep things balanced and interesting. It ended up being such a fun exercise!

Have I ever mentioned that I honestly have no clue why I started this journey… or why I’m sharing it? But here I am, and somehow it feels right.

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~ Here are previous landscapes from photos I’ve taken while out and about for reference. ~

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If I were rain, I'd patter against your windows. If I were snow, I'd bury you six feet deep.

—J. Hai

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Going Through My Old Journal

Cut getting my med refill a bit too close, so I haven't had them today. Will get a refill tomorrow. It's scary how quickly all the... grossness comes rushing back. Sometimes I go through my old journals to see how far I've come. I was even cheesier back then. But I remember what I was going through when I wrote this VERY clearly.

I used to think I was a moon But then I was a star On the verge of becoming a black hole Now my spark is flickering I don't want to be who they think I am I don't want to be who I really am I just don't want to be Being a black hole might not be that bad Implosion...

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Something I Wrote When I Was Feeling Icky

Giving into your primal urges feels like betraying the self you've so carefully created.

That fragile being shattered from the fall.

You spend an eternity trying to figure out how those pieces fit.

Constantly cutting yourself.

Some of the pieces held together by your congealed blood.

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Random Rant About Men Holding Hands

In the parts of the world where physical affection between men is more normalised, it's not necessarily because they are "more in touch with their emotions" or "don't sexualize everything". It's because the thought of either of the men are queer simply is not considered because queer people either aren't acknowledged, or aren't expected to be open.

Don't get me wrong. Physical affection between men should definitely be encouraged, but it's not a clear indicator of healthy masculinity and or emotional maturity.

Take India for instance. The practice is apparently dying down, but I don't think society was exactly great for women even when it was still popular.

We need to strike this annoying balance of being able to view physical affection as platonic, but also understanding it can be romantic. It's all context.

I was thinking about how nice it would be to hold some of my friends' hands, regardless of gender. But I wouldn't want them to take it the wrong way, or for other people to think we're dating or something.

IDK I'm also craving hugs and cuddles from strangers, so I might just be a pervert. Maybe it is a sexualization of society thing. Whatever.

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Hi 👋🏾🍁🌈

Hey, I'm a very 3rr4tt1c person. Trying to find myself. Doing lot's of falling in the process. Trying to embrace the cringe.

My interests are all over the place. What I'm currently, actively, into? Reading, writing, YouTube reaction videos, anime, Beyblade, Steven Universe, and Environmental Science. I'm a struggling Computer Science undergrad as well, but my interest and passion for that has been if-y lately.

This blog is:

a journal

a sketchbook

random

Was a Tumblr kid back in the day. It's changed a lot... but hopefully it's still as fun as I remember.