5altwaterfall

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how does one live with the fact that they won't amount to anything in life and probably spend the rest of it suffering and not want to end it?

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I hate everything i hate everything i hate everything i hate everything i hate everything i hate everything i hate everything i hate everything i hate everything i hate everything

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on self-sabotage

the bomb, florence + the machine// appointments, julien baker// abject permanence, larissa pham// never wanted to dance, mindless self indulgence// king, florence + the machine// quote: lauren e. bowman// in the woods, tana french// does the universe fight for souls to be together?, jamie varon// olivia laing on loneliness, marrying the poet ian patterson and the challenge of intimacy// left alone, fiona apple// @mjalti //renegade, taylor swift// a burning hill, mitski// ICU, phoebe bridgers// legit tattoo gun, the front bottoms// just, radiohead

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I live my life in a constant state of grief of what I did, what I didn’t do, and what I can never do.

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hurt fp so bad today if this leads to a breakup I'm going to commit

I hate self sabotaging everything good in my life

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"cut people off who are bad for ur mental health-" I'm bad for my mental health. :))

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need to be euthanised

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socks grippy but pussy grippier who want me

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its so hard to believe someone could love me. im always always too much or too little. never enough.

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please don't be mean to me bc i can be meaner and i hate being mean

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my biggest s3xual fantasy is to have someone notice my absence and wonder about me lol

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every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

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and punishments. more punishments. surely that will help

i just need to have more rules for myself. more rules and limits. surely that will help me

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sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

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chuck palahniuk / jonathan safran foer / morrissey / mary oliver / jeff buckley / anne sexton / sylvia plath / lana del rey / freddie mercury / doc luben / claude-michel schönberg

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imagine hurting yourself over some boy couldn't be me hahahahahahaha

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I wanna be taken care of the rest of my life, and by “taken care of” let's just say, shot in the head.