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She’s at the bar and she’s laughing

It’s a golden laugh, everyone

Sees it hang in the air

Like a breath

Like a birdsong

And the air is so thick

You could cut the sound out of it

And frame it

Fog behind glass

The bar windows

Golden too

The whole room is diffused in it

Damp and hazy

Blurred

Glittering, golden

Red walls and Christmas lights

Her dress is tight and her cheeks are flushed

In that intentionally careless college girl way

When she blinks her eyes

Stay closed too long

They notice this, too

She knows they do

And the man who once

Had golden hair too

Buys her another drink and

Tells her about his trips, his money,

His own college days

Her skin glitters and the air

Sticks to it

And drips through her hair

His underarms are darker than the rest

Of his shirt, his neckline too

She notices

The air drops down his face, flushed,

Searching for something

He licks his lips

Ringed in silver stubble

His eyes flash in the light

A coyote from back home

Has the same glowing eyes

She’s so stupid, he thinks

She’s so silly, so young

He’s so stupid, she thinks

The ground of his youth

Has claw marks in it

And he doesn’t know time ripped him away

Long ago

And she laughs again

In a way that makes her friends turn around

And then look at each other

But he’s a boy in a man’s body

So he doesn’t see her eyes

He doesn’t look high enough

To notice their mockery

He told her she was a woman in a girl’s

She doesn’t believe that

he believes his own words

But she smiled anyway

She thinks

This is what girls do anyways

And when she stumbles home with her friends

They’ll laugh at his trips and his money

At his grey hair

And it’ll ring truer than any laugh

He wrung out of her

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A woman paints the moon

She does this every night, as

It hangs

Suspended from silver thread

She tied herself, to the sky

Her paintbrush is old

Worn, well loved

(By the woman,

by the moon)

It’s grey stained now

But it used to be that warm golden brown

Of a new brush

Of a 20-something’s hair

Of a 20-something’s eyes

She licks the paint from the bristles

A sharper point, a painted mouth

On moon and woman both

They smile together

She does this for love, of course

(Why else

Do women give themselves away?)

The man in the moon-

How will he be known? To us, to the

Stars?

Without her

(brush)

the sky is dark

With her paintbrush and her

Greying hair,

greying teeth

She is hidden

He smiles, he glows

She glows too, reflective, basking

He faces the world,

a muse to poets, to prophets

But a muse for the woman

who paints the moon,

First

I love you, a whisper

A moment taken each night

With a paintbrush in hand

I love you, a promise

To return the next

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Imagine if you locked Light and Patrick Bateman in a room together. They would be having the most generic conversation but you wouldn’t be able to hear it over the sound of their overlapping internal monologues. There would be a few seconds where their monologues both play in sync to say something misogynistic.

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All I wish is to feel as though I’m floating in salt water every moment of my life. Lady, let this blur never lift from my eyes. Let my ears ring and cloud with the rush of my own blood and remind me that I am alive, and that I live within myself above all else. I am my scattered thoughts. I am this fog. I am the light refracting through it. That is all.

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i love you consistent meals i love you steady blood sugar i love you little snacks i love you non-diet foods i love you full-fat yogurt i love you sugary drinks i love you intuitive eating i love you full stomach i love you breaking free from diet culture i love you body that just wants to keep me alive

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There is a part of me that will never fully comprehend that I am happier at a heavier weight. I love myself and how I look so much more now!! And somehow that is impossible for me to reconcile with my entire mindset from the past forever !! But it’s true !! I’m so pretty!! And I eat enough everyday !! It turns out the two aren’t mutually exclusive!!!

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before any tone deaf liberals from blue states start with the whole “you get what you voted for” bullshit, maybe take a second to consider that we watched voter suppression happen in real time in harris county.

harris county, the county with the largest population in texas and the 4th largest population in the united states, where they:

- had problems with polling places not opening up as early as they should, some not letting people in until as late as 11 am

- had voting machines just not working at all

- were granted extra time to vote by the texas supreme court to combat these issues mentioned earlier only for the votes cast in that extra time to not be counted

it’s hard to “get what you voted for” when your vote doesn’t even matter because the people in control don’t want you to even vote in the first place

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me: percy jackson has done so much already, literally saved the world TWICE, he deserves rest

rick: new percy book aaay

me:

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How am I just now finding out that people don’t like Annabeth 😭😭?? She’s been one of my favorite characters forever and I’ve shipped percabeth since the third grade ?? I’m literally 19 and just found out people think the ship/her are problematic lmao </33

Still love them tho,, antis’ points are not making sense to me lol

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The thing is. I would eat the grapes. I would eat the pomegranate seeds. I would eat the Turkish delights. It doesn’t matter what the stakes are if you put a little plate of snacks out in front of me I’ll eat them.

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If you like hayloft by mother mother please read Dark Places by Gillian Flynn IMMEDIATELY

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sometimes i come home and wash my hands and see myself in the mirror and go ah, i can really see how i might be loveable. then i wash some dishes or something

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Imho the idea of ‘cruelty free’ products or food shouldn’t mean that nothing died to create it, but rather that anything and anyone involved in the creation process hasn’t been exploited or harmed.

Leather is good actually. Veganism isn’t the end all be all to morality and consumption. The issue isn’t that a chicken died for those nuggets, but that while the chicken was alive, it’s life fucking sucked. Vegan chocolate means little if the cocoa that made it was gathered by child slave labor.

Factory farms, abuses of the people who pick the fruit and vegetables we eat, the focus profit and productivity over all else - that’s the fucking issue here. It’s capitalism folks.

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(suffering the clear and obvious ramifications of my voluntary actions) once again god torments me for no purpose but sick amusement

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god said let's give this bitch so much self awareness it's going to stop her from doing literally anything

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sometimes making tea is less about drinking it and more ab it keeping you company

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Flirting with girls like. I made cookies, do you want me to bring you some ?? That’s such a good color on you omgggg!! I can do your eyeshadow if you want !! :) can I make you a playlist? I know you don’t have Spotify but I’ll type it out!! Omgg do you have a tik tok ?? Can I send you videos that remind me of you ?? 💕 and 🥰 and 💔 and ily but platonically and I’ll never know if you like me like that

Flirting with boys like. I know your favorite band. I know I’m pretty, but tell me again. Your hair is cute today :). You’re pretty. What’s your favorite color? Book? Subject? Tell me about your family. Tell me about you. What’s your favorite food? That’s easy to make, you know! No really, look, here’s a recipe. I’ll make it for you. :) and <3 and tyy and I know you like me but I’ll make you tell me anyway.