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Love?

I love love, but I can't love myself, and apparently I have to love myself, to be able to love sombody else, and damn if that's true I'll never find love, cus when push comes to shove I hate who I am

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Why am I posting my thoughts online?

Dear anxiety, I don't know how you're still finding me, even after hid my face, even after I hid from everyone that called me a disgrace, I was gone without a trace, yet you're here, shouting out eveything I feared, I tried to be nice, I tried to be sincere, but fuck it, I'm tired of being puppet, I'm tired of being told to suck it, I'm tired of this box of evil so ima shut it, and not open you up again until after I die, but I wouldn't be surprised if you opened up again another day, another time, and when you do, it's probably gonna look like a fucking crime, but I ain't gonna whine, I ain't gonna cry no more, cus I fucking ran out all of my remorse. Don't fucking make me prove it, cus I swear I'll do it, I will rip away your life, I'll rip away every thing you use to fight. Oh dear anxiety, I ain't going kinda deep, I'm going all the way to the bottom of my heart, the deepest darkest part I don't let anyone see, the place I know I'm in when I can hardly breathe, and when I speak from this place you know it's the realist real me, a place if you were in you could really feel me, hear my thoughts, feel my emotions, sometimes it's deep as the ocean, sometimes I feel I need a magic potion to feel happiness or joy, I guess I'm tired of being treated like a toy. Dear anxiety I'm in a new fucking dynasty, you no longer have control of me, and my soul is finnaly free. Dear insecurity, I'm done with you hurting me, I'm done with all your shit, I'm done feeling bad, I'm done trying to be a perfect fit, I just want to be me, and as you can see, I'm fine, so you can go fuck off, and take your shit with ya, on your way out, I hope the door hits ya

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This is how feel almost 24/7

I don't think I will ever learn to love myself.

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I never related to a song so much

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Ugh

Crap, so all these girls cosplaying as dudes and dudes cosplaying as girls, have me so confused and second guessing my sexuality. Like I'll think this girl is very pretty and then it's a dude, or there's a girl I can tell is a girl (but is cosplaying as a guy) and I thinks she so pretty, but crap man, what the crap am I supposed to do?!

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I'm an idiot

I was bored so I looked up the hashtag bored and I don't know what I was expecting, but I saw more skin then I was comfortable with seeing.😐😳

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Just watched a 10 hour funny montage of the game grumps

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I got addicted to Tokyo goul

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I had started with the idea of drawing Batman, then this happend

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Being an "Adult"

Am I the only 17 year old worried about the 2020 election, knowing they're gonna have to vote? Growing up is hard😥

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Am I wasting my life?

I literally got Started Valley 3 days ago, and I've played 29 hours already.