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My ocean

If someone asked me how long I had been drowning, I could honestly say “I can’t remember”. I’ve been in this ocean for so long that I honestly can’t remember when or how it all started. Maybe it’s been like this since I was born; maybe I’ve never known life outside of this ocean, life on land. Even if I did once have a peaceful life on land, I still can’t recall a single memory that I wasn’t drowning in; drowning in my thoughts and feelings, drowning in the agonising hell that is my everyday life.

Maybe I’m already dead and I really am in hell, or maybe I’m alive and still have yet to see how truly bad hell is; I can’t imagine it being any worse than this for me. The never ending ocean of lies, deceit and confusion that surrounds my every moment; awake and unconscious. There is no escape from the ocean, no islands to take refuge in sight. So I drown, on occasion I am able to float on the surface, being jostled and carried by small waves; but that small victory is always short lived as soon a monster wave is due to drag me under; and as if in a vicious cycle, I am drowning all over again.

People tell me that it will all be over soon, but I do not see a way out; through my eyes I am trapped here forever. The ocean has me in its clutches and it will never let me go. I can move on and try to forget, but the ocean will always be there swimming in the back of my brain until eventually as the cycle repeats a tsunami will catch up to me and drag me back under; until I am drowning again.

I wonder what it is like to live a life without the ocean, and I envy the people that do; or perhaps I am mistaken and we all have an ocean of our own sinking its claws into our every moment. Perhaps every person that greets me with a smile is silently drowning too, screaming for help but no one seems to notice.

My ocean is sentimental all it wants is me, it enjoys seeing me writhe and scream in pain, wether it’s mentally or physically; it gets satisfaction from my tears as they add to its depth, and feels victory when I cry out and no one responds. My ocean knows all my secrets and fears, choosing to use them against me in its sinister game; it taunts me during the day and takes the cover of darkness as it haunts me whilst I sleep.

Do you have an ocean? X

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Imagine Daddy Crowley Putting His Little To Bed

Crowley takes special care of you every night and always reads you a story before bed. Knowing Crowley, most likely it’s Grimm’s Fairy Tales or Faust. You snuggle into his side and let his gravelly voice put you to sleep.

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(credit to gruppy on youtube)

Red Dead Redemption 2: Friends Theme

This is gold

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SKSKS THIS IS TOO FUNNY

credit to peachadler on twitter!

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:)

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i know joker’s a complete psychopath & a deranged abuser but gah damn he’s so fucking hot & i want him to be my daddy

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I'd very much like to punch a feminist.

I’d never, ever hurt a lady but I’d be happy to punch a feminist. It’d bring me great joy.

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People need to read this

(Read until the end)

We live in a world where our every movement is watched, and if we make one wrong move everything could change, like pawns on a chess board. We are raised to believe that emotions are bad, that showing our true feelings is a felony, so we put a smile on our faces and walk around like perfect robots under the watchful eye of society. But when we are alone, when the doors and windows are locked, and the curtains are closed, we let our true colours show. All the pain that we bottle up inside us, comes crashing down on us, a tsunami wave heading straight for our hearts. When it hits we are surrounded by our worst fears, tortured by modern day stereotypes, we scream for help praying that someone will dive in and save us. But the sound of water crashing against the steal wall built around our hearts, drowns out any noise we make. All we want is an ending to our suffering but when the sun rises the next morning, what do we say?

“I’m fine...”

When the suns eyes bore down on us, we tell ourselves that if we put on the right clothes, the right mask, then everything will be okay. But when we look in the mirror , we loath the person staring back at us, and as we glare at the exhausted reflection in front of us we ask, “who do I have to become to survive?” As these words leave our poisoned mouths, our already broken hearts shatter a little bit more. This is the sad truth because no matter how much we rest we are still exhausted, we feel the need to pursue a new identity just to get through the day. We are so afraid of what people would think of the real us, that we change everything about ourselves just to make other people happy.

We are so ashamed of ourselves that we begin to hate our very existence, we convince ourselves that we are worthless, and that we deserve to be alone. So, we hide away, sheltering ourselves from the outside world, but what we don’t realise is that we are wrong. We are worth every molecule of air we breath, we deserve every beat of the drum our hearts continuously play. When society uses our differences against us to crush our spirits, instead of changing them we should learn that the very thing that makes us different, is what makes us interesting.

Instead of competing in a competition to see who’s the prettiest and beating ourselves up every time we lose, we should learn that there’s always going to be someone prettier, more talented or richer than us, but it shouldn’t affect the way we look at ourselves. We’re all just kids, how can we have so much hatred inside our hearts? How can we act like the things we say don’t matter? We need to realise that the things we say matter and our actions have consequences.

I think it’s time society recovers, we need to accept everyone for who they are, people need to throw their masks into a fire and build new lives based on truth and trust. One day scissors will be for paper again, one day cutting will be for arts and crafts again, and one day sadness will be temporary again, one day life will be fun again, one day we will recover.

~ Abigail C ~

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Parents: they’re not real.

Me:

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Theo Reaken smut

How the hell did i get in this situation? My back was pressed up against the door to Theo’s bedroom, his rough calloused hands gripping my waist. Thats sure to leave bruises by morning, but i don’t care because my pussy is dripping and all i want is Theo to fuck me. Theo smashed his lips onto mine and ground his erect dick into my clothed heat. Theo broke the kiss to rip my shirt over my head, I whined when he didn’t resume the kiss, instead he took my hand and lead me into his room kicking the door shut behind him. I grow impatient and tug and the hem of his shirt, he gets the message and pulls his shirt over his head.

I run my hands over his washboard abs, earning a growl from him, he leans down to capture my lips but i duck out the way and get down on my knees infront of him. Theo doesn’t protest when I start to unbuckle his belt instead he helps me and throws his jeans towards the other side of the room. His dick was straining against the tight fabric of his black boxers, theres a small wet patch made by his pre cum, I kiss the spot and Theo tenses above me. I hook me fingers in the waist band of his boxers and drag them down his legs until he steps out of them, when i look back up his dick is standing tall and proud. For a minute I stare at it wondering if it will fit in me, I must have been taking to long as Theo growls, “babygirl please do something.”

I wrap one hand around his thick shaft and kitten lick his swollen tip, tasting the salty taste of his precum on the tip of my tongue. Theo moans and grabs my head, pushing me down his cock forcing me to take his cock in my mouth, he keeps pushing my head down his shaft until my nose hits the bottom of his stomach. I gag around him but he pays no notice and starts to thrust his hips into my mouth, his tip sliding down my throat. I can feel me spit dribbling down my chin as Theo uses my mouth for his own pleasure, I feel his dick twitch and I prepare myself for his cum but it never comes, instead Theo pulls his dick out my moth and throws me on his bed “I want to cum inside that pretty pussy of yours babygirl.” 

He sits on his knees whilst he yanks my shorts and panties down, Theo growls as he stares at my glistening pussy I whine and buck my hips up begging for him to do something. Theo unhooks my bra as he climbs ontop of me, he grips my boob with one hand as he supports his weight with the other. We both let out a moan as he pushes his long length inside me, inch by inch he slowly pushes in stretching my walls. He starts to thrust in and out and I moan, I buck my hips up to meet his thrusts, “faster Theo!” I moan out, Theo complies and moves his hips at an inhumane speed he buries his head in my neck and moans and growl in my ear, the only sounds in the room are our moans and our skin slapping against each other.

I feel my high approaching and my walls start to clench around Theo, I scream out Theo’s name as i reach my high, my juices coating Theo’s cock and the bedsheets. Theo stills inside me and his hot seed begins to coat my walls in thick ropes as it sprays out of him. Theo growls as he slowly pulls out and I can feel his cum drip out of my pussy and onto the bedsheets. Theo stares down at my worn out face and says, “round two?” I laugh at him, “Theo i’m all dirty.” 

Without replying Theo picks me up and walks toward his on suite bathroom. “I’m not finished with you yet babygirl.”

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a villain is just a victim whose story hasn’t been told

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As a child, I wanted to marry Peter Pan. Not much had changed over the years💕

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sweet pea:savior

summary: sweet pea saves reader from a group of Ghoulies. (fluff)

I was cleaning tables at Pop’s diner, it was empty and I wasn’t expecting anyone to come in since its late. Suddenly the little bell for the door rang, cutting through the silent diner, I looked up to find a tall, mysterious guy. I recognized him, he was in my year at school but I’d never talked to him.His eyes scanned the room till he found me, I was frozen in place until he raised a thick eyebrow, snapping me out of my trance. I quickly got behind the counter and tried to gather my emotions before speaking.

“W-What can i get for you?” I cringed at the sound of my voice, the boy smirked at me before answering in a voice so heavenly my panties were instantly ruined. “I’ll just get some fries to go.” I had to hold back a moan as I nodded and went to prepare some fries,once I was done with his order I could go home. I walked back out front holding the bag of fries out to the boy, he gave me smirk as he took the bag out of my hands, his fingers brushed against mine causing me to suck in a breath. The mysterious boy shot me a wink before leaving the diner, I stood there for a while processing everything before I began to lock up the diner.

I started to walk home, my house was on the Southside it was quite a walk away from the diner, I was used to walking home at nights since my parents barely acknowledged that I existed. I was too lost in thought that I didn’t notice the footsteps approach, before I could comprehend what was happening I was dragged into an alleyway. I was thrown to the back of the alleyway where my body clashed with a wall, I looked up to find 4 guys standing above me, they were Ghoulies I shrunk back into the wall trying to make myself as small as possible.

The gang laughed at my actions and one opened his mouth to say, “look at her, how defenseless we’re gonna have some fun tonight boys.” I felt disgusted and weak. Until a deep voice interrupted their laughing, “no you’re not you sick fucks.” The Ghoulies turned around and I saw who the voice was, it was the mysterious boy at the diner. My heart skipped a beat as his eyes looked over at my small frame huddled at the back of the alley, his eyes softened before he returned his gaze to the four Ghoulies.

One of the guys spoke up, “oh yeah what are you gonna do about it?” before the Ghoulie could speak another word the mysterious boy punched him in the face knocking him out instantly. He looked towards the three remaining guys and said, “I suggest you leave before I knock you out two.” I let out a breath as the guys grabbed their friend and and walked away quickly, the boy walked towards me with his eyebrows drew together as his eyes scanned over my body as if searching for injuries.

He held out his hand to me and I shakily placed my hand in his letting me pull me up, I still had tears streaming down my face and without thinking I dove into the arms of my savior, sobbing into his hard chest. He stiffened at first but soon wrapped his arms around me, pulling me impossibly closer to him.

After I had calmed down he pulled away and put his hands on both of my cheeks, “would you like to spend the night with me Y/N?” I stared at him with wide eyes,”h-how do y-you know my n-name?” he smiled and said “I know more than you think babygirl,” I blushed and looked down but his fingers gently pushed my chin up making me look in his eyes, “my names sweet pea and you haven’t answered my question.”

I smiled and weighed my options before replying, “yeah sure.” He led me to his trailer and when we got inside he brought me into what I assumed was his room, he held out a shirt to me and told me that I could change in the bathroom.

I came out of the bathroom in sweet  peas shirt and my panties, he stared at me whilst licking his lips,he shook his head as if snapping out of a trance. “ I’ll sleep on the couch and you can have my bed.” He started walking towards the door but before he could leave the room I grabbed his arm, “a-a-actually sweets could you s-stay with me?” I looked down afraid of what he might say.

Sweet pea grabbed me hand and made me get under the covers of his bed, then he climbed in after me. I immediately cuddled into him resting my head on his bare chest, he held me in his arms and stroked my Y/H/C hair.

“Hey sweets?” He looked down at me, “yes babygirl?” I blushed at the nickname. “T-Thank you for saving me today.” He smiled at me and kissed my forehead, “I’ll always protect me girl.”

I smiled and finally fell asleep in sweet peas arms, I felt safe and protected from the world.

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Sweet pea imagine: bulldogs vs serpents fight

You were curled up in bed, watching re-runs of friends. Your ringtone suddenly started playing startling you, you paused your TV and picked up your phone.

You answered and Toni’s rushed voice yelled in your ear. “Y/N, the serpents got into a fight with the bulldogs I don’t know what happened, but you might wanna go check on sweet pea.” It took a minute to process the information before you jumped up and scrambled to get your shoes on.

You almost forgot that Toni was still on call before you answered her, “yeah I’ll head to his trailer now, thanks Toni.” You hung up and rushed out the door, it was pouring it down and you didn’t have a jacket but you were too worried about sweet pea, so you started to run towards his trailer.

After ten minutes of running you finally reached sweet peas trailer, you knocked on the door and it opened. Sweet pea opened the door to find his best friend stood on his door step in nothing but a sports bra and shorts, shivering.

He quickly ushered you inside and disappeared into his bedroom, soon returning with one of his t-shirts.

You walked to the bathroom to change, after changing you sat down on the couch next to sweet pea.

“What happened sweets?” You whispered as you scanned the forming bruise by his eye. He turned his head to look at you before replying, “ just a little fight it was nothing.” You went to protest but he cut you off, “please Y/N not tonight, I’ll explain in the morning.”

You nodded and got up to get an ice pack, you placed it gently on sweet peas eye, he winced but didn’t say anything. Its now that you realised the dark bags under his eyes, “c’mon sweets you need to get some sleep, I’ll take the couch.”

He raised an eyebrow and put the ice pack down on the coffee table, “your not sleeping on the couch Y/N I wanna hold you.”

It was normal for you and sweet pea to cuddle you were best friends after all, but you’ve never stayed the night in his bed before. Without another word sweet pea stood up to his full height, took your hand and led you into his bedroom.

He took off his shirt and climbed under the covers, he stared at you with hooded eyes and held his arms out. You chuckled and crawled beside him, he pulled you towards him and spooned you from behind.

He placed gentle kisses on your shoulder, but you didn’t protest instead you let out a small moan, making sweet pea chuckle. Desire pooled in your stomach but you were too tired to act on it, so you fell asleep to his soft plump lips on your neck.

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You were awoken to light snores coming from behind you, and a heavy arm wrapped around your waist. You turned around to face your sleeping best friend, his hair all messy but it still looked cute, his dark brows furrowed and his pink lips settled into an adorable pout.

You couldn’t help it when you reached out and traced the serpent tattoo on his neck, he let out a groan and opened his eyes to greet yours. “Morning baby girl.” You smiled at the nickname and blushed.

“Morning sweets, how’s your eye?”

He chuckled before saying, “a little punch can’t hurt me.” You smiled as you stared into each other’s eyes without warning sweet pea placed his lips on yours. You were shocked at first but soon started to kiss back, his expert lips on yours ignites a fire deep in your stomach.

When you pulled away, you jokingly said, “ewwww morning breath.” You started giggling as sweet pea climbed on top of you tickling your sides.

“Take it back Y/N!” He yelled playfully as he continued to tickle you, after a while you gave in taking your words back.

He put his arms underneath your back, pulling you up as he connected his lips to yours.

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Sweet pea imagine : first day at school

“And the last stop on our tour is the cafeteria” said an excited Toni as she lead you down the halls of your new school.

You just moved to the south side to live with your cousin, after your parents decided to throw you out.

Your blonde hair swished behind you as you followed Toni through the doors of the cafeteria. “Cmon you can sit with us,” Toni said when she realised the look of fear on your face as your wide eyes glanced around the room. People gave you curious glances as you walked side by side with Toni, she lead you to a group of people all clad in leather jackets, a green snake stitched onto the back of each of them.

Toni had explained this to you, a big group called the serpents they practically ran the south side. You couldn’t deny that the group looked scary and intimidating, but it only made you more intrigued especially as your eyes met with deep brown ones belonging to an incredibly good looking guy, they followed your movements as you sat down across from him.

Heat rose to your cheeks as his brown orbs continued to stare into your blue ones, you looked down at your lap as Toni began to speak. “Guys this is Y/N shes my new friend.”

The mysterious guy held his hand out over the table towards you, “I’m sweet pea, what brings an angel like you to our hell hole of a high school?” His voice was deep and husky, making heat pool in your panties.

You were frozen for a few seconds as you stared into his eyes, imagining everything he could do to you, you snapped yourself out of your dirty thoughts. “I just moved here to live with my cousin.” You muttered trying your best to keep your voice strong.

He smirked at you as if he could read your mind. Toni interrupted your thoughts as she started to talk to sweet pea, “Y/N has the same class as you, do you mind walking her.” Sweet pea was about to reply when the bell cut him of. He stood up, you were taken aback he was tall a lot taller than your short frame.

He held out his muscled arm to you, “c’mon angel I’ll walk you to class.”

You took his hand as a blush rose to your cheeks. You followed him out the doors and down an unfamiliar hall, he pulled you into a class room that was already full and lead you to the back.

There was only one desk left, he sat down and patted his lap your body tensed and you didn’t know what to do. “Angel don’t be scared I won’t bite I promise.” You hesitantly sat down on his lap and sweet peas arms automatically went around your waist as he rested his chin on your shoulder.

The position was comfortable so you leant back into him as your muscles relaxed, he tightened his hold on you as the teacher began to talk. But you couldn’t focus, as all your attention was on sweet peas touch as his thumbs drew circles on your waist.

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If you have no tragedy, you have no comedy. Crying and laughing are the same emotion. If you laugh too hard, you cry. And vice Versa.

The joker